TW: Death, profanity, blood, murder, physical violence, homophobia, homophobic slurs, misogyny, arson, sexual assault, drug dealing and abuse
White Rabbit is an exact display of when the egregious facet outweighs the fine one.
Giving this a one-star rating says a lot about three things; how I generally feel for this book, how I feel generous in spite of myself (because had I not been one, I'd have thought of dnf-ing this book ages ago) and how my taste for quality books is still intact.
This may sound a bit whiny, but this book just reeks of everything rancid as much as I believe it to be plain rude and yikes.. absolute rubbish. Seriously, I cannot stress it enough.
Let's face it though, there are way too many heavy and pressing issues drilled into this book that at one point I forced myself to think it'd be tolerable, just enough to get to the bottom of it but then lost what little of my sanity I had left in the process. Ironically though, I somehow lost count of these nagging concerns along the way.
First and foremost, getting past the halfway mark felt a whole lot like being crushed by a heavy chore that demanded to be done one way or another, torturous and wearying feelings adjacent to the act alone be damned.
Honestly speaking, the only thing that kept me going was the curiosity to know if Rufus would ever receive his fair share of reward money in the end. That was it, that was the only anchor. I did not care about anyone at all. Everyone was so unlikable, even the main characters made me struggle colosally to root for them.
To think that I was utterly fooled into thinking that this book would be the next best thing to ever find its way into my hands is a wee bit depressing. It feels already like a crime just getting past a quarter of it. It is very credulous of me to give in entirely to its gradual hold over me, misjudging it obviously at face value. Everything about it yells debilitating and offensive, add in unhealthy doses of mysogyny and homophobia for that matter.
Following how some stories go along can be very exhausting, and this sure as hell fits the very description. As tiring as it is, I also find it very disturbing, in a way that it pushes you to your limit. The amount of condescending remarks and baleful relationships present in this book is a little too overwhelming. My mind feels drained, burned out, sucked out of the little satisfaction it has left. As much as I liked how things ended, the vile flavor of the book overall has won me over.
There are so many things I like you all to know about how badly misleading this book is. It promises a thrilling investigation of a complicated murder that transpired in a party by a lakeside, spearheaded by an underage student aka the drug dealer, who also happened to be the victim but instead all I get is a doleful mix of dread, disappointment and galling turn of events.
Painstakingly speaking, what highlights this book the most is the way it deals with people in general, how almost all the characters are shamelessly disrespectful to almost everyone in the book. Every character wants to be, feel superior in their own way, letting anyone who gets in their way think lowly of themselves so as to control them in whatever life aspect they deem necessary merely for the sake of amusement. This narrative does not only basically rely on a hateful commentary on homophobia in and of itself, but it also strays off the sophisticated path of acting civil towards other people.
Another thing that had gotten me hot and bothered involved Rufus' anger management issues not being dealt with and resolved properly. He was not even given fair and suitable treatment following the appropriate procedures of handling such a case, unless I'd forgotten about its mere inclusion in the story.
The characters are all insufferable and may be triggering to some of the readers, well that is, if any of you is still willing to give this a try, given what I just said about the book.
Now, off with the author's way of portraying details and metaphorically putting them all in a single narrative. I cannot help but see it coming off as pretentious and cringeworthy at times. The former one flaunting Roehrig's way with words and how broad his list of vocabulary is, which makes the story more difficult to process, hence unconvincing. I don't mean to throw it in as a major turnoff, if anything it helped me learn some words I have not encountered yet with all the conversations I have had in my life. But understand it didn't help in the matter of making the events as real and natural as they could be, if you get what I mean.
When I say the writing can be cringey at times, I mean to imply it got under my skin most of the time. And I'm telling you, it was as bad as it sounded like. To get you a slight glimpse and evoke better comprehension of it, allow me to share this one occurrence in the book when Rufe and Bash were spying on Hayden and Lyle's altercation, just before all hell broke loose for all of them.
"Sebastian glances up at me, eyes like the fat zeroes on a time bomb, and I feel the atmosphere drop."
And that is just one of those many irky comparisons evident within the book. Tell me if that doesn't weird you out or tug at your scale of very bad impression. Plus the underlying fact that the overall plot happened just overnight made the writing feel forced and rushed, interlacing as many explanations and happenings convenient to the author all at once. That said, the plot, as luring as it can be at first glance, splayed all over the place.
Let's not even begin to talk about how irredeemable and cruel almost all characters that composed the book, most especially Rufe's biological father, Peter Covington, who was supposed to be the most rational and sympathetic of them all. Instead, his repulsive ego made a successful attempt to abandon his own son completely and deprive the stated son of any care and concern of a father. Write in a bunch of motley crew; Fox the controlling one, April the supposed disposable girlfriend, Lia the overshadowed social climber, Peyton the smart conniving one, Race the impulsive one with poor judgment, Hayden the baddest of them all, Sebastian the most lucid among them all, Rufus the one with anger management issues, along with the side characters, and it will make for an abysmal piece of writing.
When it comes to the book's atmosphere, it tries so hard to be creepy and ominous as hell but rather ends up as bleak and uninviting to my eyes. Nothing really special comes to mind whenever I think about the places the main characters have been in. It lacks the unique flavor, the thing that makes a book indelible to the mind the way a remarkable one stays with you for a very long time.
By the time I got to the huge reveal, I was counting down the pages I still needed to get through to get over it as quickly as I came to despise the book itself. The element of surprise was anything but. As a matter of fact, I regarded it as another petty hurdle to jump over, tired of all that happened by then. And it is not a satisfying sentiment, at all.
Believe me when I say you did not miss anything if you decide not to have anything to do with this book whatsoever. If anything, it might even come as a pleasing favor to you not to fall into the same confines of a hellhole I had been dreadfully caged in for a month.