all throughout reading this book i thought this was a solid 3 star book until i got to the end and now here we are with one star and i am PISSED. i can't believe i spent time and energy reading this book.
just to preface i'm writing this from the perspective of one (1) person who is half lebanese on my dad's side and part jewish on my ma's side. not every other mixed race jewish arab person will agree with me on this but i have really strong feelings about this book and they come from my own lineage and experiences as as arab american growing up in post-9/11 nyc.
first off, i feel like the book just isn't well written. it's not bad, but one of the reviews on the back of the copy i read compared rabinyan's writing to toni morrison and that just feels like a insult to toni morrison. maybe some of my issues with the writing is because of how it was translated and not with rabinyan's writing style necessarily, but i didn't enjoy reading it the way i thoroughly enjoy reading some authors (like toni morrison).
some of my gripes with the writing can't be explained away by translation either. like all throughout the book there will be metaphors, some good, some corny, and you think "okay, this is a metaphor for hilmi and liat's relationship" but then rabinyan goes on to EXPLAIN the metaphor to the reader. which not only ruins the metaphor (if it was even good to begin with), but just feels condescending.
okay now for issues with the content, spoilers ahead. tl;dr is that it's only a bestseller bc the israeli government got their knickers in a twist over a jewish-arab romance and controversy sells, even if the book isn't actually as radical or well written as the reviews claim. hint hint, amos oz likes it.
liat is clearly written to embody your typical liberal zionist who was raised fearing aravim and expecting all palestinian men to be potential terrorists. clearly now as a 29 year old she's grown out of some of this, but she still identifies herself as a zionist and believes very strongly in a 2 state solution (which is even more outdated now in september 2021 than it was in 2017 when the book was released and 2003 when the book takes place).
when hilmi and his brother wasid tell her they believe in a one state binational solution, she flips the fuck out and will start yelling and screaming and crying because it would be the end of a jewish ethnostate. shockingly, ethnostates are bad. but does she develop as a character and change her mind about this? no! she continues to be little miss zionism until the very end. she even refers to ramallah as being in israel throughout the book, even though it's in the WEST BANK and is the literal defacto CAPITOL of palestine. so clearly she doesn't even believe in a two state solution, she just believes in occupation and seeing the whole land as israel, from the river to the sea. does anyone call her out on this? no!
and in all her fragility and tears over this, it obviously drives a wedge between her and hilmi. except ultimately hilmi and wasid and even zinab (a character with a palestinian father who was literally killed for being part of the plo) comfort her, say she and hilmi are a good couple, and oh, hilmi never fucking leaves her! and while hilmi tells his brothers and mother about her, she only tells her sister and loses her sh*t over the idea of her parents finding out.
on shabbat she always calls home and asks hilmi to "disappear from her life for 10 minutes" because she's too much of a coward to tell her parents she's dating a scary scary arab and call them on their racism. this obviously causes a fight except she literally never changes. never! up until the very end of the book she gets pissed at him when he doesn't leave her 100% alone when she's on the phone with her parents and she NEVER tells them about him.
in fact, their last big fight in the book is about this and then she comes down with a big fever and hilmi dutifully takes care of her the whole time and when she gets better they have six weeks before she leaves to go back to israel. in those six weeks does she ever grow as a character or in their relationship and apologize for the ways she's perpetuated anti-palestinian racism in their relationship? nope!
this is what makes the relationship so unconvincing. hilmi has zero respect for himself to stay in a relationship with someone who, when they have their last big fight, has the inner monologue of being pissed at him and his "palestinian victim complex" or whatever when he's hurt that she pretends he doesn't exist around her family and her israeli friends. as an arab, i would absolutely never ever ever be in a relationship with someone who hid me from their friends and family because of my race. i would never tolerate the kind of disrespect she shows hilmi throughout the whole book.
he's not a real person, he's a fantasy of a palestinian written to absolve israelis of their guilt. it's okay that they feel and say and do these racist things! a palestinian could push all that aside and love them anyway! maybe this is where the comparison to toni morrison comes in, that hilmi subjects himself to this maybe out of a sense of internalized racial self hatred? but that's never the point. it's never a problem that's actually addressd.
while hilmi is written to make liberal zionists feel better, liat is written as if she isn't really racist, just naïve. hilmi tells her about racism he's experienced, the multiple times his family has been displaced, his time in prison for graffiti, and every time she's shocked and in disbelief. it feels like the lie goyim tell that germans in wwii didn't know about the holocaust. but they did. and israelis know about what their government does to palestinians. they're actively complicit, just like liat, in spite of her so-called love for hilmi.
and what makes this worse is that liat (and rabinyan) is iranian! and the book literally opens with her being racially profiled in post 9/11 new york. this hurts MORE because it's written by a middle eastern jew of colour and not a white jew who doesn't understand what racism is like.
in the end, when hilmi goes back to ramallah (in PALESTINE not in ISRAEL as liat says) a month following liat going back to tel aviv, you think oh, maybe they'll meet and decide to get back together and liat will tell her family about him and it won't be easy but she will make the difficult choice to choose hilmi. maybe she'll grow as a character. maybe in the final few chapters something will change.
but NO. hilmi goes to jaffa with his brother and nephew and fucking DIES by drowning (and it's supposed to be poetic because he loves painting water and now he's buried with a liquid canvas). and that's it!! liat gets a call from wasid, who she was SO disrespectful to, and then she has a breakdown. and then there's a flashback of a scene in nyc. and it's over.
hilmi is dead. liat hasn't changed a bit. and the book supposedly teaches that "love, not hate, will save us. hatred sows hatred, but love can break down barriers" but no it does not! it does not teach that! the whole message of the book seems to be that it's okay to be a liberal zionist who believes in an ethnostate because a palestinian will love you anyway and absolve you no matter how poorly you treat them.