3.75
I like reading books with angst in them and like most MR's books this one was an angst-fest. Also, it had all the tropes I usually like - a second-chance romance between an arrogant, stubborn hero and spunky stubborn heroine who end their separation of three years and try to work their way back to each other as they resume their marriage while the OW is still around to create mischief and angst.
And, I was also totally floored by Catherine and Vito's love for their son. I loved how united they were when handling their son's fears, insecurities or impertinence and how they did not let the bitterness they felt for each other seep into his love for them. On the contrary, if their son had even a fleeting doubt of either of his parent's love for him, the other would ensure that he knows it isn't true. Like the instance where Catherine points out to Santo the fact that Vito had flown the night over just because his son was upset with him or the time when Santo was rude to Catherine, Vito immediately tells him to apologize to his mother. And, it was mainly to ease Santos's fear of his father marrying Marietta --as the OW had led the child to believe-- that the two called of their divorce plans and decide to stay married and give their son the family he craved for. Santo was going to be their only child because after Catherine had miscarried their second child, the doctor had warned of risks to Catherine's life in future pregnancies. So they poured all their love into Santo.
I loved Santo. He was such an adorable kid. Like Catherine and Vito, I too, wanted to squeeze him in my arms during that scene when he walks into kitchen with a packed bag and tells his parents that he was running away. I loved that scene, loved how calmly and beautifully Catherine and Vito handled the situation while all along bridling their surging urge to hug their little boy who was upset and confused. I also liked Louise, Vito's mother a lot, how wonderful she was with both Santo and Catherine.
Now, coming to Vito and Catherine, the two had awesome chemistry and I liked that both were celibate during their separation. However, where in most second-chance books, the MCs work their way through past misunderstandings and anger, I didn't like that in this book the lies, deceptions, distrust and bitterness went on right until the end of the book. It made it difficult for me to digest the fact that the two loved each other.
I have to say I didn't like that Vito lied to Catherine about his past relationship with Marietta even though it was before Catherine had come into his life. I can understand with Marietta being his mother's goddaughter and a partner in his business, and like family to them, it was not possible for him to stay away from her, but I wanted to knock him in the head when he refused to believe Catherine when she tried to impress upon him that Marietta was causing mischief between them, especially after Santo also tells him about Marietta telling him she and his father were going to marry and they didn't want Santo in their lives. That dense man kept passing it off as a misunderstanding due to different languages on his son's part or a figment of his wife's imagination bordering on paranoia and it took him quite long --although not as long as Catherine took which was toward the end of the book-- to figure out that the two were telling the truth. Nevertheless, the moment he caught wisp of Marietta's ulterior motive, he immediately took steps to remove her from his life. Moreover, we did get to see glimpses of his sensitive side toward Catherine like the time she'd forgotten to take her contraceptive pill and there was likelihood of her conceiving, you could sense his fear for her life. He immediately organized the pills that would counter it, also sweetly waking her up and reminding her to take it. I also loved the scene where he steps back when Santo runs to greet him and Catherine on their return home after an emotional moment so that Santo hugs his mother first, knowing that she needed the hug from their son more than he did. There was no doubt that he loved his wife, his son and his mother.
As for Catherine, I loved her fierce love for her son. She was an excellent mother. But, I found it very difficult to believe her claim that she loved Vito when she was so distrustful of him right until the very end. I fully understand her anger and the reason for her walking out on the marriage. Any woman would feel cheated and betrayed on learning that while she was losing her baby, her husband, whom she needed the most at that time, was so busy with the OW that he reached his wife hours after everything had ended . No he didn't sleep with Marietta; he'd drunk himself into oblivion and not wanting his wife to see him in that condition, accepted Marietta's offer to straighten himself at her place where he ended up falling into a drunken asleep, which gave Marietta the opportunity to tell Catherine that he slept with her. Which is why, even though, Vito claimed he didn't sleep with Marietta, Catherine believed the OW's words over him. In HP land, even knowing how manipulative OW can be, the heroines go by the motto that the OW is always right. Besides, considering the frame of mind Catherine was in after having lost her baby and also her husband to the OW, it was natural that she'd be boiling with anger and wanting to lash out. And, considering that they never spoke after she'd walked out on the marriage, the anger, betrayal and animosity between them hovered like a dark cloud when they resumed their marriage three years later.
However, as the days progressed, as they begin to forge a new closeness as husband and wife and as a family, you'd expect her distrust of her husband would have waned, that she'd be able to deduce the truth gradually, but no; nothing of that sort happens. Her distrust went on until the big revelation at the very end of the book. So while she was playing happy families with Vito and having sex with him, she continued to believe that he was sleeping with Marietta, that he was having nightly trysts with the OW right under her nose. Even when the two go to Paris on work and he calls her every night, she believes the OW is there with him in the room. And, when he returns without Marietta, she's happy she got one week to play happy family and have bountiful sex with her hubby until the OW returned. And, this was my biggest peeve. It made me wonder how could she even bear to be touched by such a man, a man for whom she has this level of distrust where every time she sees or knows he's with the OW, she finds it impossible to believe that he could be doing anything other than having sex with the woman. Which is why, I felt having been inflicted by the treacherous body syndrome that made her melt every time her husband touched her, she kept confusing sex with love. Because to me, when there's not an iota of trust, there can be no love.
Nothing could shake her distrust of her husband. Not even instances where Vito was clearly harsh toward Marietta --deservedly of course-- like when he tells Marietta to take all her stuff from the room next to his and transfer it to his mother's wing of the house because he and Catherine needed space or the time he rudely tells her to go away because he wanted to be alone with Catherine. Furthermore, it never occurred to her that just like how Vito refused to believe she hadn't slept with Marcus while they were separated considering she, herself, had initially misled him into believing that lie and also he'd heard her screaming Marcus's name in her sleep with his own ears that perhaps Marietta too, had lied about Vito sleeping with her the night she miscarried the baby and that even now she was misleading her into believing that the two were sleeping together.
Woman to woman, she knew very well how manipulative Marietta could be, how sweet she was to Catherine and Santo in front of Vito and his mother, but a total witch behind their backs or how in front of Vito she sugar-coated every vicious insinuation meant for Catherine. Besides, she'd deduced on her own --which was one big wonder-- from Marietta's own twisted words during her showdown with Santo that Vito never had any intention of marrying the OW as she'd led Santo to believe. And yet, she let that witch play her, let her come between her and Vito and into the marital bed, instead of believing in her capabilities and power to keep her husband devoted to her and taking the woman full on, daring her to snatch her husband away from her. I wouldn't have expected this from someone timid and mousy, but Catherine was supposedly a smart, independent and spunky woman and that is why, in retrospective, to me all that spunk and independence she'd shown at the beginning like going to the courts forcing Vito to communicate with her only through the lawyers --as in Vito's words, "A pride you took from me and wiped the floor with the day you forced me into court to beg for the right to love my own son!'-- and every vitriolic lashing she gave Vito every now and then, came off as pure spite on her part. I was very disappointed to see someone supposedly as smart as her playing the victim and martyr as she stood steadfast in her distrust of her husband instead making use of some brain cells and making a few deductions of her own. Which is also why, I found difficult to believe in her love for Vito.
Had the lies, deceptions and distrust not carried on until the very end, this would have been an awesome read because the two of them, as I said earlier, had a wonderful chemistry and were absolutely amazing where their son was concerned, which is also the main reason I liked the book.
The epilogue was sweet, but would have been so much better if their baby had come into the world.
So, despite my peeve over Catherine's long-drawn out mistrust, I still liked the book a lot.