A deeply moving, rawly honest, and true account of one girl's internal battle to overcome her eating disorders. Darah Echevarria was a mere child of nine when her whole life became a blinkered obsession about one food - eating too much, not eating at all. Do you have any idea what it is like to live with just one thought dominating over everything you do? When food becomes your entire life? A life of figures. Calories, kilograms, hours, minutes. Counting, always counting. And the lies, the endless promises, the deadlines, the disappointment, the self-deprecation. 'So Now You Know' is a necessary breath of fresh air among a host of scientific, academic explanations, excuses, justifications, legitimisations - it is emotional, sincere, demystifying. A confession.
This was published through a vanity press, as far as I can tell, which for me is an indication that one's expectations should be lowered. Mercifully, it was a short book (which possibly should have been my first warning), but it's basically -- well, forty pages of rambling about bulimia (no cohesion or direction), then an abrupt shift to talking about her fiancé and how they met and so on (fifteen pages), and then a two-page conclusion (which basically sums up to 'I'm better now!') and some old diary entries.
I assume the author is reasonably intelligent; at the time of writing she was pursuing a BA with an eye on a master's, and she speaks, at a guess, at least three languages (Dutch, Spanish, English). This reads, though, like the really long blog post of somebody who's been in recovery for two weeks (note: not actually sure how long it had been at the time of writing) and has met someone and omg he's the love of my life! And I'm never going to struggle again! And it's just so important to get my story out so that it can help other people!
This book started off really good, but half-way though it, the author started getting too vague in regards to the disease, & jumped right to the present about her relationship to her boyfriend, her engagement to him, & her pregnacy. She never went into how she explained her situation to him, or how it affected him, or anything. She simply stated that he helped her to overcome it. One has to assume that she only did so, because she met someone whom she found worth living for. I don't know. It did not really explain how someone else could overcome it on their own.