✰ 3.75 stars ✰
“..Love has a way of giving people the ability to find the way to where they should be, no matter what the obstacle.
But that is the marvel of the Lord’s gift of love. It can make the strong weak, the blind see, and it can make the lost found again.”
'So, yes, I did skip Matt and Tyler's story, because honestly, they are my least favorite pairing of this series, but given the fact the Lost Tales From Foster High did not focus on them much, it's safe to say I did not miss out on anything substantial.'
Never was there a fool bigger than I when I spoke such foolishness, because the way these words came back to hit me where it hurts has me still shaking myself for speaking them! 😅😅
So much that I did not know about myself I learned while reading Matt and Tyler's story. I did not know that I would grow fond of their relationship the way it did here. I did not know that John Goode still was capable of writing romantic words about love that wooed my heart, but still captured the bitterness of being in love. I did not know how badly I wanted to - nay, need to go on a Disney cruise of my own, because the way it was described in such fascinating and attractive detail in What About Everything? is a magical dream that must be taken in one's life. I did not know that there was so much love not lost between the two of them and how hard it is to finally earn the right even to ask a loved one their hand in marriage. 💌💌
“I love you,” he interrupted breathlessly. “That’s what I was saying out there, that I love you.”
“And I love you too, Tyler, but those three words don’t change things. They don’t solve problems. They’re just words without actions, without changes, and we have been doing the same thing for too long now.”
Because Tyler did screw up - big time at Matt's parents' anniversary party. Anyone there would have assumed he was about to pop the big question - and when he didn't, I cringed for him so hard and felt Matt's humiliation tenfold. 😣🫢 It’s not the question. It’s what it means.' And maybe Robbie's intentions were noble when he invited the two of them along his and Sebastian's Disney vacay - a sort of reprieve for them to navigate their rocky waters back to a spark that lands them both on solid ground. Okay - that was a bad metaphor, but it was with a good heart and a good place that the two of them went on this trip, because hey, Matt's a Disney lover and being pampered by all their delights on a cruise catered specifically for the gay couples who live off the magic of Disney as much as him? What could be better? 🥰🥰
Well, they're about to find out.
The way John G. addressed the troubles of their relationship - the challenges that they met that had them take a hard look at the place they were in their lives - I thought it was handled really well. I've never been quiet about how I have mixed feelings on the two of them, how I know they're here to be that opposing voice - a counterbalance to Kyle and Brad's relationship - a more mature one, but still burdened by so much of their own palpable insecurities and troubled pasts that makes it hard to really - not empathize with them, but sympathize because so much of how they behaved before makes me slightly less eager to be receptive to their own personal issues. 🙁
“I know I’m not always Prince Charming, but I do love you, Matt. And I will spend the rest of my life convincing you of that if I have to.”
“You don’t have to,” I said breathlessly.
“I know.” He smiled. “I just want to.”
But, something about them here really hit well with me. Something about the way the author wrote about their sex lives in such a positive and healthy light - one which he rarely does, but I felt really glad to see it - not described in detail - he loves breaking the fourth wall here whenever it comes up - but how he showed that physical intimacy is a natural thing in a healthy relationship. 😳 That Matt and Tyler are very much in love and entwined with each other - wanting and yearning for the other's touch. 😏 It was in the way he also captured that even the magic of Disney is not enough to wipe away the matters of the heart - what led them here in the first place. That being together as long as they have - are they ready to take that next step from boyfriends, to living together, to spending the rest of their lives together - in a union of holy matrimony. Is marriage just in name only or does it have to mean something more - to make it count? 'Marriage should be a choice, a glorious choice, not an ultimatum.' 😢 It's hard when one is ready and one is not so ready. It's hard when one wants more in their relationship and the other is fine the way they are. It brings about a whole other set of issues and doubts and challenges that frankly, Robbie did NOT sign up for and Sebastian is too kind-hearted to deny either of them his helping concerned hand. 😩
For sometimes even a friend's less than friendly advice isn't enough to assuage the mind - especially when the interference of a Disney villain-esque presents ample reason to prove how Tyler is NOT so ready to be married - let alone feeling deserving or worthy enough to be Matt's lifelong partner. But, with the ease and tolerance - haha, okay, that's being too generous, but with that same way in which unfortunate stupid mistakes are made, so too can the voice of reason and understanding make its way forward. But Tyler, we’re both just waiting for the other shoe to drop. We always have been... We have to get past our fears or just forget it, because I can’t keep going on like this.' 😟 Something about the author's writing is always laced with some kind of intense need to be as vocally against true happiness - almost so determined to prove it's not true - a bitterness that resonates with his characters. But, even so, it makes me want to root for his characters even more - to have them disprove his anger towards it - his disbelief that nothing in life is as perfect as it is for a prince to find his prince - and then, well, maybe, that is what he's trying to do. To give readers that honest look at how happiness can be attained at any point in one's life - to shine through, despite the hurdles it took to get to that final stop. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“Soulmates are mirrors that reflect who we really are and show us who we can strive to be... They should startle us by their ability to make us want to change.”
Maybe it was the setting; how all the Disney characters lightened the mood and brought a certain levity to it that allowed me to feel that even if Tyler and Matt's moods denied that believable fairy tale of an ending - it did not mean that they wouldn't get to have it. They proved to be soulmates of their own kind - a moment of trust and affection that had me tearing up at how beautifully it was described that they were meant to be together - always. 🥹🥹 Tyler didn't have to be Prince Charming to prove to Matt that he loved him - even when he needed to grow up the most and face his own fears, which, honestly, did irk me, but he handled it in the best possible way he could. Robbie was a sport as he always is - 'Tyler, you can love something with all your heart, but if you let fear stop you from expressing that love, you’re going to lose it' - and I don't think they could have made it through if not for him and Sebastian being the steady anchors they both needed to guide themselves back to each other's arms. 🫂🫶🏻😌
I'm as surprised as you are that it ended up being everything I wanted. Yes, there was A LOT of drama - a lot that would have had most toss the towel in much earlier - yes, I could have done without certain characters making their presences known and definitely did NOT deserve to be redeemed - but if you've reached as far as you have in this series, then you should know by now how it feels like you're watching a tv show unfold - watching as the characters talk through their heartbreak, voice their thoughts directly to us, making us feel as close to them as possible. 😢 Through the fights, through the ultimatums, through the awkward tension that radiated between them, preventing them from having the good time that was promised, there was such a gentle and placating lightness to it that didn't make me feel as tightly wounded as they were. Shocking, I know. 😄
“Soul mates aren’t pieces of a puzzle or two sides of the same coin. They are two people who are so different, who come, mentally, from such different places, that it will take a lifetime for one to truly understand the other.
You know someone is your soulmate when you want to take that lifetime to try.”
Despite the constant back-and-forth of self-doubt and not knowing whether or not marriage is their actual endgame, by the time the cruise ended, I really liked where they both were in their relationship. How they felt, what they knew their future was, the honesty and still utter devotion and love they felt, everything about it just felt right. 'Nothing worth anything is easy. All the best things in the world are worth fighting for.' 🥺 The ending was really sweet and truly deserving. There were some heartbreaking tough times before - moments where I wondered if Tyler was going to be a bonehead forever, or Matt's Disney dreams would be crushed too painfully, but the story guided me to safe shores and gave me the happy ending that they both deserved at their own terms at the right moment in their lives. 🩵🔔👰🏻♂️🩵 It feels surreal to think that there's only one book left in this series - I feel like I've lived a lifetime with them. 😅 It's been one hell of a ride; and knowing that I'm nearing the finish line is a bittersweet feeling, but it's definitely a contemporary romance very much unlike anything I've read. And one, I'm glad I was given a chance to experience. 💞💞