I'm looking at the title of this book, probably with a mind affected by too many word puzzles, and seeing the different words you can make out of that one word: THRUST -
>trust
>rust
>ruts
>hurt
>hurts
>shut
>us
These images, and many more of the pain, complexity, longings, suffering, even to the point of violence, which can be a part of the forging and the shaping human relationships and interactions are the glue that holds the center together in this collection. The poems are like a spackled wall of images pulled from every emotion, remembrance, flowers from nature, etc., and all mish-mashed together into a barely coherent narrative, but with an overall impression of living one's life in a barely survivable way in opposition to what would be judged by most as normal rhythms and cadences for life. And, by my judgement, a life lived through so much fracture and violence must be done more like a sheer force of nature to be able to endure, much less carry on from day to day.
The opening poem Hide Out depicts two children in an apparently abusive home described as a "battlefield" where the brother protects his sister from their father in a house where
". . . the walls ache. The doors of the rooms
barred shut. Their father's footsteps rattle the threshold, shotguns
leaning against the bedframe, loaded and cocked." (p. 3)
It appears that the images of domestic violence, physical and sexual abuse are only further magnified thematically in the poems that follow. Some seem to be remembrances of violence and abuse suffered by the narrator in the poems, the sister in the first poem. Other poems seem to be later snapshots from a person who lives in the wake of untreated PTSD resulting from having grown up in a violent, abusive home as a child. Some of the powerfully raw images include:
>split lips after the fight (p. 4)
>the punch that breaks the jaw in pieces (p. 4)
>Your body just obeyed, crouch and clinch, the reflex against another body in its strike (p. 5)
>Before the violence of adulthood was the violence of childhood and before that a whole history of bloodshed as inheritance. (p. 5)
>My mother's Jesus and Reagan, my stepfather's beer and secretaries, their joint quest of catharsis in lusts and fistfights, headbutt and pulled hair (p. 6)
>Make love out of the kick and the punch (p. 7)
>every time I was hit or kicked (p. 9)
>In the end, they had all been frightened of her, how she rose from the blows, like the ring of a bell, unbreakable. (p. 10)
>So she's hit again. Hit once. Hit again when she ducks.
So her dad kicks her down the hall. (p. 10)
There are many more powerful scenes, although not wholly coherent, which may be an intentional approach to evoke the scattered thought patterns of a human mind living out of a cycle of trauma and violence. There are multiple mentions of rape and physical abuse (several poems mention being pulled by the hair). Interestingly, these images are often juxtaposed against pastoral images of countryside, wildflowers, creeks, Mennonites persons, and insects.