I had so much that I wanted to achieve, but it would mean nothing if I couldn't show her that I had done it. Then, I got to know Stewart. In ways that I never imagined possible. No longer did I feel ashamed of who and what I was. He brought me out from behind the wall of shame that I had surrounded myself with. I finally made it to the one place that I thought I couldn’t go to for so long. College. We said our goodbyes, but there was a part of me that didn’t want to. I thought it was grief that made our bodies entwine together as if they were one. It was only as time went by that I realized that the bound we shared was stronger. I just needed to let go of my pride and admit it. But it was hard. So damn hard.