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My Prerogative

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She does what she likes…
…and what she likes is absolutely wicked.

Bartender Kelsey Howard is shameless about living her life her way. She has friends, a job she loves, and the freedom to do what, and who, she wants whenever she wants. On the surface, her life is perfect. Below the surface there’s a hole that needs to be filled, and filling it with food, drinks, and casual sex isn’t working so well anymore.

Until she realizes a stranger is watching her every naughty escapade. When they connect in the flesh, the fun and games really kick into gear and Kelsey has to decide just how far she’s prepared to go for love.

“MY PREROGATIVE is the perfect title to explore this intense tale of a naughty woman seeking love, but refusing to settle for the wrong man in her life… Ms. White grasped the concept of a woman’s needs and weaved a wonderful tale of realization. MY PREROGATIVE is an insightful and thought provoking page turner that I know you’ll enjoy.” —NightOwl Romance

4 STARS! “With her newest erotic romance, White proves again that she’s a force to be reckoned with. It continues White’s tales of love and lust in Vancouver. In Kelsey, the author has created a mature, fully developed character who is unapologetic about her sexuality and desires but is vulnerable in her desire to find a soul mate. While this book is a stand-alone, it is loosely related to White’s previous titles Bound, Trouble and Wicked.” — RT BOOKreviews

“Sasha White keeps her characters real and her storyline true with plenty of hot-n-steamy, I-need-a-fan kind of relationships. Her books are always fun and exciting, and this one is no different. I loved it!!” —Fresh Fiction.com

279 pages, Kindle Edition

First published August 20, 2008

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Sasha White

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Gifted with a salacious imagination, NYT and USA Today Bestselling Author Sasha White’s brand of White Hot romance is all about Alpha men and the strong, sassy women it takes to hold them. With a voice that is called “distinctive and delicious” by The Romance Studio, this Canadian author has become a reader favorite.

Since 2004 Sasha has followed her fancy and built a backlist full of sexy contemporary, and paranormal romances with a few stand alone twists thrown in to keep everyone entertained.

Sasha lives in Northern Alberta with her two cats and believes family, and living life to it's fullest are the most important things, so do what you love, especially if that means reading!

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Profile Image for Heather.
176 reviews20 followers
November 1, 2008
Reviewed for queuemyreview.com

My Prerogative is my second novel by Sasha White, with the first being “Bound”. I enjoy Miss White’s writing style and find her stories to be interesting and different with a slightly twisted view on love and relationships. This book is no exception, and deals with a complicated and mischievous main character that likes to make things entertaining….

Kelsey Howard is a thirty-something bartender that can’t seem to get out of the hard partying lifestyle. She is very open sexually and has no problem staying up late, enjoying a few too many drinks as well as a few too many sexual partners. Kelsey has never been able to settle down and find that one person that will accept her for who she is. She likes sex. A lot. And she uses it to fill emptiness inside her that she doesn’t want to acknowledge. One evening while she is feeling particularly lonely, she indulges in some sexual “alone time” and happens to have her blinds open. When she is finished, she walks out onto the balcony to notice someone watching her. Strangely, this turns Kelsey on, so she flashes her phone number to the man watching her. He calls.

Soon Kelsey and her “watcher” named Harlan are embarking on a sexual journey that starts out as fun and games, but quickly becomes something more intimate and profound. Kelsey is terrified of relationships, however that’s what seems to be happening with Harlan. This burgeoning relationship is happening at the same time Kelsey is trying to help her younger sister plan a wedding, stay connected with her best friend, and continue to be just as flirtatious and sexy as she is always expected to be, at Risqué – where she works as a bartender. Kelsey is not sure she can hold it all together without falling into the downward spiral that usually occurs so soon after meeting someone and beginning a relationship.

This story was interesting. I’m not sure that I really liked it, because it left me feeling a bit unfinished or unresolved at the end. I enjoyed the sassiness and the spunk of Kelsey’s character; however, some of the things she put Harlan through struck me as cruel. Harlan seemed decisive most of the time, and other times he lacked backbone. My Prerogative has plenty of hot, steamy sex, and flirtatious behavior, however after a while I felt like I needed something a little more. Maybe that was how Kelsey felt and that was what Sasha White was trying to convey to me as the reader, but it didn’t quite do it for me. As I said before, I enjoy Sasha White’s writing style, so I will definitely read more of her books, however I don’t think My Prerogative will go on my keeper shelf.

xo
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723 reviews265 followers
April 30, 2009
Not your typical (erotic) romance. And definitely not a story that will appeal to everyone. Even for me there were some things that didn't entirely appeal to me, but I still have to give this book 5-stars (4.5 actually) because regardless of what trips my switches or not, Sasha White tells a very interesting, provocative, well-written tale in My Prerogative.

Kelsey Howard is a woman who lives life by her rules. She tends bar despite her college degree. She drinks. She dresses how she wants. And she loves sex. A lot. Her sexual escapades range from vacation flings, to fuck-buddies, to one-night stands with strangers. The lifestyle suits her, and soothes the darkness that often haunts her. Kelsey doesn't entirely understand the dark moods she gets, and uses sex, alcohol and outrageous behavior to fight them. Deep inside, though, she understands that what she really wants is a man who will love her and accept her as she is. Then she meets Harlan. Or rather, she realizes a neighbor across the street is watching her. Watching her sexual escapades. Instead of creeping her out, it turns her on.

Harlan is enthralled by Kelsey, and sees more of her than she would like. He sees the boundaries she puts up to keep others out, and he sees the loneliness inside her. He works to gain her trust, to show her she can be who she truly is and he doesn't care. The relationship progresses, but Kelsey is afraid of the feelings growing in her. She'll have to do some soul-searching before she can accept that Harlan is the perfect man for her.

Quite an interesting books this is. The title suits it completely. This book ended up being one of those odd ones where even though there were some things that were turn-offs for me, I can appreciate the story the author was telling.

Personally, I'm not a fan of indiscriminate, stranger sex and casual hook-ups aren't a favorite either. So reading about the heroine hooking up first with a stranger on vacation, then a kinky get-together with a fuck-buddy, then a one-nighter with a guy from a bar has a bit of an "ick" factor for me. But I can also separate my personal feelings with the point the author is trying to convey. Which was that Kelsey (safely) embraced the wild girl inside her and lived life as she chose, not how her friends and family thought she should.

Yet at the same time, she was going through a bit of an identity crisis. It gets hidden a little bit behind the prolific sex, but Kelsey is struggling to figure herself out...her lack of real friends, her problems with her family, her growing dissatisfaction with her job, her desire for a relationship, etc. I thought White did a really good job with Kelsey's inner thoughts in this book. They came across very real.

The sex Kelsey had with Harlan...whew! Ice-cold shower worthy. This book is almost all about in-your-face sexuality. There's no roses and perfume, just down & dirty, spank-my-ass, fuck-me-hard sex. So if your looking for something pretty and sweet to read, this really isn't it. This is a book for those with open-minds.

I do wish there had been an epilogue to give the book a more settled ending. When I finished, I felt like there was a good chance for Harlan and Kelsey, but things were also rather tenuous. So an epilogue would have helped cement things.

And I also wish Kelsey's drinking had been dealt with better. The girl was borderline alcoholic and every time she reached for a drink I cringed. It was an unhealthy situation and I just wished it had been handled a little more outright.

I'm glad I read this book, though. It definitely tells a unique, interesting story. I wished I'd read her book Trouble first, though, since the hero of that book has a supporting role in this one. I'll have to keep an eye out for it.

NOTE: there is a bonus short story at the end of the book called Losing It the White wrote years back. The heroine from the short story has a guest role in this book.

WARNING, this book contains: explicit sex, explicit language, m/f sex, stranger sex, casual sex, rough sex, bondage, dominance/submission, spanking, toys, exhibitionism, voyeurism...I think that covers most of it.
Profile Image for Joey Hill.
Author 117 books3,544 followers
August 31, 2016
3.75 Stars

I wouldn’t really classify this book as erotic romance. It’s more women’s fiction, with some very well-done erotic scenes integrated at the proper times with the unforgettable hero, Harlan. Most of it is a first-person exploration of one thirty-something woman’s struggle to decide how to reconcile her uninhibited view of relationships with her desire for a true companion to share her life and trust with her heart.

I say all that upfront, because otherwise, someone may read the first few chapters of this book and find themselves thinking, okay, this is an erotic romance; where’s the hero? He doesn’t make a significant impact on the story until we’re well past the point that usually happens in a romance.

However, if you view this more as women’s fiction, what we get instead is a deep internal reflection of the choices we make versus what we really want in life, and how to figure that out. Women are confusing even to themselves and Kelsey is no exception. She wants to have wild erotic encounters and refuses to entertain any kind of relationship with a man, yet the older she gets, the more often she finds herself morose and drinking alone, with inexplicable feelings of depression, isolation and loneliness. How does she reconcile her vision of herself as an independent wild child with her need for someone meaningful in her life? And how does she let down walls that are freaking thick as those on Fort Knox to ever let that happen?

Harlan sums up what she wants with one brilliant observation that I’m not going to share here, because the impact of it is too good to waste. And he starts to help her answer that question from their first encounter. I found pretty much any scene with him in it riveting. The only critical feedback I have for this book is 1) it needed a little less of the moment-by-moment detail of Kelsey’s daily life, and 2) more scenes between her and Harlan as they grew together as a couple. The scenes where he figured out how to help her lower her shields had a plethora of sexual and emotional tension, and I wanted more. More Harlan, period, please!

Sasha White went a different way with this book, ably demonstrating she can write not just a hot and steamy romance novel, but a sensitive and realistic look at one woman’s struggle to understand the difference between independence/empowerment and self-destructive isolationism. I think a lot of women who have reached the point in their lives that Kelsey has will relate to this story and appreciate Sasha White's beautiful articulation of the issues they face.

A unique and interesting journey into Kelsey’s head, and a nice-happily-ever after with a hero that, if she’d thrown him back, the rest of us would have lined up to have him. A book well worth reading.

December 7, 2010
I think "My Prerogative" is one of the best erotic romance stories I have come across in a long time. The story focuses on Kelsey's journey to self discovery. A journey which unveils the scariest of her inner truths; that she does not embody the qualities of the person she believes herself to be.

Always deemed the outsider, or singled out due to physicality, she projected a self imposed barrier to protect not only her heart, but her mind as well. However, in her efforts to allude others into believing she was the equivalent of a modern day superwoman, she also became alluded by the illusion. It is not merely love that makes Kelsey see the error of her ways. It is acceptance.

I believe every woman can read this story and recognize a piece of Kelsey in herself. It may not be the raunchy sex or clothes, or the over indulgences. Instead, you may recognize the wants and fears. Wanting to be loved, wanting to be accepted-flaws and all, wanting to feel a part of something special.
Profile Image for Laura Lee Nutt.
6 reviews
May 13, 2013
I don’t normally read erotica, but I picked this one up out of curiosity and because the author said it was one of her more character oriented stories. I loved it!

As someone who isn’t fully familiar with erotica as a genre, I’m not going to try and speak about the book in those terms. Rather, I’m going to speak of the book as a great story.

White paints a world and characters that are so believable, I almost feel I could bump into them on the street. Kelsey is drawn exquisitely from her playful attitude to the darkness she hides inside to the desires she isn’t even fully aware she possesses. Harlan, the painter who starts watching Kelsey, fascinated by the real, sensuous woman she conceals from most of the world, is scrumptious. He is perceptive enough to see through Kelsey’s games and good-hearted enough for me to cheer for him all the way, despite his what should be creepy but comes off as endearing tendencies to spies on Kelsey during her sex games and most vulnerable moments.

But beyond the characters, what made My Prerogative such a great read is how well White took Kelsey from lonely bartender with half an addiction to having sex with strangers to a whole woman who finds acceptance and love, her unusual tendencies included. It made me feel for her, sympathize with her, and smile in satisfaction by the end.

I highly recommend this one for erotica fans and for anyone who loves a great story with complex characters and a lot of heart. This one sold me on Sasha White as an author, and I will be reading more of her books.
Profile Image for Aubrey.
113 reviews6 followers
February 1, 2014
Kelsey Howard is in a bartender in her early thirties. She is a strong woman who enjoys the opposite sex and is confident in her sexuality. She does not believe in commitment, she takes what she needs and moves on. That is until Harlan. A dark night and an open window these two find one another. A secret admire in the shadows watching her from across the way brings out something in Kelsey no other man has. He is sexy and demanding and knows exactly what Kelsey needs sexually and emotionally and he is just the man to give it to her. This love story is raw and sexually charged, and Kelsey is frustrating at times, because she is hesitant and fearful of what this relationship with Harlan really means, what it could be. However, she has reasons for the walls she has put up around her heart and Harlan is just patient enough of a man to wear down those walls and for Kelsey to really feel what it is like to be loved unconditionally, to truly be accepted. The characters are written so well I found myself emotionally vested and the ending left me with a serious book hangover. This book is sexually explicit which are not the traditional flare, but those elements truly make the story that much more powerful.
Profile Image for Ali.
23 reviews1 follower
November 13, 2008
Shew. This book is HOT. Sasha White really knows her erotic fiction. Had to read parts out loud to the hubbie . . .he enjoyed it. (LOL!)
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3 reviews
August 29, 2012
This was a great read!!! Sexy, fun and you'll want to be her at some point in the book. I loved it!
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285 reviews
November 13, 2012
still love sasha white books. great quick read
20 reviews1 follower
February 15, 2014
Another great book by Sasha White. I loved this one! It has Sasha's usual hot steamy sex scenes with characters and a plot. Sasha creates people you care about outside the bedroom.
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24 reviews
April 26, 2013
This was an awesome read!!! Sexy and fun. I loved it!
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17 reviews1 follower
November 13, 2015
The character is very relatable to me and I felt like this was a great story. It shows a different dynamic in a relationship. It was a great read.
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821 reviews10 followers
July 10, 2017
This book wasn't exactly my cup of tea. It wasn't bad by any means, though. I appreciated Kelsey's ability to be so free in her sexuality and not ashamed. A woman's sexuality is so often shamed when freely expressed whereas it is completely accepted in men. I enjoyed reading a book that challenged those social norms by presenting a strong, independent woman that does exactly as she pleases without shame.
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679 reviews2 followers
December 30, 2025
Bravo!

It is always a pleasure to read a good book. This one did not disappoint. It was well written with just enough spice to make the ladies blush and crave more.
Profile Image for Emiko Rei.
99 reviews27 followers
June 19, 2012
Kelsey is like the wild girl who have slower psychological pace timing than her age pace time. She's trapped in her wild partying age, where she should learn to accept to be less wild as she grow more older.

The great thing about her is that she knows her sensuality and she play it right. I mean, the solo sex at the balcony then holding her phone number? there's the probability she going to get the calls from the entire flats across hers, but she still do it anyway. That is brave, and sexy!

the Hero is a great balance for her, he is more introvert, a complete contrast to what Kelsey is. But this oh-so-mysterious introvert lay a great passion and understanding for Kelsey to hold on to, when she's in doubt.

Will Kelsey hang on to her Wild Party lifestyle, or will she tone it down?
Will the hero have his Muse by the end of the story?

Only one way to find out...
Profile Image for Kate.
2,334 reviews1 follower
July 2, 2016
"Kelsey Howard is happy with the single life. She has great friends, a fun job tending bar, and a nice apartment. Not to mention the freedom to enjoy a few wild sex games with strangers -- the riskier the better. But what she's really looking for in the darkness is love.

"Then Kelsey realizes she's got a stranger watching her every move -- and every move she makes is arousing them both. In fact, not only is she not scared, she thinks she may have finally found her soul mate -- especially when she meets the mischievous mystery man in the flesh. That's when the fun and games really start, and Kelsey realizes just how far she's prepared to go for love."
~~back cover

Very light chick lit style of erotic romance. Predictable plot, done thousands of times before in various guises and genres. Nice happy ending.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Profile Image for SuperWendy.
1,104 reviews267 followers
April 25, 2016
This was a very blah book for me. I loved that the heroine was unapologetic in regards to her sex life, but on one hand, while I loved that it lacked over-the-top angst, I was disappointed when the author hinted at the heroine's "baggage" and then never delves into it. If you're going to hint at angst, I want you to deliver on it! The heroine is paying lip-service to loving her life as is, but of late she's largely been unsatisfied and unfulfilled. By the end, without exploring any of her mysterious "issues," her happier outlook and satisfaction with life is chalked up to her falling in love with the hero. And that's it. Blah. A very skin deep sort of read that never ignited a fire under me.
Profile Image for Carol Hall.
119 reviews23 followers
February 20, 2017
5* Must Read

This is the first book of Sasha White that I've read and I am a new fan. Even though I'm 3 decades older than the heroine, I related to the issues she faced.

Kelsey is a 35 year old bartender who enjoys trysts with strangers who don't judge her. She works for a great guy who considers her a friend.

Enter Harlan Shaw, a tall dark and handsome guy who lives in the loft across the street from Kelsey. From afar, he watches her. And the fun begins.

Sasha's writing is snappy and smart. I couldn't put it down. But I would suggest that she correct the spelling of the title, My Perogative so that new fans can find it.
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1,637 reviews13 followers
November 3, 2015
I gave this an extra star for all of the sex scenes that were hot, eclectic, and fun. There wasn't a lot of plot here, just one sex scene after another. Kelsey won't be everyone's cup of tea; she's single and happy, exploring her sexuality, and has multiple partners. Even once she meets "the one", she is still having sex with other men usually while he watches. The ending came super quick and out of nowhere. I thought there was time for some conflict, but the book ended and there was a short story at the end.
Profile Image for CraftyBirdies.
936 reviews21 followers
March 16, 2010
I like the writing style and the sex scenes were nice and hot. The reason this didn't get a higher rating for me is I just couldn't like the heroine. She was all over the place emotionally and was so distant without a good reason (to me). Since 98% of the book was from her perspective, it sort of ruined the book for me. I really liked the hero and wished more of the story was from his perspective. But that could be because I liked him better!
Profile Image for Jessica Alcazar.
4,416 reviews627 followers
August 18, 2016
Another great story BUT again, the ending was just too quick! Reading these books is like running really fast through the jungle and having to stop suddenly at the edge of a cliff so you dont go over and die. The ending of her books is like the edge of that cliff...WHAM, it's over...i dunno what it is, but I think too abrupt is a good word.
However, it does not take away from how FUN her stories are. I've loved them all so far!
Profile Image for kates.
272 reviews4 followers
February 21, 2010
This levity of this read is mangled by the defensive tone. I felt like there were too many explanations of plot lines or character details and not enough faith placed in the reader. A fast read, not terrible, but nothing mind-blowing, either. Also: there's a short-story included at the end of the book (in my edition, at least), that I thought was better than the novel as whole.
Profile Image for Lena Tumasyan.
148 reviews9 followers
August 7, 2011
I read Sasha White's other 3 books so I had some idea what to expect. I know it would be naughty, i knew there would be some plot, and I excepted juiciness! Well, I got all that, but it felt a little bit short. The idea of the book is great! It's so wild! But i would have loved to see the characters go through a little more after the end. Still a great read!
Profile Image for Brooke.
17 reviews1 follower
August 22, 2010
It was alright; I guess it just wasn't really my cup of tea.
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August 3, 2017
Had the pleasure of meeting & hanging out all weekend with Sasha White at KallypsoCon 2017. (She is soooo much more in person. A+)

Loved this story line.

If you're expecting a weak female character in this book.........think again. Kelsey is a strong-willed female in her prime, and men bow to her and her whims/desires. ;)

Recommend this one to ALL strong-willed, feisty woman.

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531 reviews18 followers
February 8, 2018
Definitely not your typical love story.
Kelsey is a bit of an exhibitionist. Harlan is a bit of a voyeur. Kelsey has some things to work through bit in the end, everything works out as it should.
This story was well told. I enjoyed it.
There were a few grammatical errors throughout the book but they are easily overlooked.
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