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438 pages, Paperback
First published November 4, 2016
It is overlooked, perhaps forgotten, by almost everyone today that we were there to defend Europe against the multiple threats represented by the Allies. We saw the British as an outdated Imperial force, organised by freemasons, who sought to turn the clock back one hundred years to the days when their word was the law around the world. Why should they be entitled to install their freemason puppet, De Gaulle, in France, to rule as a proxy? The Vichy government had three consistent points in its propaganda regarding the threats to the French people: these were De Gaulle, freemasonry and communism.
As for the American state, we perceived that as controlled by the forces of international finance and banking, who wished to abolish national governments and have the world run by banks and corporations. And there was the definite sentiment that both these countries, England and the USA, were being manipulated, controlled, by Bolsheviks in Moscow. I stress that these were my views, and they were very common views, at the time....
Regarding the Americans, I think that most of us soldiers made a distinction in our minds between the American government, which we believed was a pawn of international finance, and the Americans as individuals. After all, we had all seen US films and magazines before the war, we had read about cowboys and heard jazz music, and all this was exciting and very attractive to us. But despite all this, we knew that the Americans too were intent on attacking France and destroying the unification of Europe under German protection that our leadership had achieved....
"United Europe" was a universal slogan.... There was a definite sense that Europe was united under the Reich, and an attack on France would be an attack on the whole structure.(66-67)
The frustration for us was that we were not fighting the war against the Western powers, really. Our real war was with the Soviet Union and the threat that we believed they posed to us in the East. Today, of course, we in West Germany all understand that this belief was mistaken, but ten years ago the feeling against the East was very strong. And this added, you see, to our anger against the Americans and the English Empire, because they were diverting our strength, our forces, away from the battles in the Eastern Front.
What a foolish thing that war was, when you think about it. The Americans had so much space in their prairies and mountains, and the English had India and all those places in Africa. And yet they wanted to take France from us, and stop us fighting the Reds. All of us there on that area of sand dunes, me in my concrete panzer, and the PAK gun, and the little two-man bunkers, we all should really have been in the East, fighting the real enemy of Europe over there. But the Western Allies insisted on threatening us in France. (155-156)
conscripted labourers who came from the Eastern countries. I think that a lot of them were Hungarian or Polish. I certainly did not envy them their task, as they dug and worked constantly, literally around the clock. In fact, the first deaths that I saw in the war were several of these men who unfortunately died while they were working, and they were buried in the bottom of an anti-tank ditch. That unsettled me greatly, seeing that human bodies could be disposed of in that way. (250)
You have seen these films, just as we all have. I remember when the films arrived, we were brought into the mess hall one morning, this was in May 1945, just after the war ended, and we had to watch the film. I think it was called This Was Your Germany or This Was Germany. It was specifically made to be shown to German people. They were showing it all over Germany, in every town and village. It went on for about thirty minutes, all the thins from Dachau and Belsen and those camps.
When the film ended, the American guards refused to speak to us, or even to look at us. Even the guards who had been friendly and helpful, they refused to look at us. They just shouted commands and locked us in the camp with the food. There was some kind of regulation that said we had to be given food, and they could not break this regulation, apparently.
Some of us said that it was a hoax. Most of us knew, I think, deep down, that it was true, and that this was what the regime of the Third Reich was capable of doing.
One man, who had also been in Normandy, said to me, "Is that why we fought, then?" That was the question. Was that why we fought all those years?
Because we were soldiers being ordered to do our duty, and our duty was for nothing if it was to defend all of that in the films. It left us very confused, and also very betrayed. And all of the time, the Americans, who now refused to speak to us, kept giving us more food than we could eat, because of their regulations. We had no appetite, but the Americans kept giving us food.
That was a strange time, and a time which showed us more than ever the resources which the Allies had. (250)
It is hard to explain. I think that in my mind, I always had some idea that the Americans were civilized, but they were misguided, or they were misled. Now that you ask me the question, I try to understand my own feelings and it's difficult for me. I think that I had the belief, the subconscious belief, that the civilized Americans would not wish to disturb the peace of France. We in the German forces thought that we had one to such lengths to protect France, to guard its people against harm. I think that deep down I could not believe that the Americans would shatter this peace we had achieved.
Of course, I was utterly wrong.... I was wrong about everything. I know today, ten years later, that everything I believed during the war was a mistake. I understand today that we Germans were not in France to protect the people, we were there to exploit and persecute them. We should never have been in France, or Russia, Italy, any of those places. The things were did were appalling... everything was wrong. Why would they cut our throats and break our necks like animals, in the road, without a word? Well, because they knew the truth of what we were doing, that is why....
I would like to add that we in the Wehrmacht were only ordinary men, just as those Americans with their knives were ordinary men. We were not great thinkers, none of us were great psychologists or political experts. We were simple, ordinary men. And yet the other people hated us so much. (266-267).