This book was sent to me by my mother, who is Irish, and it was sent to her by a childhood friend, also Irish, Joan's name on the front page; so, I felt obliged to read it, knowing full well it was not a book I would choose for myself.
I read the first 80? - 90 pages to be precise and realized as I was going along, that I have in fact read it before. And then more or less exactly from page 90 to about 199 I had no recollection of it at all - Blank. I must have put it down, and not returned - disinterested, bored perhaps.
And then on page 199 when Roseanne meets John Lavelle up Knocknarea, I realized - oh Wow I remember this - it is the most beautiful declaration of love - ever. I most definitely remembered all of that - and pretty much all the rest of the book.
Except I was ASTONISHED to find that I had not remembered the ending - and the Ending I think is quite possibly the whole purpose of the book. I had no recall, and so I was genuinely surprised and most sincerely moved by Dr Grene's discovery about himself.
I can only conclude that I did in fact read the whole book the first time around, but that there must be some reason or reasons why I could remember only specific parts.
The first 90 pages - easy to explain - they are quite sensationalist - and I use this word in it's derogatory connotation - there is too much in this opening third - too much Drama! The book runs to 312 pages.
I shuddered for the second time, when I read how Roseanne's mother stabbed the little metal hands, from her clock into the eyes of her husband, Roseanne's beloved father Joe Clear lying in his coffin. 10 pages letter I put the book down - with genuine disgust and loathing when I read how Father Gaunt wanted to convert Roseanne to his Catholic faith by marrying her off to the 50 plus, fat, Joe Brady - who had taken her father's job as the town's gravedigger.
Yeuch - Father Gaunt is the slime to beat all slimy Catholic priests - and Roseanne shows incredible strength in resisting him. Her mother - has clearly withdrawn in mental derangement and Roseanne, 16, needs to find work to support herself and her mother. She tells the priest where to go.
And then - the next 100 pages - forgotten. I can conclude quite reasonably - out of sheer boredom. On the second run through I made myself continue. This is where the author fills us in on Roseanne's middle years - the job in the cafe, her marriage to Tom McNulty and at the same time we hear about the current story which I found really hard to date - I did eventually pin it down to 2007 or thereabouts, through our main narrator Dr Grene, who is responsible for the Roscommon Mental Institute where Roseanne McNulty has been a patient for most of her life.
I think there is something of a structural problem here, the two stories are told via written documentation from our two main characters. Roseanne, writes her life story on loose pages which she hides under the floorboards in her room. Her great age of 100 compels her to make some account of her life, and she feels some compulsion to help Dr Grene with his enquiries. The second document is - 'Dr Grene's Commonplace Notebook', a diary of sorts about the hospital, the patients under his care, and his personal life, notably his relationship with his estranged wife, Bet: the problem being that both narrators, wander, halt, backtrack, segue off into different stories. Roseanne I could easily forgive, - she 's almost 100, and her voice is so humble and sad; and she is taking great care to try and remember her life as accurately as possible.
Dr Grene, on the other hand - my God - exasperation - of the highest order - quite possibly - the reason for my 100 page memory lapse.
And then we have the stunning chapter 16 - 'Roseanne's Testimony of Herself' which culminates with the despicable Father Gaunt once more, who has contrived over a number of years to annul her marriage to Tom NcNulty and demands Roseanne stay - a sort of house prisoner, in her hut by the sea near to Strandhill.
Here is Roseanne commenting on the nature of memory:
I must admit there are 'memories' in my head that are curious even to me. I would not like to have to say this to Dr Grene. Memory, I must suppose, if it is neglected becomes like a box room, or a lumber room in an old house, the contents jumbled about, maybe not only from neglect but also from too much haphazard searching in them, and things to boot that don't belong there. I certainly suspect - well, I don't know what I certainly suspect. It makes me a little dizzy to contemplate the possibility that everything I remember may not be - may not be real, I suppose. There was so much turmoil at that time that - that what? I took refuge in other impossible histories, in dreams, in fantasies. I don't know.
I don't actually agree with everything above - for example I don't think memory "is neglected", but yes trauma, it is now well understood that people deliberately blank awful memories as a way to protect themselves. But you can also see the hesitant style - Two narrators with this kind of hesitancy can get - tedious.
Secondly and this becomes clear as I write this - I don't like that it's the man with the status of doctor and psychiatrist, who 'absolves' Roseanne's faulty memory; who finally decides that Roseanne's "Testimony" is also valid although she refuses to remember certain facts concerning her father. The psychiatrist decides eventually, at long last that perhaps there are omissions of a sort in Father Gaunt's testimony - the reasons for Roseanne's sectioning in a psychiatric hospital.
I have to say I dislike Dr Grene - he's supposed to be a good guy - but he always looks at the formal, the status, the material aspects of the world. Father Gaunt is a priest therefore his testimony is 'sacrosanct'. I suppose that is the point of Dr Grene's character to show how men of the world behave, and after all Dr Grene is suitably softened, and humiliated slightly with the death of his wife, his own advancing years and yes his backstory about his adoption and the death of his sibling - killed in a road accident because of him. He learns via life experiences to be a little bit more like Roseanne - to hesitate, to offer silence, to not pass judgement, to forgive.
Still didn't like him.
Does it not strike anyone - that there is just too much in this story, stories?
I loved John Lavelle's avowal of love for Roseanne - but Roseanne herself silent, dismisses it, preferring the gay, satisfying life with her husband Tom, the musician, the politician, and not with the outcast Lavelle - but Lavelle is in fact her true reflection. She doesn't want to recognize this.
What about Lavelle's backstory - his wife shot through the head, whilst holding her infant sons, one is killed instantly with her, the other is dropped and damaged in the head by his fall. The shots are fired, randomly by soldiers in a boat, looking for a desserter, or rival faction in the Civil War: I forget.
It is a strange book - with decided highs and lows of narrative skill and incident. Too much incident in some places, not enough in others.
I still can't get past completely forgetting the Big Reveal at the end - I clearly didn't think too much of Dr Grene first time round; I think I have softened somewhat on the second reading.