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Kohan has a simple life but he’s happy. The only thing that’s missing is that special someone to come home to at night. That is until he literally bumps into Ares, a man who sparks his interest, but he rushes off before Kohan can talk to him. When he sees the stranger again, Kohan is determined that he's not going to let him escape this time.
What Kohan doesn’t know is he's falling for a guy that has been through more than he could ever imagine, and when Ares’ dark past catches up with him, there might be a chance that neither man will walk away unhurt.

We all dream of finding that one true love, the person who completes you, and when you find them you should hold on tight to them. But what happens when that dream turns into a nightmare, one that you can’t escape from? Ares is running from a past that almost cost him his life, a past that changed everything.
When he meets Kohan he’s scared of letting someone in, scared that history will repeat itself, but finally he sees that not everyone is out to hurt him. He sees that maybe someone could love him without causing pain.
But when the thing Ares is hiding from appears again, it takes him right back into that dangerous past and he doesn’t know if he will survive it this time.

My name is Ares, and the man I married is the person who will probably kill me.
I want to leave.
I want to escape.
I don’t want to die.
My name is Ares and I want Someone To Hear Me.

Please Note this book contains scenes of domestic abuse that some people may find uncomfortable

307 pages, Kindle Edition

First published May 5, 2017

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T.A. McKay

34 books387 followers
After being married for ten years and raising three beautiful kids I decided it was time to do something for myself. My passion for reading bled over with a need to tell the story that was repeating in my head and that was the birth of my first book. The rest they say is history.

I love the creative release that writing gives you, being able to take someone away to a different world feels amazing. As a reader I know how important that escape is, and as a writer I love to be able to give people that.

My other loves include music and reading (in case I haven't mentioned that before) and then when I have time a little more reading. I think if I could read for a living I would, but since I can't I will continue on the writing side of things.

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Profile Image for Nazanin.
1,286 reviews840 followers
October 27, 2017
4.25 Stars

"The world is obsessed with beauty, but only a certain standard of it. Perfect teeth, flawless skin and a body that is tight and smooth. But who said that’s what beauty is? Who told the people that had imperfections they weren’t beautiful? I just see those imperfections differently and want others to embrace them. Celebrate them."

Ares works as a cleaner at the local newspaper offices but he works there when the office is closed. He couldn’t be around people or in crowded places. Because of his past that put him in a hospital and took his hearing. He was abused mentally, physically and emotionally. Kohan is a reporter and works at that office. Ares is a puzzle to Kohan and he determined to solve it.

"Darkness is only scary if you’re alone. Let me guide you through it. Let me be your light."

I really liked this book and enjoyed it. I loved Kohan’s character. I loved how he was protective of Ares, how he cared so much about him, how he healed Ares (or tried it, at least). He let Ares feels like he’s fully in control of what’s happening. But on the contrary, I didn’t like Ares’s character so much. I know he was through a lot. And I’m saying you, reading his past with that son of a b!th of husband was really, really hard for me. Well, I know this story has this message that please talk when you are abused or bullied and get help but the thing is I didn’t see it in Ares! I didn’t feel it! all I feel was his fear! I liked him braver or stronger! I know he had a therapist, I know with his trust issues he open up to Kohan, but I don’t know… I wanted him smarter/braver.

Told in dual POV, 1st person. It’s a stand-alone novel. It was well-written and well-paced. I really enjoyed it and hope you like it as well!
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Author 34 books387 followers
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May 8, 2017
****Please be aware*****

If you purchased this book on the 8th May 2017, please update the file that amazon sent you. The wrong, unedited file has been sent and the new one is now in place.

Apologies for any harm this caused your reading.

T.a.

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464 reviews14 followers
June 12, 2017
I liked the book. I liked the MCs and seeing their journey together. The issues from Ares' past were dealt with sensitively and without the trap of everything turning rosy the first time he kissed Kohan. We also get to see Kohan mature as he deals with Ares and also his family.

I did have a few problems. I wish the book had not pandered to the overly used plotline of the ex from hell who suddenly reappears. The book did not need it, and the author had to force some points past believability in order for the ex to have his moment in the spotlight. The story would have been much better without it because it was the jouney of healing that was the focal point throughout most of the book. The reappearance was not necessary for that healing.

Sophie. I'm still not sure I liked her. She was underdeveloped as a character and came off as stereotypical. Sort of the "every gay man should have one of these" female friend. She needed more development of an individual personality aside from comedic relief and "potential boyfriend tester" for Kohan.

Overall, the writing was good. A couple of consistency errors and some repetitive inner thoughts were my only real concerns. Grammatical errors were few enough not to leave an impression.

I would recommend the book, with the warning that the material may be triggering for some readers.
Profile Image for Ben Willis.
32 reviews6 followers
May 19, 2017
3.5 stars
I don't think it's a secret from the list of books on my page that I read stories about DA and the reason is because I survived a very long and trying relationship that was not only abusive but toxic. I guess I read these books to see how they are portrayed and to see how authors handle the subject. One thing I will say, I am 100% behind warnings and trigger warnings. I do because of my past hold too much faith in the author that they will list what is coming my way as I read. And I realize this is me, but the fact that the rape was not listed, really messed me up. That is one thing I won't read a book for and I honestly didn't finish past that point because I was terrified to. But again, this is me. but the part I did read was good and perhaps I will go back to it.
126 reviews
June 6, 2017
Wow. This story grips you from the beginning. Apart from the grammatical errors and typos (which were aplenty), I understand that the unedited version was accidentally released, and I may have gotten that copy; nonetheless it's a really good story. It's rather short and I quite frankly don't expect to get so involved with characters in such a short time, but damn if I didn't.
Heed the warnings though! Those abuse scenes are graphic and written so well that I actually felt like I was there. Usually a wonderful thing when reading...this time not so much.
The 3 is b/c of the lack of information in some scenarios; I was left feeling like bits were missing. For instance, what has happened to Carey? That was a major life choice/step that he took and we get no more on him, how is dealing with being used by a monster? What has happened with the Mum with Alzheimer's, this is a dark road that no family should have to travel, and now we the readers are left in the dark. What has happened with Sophie and Robert, should there even be a Sophie and Robert? I just feel like, if you're not going to give me closure on these topics, please don't include them. Or at least write another one and make it a series.
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364 reviews5 followers
June 7, 2017
I received an advanced copy of this book to review.

I found this really hard to get into. Not because of the subject matter but...I just didn't feel connected to either Kohan or Ares or their story. It's like...the story wanted to be so much more but it didn't quite make it. The book concentrated so much on Ares and his past, I didn't get a handle on Kohan at all. The sideplot with his family's struggles again felt...not quite enough.

I was really looking forward to this, and I have enjoyed the author's previous books very much but this one...just didn't click with me. 3.75 stars, but I'll round it up to 4.
Profile Image for Caroline Brand.
1,755 reviews68 followers
May 10, 2017
REVIEWED FOR LOVE BYTES

3.5 Stars

I have been debating on how to write this review and rate this book for a couple of days and I’m really not sure if it’s any clearer to me now than it was when I finished it.

Someone to Hear Me is quite a bleak and dark story that has vivid on-page abuse and rape. Ares is trapped in a cycle of abuse with a husband who is a bully and a tormentor. Micah thinks of Ares as his property, as his punching bag and as his prisoner – there is absolutely nothing redeeming about Micah’s character at all. Ares has gradually removed himself from his friends and family which is just the way Micah planned it and things would have remained in that status quo but Micah goes too far and Ares ends up nearly dead. With Micah in prison, Ares finally has a chance to live again but this time it’s his memories and nightmares that hold him prisoner.

Kohan is funny, he has a fun sense of humour, he loves his family and from the minute he bumps into Ares, he is smitten but really this story belongs to Ares and we don’t get to know Kohan too deeply. He has a strength and a sense of right about him that aids Ares in his recovery. For most of the story he was completely in tune with Ares and how he was feeling or coping – in fact, sometimes it appeared he knew there was going to be a problem before Ares knew himself.

Because of all of the above, and in particular how in tune Kohan seemed to be with Ares, I was completely blindsided when he walked away from a clearly upset Ares who was sporting a new bruise on his face – it made NO sense at all. Every single thing that happened pointed to something not being right but Kohan walked away and lost himself in a bottle for days – it just felt wrong and completely out of character for him.

For the most part, I liked the characters and the story and I always enjoy the touch of dark that this author brings to her stories. The way it ended felt jarring, but the fact that Ares ends up well on his road to recovery and finally able to live again made it all worth it.
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1,441 reviews53 followers
February 18, 2020
3.5

Great story. I fell in love with both MC’s. I loved watching them battle to over come past demons and I enjoyed watching their journey.
The end however left a bad taste for me. Right at the climax of the story you end it? That made no since. And while you did explain a little in the epilogue that just made it worst. The rest of that story needed to be written on page and not a quick synopsis made by the character. The whole story worked up to that moment and then we didn’t even get the happy fall.

There were a few editing mistakes. But the writing was ok.
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Author 4 books27 followers
October 2, 2018
I loved this book. The subject matter was handled well and I thought the main characters were well written.
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1,374 reviews94 followers
May 11, 2017
Someone that hears you. Someone that sees you. Isn’t that what we all want? But what if you catch the eye of the wrong person? How long will it take for you to heal? To start trusting – to start living again?
”Darkness is only scary if you’re alone.”


Ares’s story will break your heart in so many ways. And in a way, it’s a story told so many times before. It is not new, to any of us. In a dark and depressing way, you could argue that his story is (unfortunately) timeless.
But that will never take away the importance of it, the seriousness. It’s told by countless men and women, everywhere – and not only in books.

Like I said, this is not a new story in any way, but that doesn’t lessen how much I loved this book. It was very well written. It was emotional and you felt everything the characters felt. They were all genuine, flawed and scarred, scared and hopeful. I admire Ares (and everyone who’s gone through his kind of hell). It takes a strong and brave person to start over, to trust, to love and I just loved his journey.

Kohan was just wonderful and just the right person for Ares. I loved how he loved, helped and supported Ares, how they just connected. You felt that they were right for each other. And the love that grew between them was beautiful to watch.

”I want the good and the bad, because only then do I have you.”



Trigger warnings: on-page domestic violence,
Profile Image for Jo * Smut-Dickted *.
2,038 reviews517 followers
October 2, 2017
I liked it a lot. At times it got bogged down in the domestic abuse descriptions but I prefer that - I connect better when things are not sugar coated. Flashbacks were effective here. I do agree Kohan did something strange towards the end- but it wasn't quite what everyone made it out to be. I did not think it that out of character. Though a build up to him being so hurt might have helped make that action palatable. Also that resolution, being built from the beginning, was too quick. Still - with its flaws it really was an amazing book with connecting the characters.
Profile Image for JustJen "Miss Conduct".
2,385 reviews156 followers
May 10, 2017

This is a very emotional and heartbreaking story. Ares is a man trying to get on with his life in the aftermath of an extremely abusive relationship that almost killed him, and much of this story shows him trying to deal with the results.

Ares is a total sweetheart you just want to wrap up in a big hug and never let go. He spent many years suffering from his then husband’s abuse, making excuses for it and enduring while his self worth was whittled away. The final attack which took away his hearing and almost killed him is what ended up freeing him from Micah, who ended up serving a 7 year sentence. Now, he is in a new town, trying to build back up his confidence enough to leave his home, actually talk to people and get a job without the panic attacks taking over. It isn’t easy, but he makes baby steps and gets a job cleaning offices at night when he is least likely to have to interact with others.

Kohan is a reporter at the offices where Ares is working. They run into each other, and Konah immediately sees something in Ares, other than attraction, which is also there, and he wants to know more. Slowly, he earns Ares’ trust and friendship. I loved watching their relationship blossom as Ares began to trust and shared painful tidbits about his past. Kohan was extremely patient and was exactly what Ares needed. This was my favorite part of this story – not so much hearing about all of the awful things Micah put Ares through, but Kohan’s support and how he was able to help Ares become stronger and more confident.

Unfortunately, it doesn’t last, as Ares’ past comes back to haunt him. I found this part of the story a bit disappointing in that, while it did give Ares some final closure eventually, it felt unnecessary. And after all of the buildup, it ended rather quickly. There were also a few things that just didn’t make sense to me at this stage in the story. For example, Kohan fought so hard through most of this story to be a part of Ares’ life, yet he walks away when it’s most important.

However, this was a wonderful story that was well written and kept me engaged through the end. It was emotional and heartbreaking, yet sweet and full of warm feels as well. Heed the warnings on this though, because it goes into detail about the abuse Ares suffered, but it is worth it to seem him happy and flourishing in the end. I’m already looking forward to Ms. Ms. McKay’s next story and definitely recommend you check out this author’s work.

Review written for Love Bytes Reviews.
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1,927 reviews
June 16, 2023
This author absolutely disgusts me in how fucking problematic she is in every capacity possible!! Everything she does here is obnoxious, aggravating, problematic, repulsive, and repugnant!! On top of all of that she is one of the most illiterate and incompetent so-called writers imaginable, and it is clear she doesn’t give a fuck about the end result of this flaming drivel she puts out because it is absolute garbage in terms of all the typos, mistakes, and grammatical errors here!! An absolute sham and shame of an author!! This is pure trash and exploitative garbage!! This so-called author is an absolute fucking disgrace, and I hope she has been booted out of this and them community because she doesn’t deserve to be amongst so many fucking talented authors!! Horrible, horrible horrible, horrible!! It’s been a while since an author pissed me off so fucking much and this one absolutely takes the cake, she is an absolute fucking farce and whatever she puts out is an absolute repulsive and repugnant abomination!! Garbage!! So fucking obnoxious, aggravating, and problematic!! And it’s clear that the things she does here is for her own personal glee and it’s so fucking ludicrously weird and creepy!! Just fucking nuts!!
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Author 15 books34 followers
June 9, 2017
Some books you read because they're fluff - they pick you up and make you feel good, happy, loving.
Some books you read because they're intense - nail-biting, making your heart beat faster, making you sweat.
And then there are books like this one - brutal yet brilliant, sad yet beautiful, heartbreaking yet filled with hope. Ares will simultaneously break your heart and fill you with awe - awe at his strength, awe at his courage, awe at his ability to not only survive but still be a functioning (albeit somewhat broken) human being. And Kohan, dear, sweet Kohan - what a beautiful knight in shining armor, what a beacon of hope, what an amazing (although not perfect) man.
This is a tough read, I will say that. But when you think about the Ares' of the world - the real men (& women) who endure brutality at the hands of the one who supposedly loves them.....aren't a few tears from you a small price to pay? Damn right they are - and you'll not only feel better when you make it to the end....you'll be a better person - a more understanding one, more patient, more loving, more appreciative.
How can you not be?
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938 reviews8 followers
July 5, 2019
I'm finding I'm getting a taste for this authors books, this is my third of hers and I like the way she writes.
While this was a heavy book, going in to details of what Ares went through, I had moments nearing the end where I wanted to throw my kindle at a wall. A pillow at the very least nearly found its way across the room.

I wish the book had had its focus on Ares's recovery and Kohan's family trouble. It would have been enough. Bringing back the ex, who I recognised early on, didn't add to the story.
It just made me angry with Kohan, as his way of handling things seemed out of character for him. And hence the kindle throwing, or close call of that.

And I feel that because of that, it didn't give full closure for me. With so much invested time in Kohan's and Ares's families, we didn't get their meeting, the brothers bantering over meeting the boyfriend. Or even how Carey was dealing with this life altering thing. It was just left in the open and it frustrates me after finishing it.
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3,314 reviews36 followers
June 7, 2017
I've read a few books with domestic violence as the main theme and I think it's very important to get it right. For the most part, this author has done a good job but there were a couple of things that made me shake my head in disbelief.

SPOILERS: When your boyfriend, who suffered badly in a previous relationship appears at the door with a black eye, you don't ignore it for 3 days before thinking "Oh maybe I should have checked why he has a black eye".
Given that the CPS let him down and the police investigation was very much in his favour, why did we see the CPS bring a court case only for it to be thrown out of court on day 1. No charges would have been brought and I think this was only added in to sensationalise the epilogue.
Another great distraction for me was Kohan going from the age of 29 in chapter 1 to being younger than Jensen who is 27 just a couple of chapters later. Please get the basics right.
272 reviews1 follower
May 8, 2017
TA Mckay has done it again.

No matter the genre she writes about she makes you fall in love with the characters and just want to be able to reach out and offer support to them.

Kohan wants to meet that perfect man, the one who will cuddle with him on the couch, make dinner together, nights out and someone who he can love completely.

Ares knows what it is to feel true fear, knows what it's like to dread when your husband comes home. Trying to judge the mood he's in, can you make it better because it must be your fault. Right?

When we think of domestic violence, we think of a man and a woman because surely a man can fight back, can't he?

This story is written with sensitivity and highlights that violence and control can happen to anyone.

Please read this because you will not be disappointed.
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1,645 reviews6 followers
May 23, 2017
Very good story and deep but

There were a lot of errors...namely repeated lines and some paragraphs. Also who ever thought the epilogue should go before the "bonus scene" was out or their mind. The bonus scene should have been the last chapter and then the epilogue. It belonged a part of the story. What happened?? The story was very good besides all the errors...some things we needed to jumps into the past but other we lived through all the abuse and fear with Ares. No to mention their love....Kohan was a great man and Ares was lucky to have found him. I also connected with Kohan family's ordeal with Alzheimer's and dementia. I have a few family members who have and are going through the same. It is the family disease cause it affects the family the most. It is completely heartbreaking to see someone you love just drift away from you a piece at a time.
Profile Image for Tahnee.
67 reviews
December 31, 2021
Almost fantastic

Besides the numerous spelling and grammar errors, and the fact that several lines and paragraphs were repeated, the first 80% was really great! I’m not sure if the identity of a certain person was supposed to be a twist or not but it was very predictable. I was happy to overlook all of this as it sucked me in and was a great story. It was shaping up to be a 4-5 star.
However, I don’t know what happened in the last 20% ??
The characters actions didn’t make any sense and it was super rushed, what should have been 200 pages squeezed into 50. Also, the bonus chapter should have been just a normal chapter at the end, not after the epilogue. That doesn’t make sense at all. And there are so many loose ends not tied up by the very end so I’m left with questions and wanting more- but not in a good way. Quite disappointed actually.
409 reviews1 follower
June 14, 2017
Deep and Touching! This book tells the dramatic story of Ares and the crippling affects of domestic violence. T. A. McKay unveils how domestic violence transformed Ares physically, mentally and emotionally. The abuse is described in great detail, leaving nothing to the imagination. It was riveting and very emotional. I fell in love with Ares. I wanted to hold Ares and protect him as his story unfolds. He is such a beautiful yet wounded man; and stronger than even he can fathom...until. WOW! This beautiful character Kohan. Well, talk about unconditional love and patience! He's the real deal. I loved him. This was a story of abuse..True, but greater than that. It also speaks of love, the will to survive, healing and closure.
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1,062 reviews34 followers
June 28, 2017
2 stars = It was okay

The first 75% was a good read for me.
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3,219 reviews47 followers
March 9, 2021
If anyone has been in an abusive relationship, this is not the book for you. While it broke my heart at what Ares went through, because there are so many who deal with it everyday in real life, there were just a few things that bothered me. Kohen's actions at the end when he sees Ares with a black eye. Why didn't he do something instead of feeling sorry for himself knowing how everyone let Ares down...before. and then they let him down again by not telling him his abusive ex is not in jail. That part just really ticked me off. And I know it can happen on technicalities in real life but this story was a real hard read. Not for the triggers. Those don't bother me. But they will some others. This is a very dark dark story and people need to be careful.
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1,494 reviews6 followers
June 23, 2017
Ares & Kohan = WOW!
This story, due to Ares back story is NOT an easy read whatsoever!!
Ares is quite a contradiction; Strong yet vulnerable, fearless yet scared, happy yet sad.
He's gone through so much and meeting Kohan makes him feel things he never expected.
Kohan is such a great character as he's everything Ares needs but doesn't realise.
This book really put my emotions through the ringer BUT, here's where it gets hard. There were a few places which had typos, at times the grammar was wrong too. Also, I don't know if it was a formatting error but I noticed a few paragraphs were repeated too.
Apart from that it was a fantastic read x
Profile Image for Katie Townsend.
1,274 reviews20 followers
May 17, 2017
Wow

Someone to hear me sent me on a emotional rollercoaster

My heart broke for these two amazing men kohan and Ares Ares trying to get away from the person who abused him for years he was so strong he meets Ares a wonderful man who shows him the right way to treat somebody

The connection with these two is amazing you can feel it on every page

I really connected with kohan and Ares on a personal level they stole my heart

I cried but the tears and emotion are so worth the tears

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67 reviews5 followers
June 24, 2019
A minute to collect my thoughts

You ever read a book that is written so beautifully and raw and honest that is soothes a bone deep pain you thought was healed. As if you were interviewed by the author personally and they wrote something for you. To you. Because they heard you.
This book did that for me.
T.A McKay took on a subject and showed how love is when you're a victim. A survivor. A friend. An abuser. A child. And most of all just how hard it can be to find love in yourself after you've been hurt and betrayed.
Thank You.
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149 reviews1 follower
May 12, 2017
Oh the feels...

I was a blubbering mess while reading this book. I was expecting your typical hurt/comfort story but man was I blown away. "Someone To Hear Me" is about what it looks like to give your all, be beaten down, live, love, and survive. I finished this book in one sitting, it was gritty and raw and I couldn't get enough of it. Please heed the trigger warnings, as this book does contain graphic on page domestic abuse scenes. It is not for the faint of heart.
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189 reviews28 followers
May 23, 2017
this may have been the first book I actually struggled with...not because I didn´t like it...but because it was just too much...too raw, too painful, too real....some of the scenes actually made me sick...and the moment I realized who Duncan was, and just by the way I new the moment Kohan´s brother said he met his boyfriend at the gym,....at that moment I closed the book and couldn´t even look at it for a few hours...but I´m really glad I finished it, I just never want to read it again...
5,704 reviews39 followers
September 18, 2017
this was amazing... holy crap... you have no idea how raw and real this was... i have no words to be honest... it was raw... it was real.. and the things that ares goes through and how he is amazingly strong and wonderful even though he went through it all.. its just.. amazing.. also.. i am very curious to see if there will be another because i need to know what happens with the brother. lol i loved this
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563 reviews6 followers
June 19, 2019
3,5 🌟🌟🌟⭐. This story is quite a bit to take, my heart was bleeding for Ares 😪

But I mostly coincide with another review: the scene near to the end is not believeable, how did Kohan not notice something behind the bruise on Ares' face?
And I didn't much like the writing style, I think it's a little bit off. It certainly could have needed one or more betareaders. I'm not native english, but even I could see several minor or major errors....
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1,143 reviews4 followers
May 9, 2017
The book was intense and there was a lot of abuse in it which was difficult but it forms part of the story and apart from a few typos, it was well written. ( of understand the unedited book was published by mistake and that I may have downloaded that one and the corrected version is now out). It had me guessing the whole time and I loved the friendship between Kohan and Ares.
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