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A LION in a mouse’s body
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“I saw how other people saw me as I wheeled [my wheelchair] down the hallway…where I worked. I turned the corner, steering the chair toward the washroom. As I passed by her, a woman…announced, ‘Multiple sclerosis.’
It wasn’t a question.
I felt diminished. I’d always been Jen. Just Jen. Now other people saw my disability before they saw me. If they continued to look, they might see Jen. But the women didn’t need a name—a diagnosis was enough.”
The above quote (in italics) comes from this powerful, factual memoir by Jen Powley. She has advanced, progressive multiple sclerosis and is a quadriplegic. Powley also has two Master’s degrees.
Multiple sclerosis (MS) is a demyelinating disease in which the insulating cover (myelin) of nerve cells (or neurons) in the brain and spinal cord are damaged. This damage disrupts the ability of parts of the nervous system to communicate, resulting in a range of neurological signs and symptoms (both physical and mental). The cause of MS is unknown. There is no cure.
The name “multiple sclerosis” refers to the numerous sclerae or scars that develop on the white matter of the brain and spinal cord.
This book chronicles Powley’s life with MS (which she contracted at age fifteen). She focuses on building a life rather than praying for a cure.
Powley inhabits many roles as she tells us her story: student, writer, artist, disability advocate, boss, friend, lover, partner, colleague, sister, and daughter.
She is very determined but no amount of determination can shield Powley from the mental health issues that accompany MS. She thus opens up about her struggles with an eating disorder, depression, suicidal thoughts, as well as her experiences of discrimination and isolation.
By the end of this book, you realize that this courageous young woman shows us what it means to fully engage with the world on one’s own terms.
Finally, black and white photographs are peppered throughout. My favourite has the caption:
“Tom Elliot [Jen’s boyfriend] and Jen at [a] conductive education session, spring 2010”
In conclusion, this is an unforgettable and uplifting work by a resilient author who has laid her life—and her body—bare in order to survive. A MUST READ!!
(2017; thank-yous, vii; a note on my process, x; 52 chapters; main narrative 175 pages; works cited)
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