I still feel very conflicted about this book. Originally, I had planned on giving it four stars. But after having thought about it some more, I'll be settling for three instead. (reasons below)
Whilst many mentioned that their biggest gripe was getting into the book, for me that was hardly an issue. I was pretty much full on engrossed from the first page. And with a opening page starting with a woman being stoned to death, how the hell can I not be? Not only did it really make me recoil from shock and disgust, but despite the fact that I was sat among others in the library, my urge was so strong to shout that I had to put the book down for a minute. And there were so many of these moments, because the author does not hold back AT ALL. There is shocking moment after moment and as these strong, unfair rules are imposed of the citizens of Kabul, I felt isolated and suffocated right alongside them.
This, in my opinion, is the strongest point of this book. It sucks in you in from the very first page and completely holds you captive, making you squirm and flinch at the exact intended moments whilst always being very, very aware that - no matter how hopeful things may seem- that everything can go downhill at any given moment. And that is apparent - followed by the fact that I never expected a happy ending, ever. I never witnessed a sweet moment without waiting for something horrifying to follow it.
But this book also unsettled me in another way. I felt manipulated, almost, at times. I got into this book and realised very quickly that the only way to read through it was to accept all that I was being told. And although I was a little on the fence about some things, I pretty much left them behind as I read on, locking them inside until now to really reevaluate my thoughts on this book. What I would have really appreciated before delving into this book is: how does the author know what he does about Kabul and its people there? Has he done some in depth research, interviewed men and women who reside there, visit or live there for a time? Not knowing these things, ultimately, left me a little annoyed when the female characters felt so black and white whilst the men seemed to have somewhat more a layer of complexities to them.
Because either you have the strong minded, educated, independent Zunaira, or the ever obedient, extremely devoted, self sacrificing wife that is Musarrat. Whilst both of their husbands (who also seemed a little off to me, but not to the same extent) seemed to have more depth in contrast. Now I'm not saying that what they face does not happen, because I am aware that times have been extremely tough/horrifying since the Taliban took over, but I feel that it's because of this very reason that knowing the facts and accurate details is so much more important to me. Because as a Muslim, if I am being told that this, this, and this, is happening, then I need more than being expected to go with it, simply because you happen to be telling the story.
In the book, characters dwell of the past - of more happier times, with pure sadness and longing. And it's enough to make me want to see that past for myself, because although things were not perfect even then, they seemed like happy times, times filled with less fear and terror. But it leaves me conflicted because isn't there even a tinge of beauty in the most darkest of times? I have been Pakistan, and I have seen beauty within my home town that I honestly never expected to see. And although that's a unfair comparison to make because things are so, so much worse in Afghanistan right now, I refuse to believe that there is not a hint of hope or happiness in that place, that all is lost, that it is as hopeless as this book tells me it is.
Now do you see how conflicted I am? Funny, since these things tend to niggle at me only after I have finished reading the book. It is a bit tougher for me right now because all the community reviews I have read really don't go into personal thoughts when it comes to this book (no friends have read and reviewed it ) so I feel pretty alone on this one. And I definitely, even now, am trying to figure out where I stand with this book.
But I suppose since it has left me so deep in thought, it must mean something, right?.
Think I'm just gonna sleep on it :)