3.5/5. This book leaves me feeling rather ambivalent. On the one hand, the writing is very good, drawing me in and making me feel the joy and pain and the full roller-coaster ride that the characters experienced. But ah, the frustrations I had towards Jake, who just constantly leeched off Della emotionally and gave her very little in return. He was self-absorbed throughout the book, never really developed much personal growth along the way, except we are supposed to believe, right towards the end, after 2 damn years of estrangement from Della and his daughter Skye. And Della, she just got sucked right back in each time, and once again towards the end, when she finally had a chance of happiness with the very loving Owen, she chose the wrong path when two roads diverged. Della put it best, when she said:
If mind-fuckery were a sport, Jacob Wheeler was a gold-medal champion.
He needed her to constantly rescue and boost him up, regardless that by doing so, he was trampling on and climbing all over her to get his air. And when she finally needed rescuing, he ran away to be rich and famous, justifying that she was in the hands of good friends and loved ones. And the old excuse of being lonely, to justify his betrayal(?s) of her!
Talking about betrayal, there was a lot of infidelities in this book, which left me feeling a bit icky. Yes, they have this grand love and all, but their first time together was while he was married , and they proceeded to lie to Melanie about it afterwards. And then there's poor Owen, who got screwed over a few times by their screwing.
Her friends were great, especially Oskar, the exuberant and dramatic finger-clicking OTT bestie, who was always there to pick up the pieces of her heart and glue them back together like a mosaic. But Della, Della could be less of a doormat, and I cannot help but feel that she wasted the best years and the remaining years of her life for a very undeserving guy, who just did not grovel enough. In fact, I'm not sure any amount of grovelling will make up for his emotionally neglectful and oblivious treatment of her throughout the years.
The plot did hop around a fair bit, rather abrupt at times, taking me a few sentences to realise where along the timeline we have moved to. But, I shed tears. Yes, the author managed to move me despite me not caring about one half of the protagonists. So, I still am struggling to come up with a suitable rating to reflect my mixed feelings. 3.5/5 it is.