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If you can make it out of Enid High School alive, you can make it through anything. Alexis is the new girl at school, and she's ruthlessly bullied. Hopeless, and drowning in her present reality, she takes pills-lots of pills. She's sent to a mental health facility, where she meets a boy. Only the boy can't save her, and no one can save her from herself. Nick has secrets. He wants to open up to Alexis, but there's the dead boy who haunts him. In his dreams. While he's awake. He wants to be brave, but he can't tell her about his past, and he can't leave the facility. Melanie rules over the school, until a nobody named Lexie tries to disrupt her reign. She won't allow that. She also can't stop it. She plummets into notoriety, but she's determined to take them all with her. The girl, the boy, and their secrets.

221 pages, Paperback

First published December 27, 2016

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Lindy Zart

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Lindy Zart is an American USA Today bestselling author who writes across a number of fictional genres such as new adult, contemporary romance, and fantasy. Her rom-com Roomies (2014) was an international bestseller that rose to #1 in Satire Fiction, Romantic Comedy, General Humor, and Humorous, becoming a USA Today bestseller. Lindy currently lives in Wisconsin with her family.

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Author 3 books51.6k followers
October 25, 2017
I adore books about bullying and have read dozens of them but 'Bullies like Me' is the second best that I have ever had the fortune of reading (after Atwood's Cat's Eye!).

Based on the author's own experiences, 'Bullies Like Me' is about a 16/17 year old girl called Alexis who, after moving to a new school, is relentlessly bullied by her peers to the point that she attempts suicide. The book is set a few months later when Alexis is released from a teenage mental institution. There are three different narrators and the story flits between Alexis, Melanie (her bully) and Nick (her love interest). In doing this, Zart distinguishes her novel from much YA bullying-fiction because, more so than in any other novel I have read, there is a focus on the BULLY and not just the victim. She explores the consequences of bullying for all those who are involved.

Usually I don't like teenage romance novels but her and Nick's relationship, whilst significant to the plot, was not the centripetal force of the novel. Rather than repetitive and cliche, their love enriched the novel and it would not have been so excellent if it had not been for Nick.

There are many plot-twists, each one ensuring continued engagement, and I was unable to put my kindle down all morning - it took me three hours in total so is a fairly quick read and one which I am glad to have read all at once. I don't think it would have been so powerful if I had not been so heavily invested. At moments, I truly did laugh out loud and I will not hide the fact that I cried a little as well. It is a heart-wrenching tale (even more so seeing as it is semi-autobiographical) and I know that I will not forget it lightly.

The novel itself is quite dark in terms of subject matter and so I would only recommend this for those age 13 and up. If you have been bullied, been a bully or watched bullying take place, you have to read this novel!
February 9, 2018


My first thought when I heard that there was a new book by Lindy Zart “I want to read it”

My second thought when I hear that there was a new book by Lindy Zart “Be careful what you wish for”

Why? Because this author is not giving you a story to read. No – she seems to be able to look right into the mind of people. And you will never know her next move. From reading the Blurb you will never know what she will do to you. You might end up in crying a river or smiling brightly. Only one thing is sure – “read and it will hurt” – good or bad hurt – you will only find out in the end. But before you will feel like she picked brains to write her story.

If you ask me what my first thought was after I finished reading “Bullies like me” by Lindy Zart, well that is easy . It would be a wish…I wished that schools would put this book into the hands of … hmmm lets say 14? Or 15 year olds and tell them to read it. Younger would even be better but they would probably not get the deeper meaning.

And I am thankful… so thankful that that when I was 16 there was no twitter, facebook, instgram or any other social media, because I understand some of the things that this author said at the and of the book on a very personal level. I understand them far better than I should.

I refuse to give details on the story itself but the view points the author used were chosen very well. And even though some secrets were not so secret, I felt that that might have even been on purpose as it pulls the reader even deeper in the story.

Once you get to know the characters you can connect to them – and I mean ALL of them , the good, the bad and the ugly. The bad will still remain bad but the reader will start to understand how it became that way. The whole story will enfold itself and present its picture to you – It will teach you –or at least I really hope it will teach you, which is why I would hope for this book to be read in schools.

So far all of the books by this author that I read were not simply stories. They were lectures , lectures that used the cover of being a romance novel to hide their true meaning.
Quite clever actually – and I honestly never read a story on this subject until today - that transfers the reality on this subject so well from all sides.

The difference between aggressor and victim is ? what actually ? I think it is the one moment of clarity where that person sees the whole picture. And I hope that this moment will come early enough….
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3,625 reviews150 followers
December 29, 2016
I know I won't do this book justice with my review because the book is that good.
Alexis moves to a new and a new school, we all know how hard high school is never mind if your the new girl. Alexis for no apparent reason is ruthlessly bullied but that the thing about bullies they don't need a reason, it could be your clothes, your haircut it could be the way you smile.
Alexis solution to her problems is drastic and something we all read about more and more these days thankfully it doesn't work and she is sent to a facility to get help. She meets Nick and they form a deep emotional bond but Nick is a mystery, you can tell he's suffering but we don't know why, we don't know how he is connected to the doctor who oversees their care, we don't know why no one visits him. When Alexis is well enough to go home and back to school she's a girl with a plan, a plan called revenge.
You may not like what she does but I understood it. As Nick and Alexis spend more time together their relationship develops into romance it doesn't feel cliched or forced it feels natural and right.
This is a story full of pain, anger, hate, self loathing you can feel it vibrating off the pages. There are multiple PoV's throughout the story but that doesn't make it hard to follow it gives a rounded version. At times it's hard to read so I can only imagine how hard it was to write, it is done beautifully with no sugar coating. A story that will break your heart but will also give you hope.
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December 30, 2016
There are very few books that stay with you days after you finish. This book is still with me, in the back of my mind. What a real and amazing story of 2 kids. A story of revenge and remorse.

Your heart just breaks for these two and their stories of how very different social status can affect us all. Actions don't just hurt but words too.

This book has all the feels just like every book I've read from Lindy Zart. She has a way to make you feel the words and emotions. I finished this just after midnight and I laid there for hours thinking about the story of Nick and Alexis. What if this was one of my kids? What if he/she was Bullied or was the Bully?

It was beautifully told and recommend this book to everyone!
I wish I could give it 6 stars just so everyone knows how important the message of this book really is.
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2,277 reviews58 followers
December 30, 2016
Bullies Like Me is one powerful read. A story that is so engaging, it was hard to put it down. Lindy Zart dives in head first with this tale of one girl's quest to exact a bit of revenge on the bullies that made her life miserable at her new high school. The book is told in 3 different POV's and it was a fascinating and often times brutal experience getting to see exactly how difficult life can be for both bully and victim.

Lexie's decision to rejoin her high school after time away at a home for troubled youths seemed foolish at first but her plan to make her tormentors had me both cheering and cringing more than once. As much as you want Lexie to get back at Melanie (one of the 3 POV's) and Jocelyn and even soft-spoken Casey, it was hard to read at times. I felt as if I was back to those unsure times when you never want to say or act out of place, for fear someone will make fun of you. I felt the anguish deeply. You become part of this book it is that engaging.

With the addition of Nick as Lexie's sole confidant, we get a perspective that becomes all tangled up in Lexie's world. And as the story progresses, secrets are revealed with a betrayal that both Lexie and I did not see coming. It's immensely emotional and with all that Lexie has to manage in her life, it's a wonder she is able to come out of it intact.

There is a huge climax towards the end that had me holding on tight to my Kindle. And finding out that the story is semi-autobiographical made it that much more intense. Lindy Zart has given a voice to a problem that does not go away. We see it often in the news how bullying can lead to such despair that solutions carried out are not always concluded with a happy ending.

I applaud the author for tackling such a sensitive subject with a grace and compassion you don't often encounter. She dug deep and used her own experiences in a manner that is incredibly brave on her part. It is masterfully written and a book I will not soon forget.

Well worth your time I wish I could give this one more than 5 stars.
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582 reviews
January 5, 2017
Sempre gostei de ler sobre bully por inúmeras razões, acho que o assunto é extremamente relevante e que necessita ser discutido. Quando terminei de ler o livro e vi o que a autora escreveu sobre ela, tudo se tornou tão real e triste, ao passo que Lindy conseguiu sair desse mundo tão vil que é a escola quase intacta por assim dizer, muitas pessoas não conseguem.

Alguns dados:

-A Universidade de Yale dos Estados Unidos analisou 37 pesquisas mundiais que relacionam o bullying como uma das PRINCIPAIS causas do suicídio de crianças e adolescentes. E mais, o suicídio é a 3ª maior causa de mortalidade no mundo, nesta faixa etária.

-Apenas nos Estados Unidos, cerca de 160 mil estudantes deixam de ir para a escola, diariamente, por causa do bullying.

-Os danos vão desde o medo e pânico de ir à escola, a faltas sistemáticas dos alunos o estresse, a raiva, a impotência, até o pleno descontrole e desespero. Este último, somado aos demais sentimentos torturantes e depressivos, podem criar a vergonha tóxica.

-Hoje se digitarmos bully no google iremos ver inúmeros casos de jovens que acabaram por tirar a vida devido a esse mal que domina em muitas escolas.
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"Its's not normal to belittle others. It's not normal to think you're better than everyone else. It's not normal to think it's okay to put others down. It's not normal to want others to feel bad so you can feel good."
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1,776 reviews50 followers
February 7, 2017
A brilliant look at bullying told from 3 POV. A bully. The victim. The hope. Lucky for us all 3 narrative characters are some mix of both.

Alexis Hennessy, is in Live, a rehab facility, recovering from a failed attempt of suicide by pills. A distant relationship with her father. Abandoned by her mother. She is lost but healing with the thanks to the doctors and staff and a boy.

Nick Alderson, mystery boy, also in the facility but she doesn't know why. She just knows he makes her feel again. Makes her want to get better. To live. All while his on self-hate is hidden in secrets.

Melanie Mathews, Alexis' tormentor, who doesn't even remember her when she goes back to school. She is about to get a rude awakening when the tables are turned on her.

This book is an amazing look at all sides of bullying. The hurt, the pain, the reasons and the hope to get through it and to recover from it. I couldn't put the book down, literally. Read from start to finish in one sitting. Must read for parents of tweens and teens and then maybe given to said children to read.

Excellent read!
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999 reviews42 followers
December 27, 2016
Yet again, Lindy Zart has given us another story which has blown me away. This story is about bullying, but so much more than that. She manages to tell a story, which is actually really very real, raw and extremely relevant in all of our lives.

If you yourself, or anyone you know has been affected by bullying (whether as the bully or the bullied) then you should read this book. If you have children, grandchildren, any family or friends with children, then you should read this book. And to be honest, even if you think none of the above applies, I still think you should read this book - so many important messages are shared in this story, they can be applied to so many different scenarios and situations in life, everyone can learn and come away thinking about a thing or two. Plus it's simply a damn good story!!!

Bullies Like Me is told from multiple PoV's in the first person, including Alexis (or Lexie), Melanie and Nick. I think this gives a great insight into the lives and minds of different characters featured in the story line - we can see how certain actions can be perceived one way, and they impact they can have as well from different PoV's. I perhaps would have even liked another PoV from Jocelyn or the other girls, as it wasn't totally clear to me why Melanie was singled out.

Nick and Alexis' friendship that they develop at Live is brilliant. I liked how their storyline developed without actually reveling either of one another's full truths for quite some time. I liked the chemistry and the connection between them both, although as a reader not really knowing which direction things may go...

"He's just a boy. Just a boy who makes my world spin. He doesn't smile when I bring my eyes back to his. I don't smile either. I am acutely aware of his warmth, his scent. His life. It feels like something's changed between us, and I'm not sure when that happened."

When all of the truths do come out as the story progresses, we can really see the full impact everyone's actions can have on everyone around them.

This book contains a lot of hate, anger, hurt, tears, pain and desperation. As a reader you will feel many of these emotions yourself. Personally I connected with the characters really well, and found myself totally consumed by the story and the messages behind it. As a reader it's very easy to say "oh, she shouldn't be doing that", or "He should just do this", but I think unless you are there, and in the situation how can you fully understand the minds of those involved? I really felt a connection to this whole story and urge all the rad it. As much as this is a powerful and devastating story, there is also a lot of good in here too. A lot of happiness, positive feelings, strength and HOPE are important parts too.

I can see this must have been a very difficult book to write, and reading the authors note at the end makes you realise just how REAL this story can be in all of our lives, at whatever age you are.

***** 5 brilliant stars *****
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257 reviews15 followers
December 28, 2016
Wow.

This book is shattering. It's eye opening and secret revealing. It's not just for lovers of a specific genre, it is for everyone. It's for anyone who has ever been picked on, it's for the people who do the bullying, it is for the parents who struggle to understand or remember where their kids are coming from, it's for the teachers who care and also for the ones who don't understand what the 'big deal' is. It's High School, such a short and seemingly inconsequential time in your life that some of us are lucky to survive.

There are only a few books that you'll pick up throughout your life and deeply connect with. For me, this was one of them. Bullying is awkward and uncomfortable, nobody wants to talk about it... and they certainly didn't want to address it when I was growing up. I felt helpless and alone more times than I could possibly count, I even spent some time in a hospital program myself once upon a time (or senior year). Youth and adolescence is not often pretty. It is generally hard and unforgiving, especially if you don't fit into some cookie cutter mold of what is 'cool' for your generation. It seems so monumental at the time, all the crap that you take and the way that you feel while you're struggling to live through it. The only real reward is that it actually does get better. You get older, you become a bit wiser, and you find your own version of 'cool'.

The characters that Lindy gives life to in this story are wonderful. They aren't perfect at all, they're real. They are struggling, hurting and messy. Lexie is damaged and pretty unsure of who she actually wants to be. Her confusion and resentment makes for one heck of a plot. Watching her discover and find her true self is amazing. Nick is a disaster and completely broken. He has had a complete mental break down and can't quite live with the depth of his impact on the world. We get to see him come undone, and then slowly get stitched back together by the most unlikely of sources. I can't give an accurate description of what these two characters mean to me, but it's something of epic proportions.

This book reached into my heart and gave it a big old squeeze. It hurt me and then it healed me. I was so blown away and beyond moved, especially by the authors note at the end. It's amazing how many people struggle with scars that aren't visible, and the message that the author had for us was clear. We shouldn't have to be ashamed or embarrassed of who we are. People can be awful, mean, vile, snide, guilty, weak, honest, warm, charming, genuine... but why the heck wouldn't we all choose to be kind? Why wouldn't we treat people the way we want to be treated? We only get one life and we should be filling it with happiness, not hate. I would love nothing more than to give Lindy a big hug and maybe a round of applause for grabbing this touchy and risky subject matter and breathing some new life and wisdom into it. Brilliant.

Please read this story, take it and learn something. Bullying is never okay, no matter what the reason. Someone ALWAYS gets hurt.
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December 19, 2016
This is a FIVE star young adult read. It is a heart wrenching tale about how devastatingly cruel people can be to one another as well as a heart warming tale of finding that glorious light in the overwhelming darkness.

This novel is written in multiple POV's which not only show the trauma of the bullied but also the nature of the bully.

Primarily we have Lexie's story. She is forced to attend a new high school and, for whatever undeserved reason, is the victim of unrelenting bullying. She feels she is unable to continue with the torture and attempts suicide. We meet her after this and follow her through her return back to school.

We meet Nick, a youth at the same treatment center as Lexie. They find a solace in one another. When we meet Lexie, she is ready to leave the treatment facility but Nick does not feel ready to leave and remains for a time. As with many in a mental health treatment facility, he tends to guard his secrets closely.

Finally, we also meet Melanie, the bully. We see inside her mind and realize the bully has secrets too.

This is a very realistic portrayal of what unfortunately does happen in many high schools across our nation. You will seeth with anger. You will cry with despair. And yes, you will also smile.
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139 reviews6 followers
January 2, 2017
I'm not sure I'll get through this review in one sitting as the story is still so fresh in my mind and the tears and anger keep flooding back. Lindy Zart has, once again, dug into the deepest, darkest part of human nature and wrote the truth we don't want to admit.
I connected to this story on so many levels - as a teacher, mother, daughter, and once-bullied girl.
This story should be read by every adolescent, bully, bullied, or bystander. This isn't the fairy tale we wish our world was, but the reality that it is. Not everyone is nice, or wants to be. Not everyone will survive in such a world.
As with all of Lindy's stories, there is more to the story than bullies and the bullied. It is also about the relationship between a father and daughter, and the struggle to understand the other. It is the story of abandonment, and the emotional storm left behind. It is a story about understanding the consequences of your actions.
*NOTE: Make sure to read the Note from the Author, at the end of the story. It makes the story even more important to share. Because I believe so strongly in this story, I will be buying paperbacks of this book and donating to our school and public libraries.
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181 reviews
December 27, 2016
„Bullies like me“ tackles a tough subject but Lindy Zart wrote this story in such a real and raw way, I wish all kids, parents, teachers … would read it.
The different POVs give great insight into the characters and show that there is never just one side...nothing will ever make bullying ok but I think it was really important that the book tells the „villains“ POV too.
Lindy Zart absolutely captured me with her writing style and she made me feel with and for Alexis, Nick and Melanie. Their journey is mostly heartbreaking but some scenes had me smiling too (Hug Rosie and grey pants ;) )
The author‘s note at the end touched me deeply and makes this book so much more significant.
Besides the tough subject it‘s a great story about friendship, acceptance, forgiveness and love.
This book will stay with me forever and I‘d recommend it to everyone.

ARC provided in exchange for an honest review
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December 28, 2016
Bullies Like Me by Lindy Zart is the book of 2016. The sensitive topic of bullying is tackled head on in this book. Lexie, Nick, Melanie, Jocelyn, and Casey are in high school and they are learning that life is a cruel, cruel lady.
I really enjoyed how the characters were all connected. Lindy Zart did a phenomenal job of revealing each layer and complexity of the characters throughout the story. With each reveal, the reader is shown how words and actions can really hurt someone. This book has an important message that needs to be seen by everyone who has been a victim of bullying, even the bullies themselves need to read this story.
Kudos to Lindy Zart for writing a YA story that tackles this issue. I will definitely recommend this story to others. I strongly give it 5/5 Platypires.
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Author 1 book40 followers
February 7, 2017
This book really stuck with me. Being a victim of bullying, I can relate to the main characters and what they were experiencing. This is a book for readers who have felt helpless in the face of adversity.
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529 reviews62 followers
December 28, 2016
4.5 STARS!

I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.

New girl, Alexis is bullied relentlessly at school. It causes her to commit harm to herself and she ends up at a mental health facility. That’s when she meets Nick. Nick harbors some darkness of his own. He is forever haunted by his past But with Alexis, he can breathe a little more. The weight he carries seems to be lighter when she is around. When Alexis leaves the facility his only solace is he will see her when she comes by to see her doctor. Nick can’t leave and he can’t tell her why. As Alexis returns to school she is determined to see through that her bullies never bring her that low again. That they should feel everything she does. How far is she willing to go?

The synopsis barely touches the surface on just how deep this book is. There are twists and turns and secrets. There is revenge. Redemption. Retribution. Hope. Rather than give away the plot, I’d rather discuss just how much this book allowed me to feel. The author places you with her characters to allow you as a reader to understand their emotions from pain and despair to their hopes and dreams. This was unlike anything I’ve ever read. The refined prose will blow you away. The execution and development of the story was just brilliant. The writing is riveting, honest, and raw. The author holds nothing back.

To the forgotten, the ashamed, the hurt. This book? This book is your voice. The author wants us to hear you. And we do. Loud and clear. The author gives a voice to a very relevant and dangerous issue in our society. Her characters have so much buried deep inside of them. But the author never fails to remind you just how brave these souls are. Bullies Like Me is a poignant, thought provoking, and intense read. To say I was moved would be an understatement. This profound story was nothing short of phenomenal.
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571 reviews123 followers
January 3, 2017
My question after reading this book is Why? Why can’t more authors be like Lindy Zart, an author (and person, don’t forget she’s a real live person) that marches to their own beat. You know why I love reading Lindy Zart books, because they are not your everyday romance, billionaire, step-brother drama mama, love triangle stories that most other indie authors are writing, don’t get me wrong, I love those books too… really, I do. But Lindy’s books are different, they have real depth, and truth, and are written with such care, you can’t let yourself stop reading.

Now obviously, I am a true Zartian… and love everything that Lindy has written, but this book blew me away, it was on another level. If I had to classify its genre, I’d say young adult. It’s a story that relatable to anyone that went to high school, ANYONE. Even if you were not bullied, or did not bully any one yourself, you know that somewhere in your high school, this was going on. I think this book should be read by high school students around the country. It was eye opening, and brilliantly written.

For true romance readers, I know this is not your normal read, but trust me… everyone needs to read this. Everyone. I don’t want to give too much of the story away because it is one of the books you should go in blind too, so please, just read this five-star book today. And, if you have young adults in your life, this is book I highly recommend they read as well. It could possible change someone’s life.

Thank you, Lindy, for sharing such a brilliant, heartfelt story.

Tonya Nichols
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5 Brilliant Stars
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151 reviews2 followers
June 22, 2023
Wow! Such an amazing read and impossible to put down!
Although the story is that her dark, with all the main characters not being in a great place mentally, this really was a gripping story.

I don’t want to give too much away so I’ll try and not spoil it -
The story is told from three different perspectives - Alexis, a 16 year old girl, already broken from her mother’s rejection/disappearance is forced to move away with her Dad and start a new school. At this school, she is relentlessly bullied to the point where she attempts suicide and ends up in an youth mental health unit.

Nick - a 16/17 year old boy who is also an inpatient at the same mental health unit and ends up falling for Alexis and vice versa. Nick is holding a massive dark secret or two which did become fairly obvious to me quite a few chapters before it was revealed. However - it’s an amazing twist! I shan’t say any more.

Melanie - The bully. The girl who made Alexis’ life so unbearable. The bully who is that full of herself, she didn’t even realise that her victim was missing for 8 weeks, while she took the time to try and recover from her horrendous ordeal.

The story is about bullying, suicide, mental health, relationships, betrayal, realisation and healing.

It’s impossible to get board of this story as it switches from person to person and there is so much going on. What also makes it interesting is that, sadly, the story is based upon the authors own experiences.

5 stars from me and one of the best books I’ve read so far this year.

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December 27, 2016
With a title like this, I knew this would be a subject close to my heart and many others, I was an unfortunate victim of bullying at school and it hurts. So I was interested to see what or how Lindy would deal with this core subject, I knew she wouldn't just touch on it and breeze past it. Therefore, I went in with caution knowing that my emotions would be seriously played with.

I wasn't wrong. Told from multiple POVs Lindy honestly left no subject untouched, there was so many levels and depths of emotions that felt raw and real along with the feeling of hopelessness brought out Lindy's writing style to perfection. What I loved was the glimmers of a hope that helped my heart heal.

I implore you if you were or suffered at the hands of a bully, or not, if you have children of any age to read this book, in fact even if you don't pick it up it is a book that should not be ignored. It gives you a perfect insight into how cruel we can be to one another. It makes you the reader sit back on your haunches and think hard. But it allows you to see the light and move forward.

I applaud Lindy for reaching out and you will see why, this book is as raw as it is emotional and I am sure it was not an easy write !

5 Wonderfully bright Stars x

Donna
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March 8, 2017
"Bullies Like Me" By: Lindy Zart - Book Review

Bullies Like Me is outside my normal romance genres, but this is one of the most enjoyable books I've read in a long time. I am super stingy with five star ratings, and this novel deserved it from page one. The story is told from the perspective of Alexis, Nick, and Melanie. Three Enid Illinois high school students whose lives are all impacted by bullying in very different ways.
 
After Alexis Hennessy's mother left them and her sister moved away to start her life, her father moves them to Enid Illinois. From her first day at Enid High school, her experience was a nightmare. Every day she was picked on and put down over and over until it became too much for her to handle. She felt like she wanted to die, so she swallowed her father's bottle of pills and was rushed to the hospital, Her stomached pumped, and was given a second shot at life at the Live Treatment Center. While there, she met a boy named Nick who quickly became her closest friend.
 
"Inside these walls we formed a make-belive world for the two of us. It isn't real, but I wish it was."
 
I immediately liked both Nick and Alexis. There was an obvious chemistry there, but it's still new and it's really sweet. The characters are all in high school, a little younger than I usually enjoy reading, however the age group was necessary for this story line.
 
With her therapy finished, aside from weekly sessions, she is able to leave the Live Center, but she isn't ready to leave Nick or go home to an absent father, and she definitely isn't ready to go back to Enid High. To heal, she needs to face her tormentors and move on from her past. She also has her own ideas on how to get closure.
 
"I became someone that wanted to die. 
And that makes me angriest of all. That I gave them that power, that I let them decide my value. Monday, I'm going back to the school that took my soul. I have to. It's the only thing that makes sense, the only thing that makes it all endurable. Because I have something I need to do. I'm taking back what was taken from me. 
I'm going to make my bullies pay."     
 
Melanie Mathews is the most popular girl at Enid High School and she is all too aware of that fact. She is instantly dislikable, which is the point as she looks down on everyone and everything around her, including her own mother and 'friends'.  The way she thinks about others is appalling, and what's worse, she acts on those thoughts.
 
She is taken off guard when the vaguely familiar new girl is not only not acknowledging her place, but is outright antagonizing her. She confronts the girl, only for her to act unaware. While angered by this "weird" girl's actions, Melanie is also confused as to why this happening, and unfamiliar with being treated this way.         
 
" I shake off the tainted remnants of the ugly drawing, and the weird girl. Calming down, I realize neither are worth being upset over. She's nobody. I won't let her think otherwise by showing that her behavior troubles me. 
I won't allow her to be somebody."
 
She handles the bullying alright in  the beginning, but before long, she starts losing her friends and  popularity. She realizes over time that none of her so-called "friends" are real. She begins to feel things she has never really experienced, such as anxiety and insecurity. Through it all she wonders why Alexis chose her to pick on. And I'm not gonna lie, I got pleasure in her getting a bit of what she'd dished out over the years.
 
"My chest is tight. I've never felt like this before. I don't understand what it means. What is happening to me?" 
 
Nick Alderson was probably my favorite character. He is a resident of the Live center by choice. He knows first hand the toll bullying can take. Before he came to Live, he was a completely different person. The king of Enid High, he and his friends were cruel to the less popular, one boy unparticular. When horrific events unfold because of his actions, he has a break down and was drowning in guilt until the day he met Alexis Hennessy. I absolutely loved the way he would speak of her.
 
"She hums with energy. Her cheeks are flushed, her eyes sparkle, and I want to press my lips to hers to steal some of her vibrancy. That, and I just want to kiss her. "
 
Their bond cleared some of the darkness in his mind, and while he has an idea, he doesn't what happened to bring Alexis to Live, and she definitely doesn't know about his past. He sees her when she comes to therapy, and as their relationship turns romantic, she eventually wants him to leave the facility. Something he hasn't done since arriving at Live. She gives him a hope for happiness.
 
He has no idea what she's doing to Melanie at school, but when she finally tells him, he fears for her. He tells her to stop and is certain if she continues what she's doing, it will change her.  
 
:Revenge destroys, and that's all it does. This darkness, if she lets it, will abolish her as well as her enemies."
 
She doesn't understand why he doesn't support her until his history comes out. She is more determined than ever to finish what she started. Nick knows how this all will end if he lets her do this. He just hopes he isn't too late. 
 
This book was so much more than just an entertaining story. The message of the importance of kindness and forgiveness towards others, and yourself was quite powerful. The author's personal connection to the topic showed and it was a beautiful combination. I would personally recommend this book to anyone 10+.  

 
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14 reviews
April 6, 2021
What I really liked was that this book and the characters felt real. I read this book whithin a day and it was really addicting which is why I gave this book 5 stars. Especially just because it is a very important topic and it is really well done.
What I didn't like that much was just that I thought at the end the scene at the dock didn't feel realistic to me so I got a bit out of the story I don't know... And what about Jocelyn? I feel like we got redemption for every one and every one's motives more or less but never learned about Jocelyn. I just don't believe that she is just that a horrible person whitout any depth to her...?
Overall though, a great novel and story.
Uh and I really liked the relationship between Alexis and her father and how she fought for it and confronted him and how it paid off was just nice to read about and encouraging I guess.
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507 reviews15 followers
December 27, 2016
'I received a complimentary copy of this book from the author in exchange for an honest review'

This book was AMAZING and I would give it more than 5 stars if I could. I related to the main character in so many ways. The days that I was bullied were in elementary school instead of high school but I remember the way it felt. This book is one of those where you can tell where things are going but you don't want it to be the truth, and you have to see it through to find out what actually ends up happening. I went through an emotional roller coaster while reading this book. In all honesty I could not put it down. This is definitely in my top 10 books.

I very highly recommend reading!

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6,230 reviews40 followers
June 29, 2018
Alexis has been bullied so badly at school that she tries to take her life. She spends two months at a care center before she's able to go back to school.

Alexis is returning with an attitude, though. She wants to bully the bullies and she sets out to do just that, particularly on one named Melanie.

Alexis also meets a boy at the center and she really likes him. Nick, the boy, became her boyfriend which lasts until she finds out the truth about him.

Alexis is able to break Melanie's spirit but has to decide if she wants to really continue doing this type of thing or if she wants to choose a 'higher' course. Things literally become a matter of life or death as she talks to Melanie during a storm.

Sometimes people need to remember we can easily become that which we hate the most.
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127 reviews10 followers
February 1, 2017
Powerful message!

It takes more courage to live than to die.

Take that in. Think about it. No one should be able to determine our own self worth. Everyone has either been bullied or was a bully. Stand up for yourself.

Mental illness and suicide are still stigmas in today's world. One day I hope the shame and embarrassment are gone. One think that really stayed with me was that some people are too kind hearted for this world. It's very hard to live and live well. But damn it's worth it.
41 reviews1 follower
August 29, 2019
Deep and amazing!

Can I give 6 stars to a book? Please? This story is full of hurt and reality. Amongst all the suffering, there's hope, love and redemption. It's beautifully written and touches your soul. Even though the author almost gave me a heart attack. If you're/were bullied, you'll feel represented. If you never wore, read it anyway so you can learn a thing or two. I just finished the book and I'm still in tears. My heart was touched. My soul too. Amazing.
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1 review11 followers
September 19, 2017
This book was by far my favorite Lindy book. I have almost every one of her books on my kindle, but this one was a must have in hard a hard copy type of book.

I had my 14 year old read it and he too couldn't put it down, for long...

You won't be disappointed if you pick this book up- just keep the tissue near by.
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Author 14 books138 followers
December 28, 2016
I'm really at a loss for words on this book. It's powerful, painful, gripping. It's unique in the multiple point of views. Her words go from the page and manage to grip your heart and soul. This author took on tough subject for this novel, and I think she did an incredible job.
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214 reviews
June 15, 2020
“I prefer Sia’s voice to his” this girl deserves to get bullied
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