What drives a man to dress as a woman? What kind of man is a crossdresser? Is he even a man at all, or is he something else? What exactly is a man, anyway? None of the explanations offered by psychologists, sociologists and others satisfied Devamitra when he tested them against his own experience. And they certainly provided no answers to the questions that troubled him, including, crucially: did transvestism square with his aspirations as a Buddhist? For ten years he cross-dressed habitually, and for a long time secretively - not just out of a drive to do so, but in an attempt to cut beneath the surface of this seeming enigma and understand its deeper significance. His book is not just an examination of those deeper currents in transvestism and manhood, but also an exploration of the mind.