28 and going on forever, going where gone is forgiven where dawn's rose- ravaged fingers go for the throat and nothing lingers
the old preoccupations no longer make sense chaos is finally a condition of restraint something the weak of heart repulse to
merely a recollection of anguish displaced
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first persona the second
you stand in the doorway and slur the landscape; my heart slants to an invisible angle and the screen door bangs hinge-captive, it's useless, an appearance, it's got too many holes to keep anything in or out, anyway.
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first persona the third
and gaining. there's not enough language to go around here in the middle of nowhere in the midst of chiasmus
just the wide open spaces of our longing
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first persona the fourth
and fallible, forthwith forgotten, not taken as granted but returning to the slanted sky - why?
better it's forgot, no heart here needs a free pot-shot.
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first persona the fifth
and johnnie walker's got the drift, got the avalanche got the scheme the one/two trust the one/two dream
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first persona corona
and personable too this here narrator's got a crimson blue got a magnetic bubble crown for you
don't take it personally it's not meant that way it's the you of you turns inside out they say
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first persona bizillionth
and since we are living and luscious on Olson's star the mayan bitch seeking a sun with her fingers craving and her breath undone
first persona and personally, yes
there's a chance of discovery but you never confess
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last persona
but not least in person, sometimes even I amaze easily
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the man with the broken neck
this is the century of the common man
the man with the broken neck tilts his head back and the world falls into place
he lives all his life imprisoned by square lines
a vicious music creates the tavern walls and the other breaks
inside him are small eggs and volcanoes
the man with the broken neck tilts his head back and the world is rewritten
he is not a man forced to do anything
the other collects past the limit, blood-running eyes, remember to deliver
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Past Cards
All Saints' Day Marriage between Marjorie Mary (from Brockville) and Douglas Damnation (from Ireland) annulled, cancelled, declared invalid.
Damnation in the photograph, heading for Korea, returning or smiling Dear saint wedding photograph somewhere in the memory, but destroyed in the aftermath. Marriage overgrown from the back seat of a Ford in February.
First inarticulate conception snowbound: A daughter, conceived in snow, received in snow.
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bellocq
it's the short way through repetition, the vague plagiarist haunting the darkness light steals bellocq knew it, him and them girls he wooed with gunpowder hard road to travel, to make alone
(a view, a camera nowadays, it's an instantaneous catch before the millionth of a second / then it freezes subject and the object disappears)
he breathed fire it extinguished him crippled reflection sharp in the tiny perfect windows hands swallowing the eye each act casting its author back
he believed hid his belief in an attempt to conceive images