"My family's secrets had been plucked, pressed, preserved, and put on display.
It wasn't fair that everyone knew my secrets but I didn't know theirs. The scales were tipped in their favor, and since I couldn't erase the secrets on my side, it was time to start weighing down theirs."
It's been about a week since I read Chasing Spring and I'm still thinking of it. To be honest, I'm not sure why I was so taken aback by this book. I mean, the author implored her readers that this was DIFFERENT from anything else she had put out before.
And that was correct.
This is a complete departure from normal RomCom R.S. Grey and
I freaking LOVED it.
I'm still processing this angst-filled novel. It was intense, full of raw, rough, and tumultuous feels. It had a darker edge to it, with the subject matter being heart breaking in every sense. The characters felt layered and heavy, their pain transparent in each word I read. And the writing felt fierce and alive, beautiful and poignant.
Lilah—our main character—is having to return home after being away for two years. You can literally feel her misery as she returns to town, this place that holds so much pain for her. I really connected to her character. I wish I could give you a detailed report of every way we're alike (hahahaha), but that would spoil the book. Just know that this girl... she's carrying around some heavy feelings of worthlessness. She's lost, searching for her identity. She feels abandoned, unloved by the one person who should have loved her unconditionally. She's broken. She doesn't know how to process her emotions. But behind that sense of not knowing who she is, or what she's worth, is this fighting spirit that I loved so much.
"I thought about the possibility of becoming her every single day. It was easy to see the similarities, but every time I indulged myself, my logic would eventually kick in. I wasn't her. I knew that. Still, people viewed me as her spawn. I've been branded as trouble from the start."
Lilah shows up in town and she's no longer the blonde, lighthearted girl who left. She's done a 360. Chase see's her, and he see's behind the pixie cut and black hair dye, he see's the girl he once knew, hiding behind a hardened facade, and he's ready to find his Lilah again.
You see, Chase and Lilah are childhood best friends. Linked together from the time they were little. But they haven't talked since Lilah left home.
There's so much history between these two.
So many things that have not been spoken about.
God, you guys, it's INTENSE. I can't give many details, but the HISTORY is heart pounding. These characters have gone through more than anyone should. And despite the anguish they are still trudging through, their soul-deep connection remains.
"I loved the golden boy. I woke up loving him and I drifted to sleep loving him, but having that love returned, letting that love blossom wasn't a possibility. Even if we could work our way through our past, no one thought I was good enough for him--and honestly, I wasn't."
Again, this story is gripping. We get to see what has lead to Chase and Lilah's current day situation, through a series of flashbacks that are captivating and terribly sad.
The writing in Chasing Spring is intricate and beautiful. RS Grey stunned me stupid with the level of angst that had me crying. I could tell the author's heart was in this book. I could tell she had worked and worked on this story. It was intoxicating, and it pulled on my heart so so so much.
I highly recommend that you give this a go. If you like angst, if you like books that are just more, then this is for you. I was so captivated by these characters. Totally invested in every page. And I was wholly impressed by the way my fav Romantic Comedy author literally transformed into an angst queen!
#4.5 Perfect Stars.