5 stars
Review by Jen Skewes
I had the honor of beta reading this book and I loved it. But because I had read it in pieces I needed and wanted to read it again. I wanted to sit by myself, ignore everything around me and just submerge myself into Gabby and Declan’s world. And I did just that. And let me tell you that it was even better the second time around. I knew what happened, I knew the twists and turns in this book but that didn’t matter because when those moments came I was still an emotional wreck with knots in my stomach. Almost Innocent is a beautiful and yet very painful story that will touch you in so many ways. It will pull out every emotion, it will make you cry and give you those not so nice feelings inside of you. But between all of that it is also a second chance story of two people who have loved each other since they first met, but were never given the chance that they deserved. This is Gabby and Declan’s story and while it is a very tough road, filled with so much pain, it is a road that ends in a very happy place. It just took a lot to finally get there.
I do not want to go into too much detail because what is written in the blurb is really all you need to know. Gabby and Declan met as teenagers. They quickly became best friends. But when Gabby started dating Declan’s brother Dusty, that meant she was completely off limits to him. Even though they were best friends, their love for each other was so much deeper than that, but neither one of them knew it at the time. Gabby’s relationship with Dusty was complete hell. He was an abusive asshole who brought so much pain, hurt and fear into Gabby’s life. But when things go really bad Gabby finds herself losing the one person who truly meant anything to her.
It is 12 years since Gabby has seen Declan. After serving his time in prison he is now out. When they finally run into each other Gabby doesn’t understand what happened over the past 12 years that caused him to ignore her. Did he hate her that much that he never wanted to see her again? Honestly when I first met Declan I thought he was a bit of a prick. And maybe that is because of the way he tried to push Gabby away. But when you see the reasons for his actions you understand. There are so many unspoken words between these two that you are not even sure they have a chance of ever being together. But regardless you cannot help root for them.
Declan is the man that no matter how bad he is you cannot help but fall in love with him. He is the guy that you never want to cross for fear of what will happen to you if you do. But beneath the hard exterior shell is a man who does have a heart, who will do anything to protect those he loves. And if you are Gabby Forte he is the man that has loved you since he first met you, he is your best friend who will always be there to protect you.
When Declan loves he loves with passion and intensity. Gabby is the only girl to ever have his heart. He will do anything to protect her and no matter how long it’s been since they have seen each other the feelings that he had for her 12 years ago are still there. It doesn’t matter how he hurt people who crossed him or what his family did for a living. What mattered to me was how much he loved Gabby and how much he wanted to protect her. I don’t think he was always the man that he is today and I think very tragic and unfortunate circumstances made him into that man. But the one thing that never changed was his love for Gabby and you could see that throughout this book. That man has loved her since he was a young boy. Gabby unknowingly had a hold on his heart and never let go. I loved how much he loved her and wanted to protect her and keep her safe, no matter what. He was a loving and loyal man when it came to her, and he protected what was his.
Gabby is one of my favorite heroines. My God what this girl went through, the pain and the abuse that she endured at the hands of a sick bastard. But to see the woman that she has become today and seeing how strong she is, just made me love her and admire her. And I think in many ways she was a very sefless person.
I loved them as two individuals but together, Gabby and Declan were just so beautiful. It has been 12 years since they have seen each other and yes a lot has changed. But they still loved each other like they did all those years ago. They would do anything for each other. I’m not going to lie and tell you that this story is all hearts and rainbows, because believe me it is so far from it. You know and can feel how much they love each other but their road to getting the happily ever after that they deserved and should have had years ago, is a really bumpy road filled with many twists and turns along the way. There were secrets and truths between them that needed to come out. And when they did, Oh My God hold onto your seat. There were twists I didn’t expect, twists that completely broke me and made me furious and sick all at the same time. Twists that leave you with your mouth hanging open going "holy Sh#@!!! Trust me it will completely shock you.
This book is unlike anything that Carina Adams has written. It is dark and deals with a very heavy topic that is also very, very real. It deals with domestic abuse, a topic that I think unfortunately people out there can relate to but at the same time a topic that many try to understand. There’s always those questions of why did she stay, why didn’t she fight back? And unless you are that person I don’t think you truly have an understanding of what they are going through. In Almost Innocent, yes those questions ran through my mind but Ms. Adams also answered those questions for me. She made me fully understand what Gabby was going through. She made me see and feel the pain and the hurt. I saw how much she feared losing the two people who meant the most to her. She makes you see it all, helps you to understand it all.
There are parts of this story that may not be for everyone. Dealing with a topic of abuse there are some dark moments. But with that being said Ms. Adams told this story in a way where it was not too graphic or in a way where I couldn’t handle it. Were there moments where I felt sick to my stomach and were very painful to read? Absolutely!! But I never felt the need to walk away. And those moments weren’t just about the graphic telling of the abouse that got me, it were other moments that completely broke me. It was the words that people spoke, the lies that they told as well as the truths that just honestly broke me to hear them. I felt like I was one with these characters because of that. I felt what they were going through. The emotions that they felt throughout this book I felt with them. Their hurt and pain felt like mine. I think Carina told this story in the perfect way. Enough to make you fully see and feel every ounce of pain that they went through, but not too much where you cannot handle it. Absolutely amazing job!! A must read.
Oh I cannot write this review without mentioning one character who I think deserves her own happily ever after and that is Fiona, Declan’s sister. That woman went through so much. My God I don’t know how she even survived. But she was just as strong as Gabby and what I loved was the relationship that these two had. She was there for Gabby when she needed someone the most. I want to see her get her own book and see her happy. I also think that there is so much more to her character than what we saw. The other person who I wish I got to see a little more was Colin, Declan’s dad. I honestly did love him and the way he cared for Gabby. He was like a second father to her and despite what people may have thought he watched out for her and Declan. I truly believe that and I know that he loved them. I may be the only one who felt this way about him, I am not sure…lol But for some reason I liked the guy!!!