**Read for Jordan Ford's Summer Reading Challenge 2020. Prompt 4: A road trip book**
Rep: Bi main character and ownvoices blind main character. I remember reading the author is biromantic ace, so it kinda feels like it can also be ownvoices there? Idk, don't throw stones
‘I don’t think that’ll be too hard,’ Colt said. ‘Whatever you don’t do, the town will say you did anyhow.’
This is the story of 2 girl friends, Bo and Agnes and their friendship. They lead different lives and are looked at very differently in their small simple minded hypocritical Christian community.
Agnes is the quiet sheltered blind Christian girl, and I say it like this because people seem to associate her with innocence, helplessness... she's the "angel" due to her disability, instead of, you know, just a teen girl who happens to be blind and that has nothing to do with her wants. People shape her image for her and her parents are overprotective, instead of reinforcing her independence so she can take on the world as another cool chick who happens to be blind, like Molly Burke for example.
You see this in the completely opposite expectations, liberties and fussing involved when it comes to their 2 daughters. All the things they don't permit Agnes do, her sister does. They can't even imagine Agnes wanting or enjoying certain things, because of something she was born with and has no control over, and people tell her so. Yes, her blindness shapes her life in many ways, yet it's not a personality trait, people!
Bo, on the other hand... She's never had a chance of being seen as anything other than all the awful rumours people want to project on her since the day she was born a Dickinson. Young or old, the community is obsessed with predestination when it comes to that family: you can't be good, and they won't let you be. I want to say those gross fake Christian rednecks are probably living vicariously through all they've been imagining about this poor girl since she was a babe. Gross!
And I'll take my time making it known once again that church going isn't all it takes to be a good person or put anyone in God's favour. Gossiping, lying, making up rumours, spreading them, badmouthing, not giving people a chance, thinking ill thoughts about others and keeping in the way of their happiness, never letting them change or grown... basically, being an impediment to them moving forward with or, heck, even starting their life?? That isn't Christian, moral, good or appreciated. It's actually the opposite with a bitter sprinkle of hypocrisy, so stop ruining people's lives.
Back to Bo, my baby hasn't had it easy. It is true her family is trouble, (but it's what people tell them they are since infancy, which, like I said, is really damaging) so she has to deal with the whole town's scorn and poison for being "white trash", as well as her negligent family. Her father is gone, her mother is an addict, they're poor... some bad things have happened in the past. Her life is nothing but instability.
So we have a case of 2 different, according to society, girls whose image and even self worth has been manipulated by public opinion, in 2 very different, yet damaging all the same, ways for girls who are developing and coming into themselves, discovering themselves. And I find it interesting that Keplinger decided to show us this contrast. The "meek sweet girl" and the "loudmouth harlot". One is viewed as too helpless and a burden, someone to be taken cared of. Nevermind her stolen freedom or how she's being suffocated. The other is the depository for everything bad, sordic and shameless, not one soul caring that she's just a girl being robbed of soil and light to grow. That they're all complicit in ruining her future before it started, and they bare their venomous teeth in glee like it's their birthright.
In the end, both approaches are obviously wrong, some of them quite damaging and toxic. Be it the caretakers' "parenting" shaping a developing individual's adult-to-be, or how society deems to label and treat us, both have lifelong impact and, in the end, the individual takes the blame (and yes, not everyone has money for therapy - or access where they live -, and there's things in society, like prejudice that aren't for the individual to bear, but for us to grow out of. And as long as we remain ignorant, we're just going to keep making other people's lives awful). So be careful before you judge or utter unreflected words.
When it comes to Agnes' blindness representation, I mean, it's rude for us sighties to even think we can comment on how realistic or good or whatever it is, because for starters it's freaking own voices and there are different legally blind conditions, not to mention other health problems that affect vision, and their experiences are different. Follow some voices in the community, watch blind folks on youtube to get an idea. Which is what I do, and I can say it is within what I expected. Example: Agnes' expectations of how much light Bo actually needs to read at night, with no artificial light in the forest.
I've seen blind youtubers talk about what they can see, how they recognize things you wouldn't imagine, how amazed they are at what people with sight can or can't actually see, and thoughts that cross their mind but probably wouldn't cross ours. And this is why ownvoices is so great. Otherwise, Agnes would spend 50% of the book touching people's faces... *rolling my eyes*
Narrative choices: the story switches between Bo's pov which is set in the present -and written in the present tense -, and Agnes's which is set in the past - and, you guessed it, written in the the past tense.
Where we lived, we grew up being taught never to ask for things like that. Never to put people on the spot. You waited until it was offered, and even then, you were supposed to say no at least once. wtfrog that's how I work!!