“Don’t be afraid of your fears. They’re not there to scare you. They’re there to let you know that something is worth it. “
~C. Joybell C.
These few simple words by C. Joybell C define “If I Told You” simply. I could stop right here and this quote would be simply enough. Flynn and Brooklynn are two very empowered people who go after what they want with no questions in everything but their feelings. Their fears regarding their feelings is what has scared them for so long until the fears become so strong they have no choice but to face them head on and deal with them……….what they soon discover is extremely emotional and the FEELS….. “SIGH”…… WOWZA
Both Flynn and Brooklynn “Brooks” grew up in households where they were shown that relationships won’t work no matter what you do. That love is simply not for them and that they are bad people; that they don’t know how to love back.
“So what do we do? People like us?
How do we stop hurting people?”
“If I knew I’d do it. If I knew….”
His voice trails off.
“What, Flynn?”
“I’d teach you.”
“Flynn…”
“Then we’ll go back to our rooms and lie in bed thinking about how we ruined another chance. We’ll wonder if we should even both trying to date knowing we’re only capable of giving our bodies, but nothing else. Then the next pretty face will appear, and we’ll go all in again…..cuz that’s what we do.”
His words stun me into silence. Not because they’re so harsh, but because they’re so true. This is what we do.
Flynn and Brooks are both very guarded people when it comes to opening up. They are so scarred by what they have been through in their pasts with their parents that they don’t see relationships any other way than what they are doing. The camaraderie between these two is strong and like nothing else I have read. I loved their connection in how they shared EVERYTHING with each other no matter what it was… from their day at work to their sex lives and in detail… these two where quiet comical …very blunt no filter.
Flynn has always felt something for Brooks since they met in the beginning but because she didn’t show her feelings in the beginning, he guarded his and did what he could to not lose her completely… he befriended her and they became the best friends they are now ….that is until Rhys Camden comes into the picture.
Rhys is a professional food critic. Flynn has worked so hard in building his restaurant up from the ground up but he desires more and what he needs is a great review to put “Flynn’s” in the eye that will bring him business like nothing before. Rhys and Brooklynn start talking and it’s the desire in Rhys’ eyes that wakes Flynn up to own up to what he is feeling before it’s too late. These two have battled their feelings for so long because they are so afraid they will lose what they have and that’s their friendship. They, each, have been all the other has had through every trial that they have faced over the years. They have seen each other at their worse and they have seen each other at their best. Brooklynn tries to show Flynn what he has been missing even though she can’t understand why she is having these feelings now.
“Do you think about me? Do you think about what making love to me?”
“Yes, Brooklynn I’ve thought about making love to you. More than once. I’ve thought about kissing you many, many times. I’m thinking about it right now.”
I can’t describe the emotions that I had while reading this story. There are so many more powerful moments these two share with each that will have you crying, laughing, and ready to reach through the book and grab them and give them a good shake and say… “OMG WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU TWO!!” I love a good heart grabbing friends to lovers story and “If I Told You” is the best friends to lovers book I have read in awhile. It was like watching it right before my very own eyes. Like witnessing my two best friends. These two are shown that their fears have kept them from living a happy life and kept them in the “living in the moment.” It truly shows you that no matter how hard you may fight it true love wins everytime. Jennifer, the depth and quality of writing you have given in this book is exquisite. You bring so much to light with this book: passion, camaraderie, love, sexiness, empowerment, devotion, trust, fears .. the list could go on. This was a powerful story that had me starting and finishing in one day…as a matter of fact within just a couple hours . This was my first novel by Jennifer Domenico and I have now listed her as one of my most favorite Authors.
A 5 star read
I received this as an ARC in exchange for a personal review.