Game Ender- BJ Harvey
5 Million Whoosh Stars
Zach will always be my Game series book boyfriend. My book girls know how much I adore Zach and Danika's book and Zach's entire characterisation. However, I firmly believe that Game Ender is BJ Harvey's best work yet. This book is a piece of art. There are so many different dynamics and kinds of love within this book, I could never cover them all but I'll attempt to illustrate a few, my favourites.
The book focuses on Amy, a single mum and bartender at Throb (Sean's club), and Thomas, we met him originally in Game Saver as Cade's best friend. They first meet early on in Amy's pregnancy, after Thomas finds out he has chlamydia and meets up with a previous hook up at Throb in order to advice her to get tested. Amy is working at the bar that night and witnessed the woman throw her drink in Thomas' face. After seeing how defeated Thomas looks, Amy approaches him and offers an ear and friendly support. I can honestly say I never anticipated to love a book that starts with a chlamydia diagnosis. Obviously nothing happens between Amy and Thomas at this point, but Thomas becomes fascinated by her. And after finding out that the father of her child wants nothing to do with either of them, he makes a vow to himself that he will be there for Amy and her son, for anything either of them needs...
A vow that is sealed when he runs into her late at night in a grocery store...and her water break. I'm guessing every pregnant woman in her last few weeks of pregnancy fears that experience. Your water breaking in a grocery store, and having to give birth on the floor of the store because the ambulance doesn't arrive on time. But like her knight in shining armour, Thomas delivers her baby, eventually with the help of paramedics. And their bond becomes inseparable.
After Amy's son, Brody is born, Thomas is there for her multiple times every week. Cleaning her flat, spending time with her and Brody, just generally being a supportive presence in her life. And it's through these interactions that their bond goes from physical attraction, to an emotional connection. Feelings form, although Amy fights these all the way, believing her focus should be only on her son not dating. I love and respect her for the mum she is, Brody is always her priority, she's willing to sacrifice anything and everything if that's what her son needed. The way BJ Harvey portray motherly love is truly beautiful. But even more than that is how she portrays paternal love. Thomas is not biologically Brody's dad, and yet he demonstrates paternal love towards Brody during every interaction. Even before he has feelings for Amy, he loves her son. I love how Harvey shows that family is what you make it. That genetics does not make a family, love and loyalty does.
Next there's Sean and Amy's relationship. Sean is seen as tough, strong, unyielding. But there's a tenderness we've see in previous books when he interacts with his wife (Sam), their children and Mac. One magical thing we get from this book is to see that tenderness directed at Amy. They have a beautiful relationship, Sean sees her as his little sister and the unconditional love, respect and protectiveness he shows her is wonderful. Again, we see that family comes in many different forms.
The most complex form of love we see in this book though is probably the love that Ryan feels for Brody. We met Ryan originally in Sean and Sam's book, he's Sean's younger brother and a gambling addict. Later on in this book we discover something that we may have already predicted, Ryan is Brody's biological father. And months down the line, he decides to reenter Brody's life, wanting to get to know his son. I empathised so much with Thomas at this point, he'd bonded with Brody, helped to take care of him when he was sick, even helped to deliver him into the world. He had been there since Brody took his first breath and yet here was the proof that legally he had no claim to Brody. That he would always be considered, at most, Brody's 'stepdad'. It's a disgusting social perception, because he IS Brody's dad. He may not be his father but he is his dad. It's (generally) simple to be a father. A single event. But to be a dad is so much harder, so much more complex, but also so much more rewarding, it's a lifetime connection. The main difference between Ryan and Thomas is that Thomas sees that, whereas Ryan saw baggage. He saw that innocent, beautiful baby as an inconvenience. Ryan looks out for himself first, and everyone else never. Thomas does not mention to Amy any of his insecurities or his pain at Ryan being back in Brody's life, because his selflessness and the love he feels for Amy and Brody means he will always prioritise them. However, Ryan does have a beautiful, redeeming moment. When he decided to leave, to abandon Brody once more, I felt furious. How could he be running away from his son? After meeting him and seeing how wonderful that sweet baby is, how could he leave? Because once again, he's prioritising himself. And in a big way he is, but his redeeming moment, the moment that had me in tears, was him giving up his parental rights so that Thomas can adopt Brody if he chooses to. Ryan believes he isn't fit to be a parent at that time, and he was right, he was back in a support programme but it was still a slippery slope. He believes he never will be fit to be in Brody's life, but that if Brody one day decides he wants Ryan to have some kind of involvement, he would be accepting of that. And he allows Thomas to adopt his son, to truly be Brody's dad by making it legal. I say this is the most complicated form of love in the book, because Ryan is the most complicated and faulted character within the series.
To anyone that has had the patience and dedication to get to this point in my review: thank you. I'm honoured. And I hope this helps to illustrate to you the beauty and complexity of this book. I cannot recommend it enough. Thank you BJ Harvey for your beautiful words, they will stay with me.