What do you do when the people you are supposed to trust and rely on most in this world, let you down? When those people are your parents and when you give them unconditional love and get the exact opposite in return? One of the Boys by Daniel Magariel is a fictional story about a dysfunctional family and mental and physical abuse. It is a heartbreaker.
In One of the Boys, a mother and father's relationship breaks down and the father takes off with his two young sons, leaving Kansas for New Mexico. The father, is abusive, manipulative and narcissistic. He also happens to be an addict. The worst of the worst. The father does the most unimaginable things to his two young sons. He mentally and physically abuses both of them. In one instance, he beats one - ties his hands behind his back, dragging him facedown across the carpet because he called his mother. In his father's mind, his elder son, is a traitor for doing so. He works to pit the boys against each other and constantly tells them that he forgives them for their behavior. [How despicable is that? His telling them he forgives them?]. The boys are young... and they seemingly have no way out and no one to turn to. They are left to fend for themselves. Even when they ask for help, help never comes. It is this that left me with a weight on my shoulders, heart heavy, empty inside. Help hardly ever comes. This I know.
As children, sufferers of abuse often ask for help and it never comes or it comes too late. And in adulthood, survivors of abuse often have a very hard time asking for help. It is like pulling teeth or something. Even after years of therapy, it is still something I struggle with. Yet still I try. I know its not just me. But I also know that every child, every sufferer, every survivor, deals with things differently... Oddly enough, I wasn't sure how I would feel reading this book, yet I wanted to read it after seeing the reviews. I tend to gravitate towards biographies and memoirs related to this subject. Perhaps because through all of the pain and anguish, there are stories of survival and strength. And that is what I cling to.
The author, of this fictional story, Daniel Magariel, did a stellar job in describing the boys feelings, their angst and their conflicted feelings towards both parents but especially their father. He described the guilt they feel in a way that felt palpable. One of the Boys is a harrowing, heartbreaking novel that reads like a memoir. Everything about this novel is tragic. It is not for the faint of heart. It is however, a novel that will make you feel. You will feel a myriad of emotions. It will make you angry.. it will make you cry and it will make you believe in the power of brothers. Whatever you feel, know that you are not alone. If you chose to read this, we are in it together. And if you are a sufferer or a survivor of mental or physical abuse, keep asking for help. It gets easier. Promise.
A huge thank you to NetGalley, Scribner and Daniel Magariel for an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.
Published on NetGalley and Goodreads on 3/5/17.
*Will be published on Amazon on 3/14/17.