What do you think?
Rate this book


301 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1934
Once I’d passed the age of thirty, however, he began to irritate me. His frivolity was offensive. I became tired of his old-fashioned wing collars, his narrow yellow ties, and especially his atrocious puns. His determined eccentricity wore me out. He was forever getting mixed up in escapades of one sort or another.
He could see children, more children than he’d ever before seen in one place. It was a crowd, a crowd of completely unknown little people like himself.
So he wasn’t alone. But if it had previously plunged him into despair that he was so alone in the world, now an even more alarming despair seized him, that he was so very much not alone in the world, that all those other people were alive as well. That was perhaps even more terrifying.
He sat there among them, listened to the buzz of their conversation. He was captivated by them. In that racket every voice touched a key in his soul. He didn’t understand life. He had no conception of why he had been born into the world. As he saw it, anyone to whose lot fell this adventure, the purpose of which was unknown but the end of which was annihilation, that person was absolved from all responsibility and had the right to do as he pleased…
In his opinion, living like that, in great folly among lesser degrees of folly, was not so foolish, but was indeed perhaps the most correct, most natural way of life. Furthermore, he needed that wild disorder, that piquant sauce! He wanted to write.
They couldn’t abide themselves, and their spirits were bursting to get out into the world, and they wanted to split in two. Schizophrenics are strange, original, surprising, self-accusing, incalculable, and unknowable, like born writers. Their speech is full of allusions that we can’t understand.

Many times my eyes have slid over 'Fiume' where it raised a ? in my necktop computer: Kornél Esti will henceforth be remembered as the book where I veered off into finding out the goods:
was an independent free state which existed between 1920 and 1924. Its territory of 28 km2 (11 sq mi) comprised the city of Fiume (now in Croatia and, since the end of World War II, known as Rijeka) and rural areas to its north, with a corridor to its west connecting it to Italy. (wiki sourced)
He put a lighted candle in my hand.So many times, reading this book, I was struck by a scrap of dialogue, a description. Sometimes, an entire vignette. Kosztolányi suffered from cancer of the palate and was aware, as he was writing, that he had little time left. Granted, he was in poor health for much of his life, "always poised for flight," in the words of one posthumous tribute. The late poem Szamadas (Account), contains this line: "someone leaving would like to talk."
“Set fire to the curtains,” he urged me. “Set fire to the house. Set the world on fire.”
“Accidents,” I said. “All day long bricks have been falling, shop signs crashing down on the heads of passersby. People have been slipping and falling on the icy sidewalks, hurting their hands, spraining their ankles, bleeding. Houses and factories have been catching fire. All sorts of things have been happening today. Frost, heat, mist, sunshine, rain, rainbow, snow, blood, and fire. It’s spring.The title character, Kornél Esti, is the embodiment of the author's youthful spirit: mischievous, naive, adventurous, idealistic, fearless. The nighttime self ("Esti" means evening) that escapes only in dreams, unless one slides into insanity and gives it full reign. Kosztolányi, by the way, was a close friend of Freud's Hungarian disciple, Sándor Ferenczi, and underwent psychoanalysis at some point.
We sat down and lit cigarettes.
“Kornél,” I broke the silence, “aren’t you angry?”
“Me?” and he shrugged. “Idiot! I can never be angry with you.”
“But you’d have good reason. Look, I was angry with you. I was embarrassed by you in front of people that mattered, I’ve had to get on, I’ve denied you. Haven’t even looked in your direction for ten years. But this afternoon when the wind whistled, I thought of you and felt remorse. I’m not young anymore. I turned forty last week. When you’re not young, you mellow and you can forgive everything. Even youth. Let’s make up.”
I stretched out a hand.
“Oh, you haven’t changed,” he scoffed. “Always so sentimental.”
He looked through the barred window into the garden; on the weed-ridden lawn, surrounded by sumac trees, flowers of hemlock swayed, white, like scraps of writing paper . . .Hemlock, the poison that Socrates drank willingly, evoking Plato's description of divine madness, the ecstasy known to philosophers, poets, and lovers. Kornél needed "that wild disorder," he sought it out, feeling it was essential for his creativity. And yet he never wrote a word.
Flabbergasted, I stared at these nightmare figures, who had certainly--either in my imagination or in real life--at one time lived and breathed, and were now black and dead and cold, like glowing embers after they've cooled, died down, and crumbled to ash. I didn't know them. They, however, knew me and recognized me. Some I told them to go and see Kornel. At that they smiled. Asked for a personal description of him. And at that they derisively pointed at me. They asked for his address. There I couldn't really help them. My friend was most of the time traveling abroad, sleeping on aircraft, stopping here and there for a day or two, and to the best of my knowledge had never yet registered with the police. Kornel Esti certainly existed, but he was no legal entity. So however innocent I know myself to be of all these terrible crimes, the case against me didn't look good. For Kornel's sake I didn't expose myself to the unpleasantness of confrontation. I had taken upon myself all his debts, his tricks, his dishonesty, as if I were responsible for them all.
"I am not a good man," Esti protested inwardly. "I am a bad man. Well, not a bad man. Just like anybody else. The fact that I retain my old, pure feelings--only and exclusively for purposed of expression--is a trick of the trade, a piece of technical wizardry, like that of the anatomist who can keep a heart or a section of brain tissue that hasn't had a feeling or thought for ages in formaldehyde for years and years. Life had left me numb, like it does everybody who reaches a certain age."
"'So it's not dull?' he asked. 'Interesting enough? Absurd, improbable, incredible enough? Will it be annoying enough to people who look for psychological motivation, understanding, even moral lessons in literature? Good. Then I'll write it up.'" (96)Having read Anna Édes and Skylark and having loved them (especially the latter), I was excited to read Dezső Kosztolányi's final novel, Kornél Esti. After a somewhat slow start, perhaps due to my unreasonably high expectations and personal biases (I can never stand references to animal cruelty, for instance), the novel picked up and really grew on me in the end. The chapters read like loosely connected short stories—vignettes—alternating between the two protagonists, who are different versions or sides of the same person (Kornél Esti and his double—Kosztolányi must have had Dostoevsky's and Gogol's doubles in mind here). Some of the chapters truly are brilliant—particularly XII, In which the president, Baron Wilhelm Eduard von Wüstenfeld, immortal figure of his student in Germany and his mentor and preceptor, sleeps through the entire chapter. Why deal with bickering academics and all of the ephemeral and wishy-washy social/intellectual/literary fads when you can just sleep through it all? Some first-rate satire here.