Sometimes I wonder if certain books flop for me because I read it at a bad time. Sometimes I wonder if certain books shine for me because I read it at a perfect time.
Regardless, I read this at a perfect time. Because let me tell you, being the leader of a 24/7 hospital unit during COVID has made me feel utterly and, at times, despondently inadequate.
I. Am. Inadequate. And you know what, ya'll? Duh. Why would I think one mortal, imperfect person could possibly be the answer to every need, whim, and frustration of dozens of people?
I am inadequate. And that's okay, because HE isn't. But I am working out of a funk where I was beat down, thinking I needed to be enough for everything and everyone.
If you're there- or that's a place you have repeatedly fought to stay out of- this is a great book. I know it's lengthy, but I want to be able to come back to this quote when I need the reminder, so I included it after my rating. Hang tight, friends. Things ARE getting better.
I'd rate this book a G.
"When we are settled and secure in that truth, the light that is in us cannot help but shine forth. When we aren't secure in our identity, our actions towards others become more like pride and performance than service and ministry. Part of what has felt angsty to me about being in leadership was that if I was going to do it, I was going to knock it out of the park. Simple obedience to God wasn't enough.
"I wanted to be admired and incredible in the process. 1 Thess. 5:5 says, 'You are the children of the light, children of the day. We are not of the night or of the darkness.' I feel like God is saying, 'Okay, [insert name here], you can keep living like this- working so hard, striving to make your own light in the dark, or you can walk into who you already are. My child. A child of the day. A child made to enjoy the sun. You can keep trying to be enough all the days of your life, or you could quit. I promise you all those things you are craving: peace, joy, fun- I'm going to show you how to receive all that. I'm even going to show you how to give it away.'
"Cease striving. Abide in me. I produce the fruit. You don't have to work so hard at this; you can feel urgently for My people and yet keep still in your soul. You can abide. You don't have to run so hard."