When I got out of the car he said, ‘Do you have everything?’ And I just said, ‘Yeah,’ or something equally dull and not really fit for being the last thing you ever say to your father… I stood and waved as he drove away. I watched his car turn right onto Hempshaw Lane. I watched him disappear.
Ever since then I’ve been looking for clues.
1977. Manchester is on the verge of becoming the underground music capital of the world and seven miles away in Stockport, eleven-year-old Ann is on the verge of something equally big: puberty. Then one morning her dad takes her to school, drives away and kills himself.
While her mother tries to makes sense of her grief, Ann seeks out the company of others. From runaway punks to charismatic clairvoyants, the people she meets give her insight into the strange new world around her. Growing up in the long shadow of her father’s suicide, Ann discovers her own way to live.
From acclaimed film-maker Carol Morley, this is a raw, darkly funny and powerful story of how a life can be brought back from the brink.
Ann is 11 when her father commits suicide and the story follows her over the next 7 years of her life.
I think Ann is a fictionalised version of the author so I imagine the story is very similar to her own life.
What happened to Ann’s dad and how it affects his widow and the rest of the family is very sad. Unfortunately, I found it so difficult to get into this book. It was really bleak, dreary and slow.
I wasn’t really interested in Ann’s character and there were so many new friends that came and went with none of the characters being very well developed.
After reading so many dud books lately, it feels good to come across one that I couldn't put down!
When Ann's dad kills himself, he leaves his family behind to pick up the pieces in 1970s England. It sounds like this should be a maudlin book but it's actually not at all; it is a really human story about a young girl coming of age where the tragedy of her father's suicide defines so much about her life. I found Ann's story relatable and as a protagonist she herself is very likeable as well. She's got just the right amount of teenage narcissism to come across as realistic without being annoying.
One thing I loved in this book is that it's also peppered with little entries from her mum's perspective, it really gives you a sense of how hard she's struggling to be there for her family herself.
I’d read Nothing by Paul Morley, which was this story from a different angle. So when I came across this I thought it would be interesting to compare. I related more to the Paul Morley story, probably because I’m a man, but this tale was also fascinating. Uncomfortable reading at times, but that only adds to the vitality of the writing.
I tried to enjoy this bleak tale but found it to be unrelenting and emotionally exhausting. It is told from the point of view of a teenager who is attempting to find what father is like after her own father dies. Her emotionally absent mother can't cope and her experiences are often unpleasant and/or demeaning.