Highlights:
Those achievements, no matter how real, serve as a symbolic quest for parental love.
The hope of the neurotic must, however, be unreal because it forces him to try to get via the neurotic struggle something from the world that simply does not exist: feeling parents
Being meek was Anne’s away of avoiding total rejection
The stronger a person’s defence, the sicker he is – that is, the more unreal.
In the neurotic, then, the real feeling self is locked away with the original pain; that is why he must feel that Pain in order to liberate himself; feeling that pain shatters the unreal self in the same way that denying the pain created it.
A person can be held by dozens of lovers and never resolve the need for warmth from a parent. A person can lecture to thousands of students and still have a desperate need to be listened to and understood by his parents – an unfelt need which will drive him on to more and more lecture. The struggle is unfulfilling precisely because it is symbolic and not real.
The hope of the neurotic must, however, be unreal because it forces him to try to get via the neurotic struggle something from the world that simply does not exist: feeling parents.
No matter what position a man has attained in life, no matter how sober or ‘mature’, his defence, when one scratches a bit, I have a hurt child beneath the veneer.
Why do people symbolically ‘marry’ their ‘mommies and daddies’? In order to turn them into real, loving people.
Memory is intimately associated with Pain. What will tend to be forgotten are those memories too painful to be integrated and accepted concsciously. So the neurotic incomplete memories in some critical areas.
The patient who was raped by her father at an early could come to that memory only after some thirty primal sessions – and then only in stages.
Since a neurotic can use all sorts of defences in his everyday life, there can be no pure type. Usually, he will settle on a style (being over-intellectual, for example) which for convenience we may label a certain kind of neurosis.
Clenching the muscles of the stomach (and the entire abdominal area) seems to be the neurotic’s internal painkiller. Wilhelm Reich made this discovery decades ago. Reich developed much of his early therapeutic methods around easing the patients abdominal tensions
When the abdomen automatically tightens, when an individual swallows a feeling, when the face tics under pressure, the body is clamping down against feeling.
Defenses operate continuously, night and day.
Defences are, by and large, what the parents demand from the child. One child may talk continuously and use big words while another plays it ‘dumb’. Both are responding to a sensed demand by their parents, both are closing off part of themselves.
The need for love is nor just something cerebral which can be changed by changing ideas. The need pervades the entire system.
A child who is not held sufficiently in his first months does not consciously know what he is missing, but he hurts, nevertheless. The need, then, is not just something mental stored away in the brain. It is coded into the tissue of the body.
There is no way to permanently massage away memories from a tense shoulder when those memories innervate that should below the level of consciousness.
The greatest contribution of Primal therapy is to allow people to experience their own feelings.
The person does not talk out of a feeling like talking; he talks out of tension. You can sense the difference because it is easy to lose interest in someone who is yakking to fulfill an old inner need and hard to lose interest in someone who truly feels what he is saying.
Until he connects that tight sensation in his neck (which becomes pain soon enough( with the more profound feeling, he must spend his life in the sensation exchange.
“For it has become clear that the inhibition of respiration was the psychological mechanism of the suppression and repression of emotion, and consequently, the basic mechanism of “neurosis”.
The nervous guest on a television show interview show seems unable to catch his breath. This may be ascribed to trying to present an image which isn’t in accord with his real self.
Most prone to cancer are those who deny their emotions
It is the neurotic who is trying to be superman; eating twice as much, working twice as hard, using twice the energy to accomplish twice the misery
One cannot wash away their memories; one can only defuse them so that these memories no longer exert the force which made the neurotic act out symbolically
To the neurotic, the struggle, not the result, is important. Thus he often cannot complete what he starts. He justifies inadequate jobs on the basis of having so much to do. But he has so much to do because he does not finish. To finish and feel unfulfilled is to hurt. This is why so many individuals have a hard time in the last months of working for an advanced degree. It is also why some people cannot rest content with money in the bank. Just after getting out of debt, they must borrow again so as to maintain the struggle. To feel ‘I have arrived; I have money I the bank, and I still feel unhappy’ is intolerable. The struggle takes care of that. Some neurotic housewives rarely get up eearly and finish theirhousework completely. Then they would have to face the emptiness of their lives. Instead, they have one or two rooms in constant disarray, in this way they maintain their struggles. They can look forward to having the house furnished or cleaned and that keeps them from along ‘And now what?’ once the chores are done.
Because he is constantly on the move away from his real self, he tends to be flightly – if not physically, then mentally. His mind is filled with what he plans to do; he cannot sit still.
The neurotic is too often a whirlpool of distractions; his eyes, like his mind, seem to dart from one subject to another, unable to focus for any length of time.
Part of the neurotic need is to surround oneself with people, not to feel alone, or to join clubs, to cover the feeling one ever belonged to a real family. All this incessant struggle is over for the normal.
Nothing is ever exactly right for the neurotic, because he was never right for his parents.
For the nerutoic, disappointment is the handmaiden of hope. Hope which obscures reality often ensures that the person will be hurt by his unrealistic expectations
The normal is not only more health but much more nergetic. His energy is used for accomplishment of real tasks, not for struggling to achieve the impossible.
The conditioning process of having to perform for approval begins almost at birth, where the child is ‘koot-chykooed’ to try to get him to smile (look happy). Later he is asked to wave ‘bye-bye’ or to dance for the grandparents or to say this word or that, irrespective of how the child may feel at the moment.
If there some key principle concerning real behavior, it might be as follows: Reality surrounds itself with other reality in the same way that unreality seeks out reality. Real or normal people will not have continuing relationships with unreal people, and the converse would also be true.
He will not be late, for example, to try to feel important or to try not to feel rejected as in the case with the neurotic. For example, being late can mean keeping unreal hope alive. It’s one more way the neurotic is not straight with life. Or he will contrive a busy that never leaves him time to feel. He keeps on the go, feeling a pressure from outside really lives inside.
Many neurotics manage their lives so that there is never time to live leisurely. They plan so many projects (time fillers) for the prupose of never having a free moment to feel or reflect.
Death is evidently not a real trajedy for those who do not feel life. It is in this sense that being ‘dead’ internally makes the actual death of others less real and, there, less horrifying.
Being totally insensitive to the fact that he is dominating the conversation. He is too busy acting out his need for attention and importance.
The normal no longer suffers from ‘looking forward to’ in order to escape the emptiness of the present.
If you can enjoy everything at each moment, you don’t need anything to look forward to.
He may plan for a future situation, but he doesn’t keep himself so full of plans that he has no present. It would seem that some nerutoics keep things in the future so that they can never quite take pleasure now.
That simple question – ‘what should I order?’ – is often a sign of the neurotic’s deadness. It is saying ‘I have no wants, no feelings, no life. Live my life for me.’ How deeply one feels his life (the life inside him) is how meaningful it is.
Other neurotics sense that something is missing and set out on the quest for meaning. They may travel to gurus, study philosophy, steep themselves in religion or cults – all to find a meaning that lies but a deep breath away. Because the nerutoic cannot fully feel his own life, he must find his meaning through others or things outside him.
The neurotic, unable to feel the full meaning of his life, must often invent a superlife or an afterlife – places where real living will go on.
“I kept myself and everything around me well organized so as not to feel my real disorganization.
As one patient put it, ‘Now that I know that I am all I’ve got in the world, there is no reason to try for “them” any more. I plan to be nice to myself and realx.’
Post-primal patients do less, but what they do is something real so that the quality of their contribution to society is beneficial.
Much of the world runs on neurotic motivation. Too many neurotics produce in order to feel important, rather than do what is really important to them.
Post-primal patients often report complete changes in their co-oridnation – how they run, catch and throw a ball. A tournament tennis player found that he was beating opponents who could ordinarily trounce him with ease. Part of this can be xplained by the absence of tension – the removal of the spltit which kepts parts of his body and respiratory system from functioning in co-ordination.
Excitement in the neurotic means excitement by tensuion. This means that the neurotic is constantly n a state of inner excitement, and he often manioulates his life to match that internal state. He cannot sit still, so he plans many things which look as if they would be exciting but which are often nothing more than outlets for his tension. Indeed, the neurotic often manoevres himself into more and more actions o that he can finally feel. He may fly, scuba drive, travel, go to parties and feel ‘up’ only for the moment. When the activities cease, he begins to be filled with tension again.
In a way the post primal person is a new kind of human being. For example, he is never moody. Moods are gradations of tensions, of oldunlabelled, unconcemptualised feelings. The gradient patient is neither elated nor in the dumps. He just feels and knows what that feeling is. These people give off a definite aurea: ‘I am what I am, and you can be what you are.’ It is very hard to look at an unreal person in the eye because there is the feeling one is communicating with someone who isn’t there.
‘I used live for my job; now I live for me.’
Overwork, unrealistic intellectual ambitions are not part of the post primal patient. Perhaps this is a reaction to a society where self-cardifice is apotheosized.
When the son or daughter, irrespective of age, stops struggling for the parent’s love,, the parents begin their struggle the child’s love.
If the parent was made to feel worthless and wrong about almost anything he did as a child, then each day of his life as a prent he may try to feel right (by making his children ‘wrong’) and worthwhile (by making his children feel unimportant).
That’s the thing about this therapy – you are constantly being amazed at how much poison you’ve stored up in your body.
Whenever you feel shitty, think how lucky you are that you’re not in a worse predicament.
Aesthetise himself against feeling pain by thinking up something to think about
Intellectualism is human-kind’s curse. I felt that my own crazy pursuit of ‘knowledge’ for soo many years, brought me, paradoxically, further from it. For now I know there is only one kind of knowledge: self-knowledge.
When I felt myself for those brief seconds, I felt my beautifulness, my majesty-almost, my being, my grander. That, I feel sure, is loving my me. That feeling is one of being full, very full, and then and only then can I love somebody else. Then I will have some love to give. At that point once I have me, once I can love me full time, I can then love a wife and children. Love to means giving and the graciousness of receiving , not wanting/taking.
Being cut up by parents’ tongues.
Primals dislodge chunks of cemented sickness.
The tears that want to flow are the tears of years, the tears that have been stored up.
Whole life could have been so vastly different had my needs been fulfilled as an infant.
My own family living so close to another, yet miles away from one another in our emotions, closed off from each other with our non feelings.
They were just as much victimized by their own early life’s events as they victimized me.
I am extremely proficient (in contrast to efficient, which is what machines are)
I am only sometimes moody when I deny deelings. (I would stay generally morose)
I don’t need to stuff my head with information about a particular topic unless iam interested in knowing about it – which usually I am not.
Life is not struggling. I was never able to feel the knowledge of this before. For me, life or living isn’t winning a struggle or battle; it’s giving up the struggle, the battle.
The notion of self destructive meotions is foud in many theories. I do not think that there are emotions which destroy the self. Rather, it is denying those feelings of the self which destroy.
A person who is straight with himself will tend to have straight ideas and attitudes and philosophies. The more pain I feel, the less pain I have.
We must remember that one can meditate daily and still not reduce the need to meditate. Somehow the demon tension arises anew each day to be meditated away.
Real happiness, then, means that old unhappiness is resolved and out of the way,
We do not get a feel of someone else. We learn to feel ourselves, and then feel ourselves feeling others.
For people to be brought closer together, they must be first brought closer to themselves, to their feeling selves.
Infants brought up in institutions where there is little affection or personal attention develop flattened or dulled personalities. There is an apathy or deadness about them which continues into adulthood.
A frigid woman cannot be loving because she cannot give of herself totally. Only a fully sexual person can
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The major reason I have that children become neurotic is that their parents are to busy struggling with umet infantile needs of their own.
Those achievements, no matter how real, serve as a symbolic quest for parental love.
The hope of the neurotic must, however, be unreal because it forces him to try to get via the neurotic struggle something from the world that simply does not exist: feeling parents
Being meek was Anne’s away of avoiding total rejection
We were born real. Being real isn’t anything we t ry to be.
The stronger a person’s defence, the sicker he is – that is, the more unreal.
In the neurotic, then, the real feeling self is locked away with the original pain; that is why he must feel that Pain in order to liberate himself; feeling that pain shatters the unreal self in the same way that denying the pain created it.
Pain is both the way in and the way out.
A person can be held by dozens of lovers and never resolve the need for warmth from a parent. A person can lecture to thousands of students and still have a desperate need to be listened to and understood by his parents – an unfelt need which will drive him on to more and more lecture. The struggle is unfulfilling precisely because it is symbolic and not real.
The hope of the neurotic must, however, be unreal because it forces him to try to get via the neurotic struggle something from the world that simply does not exist: feeling parents.
No matter what position a man has attained in life, no matter how sober or ‘mature’, his defence, when one scratches a bit, I have a hurt child beneath the veneer.
One can receive dozens of compliments in an evening, but one small criticism makes all the compliments unimportant because set off lifelong feelings of being worthless, inadequate, un wanted, etc.
Why do people symbolically ‘marry’ their ‘mommies and daddies’? In order to them into real, loving people.
Memory is intimately associated with Pain. What will tend to be forgotten are those memories too painful to be integrated and accepted concsciously. So the neurotic incomplete memories in some critical areas.
The patient who was raped by her father at an early could come to that memory only after some thirty primal sessions – and then only in stages.
Since a neurotic can use all sorts of defences in his everyday life, there can be no pure type. Usually, he will settle on a style (being over-intellectual, for example) which for convenience we may label a certain kind of neurosis.
Clenching the muscles of the stomach (and the entire abdominal area) seems to be the neurotic’s internal painkiller. Wilhelm Reich made this discovery decades ago. Reich developed much of his early therapeutic methods around easing the patients abdominal tensions
When the abdomen automatically tightens, when an individual swallows a feeling, when the face tics under pressure, the body is clamping down against feeling.
Defenses operate continuously, night and day.
Defences are, by and large, what the parents demand from the child. One child may talk continuously and use big words while another plays it ‘dumb’. Both are responding to a sensed demand by their parents, both are closing off part of themselves.
The need for love is nor just something cerebral which can be changed by changing ideas. The need pervades the entire system.
The drug addict is an example of someone who has run out of inner defences.
Insight therapy has been the central treatment of the intellectual class.
A child who is not held sufficiently in his first months does not consciously know what he is missing, but he hurts, nevertheless. The need, then, is not just something mental stored away in the brain. It is coded into the tissue of the body.