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Sadie is living within two worlds. There’s the real world where she has supportive parents who encourage her to pursue her dreams and interests, and from whom she’s been given a love of traveling, vintage cars, and old vinyl records. This is also the world where Henry, her rocker boyfriend, lives. He treats her very well and they have a lot in common and genuinely enjoy each other’s company. In the real world, Sadie is vice captain of the cross country team, along with her best friend, Lucie. They love running together and enjoy a lot of the same movies and hobbies and always have a lot of fun together. She even enjoys school, for the most part.
But, then, there’s Sadie’s world. It’s a secret and nothing in the real world comes close to this world that Sadie has created for herself, where she can be a spy, a student at Hogwarts, have any number of adventures and be anyone she wants to be. This is the world where George, her truest love and hero, lives. “George and I have lived in hundreds of worlds and hundreds of books. We passed our O.W.L. exams side by side. There are no mountains we have not scaled, no oceans we have not explored, and yet there’s infinitely more to see. He’s taken me to Amsterdam countless times, to drink countless bottles of stars. I don’t know why I live this way, but I can’t stop. I’d die without George. I’d be empty.” Together, they travel the world and beyond. The memories of their time together fill an entire museum that only they can see, only they know exists. Sadie can admit to, herself, that George isn’t real, but when she’s alone, or bored, or overwhelmed, here he comes, sneaking into her head and taking her off on one of their amazing adventures.
But, when Sadie is in an accident and transported to the hospital, calling out for George, both of her worlds threaten to collide. The paramedics who brought her in and the police, as well as the doctors and nurses, all want to know who George is and where he is, as they’re concerned that he may be injured and have been left st the scene of the accident. And everyone wants to know what caused the accident, was she trying to hurt herself, or worse?
First off, wow, just wow! This was such a powerful, emotional, intense, sweet, loving (and many more adjectives lol) journey of a story. And this is Tara Wilson Redd’s debut novel, so we should definitely keep an eye out for future books, as she’s bound to continue to improve. She has an amazing writing style with a strong ability to write a storyline that grabs your attention and won’t let go. You find yourself willfully immersed in this world she’s created, which is a little ironic, if you think about it. Redd is also skilled at character development, all of her characters were amazing and noticeably matured as the story went on.
As a dreamer, as someone who gets lost in the stories I read or in daydreams, Sadie’s rich fantasy life keeps your attention and imagination really spoke to me. I once heard someone say that “I don’t read because I have no life. I read because I choose to have many. Richard Peck said, in Anonymously Yours, “I read because one life isn't enough, and in the page of a book I can be anybody; I read because the words that build the story become mine, to build my life; I read not for happy endings but for new beginnings; I'm just beginning myself, and I wouldn't mind a map;” Sadie embodies both of these quotes both in how she fully immersed herself into her fantasies and because of how many of her dreams and fantasies are inspired by old movies and the books she reads. The problem is that Sadie finds herself spending too much time in her world of fantasies and at the expense of her real life, her real responsibilities, her real relationships.
“And in the grand scheme of things, embracing the truth of your plight is likely to do more good than harm.” This book does such an excellent job at dealing with mental illness, past traumas and using fantasy to avoid dealing with reality and to hide from the effects of those past traumas. During her time in the hospital, Sadie was encouraged to go at her own pace; she was never pressured or rushed. Her therapist and nurses were compassionate and listened to her as she was ready to talk. They never promised that if she took this medicine or went to this therapy session, it would be a quick fix. They were a solid support system to get her started.
“Everyone runs their own race, but we are stronger when we run that race together.” I loved how supportive and understanding Sadie’s parents were. They let her know that they were there to talk to whenever she was ready and that she could talk to them about anything. Henry and Lucie were amazing, as well. They both let her know, in their own way, that they were there for her, whatever she needed, even if it was just to sit with her for a little while so she didn’t feel alone.
Ultimately, Sadie has to decide for herself whether or not she’s ready to move forward and deal with the traumas from her past and her depression or to continue in her fantasies. But, she does have an amazing support system to help her through, no matter what she decides.