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First published January 1, 2002
The next day, God gave Jordan he courage to humble himself before the staff and leadership of Campus Crusade, as he read that entire letter [his confession to God] publicly and asked for their forgiveness. Jordan's letter was no superficial confession. He made no attempt to whitewash his sins but brought them out into the light. With his wife standing at his side, he confessed a whole list of specific sins which God had convicted him: impure motives, a desire for recognition, comparison, caring more abut projects and tasks than people, a critical, judgmental spirit, keeping people at arm's length, and a spirit of jealousy and envy....
"Although I received Christ as a high school student, these addictions followed me into my adult life... I battle each of these still. I desire victory. I confess each area as sin. Whatever things happened to put these addictions in place don't matter - I'm an adult now and assume full responsibility for their ongoing pull and presence in my life. I also confess to you and the Lord that I have been loving the world and the things of the world more than Him. I have not been experienceing the joy of a close, intimate relatioship with God. As a result, my heart has had an emptimness that bass fishing, jazz, chess, and computers simply cannot fill. I want these things to change. I want repentance. I want brokenness."
Years ago, when I was a college student, I heard Pastor Ray Ortlund say, "most churches are like a bag of marbles - all hard and clanging up agianst one another. Instead, we ought to be like a bag of grapes - squished together so that juice of His Spirit may flow out through us." True Christian community is somethng few believers ever experience, because it requires that each individual let go of "self" and our out his life on behalf of others.
A small band of church believers prayed earnestly for revival in thier community. They were gathered in a small town on the isle of Lewis, the larges isle of the Outer Hebrides, just off the coast of Scotland. These believers were particiularly burdned for the young people of the island who had no interest in spritual matters and scorned the things of God. For 18 months these men met, three nights a week, praying through the night, right on through the early hours of the morning, beseeeching God to come and visit in revival. For 18 months there was no evidence of any change. Then one night, a young deacon rose to his feet, opened his Bible, and read from Psalm 24: "Who may ascend into His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart... He shall receive blessing from the Lord." Facing the men around him, this young man said, "Brethren, it seems to me to be just so much humbug to be waiting and praying as we are, if we ourselves are not rightly related to God." There in the straw, the men knelt and humbly confessed their own sins to the Lord. Within a short peridod of time, God had begun to pour out his Spirit in an extraordinary awakening that shook the entire island.
Job was a righteous man, he feared God and lived a blameless life. For reasons known only to God, Job became a bit player in a cosmic drama, acted out beween heaven and hell. When he could not fathom God's purposes for the excruciating pain he was foreced to endure, and when his so-called friends wrongly assumed that he was being punished for some failture on his part, Job began to reveal a self-righteous heart. In extended dialogue and debate, Job protested his innocence and begged for the opportunity to defend himself in the courtroom of heaven. Finally God stepped in - as if he had been waiting for someone to give Him a chance to speak. Through a series of questions that neither Job nor his friends could possibly answer, God revealed Himself in a way that Job had never experienced. God unveiled His greatness, His infinite power, His superior wisdom, His mightly acts and His unfathomable ways.
When God finished, Job could hardly breathe. He had been stopped dead in his tracks: "Behold, I am vile; what shall I answer You? I lay my hand over my mouth... I have heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eyes see You. Therefore I abhor myself, and repend in dust and ashes."
Job had been a good man - his lifestyle was above reproach and his suffering was not directly cuased by his sin. Suffering did, however, serve to lift the lid off his heart and expose a deeper level of depravity than he might have otherwise seen. As a result of his encounter with God, Job was not only a good man and a religious man; now he was a broken man.
The prophet Isaiah had a similar experience. In the early chapters of Isaiah, we saw this great servant of God pronouncing woes on the apostate nation of Israel - woe to those who are materialistic; woe to those who relativistic; woe to those who are hedonistic; woe to those who are sensual and immoral. And he was right. These were terrible blots on the nation, even as they are in our world today. Then we come to chapter 6, where Isaiah encounters God in a way he has never seen Him before. The prophet is struck with a vision of the holiness of God - holiness so intense that even the pillars in the temple had the good sense to tremble. Isaiah no longer sees himself in contrast to all the depraved people around him. Now he sees himself in the light of the holy, high, supreme God of the universe. And what are the first words out of his mouth? No longer is it "Woe to them." Now it is "Woe is me!"
....Isaiah had been a good man; he was gifted and committed to God. But in chapter 6, Isaiah came to true brokenness. From then on, he operated not out of natural strength or superiority but out of an intense sense of his own neediness.
The fact is, we will all be broken - sooner or later. We can choose to be broken or we can wait for God to crush our pride (Luke 20:18 Who ever falls on that stone will be broken; but on whomeever it falls, it will grind him to powder.)