A Huge thank you to FSG Originals for sending me an ARC of this book in exchange of an honest review.
I loved this book, I loved and hated the totally unreliable Elsa, her drug induced stupor, the way that she had zero clue on how terrible of a person she truly was. She was oblivious to her selfishness, she was oblivious to anyone, but herself. Her friends, the men in her life, nothing mattered but the pills in her purse. She was so out of it most of the book that she put herself in the most dangerous situations. She was so focused on running from her past, and not facing what had happened, she lies to her friends about why she came, and instead of healing herself, she decides it's better to be wreck-less and uncaring. She is determined to ride the downward spiral.
Sometimes you fall in love, and it's dark, and intense, and it holds such a power of you, that when you lose it, you just don't know what to do with your life. Your obsessed with your past, and you wonder what you could have done to have made things worse.
Elsa decided to lie, to party, to do drugs, drink, and suck her friends into her world, without any concern for them. Tragedy hits, and she still doesn't change. Her final choice at the end of the book left me a bit puzzled, but then I realized it was the perfect choice for her, because that's just the type of shallow person she was.
I loved the writing in this book, I really felt like I was living within the pages. It really just had me hooked from the first page. I am so grateful I got to read Liska Jacobs first novel, she did such a stunning job. I look forward to many more of her books.