The first time I read it, it was a bit uncomfortable because the authors were all really pessimistic to the extreme, and the literary authors introduced throughout history have had huge obstacles and tragic experiences in life. I am very grateful that they were able to get through it (most times, probably), and I am also grateful that they share or express the experiences through words to help us understand how to avoid mental instability, or how do we deal with our emotions after experiencing mental instability. Then, also asking questions such as but not limited to: 'how many choices there are in life to let go of the past or make a new choice of?' Most of the stories revolve around 'desire' that human species could easily attach to and the ways that we might or might not be 'losing control' or 'being at the verge of losing control in undesired ways' to tell the story.
Many years later, after revisiting and finishing it, I feel like I can understand the feelings in it. I don't want to be as negative and aimless as the protagonist in 'No Longer Human,' I don't want to be as arrogant and ignorant as Ah Q in 'The True Story of Ah Q' and end up falling into a situation where one's stance is constantly switching (almost in the ways of just to please the others or aimlessly), then turn into a person that most people would most likely not like or invite. And, I definitely don't want to be in a situations like "Rashomon" where everyone hurts each other due to the environment and "unintentional" situations to get what they want (by the way, the way there's also a Rashomon Effect for how we just have different perspectives from how we see different parts of things certainly have to let us just embrace each other as well). I also don't want to become a parasite as seen in 'The Metamorphosis' or the tiger in 'March.' The moment in 'March' where the dreamy poet becomes a high-ranking official and goes mad, then returns to being a poet and hides himself away, is just so heart-wrenching?
Well, well, at first thought, he himself doesn't know why he turned into a tiger, but we do. After getting used to it, he's still into the poems. In that moment when he meets a friend and only talks about taking his poetry out to the world, putting his family as the second or not-so-important priority at the time being, he actually knows why, right? That last poem he wrote also shows us the messages because he wrote in between his line that everything under 'streams and mountains facing the bright moon,' 'not howling but becoming...'— after the becoming part, I actually don't know what that thing is, which makes total sense because that's the something nobody understands anymore, right? Plus, it does reveal a feeling that never lets anyone into the heart, and it reminds me of the obsession in 'Soul.' Also, in mandarin, there's sort of like a proverb or golden phrase that is directly translated as [one thought of 'heaven," one thought of 'hell'] and the feeling matches with it as well.
To be honest, there are also touching stories, like in 'The Tale of the Mountain Country's Enmity,' where they hurt each other because of fear and/or desire, but later, with time and diligent action, they gradually approach love, embrace love, and let go of fear, hatred or grudges. The moment they finally have done repairing, building and paving out a road around the mountain together, they just hug and cry heavily. That's just kind of heart-wrenching, but oh well, just being grateful for love and for what happens just happens.
There are also stories that almost made my mind go slightly nuts like 'Neural Hell,' as it's simply too torturous, using the nervous system, distorted memories, and all illusions to override reality, everything seen, somewhat reminiscent of 'The Brain in the Vat' kind of thing and the feeling of 'The Matrix'. The fact and truth that can never be broken are intricately intertwined with all the real information with made-up information that has always existed somewhere, but one is unaware of it?