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Hawthorn wasn't trying to insert herself into a missing person's investigation. Or maybe she was. But that's only because Lizzie Lovett's disappearance is the one fascinating mystery their sleepy town has ever had. Bad things don't happen to popular girls like Lizzie Lovett, and Hawthorn is convinced she'll turn up at any moment-which means the time for speculation is now.
So Hawthorn comes up with her own theory for Lizzie's disappearance. A theory way too absurd to take seriously...at first. The more Hawthorn talks, the more she believes. And what better way to collect evidence than to immerse herself in Lizzie's life? Like getting a job at the diner where Lizzie worked and hanging out with Lizzie's boyfriend. After all, it's not as if he killed her-or did he?
Told with a unique voice that is both hilarious and heart-wrenching, Hawthorn's quest for proof may uncover the greatest truth is within herself.
418 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 3, 2017
Hawthorne is the "weird kid" in high school. She's constantly saying or doing the wrong thing - often with hilarious results.
“Lizzie and her boyfriend were camping, and this morning, he woke up, and she was gone.”
Silence descended on the kitchen. I decided to say what all of us were certainly thinking. “Probably the most incredible part of the story is that Lizzie Lovett went camping.”
She's hated and admired Lizzie from afar ever since freshman year. Now that Hawthorne's a senior (and Lizzie long since graduated), Hawthorne thought she was free. That is, until the girl went missing.
...Lizzie Lovett disappeared, and everyone was all, “How can someone like Lizzie be missing?” and I was like, “Who cares?”
The prevailing theory is that Lizzie died (somehow) in the woods, but without a body or even a trace, no one can know for sure what happened.
"The woods had swallowed Lizzie's secrets. She had lived, and she had died, and now, there was no trace of her."
Soon, Hawthorne finds herself neck-deep in the mystery with little hope of breaking free.
"Don't confuse being popular with being interesting."
This one was a pendulum swing for me. I loved it, I hated it, I loved it again.... back and forth constantly.
"But I always wondered, if she could turn her feelings off like a switch, how much was she hiding from us?"
As an errant thought - this is hilarious. As the focus for the latter half of the book - not so much.
"I hoped we’d find something telling. Maybe an essay titled “Where I’d Go if I Ever Turned into a Werewolf.”
I think if Hawthorne was younger (i.e. freshman or eighth grade) then some of her more off-the-wall behavior wouldn't have seemed so out of place.
"I lived in a world with practical people...Where were the other people like me? Locked up probably. Getting called crazy..."
Audiobook Comments
"Maybe that's where I went wrong before. Some riddles weren't meant to be solved."



“The voice belonged to Mychelle Adler, who I hated not just because of her nails-on-a-chalkboard voice, but also because she spelled her name with a y, though I guess that wasn’t really her fault.”
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“Mychelle leaned forward as soon as I sat down. I could smell her strawberry lip gloss and expensive coconut shampoo she always bragged about. Though I had to admit, she did have absurdly glossy hair, so maybe the stupid shampoo worked.”
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“That’s when I started to think bad thoughts. Like how I wished someone would replace Mychelle’s fancy shampoo with a drugstore brand. I wished she would suddenly forget the name of her five favorite songs. I wished every time she microwaved a frozen burrito, the center would stay cold.”
“Yeah, you’re such an outcast. No one understands you. All anyone does is sit around and think about what a loser you are. Grow up, Hawthorn. No one cares.”