Anger and Hate filled me for majority of this book and will probably stay my biggest fillings in it. I gave this a 4 star rating because page by page I just couldn't put it down even tho my feeling for Hayden from the last book did a complete 360 turn I loved him for how much he loved kenzie and how he would do anything for her but then Felicia his first love the one that ran away and abandoned him and his family came back after 4 years and that is where the down fall of Hayden and kenzie began.
Kenzie gave up her hole life for Hayden the dream she had chased from the moment she was old enough to walk. She lost her dad and her sisters for him and as much has that hurst her and broke her heart she was still okay because she had Hayden by her side.
Hayden's biggest fear was that one day Kenzie would wake up and resent him for losing her dream losing her career and family all in th one especially because he was still living Kenzies dream he was living both of the dreams and he wanted nothing more to get her back into racing. Give her back something she lost for him. But it wasn't that simple she couldn't just simply join another team she tried that but in her dads anger with her he made sure she was blacklisted to never ride for another team again. So that's when Hayden came up with a plane to buy Kenzies fathers side of the track and partner up with Keith and in return he would give Kenzie a job riding but there was one problem with the hole situation he needed to get money and lots of it in order to buy the track. So when an option came up to rejoin hookup back street racing again knowing Kenzie would never agree to such a thing after they both agreed to never do it again after the last time that was another part of the downfall of Hayden and Kenzie
It started out okay he lied to her and said Keith had a party for him to go to to get sponsors and told her she couldn't go as Keith didn't want her to witch was in every way believable as Keith hated her because of her dad she ended being oky with it because h reassured her that Felicia wouldn't be there as she was trying everything she could to get him back. At the start the lies were okay but then he started spending more and more time at these party's hardly spending anytime with Kenzie leaving her alone with nothing she had already lost everything except Hayden so as time went on she became mor and more unhappy as he started telling more and more lies she could tell there was something wrong she had this feeling that he wasnt telling the truth especially when it got out that Felicia had been texting him and sometimes he replied but he lied to her about it so when she found out a piece of her started dying she begged for the hole truth she could feel there was more but he promised her he would always tell her the truth so she agreed as long as he was always honest with her.
Lines started to blur as he found it hard to continue his anger towards Felicia and this is probably where I was getting the most angriest because after everything Kenzie did for him she didn't deserve what he was doing. He still refused to hear her out he wanted to know why she abandoned him but at the same time that was the anger he was holding on to but as she started showing up and started street racing with him he new what he was doing was wrong and if Kenzie found out he would break her heart he kept telling himself and Felicia he was doing it for Kenzie to give her her dream back but the past was slowly catching up he started thinking about Felicia more and more he even started to feel comfort in her then came the time where I lost all respect for Hayden not that Kenzie or anyone else will ever know but thanks to his side of the book I know. He was making love to Kenzie but then he started thinking about Felicia it sickened him but turned him on more then anything so he didn't try to fight it and picture Kenzie instead he aloud himself to believe it was her at lest he had the decency to feel sick and know what he did was completely disgusting on so many levels. So he started avoiding her more and more leaving her more and more alone.
Then came the night that broke my heart right along with Kenzies. Izzy rang everybody to get to the hospital Antonia had been admitted and taken to hospital and she was in surgery as Hayden, hookup and Felicia were all at a street race about to start when they got the call they got to the royal children's hospital fast and izzy took one look at all off them and new Hayden had been racing again he mentioned Antonias name and that instantly brought he back to reality as she told them what was going on it was her appendix Hayden relaxed and explained to her that it was okay doctors did surgery on people all the time for there appendix feeling relieved it was the little girls cancer back for the 3rd time as they all sat down on the waiting room chairs Felicia held Hayden's hand and he felt comfort and lost in memory's but then remebered the first time she was sick she abandoned them all and he also remembered Kenzie as soon as he through he hand away in slight disgust the waiting room doors burst open and Kenzie ran in looking frantic then her eye locked on to Hayden and he was out of the his seat and had her in his arms in seconds but has Kenzie looked at him she realised something so she asked how did he beat her there when he was ment to be at one of Keith's party's in LA but as he stumbled over words izzy ran up to Kenzie and broke down in he arms unable to not surport her friend she focused everything into izzy but after a bit hookup decided to make Hayden's life hell and told him they should get back to the race and that was when everything came tumbling down Hayden's lies unraveled around him as Kenzie realised the truth to every lie he told he tried to tell her it was all for her to get the money so she could race again and the part she pointed out that I like the most was so racing with Felicia behind my back for me and in that second to Kenzie her deepest fears had come true not only had she lost her career her family but she had now lost Hayden too as in her mind she now pictured them together as she said the words Hayden prayed he'd never here "where done" and I actually felt relived for her because as she pointed out she never expected anything but honesty and love from him to be there for her but instead he lied to her and left her on her own.
I was glade when izzy made Hayden leave instead of Kenzie he didn't deserve to be there it may of been his family first but Kenzie was now apart of the family to and he was the one that did this so he was the one made to leave. Felicia followed him that night and that was when the truth came out she finally got the chance to tell him why she left with the truth in the air and the 4 years of hurt he felt he actually understood but unfortunately he understood to late with thinking that because he understood she could have him back she trie to kiss him but he pushed her away for the first time he was no longer confused about his past and his future kenzie never ran Kenzie always stayed and stood by him no mater what there was to lose and she sure as hell lost it all but she was there his eyes finally opened and I was so angry that it took untill then to realise what he did Felicia may have once had a piece of his heart but Kenzie now owned both his heart and sole and he would never give up on them and for the first time Felicia understood what she done was never right
Kenzie went to her fathers house the next morning after the hospital and I had never been so proud of her as this is almost one of my favourite passages from the book I'm just going to copy and paste the hole thing out of the book its one of my favourite because in this moment it's the moment her father truly realises exactly how much damage he has done to his daughter how much pain he has caused her.
~Hopping off my bike, I strutted to his front door and started banging on the hard wood. It was an overly aggressive greeting, and I knew that, but I was too fired up to do anything else. Dad appeared a few moments later. His stern gaze and disapproving frown showed no signs of weariness; I knew he’d been awake. “Mackenzie, why are you trying to break down my door?”
“I thought you’d be interested to know that I just quit Benneti Motorsports.” His eyes brightened at hearing me say that. He opened his mouth, but I didn’t let him respond. “I also broke up with Hayden.” A sharp knife slowly drew across my heart with that admission, but I didn’t let the pain show on my face. Dad didn’t get to see that.
His earlier happiness paled in comparison to the joy I saw now. “Mackenzie, that’s—”
I lifted my hand to stop whatever encouraging words he’d been about to give me. “Neither of those two things changes anything between you and me. We’re done too. Have been for a while, truth be told.”
“I…that’s not what I… Mackenzie, be reasonable.” Dad was trying to make his face imposing again, but there was fear in his expression now, like he finally understood that he’d taken things entirely too far and there was no going back.
“I am being reasonable, Dad. You shut me out, because of a boy. You blocked off every avenue, closed every door. I wouldn’t be surprised if you purposefully stoked Theresa and Daphne’s anger toward me, all to make sure I was completely alone. If you could have corrupted Myles and Nikki, I’m sure you would have done that too.” My hands clenched as I thought about that very real possibility. “Why go through such extremes? Because I didn’t do what you wanted me do? Is your pride that fragile?”
His eyes turned pleading. “I know you don’t understand, but it was for your betterment. I was trying to help you.”
Annoyance built up inside me like burrs under my skin; I was so tired of people doing horrible things for my benefit. “All you ended up doing, Dad, was ruining our relationship. And unlike what happened with you and Mom, no amount of counseling is going to save us. I’m done trying to understand you, and I can’t forgive you for what you did.” A warm numbness started blanketing me as my words sunk into my pores. It was sad that things were over, but it was the truth. A bridge had been burned, one that couldn’t be repaired; there was no point mourning it now.
As I grew calm, Dad grew frantic. Stepping forward, he put his hands on my upper arms. “I’ll get you a job, I’ll make this right. I’m sorry if I took things too far, I was just trying to make you see—”
Brushing his hands off me, I firmly told him, “What I saw, was that Keith might have been right all along. You can be ruthless, relentless, and emotionless when you want something badly enough. That might have served you well as a racer, but they’re not good attributes, Dad. And as far as getting me a job…don’t bother. I’ll refuse anything you send my way.”
Shock turned Dad’s face a pale white, and he looked about to interrupt. When he said my name, I steamrolled right over him. “No, I’m tired of being manipulated. I’m tired of reacting to things, instead of making them happen.” With a sarcastic smile, I shook my head. “Congratulations, you successfully got me blacklisted from the sport—your sport. You single-handedly ended what could have been a family legacy, but I don’t give a shit about that legacy anymore. If I can’t race motorcycles, then fine, I’ll just find a new sport to shine in. And I will be able to shine, because I won’t have your shadow hovering over me anymore. I’ll no longer be known as Jordan Cox’s daughter first and a competitor second. I’ll just be a competitor, same as everyone else, and that’s more than enough for me.” Hope bloomed inside my tormented heart, and, straightening my stance, I lifted my chin and stared him down; for once, I didn’t feel like his inferior or subordinate. I felt...invincible."~
(Excerpt From: Stephens, S.C. “Dangerous Rush.” iBooks)
like Kezie Hayden went and seen her father and the two of them made a deal together as they ha both lost a girl they love Jordan singed the track into Kenzies name and Hayden used his winnings from street racing to pay the debt off that was owed on it so it was completely and utterly in the full paid out in kenzies name only thing left was to give it to her. When her sisters convinced her to go with them so they could make things right from blocking her out and believing the bad her dad had said about her they took her to the track where her father and Hayden were waiting for her to give her her dream back. She accepted the deal and her father told her he could give her advice and help her reopen cox racing witch she agreed to but warned both of them that none of them were okay.
In the end she offered Hayden a spot on her team for the next season and Keith had made sure no other team would take him on because of the day he quit because Kenzie has a hart like gold and still loved him but just couldn't trust him with her heart again she new what it felt like to lose caree and dream she didn't know how it was gunna work but she couldn't let him lose his dream. And from there that's where they did end up getting back together taking things slow one step at a time
My feelings are mixed because how bad I wanted Hayden and Kenzie together and how much i loved him and something that has never happened to me before ever in any book has left me unsure if I want them to be together or not I still love them together and one he did a hell of a lot to get them back together and get her her career back but so far I just need more proof he isn't gunna hurt her again because at the end of the day she may have gotten it back but she was still the one that lost absolutely everything where he never did so I don't no if I like the ending or not that's the problem Iv had because Iv never had so much hate and anger for almost a hole intire book and that's what make it hard to decide if I liked the outcome or not I also don't believe her father deserved her forgiveness and neither do her sisters for believing him without talking to her I kinda just feel angry over the hole thing she deserves a better family and a better boyfriend that dosnt have to remind himself that he loved her when around his ex and that only changed when he actually lost he so yeah you can see I don't no how to feel and it's actually frustrating me that I don't know