Ok, where to start with this book.
Obviously, I'm beyond thrilled that we get to see more of the aftermath of Meg's kidnapping. I will never not love her character, especially how she is created through the perception of EEW. I love the Powers family, I love Beth, and I loved Susan. I loved that she was so clearly struggling throughout the entire book, because the emotions were so realistic. This book was difficult to read at certain times, because it was just so gritty and true to life. Yeah, Meg is suffering from PTSD, having all sorts of normal, albeit terrifying, reactions, and she's still just an 18-year-old girl, going through things that 18-year-old girls struggle with even without the added baggage.
Unfortunately...there were also a lot of parts that were hard to get through just because they were so boring and disappointing. Let's start with Jack, who I can't for the life of me understand why he is her male counterpart. Listen, Meg is away from home for the first time, learning how to be an adult, and also reeling from her experience. I don't begrudge her the experience of falling for the Bad Boy, just because it feels so good to not think and give in to her desires. What I mind, is Jack being painted as this blossoming white knight who will Understand Her while also sparring with her. Meg needs to be with someone who is intelligent and driven and witty and sarcastic and not afraid to show some backbone. That, however, is not Jack. Jack is an immature asshole driven mostly by his sexual urges and remarkably immature and not good enough for Meg. Beth, BETH, was happy they got back together? That is NOT the Beth I know. The Beth I know would take his rape comment, take the fact that he jetted out of the room with nary a follow up call when everything went down with the Secret Service, and basically pressured her into having sex, tell Meg to wake up and walk away. Jack is The Mistake You Make. He's the one you want SO BADLY to be with because he is so handsome and enticing, but is actually a total jackass. He's not deep. He's not complicated. There is no way that he was able to do such a 180 from his man-whoring days to falling in love with Meg in a couple of months. Sorry, ain't gonna happen. Quite frankly, I found Jack creepy, disgusting, and vaguely menacing. She cowed before him several times, and clearly that's something people sometimes do when they're in the wrong relationship, but smart people, i.e. Meg, eventually realize this guy's agenda. Seriously, Meg ultimately has too much self-respect to stay with a guy like that. Also? The "banged/nailed/sex/whatever jokes weren't funny.
Second of all, enough with the Meg in danger. Ok? Enough. I am willing to suspend disbelief that in the same presidential term, the president was nearly assassinated and her daughter was kidnapped by terrorists. I am not willing to believe that a grandmother was almost able to decapitate the First Daughter in front of all her security agents in a hospital. I have such deep respect for the Secret Service, that it's insulting to think that they would be fooled by this broad. I was ready for it to be a false alarm, a paintball game gone awry, something ANYTHING that would not be Meg being attacked with a hunting knife. By Estelle Getty. A raincoat on a beautiful spring day? That would set off any agent's alarm before she even got within 50 feet of the building. These agents are literally some of the best-trained detectives and guards in the WORLD, and they forgot to be suspicious about a clearly out of place raincoat. Ok.
Finally, and I'm no doctor, so I'd be happy if someone who knows would correct me, but would Meg really be allowed to walk around as much as she was? I mean, I know she wanted to be independent and not feel so crippled, but she just seemed to be in a disgusting amount of pain all the time to be hobbling around campus everyday. I would think she'd still utilize a wheelchair somewhat of the time, whether she wanted to or not. Speaking of doctors, where were they when she was wasting away? I was amazingly frustrated that greater interventions were not put in place for her. This book could have been about her dealing with the aftermath and struggling to come to terms with it and working with a psychiatrist. Not have the climax be getting attacked by Raggedy Ann. Her mother is the President of the United States. Is she not aware that there are experts who spend their lives devoted to helping victims of terrorist attacks and are subsequently suffering from PTSD? Would Meg not have been put, nay, forced on antidepressants, anti-anxieties, or at the VERY LEAST something to stimulate her appetite? Ok, yes, there were fleeting references to army psychologist who tried to speak with her, and Meg clearly was not having any of it, but to not focus on it more just
seemed odd. How on earth was Meg supposed to recover from this without true professional help?
This rant makes it seem like I hate the book, when the opposite is true. I wanted to LOVE this book, and I didn't. I wanted them to catch the guy, I wanted Meg to face him, I wanted him brought to trial. Maybe in a 5th book. Maybe it's still a little too soon for that; she's still working on becoming a person again, instead of a victim. EEW's writing is great, and her comments genuinely make me laugh because they're so sarcastic and insightful. I'm just a little upset because I had such high expectations, and they weren't met.