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303 pages, Kindle Edition
Published December 29, 2016
We hadn’t had much time together, but it had been enough for me to know that I’d wanted to claim her as my woman. But then she’d gotten pregnant, a little too soon, a little too easy, and I hadn’t dealt with the news very well. I’d said some shitty, hurtful things to her, and then let her walk away.
I’d turned to booze and women to assuage the anger of betrayal and the need to prove to myself that it didn’t matter, that she hadn’t mattered. There was always pussy to satisfy my dick. I was the VP of Phantom Riders and had my pick of the best. But none of them had completely satisfied the monster raging inside me who could only be tamed by one, sweet, annoying-as-hell little woman.
My one and only priority now was to get my son. She’d already had him to herself for six years, had been with him when he got his first tooth, took his first step, said his first word.
“What about Allie?” he asked. He reached forward for his beer. “You gonna bring her back, too?”
I took a deep breath, wondering about that myself. Thinking about her fired me up. I wasn’t even sure if I could be around her without hurting her. “Haven’t thought that far,” I told him.
Fuck. His life wasn’t for me. I’d never had any illusions about what I deserved. I’d made my bed years ago, and I would die in it, alone. Maybe I didn’t deserve to have my son, but I was a mean bastard, and Allie was going to find out just how mean the next time I laid eyes on her.
Unless you were twenty-five, like me, and you had no one. I hadn’t slept with a man since Rock. I’d like to say it was because there hadn’t been time to think about men and relationships, but that would have been a lie. I just hadn’t found a man who interested me enough into going further with him. I’d dated a few times, but that was the extent of my love-life.
Getting pregnant had been a big surprise to both of us, because Rock had always insisted on using a condom. I guess that was why it had been so hard for him to accept that the baby I was carrying was even his. And for him to accuse me of being unfaithful…that had crushed me.
After months had gone by and he hadn’t shown up I’d made the decision to leave, leaving a note for him with the landlord just in case. I’ll probably never know if he received it.
“Finding you was easy,” Rock said in response to my question. “Once I decided that I wanted to find you, and my son. So if moving a couple of times was your way of running away it wasn’t very effective.”
“Best virgin pussy I ever had,” he smirked crudely. “Only virgin pussy.”
His gaze fell to my mouth before returning to my eyes. “Don’t push me, baby. I’ve never hurt a woman, but you might become the first. Now, where is my son?”
“Why? After all these years, why do you care now?” Surely he remembered what his last words to me had been.
“If you’d just waited until shit calmed down we could have fucking worked it out,” he growled. “But no, you ran as soon as things got tough.”
“Not as soon, Rock, three months had gone by without any word from you. How was I supposed to know that shit was going to calm down?” I asked, wiping my cheeks. “Your last words to me as I left the club that day were ‘good riddance’.”
“I know what I fucking said.” My stomach dropped at his confident smirk. “I’ve changed my mind, baby. You’ve had him for seven years, now it’s my turn.”
I’d always liked a woman with meat on her bones, which was probably why I always went to Marnie for a fuck when I was in the mood.
“Have you fucked him?” I snarled, moving up behind her.
She swung around against the refrigerator door. “How many, Rock?” she snapped between those pretty, plump lips. “How many women have there been since me? Huh?” She crossed her arms and stared up at me.
“Too many to count,” I lied, watching the hurt fill her eyes. Sure, I’d fucked a few women, club whores only, and they’d meant nothing more to me than a temporary relief.
Seeing Tom standing on the other side of the door had changed everything. Rock had only kissed me for effect, and not because he’d wanted me. He’d wanted Tom to see me with my lips swollen and my hair a mess so that he would get the wrong idea. And he had. The accusing hurt in his eyes had torn through me. I would never purposely hurt him.
“He’s going back to Maine with me, Allie, with or without you. So you’d better come to terms with that.”
I thought about Holly, the little black beauty who’d offered herself to me that first night. I’d been tempted. She would have been worth the hundred bucks. But Allie’s face kept interfering with my fucking libido, and I’d turned to whisky instead of pussy.
Anger and hurt had pushed her away, while I’d drowned my frustration in pussy and booze and a good fight every fucking chance I got. By the time I’d got my head out of my ass and asked Fox to start looking for her nearly five years had gone by. Too damned long I’d wasted on feeling sorry for myself.
I sighed heavily, thinking about the last seven years, and wondering how it would have been had I been patient and not moved away.
I’d take her from behind. This wasn’t about love. It was about animal hunger and raw lust. A startled sound escaped her, she struggled briefly.
“I’ve missed this.” This, not her. I couldn’t give her that kind of power. “I’ve missed fucking you.”
It was the truth. The club girls and hang arounds had never fully satisfied me.
“You didn’t use a condom.” Her tone was accusing and slightly bitter.
“I know I’m clean, and you said you haven’t been with anyone else.” It was a poor excuse, but I wasn’t sorry I’d fucked her bare.
“Yeah, well, that takes care of STDs.”
I frowned, not liking where this conversation was going. “Are you telling me that you aren’t on the pill?”
“That’s what I’m telling you.”
Fuck! “Why the hell not, Allie?” I could feel my anger rising now.
“Why should I, Rock? I never intended to get involved with anyone.
“You can’t have it both ways, babe.” I wanted to slap the knowing smirk right off his face. “You don’t want to put out, I have to get it somewhere.”
“Too bad you took sex off the table, babe,” he said in a maddening tone that made me want to scream and lash out at him. “Good thing I remembered that before this went too far.” He released my wrists and stepped back. I was glued to the wall, breathing heavily and too stunned to speak. I watched him reach down and rub his hand over his hard-on. “Guess I’ll be seeing one of the club girls tonight.”
It’d been a while since I’d fucked a club girl. I hadn’t wanted to since finding Allie. But I was a man with needs, and if she was going to lock her pussy up, she couldn’t blame me for going elsewhere. There was no fucking way I was giving up pussy.
I shrugged. “Depends.”
“On what?”
“How many women it takes to satisfy my dick.”
“Why are you doing this, Rock? Why are you playing with me?”
“Because I can, babe.” I reached up and cupped her tit, squeezing it. “And you make it so fucking easy.”
Then why had he fucked me in Cedar Key?
Because he could.
Because I’d made it too easy for him.
Because, like some men, he thought with his cock.
“Don’t worry. I don’t go down on the girls at the club. Never know who’s been in their pussies before me.”
“You’re disgusting!” I hissed. “You’ve changed, Rock. You weren’t like this seven years ago.”
I reached down to adjust my dick, which had turned hard as fucking stone from thoughts of fucking Allie into a purring, satisfied kitten.
“Need help with that, baby?” Shit, Marnie had seen me rearranging my dick.
“Why the fuck not? Come on.”
“Don’t do anything you’ll regret, brother,” Hawk called after me.
I waved him off and met Marnie at the end of the bar. Her smile went from ear to ear and I could already see the glaze of lust filling her eyes. She led the way to the back, opening a door that led to the liquor storage room.
“I’ve missed you, baby. Missed your big, fat cock.”
“Get your hands off me!” I snarled, pulling away from her and doing up my pants.
Marnie jumped to her feet, a look of shock and disbelief on her pretty face. “But−what did I do wrong?” I got the feeling that she wasn’t just asking about now. “It’s been so long, Rock. You used to touch me all the time. Fuck me all the time. I miss that, I miss you.”
I took in a breath, hoping Marnie behaved herself. Back in the beginning when Hawk had first showed up with Audra, I’d seen plenty of trouble between him and Sid.
“She was stabbed several times,” I heard Audra’s teary tone say. “We had to let the police know.”
I’d told her about Marnie, wanting her to understand that Marnie had been a club girl who’d thought that she had a claim on me. The only reason she’d been allowed into the house was because Cooper had known and trusted her. He hadn’t thought to check inside the box she’d said she had to deliver, which we’d found empty. Knowing that Marnie couldn’t hurt her again had reassured Allie, but it didn’t take away all of her fears.
I could blame Rock, too, but I didn’t. I knew there’d been other women in the seven years we’d been apart. That’s what club women were there for. The fact that he’d obviously favored Marnie left a hole in my heart. It felt like he’d found someone to replace me. It didn’t matter that she hadn’t meant anything to him, because Marnie had obviously thought he’d felt much more. And in my mind there had to have been something about her that made him single her out.
