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Fighting Weight
We all have that voice inside our heads.
The one that speaks to us incessantly. That voice we trust to make the right decisions, to keep us on a positive path, even when others try to bring us down.
But what happens when that voice changes?
When it’s no longer a voice of reason, a voice of comfort giving us a pep talk when we need one?
What happens when that inner voice turns into a bully?
You’re fat.
Don’t you dare eat that.
You’ll never be as pretty as her.
You’ll never be as good as them.
You’re lazy. You’re stupid.
You are disgusting.
You. Are. Nothing.
What happens when that inner voice makes your body take its side?
Binge.
Purge.
Binge
Purge.
And what happens when the bully starts to win?
If your name is Alina Cassidy, then you fight like hell.
The one that speaks to us incessantly. That voice we trust to make the right decisions, to keep us on a positive path, even when others try to bring us down.
But what happens when that voice changes?
When it’s no longer a voice of reason, a voice of comfort giving us a pep talk when we need one?
What happens when that inner voice turns into a bully?
You’re fat.
Don’t you dare eat that.
You’ll never be as pretty as her.
You’ll never be as good as them.
You’re lazy. You’re stupid.
You are disgusting.
You. Are. Nothing.
What happens when that inner voice makes your body take its side?
Binge.
Purge.
Binge
Purge.
And what happens when the bully starts to win?
If your name is Alina Cassidy, then you fight like hell.
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First published March 19, 2018
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Gillian Jones
11 books342 followersWife, mother, pun lover, part-time pantser of words. Connoisseur of red wine, lover of a good IPA. I write real life romances that sometimes hits you in the feels.
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March 4, 2018
It's hard for me to put into words my feelings on this book. Its a book that both terrified me and intrigued me. For people to know what you as a bulimic, hid behind closed doors for so long, is so terrifying. The way the illness makes you feel and hurts you. The control the bully has. Yep! Its hard. So when this came up in discussion. And the idea that Gillian had. I saw this as a new step, in way of therapy for me.
Now I am not a rockstar in the making and my folks and siblings are very much my rock. But there are some truths in theses pages. I just gave Gillian my truth and she wrote, this thought invoking powerful and my God beautiful book. That as far as my ED and battle with bulimia is concerned is full of my truths and facts, as to how the disease took hold and ruined me. And through this fictious young woman's story, I see myself walking the pages and paragraphs. And I thank Gillian for not making it pretty. For not hiding from the facts and for writing this book as it should have been.
Now this story and chatcters are all amazing and lead it to being the great piece of writing, I feel it is. They each contribute to Alina's story and help mould it to be what it is. The girls in the band especially, were so special and supportive. As well as the three important men in this book. Lucky and Slater are both strong willed but vulnerable to Ali's fight. And I am glad that this was the case, as there is no quick fix. It never goes away. It will always be a fight and to be flanked by not just one great man but two, supportive men. Reinforces her chances to keep winning. Sadly the third man her dad died protecting Alina, before her bully took hold.
Bulimia isnt the only addiction and illness touch upon in this book Alcoholism is feature heavily too. And again those parts aren't pretty either. They are brutally written and honest to a fault. Social Media also plays its evil part in this tale too. And although a great tool, its can also play a huge role in someones downfall.
This book is beautiful and such a fantastic read. I have no doubt what so ever that this book is gonna either be truly loved or loathed. I for one love it so much. I spent hours crying at the truth filled pages. Of broken hearts and dreams. Of the beautiful relationship between a brother and a sister. And the heart stopping love of a man determined to knock down walls and gaining the trust of the beautifully broken girl that hides in the shadows. To just make her feel she is enough.
I really can't recommend this book enough. It's one that will shock but will deliver a story like no other. And if one persons life can be changed because of this book then it will have all worth it. Bravo Gillian and Thank You.
Now I am not a rockstar in the making and my folks and siblings are very much my rock. But there are some truths in theses pages. I just gave Gillian my truth and she wrote, this thought invoking powerful and my God beautiful book. That as far as my ED and battle with bulimia is concerned is full of my truths and facts, as to how the disease took hold and ruined me. And through this fictious young woman's story, I see myself walking the pages and paragraphs. And I thank Gillian for not making it pretty. For not hiding from the facts and for writing this book as it should have been.
Now this story and chatcters are all amazing and lead it to being the great piece of writing, I feel it is. They each contribute to Alina's story and help mould it to be what it is. The girls in the band especially, were so special and supportive. As well as the three important men in this book. Lucky and Slater are both strong willed but vulnerable to Ali's fight. And I am glad that this was the case, as there is no quick fix. It never goes away. It will always be a fight and to be flanked by not just one great man but two, supportive men. Reinforces her chances to keep winning. Sadly the third man her dad died protecting Alina, before her bully took hold.
Bulimia isnt the only addiction and illness touch upon in this book Alcoholism is feature heavily too. And again those parts aren't pretty either. They are brutally written and honest to a fault. Social Media also plays its evil part in this tale too. And although a great tool, its can also play a huge role in someones downfall.
This book is beautiful and such a fantastic read. I have no doubt what so ever that this book is gonna either be truly loved or loathed. I for one love it so much. I spent hours crying at the truth filled pages. Of broken hearts and dreams. Of the beautiful relationship between a brother and a sister. And the heart stopping love of a man determined to knock down walls and gaining the trust of the beautifully broken girl that hides in the shadows. To just make her feel she is enough.
I really can't recommend this book enough. It's one that will shock but will deliver a story like no other. And if one persons life can be changed because of this book then it will have all worth it. Bravo Gillian and Thank You.
March 25, 2018
4.5 Stars!
This book was very emotional for me. I briefly suffered from Bulimia as a teenager. I could identify with so much of this book. Yes, it was a romance book. But more than that, it really explained in a fictionalized way, the psychological toll that this disease takes on a person. I was lucky (no pun intended). My mom was a supportive person who got me right to a doctor. But as you can see from this story, not everyone has a great support system. Whether it be a bully or someone that means well, a comment on someone's appearance can start this snowball that is challenging to come back from. My heart hurt for Ali and Lucky. The author took a very hard subject and skillfully wove it into a brilliant story. It's definitely not easy to read but so worth it.
This book was very emotional for me. I briefly suffered from Bulimia as a teenager. I could identify with so much of this book. Yes, it was a romance book. But more than that, it really explained in a fictionalized way, the psychological toll that this disease takes on a person. I was lucky (no pun intended). My mom was a supportive person who got me right to a doctor. But as you can see from this story, not everyone has a great support system. Whether it be a bully or someone that means well, a comment on someone's appearance can start this snowball that is challenging to come back from. My heart hurt for Ali and Lucky. The author took a very hard subject and skillfully wove it into a brilliant story. It's definitely not easy to read but so worth it.
March 6, 2018
More than 5 stars!!!!
Alrighty people, make sure you have your tissues handy as you are definitely going to need them for this beautiful read. This author REALLY excels at writing books that contain topics that at times can be hard to read about, heavy topics such as addiction, mental health issues and bulimia. As mentioned by the author, this book does contain a HEA, so whilst the story may give you some tears, the ending is really sweet and well worth all the tears shed to get to it.
Fighting Weight contains alternate POV of the 2 main characters Alina and Slater, which I love. I really enjoy getting the males POV to a story. Alina has gone through some very traumatic events, which result in the need for her to gain some type of control over her life - this is where "her" bully enters the story. The relationship she has with her brother Lucky is so crucial for her - he really is such a huge support, and you can see the love they have for each other.
Alina's love of music is not only a way to escape her demons, it also surrounds her with a support system which she can access when she is brave enough to. Her band Happenstance allows her a little freedom from her daily fight, she can lose herself within the music. It also gives her the opportunity to be introduced to the other main lead in the story, Slater - from the band Sicken Union.
I adored Slater's character - his infatuation with Alina is immediate, I enjoyed reading how he sees her so clearly, and in a way which she struggled to see herself. He's not perfect either, but he was such an amazing support. There are lots of other characters in this book that make up the great story - the other members of both bands that play pivotal roles in Alina's life and her journey with bulimia.
Reading the epilogue made all the tears throughout the story worth it. It really was wonderful being able to read about Alina's journey through to her HEA.
Alrighty people, make sure you have your tissues handy as you are definitely going to need them for this beautiful read. This author REALLY excels at writing books that contain topics that at times can be hard to read about, heavy topics such as addiction, mental health issues and bulimia. As mentioned by the author, this book does contain a HEA, so whilst the story may give you some tears, the ending is really sweet and well worth all the tears shed to get to it.
Fighting Weight contains alternate POV of the 2 main characters Alina and Slater, which I love. I really enjoy getting the males POV to a story. Alina has gone through some very traumatic events, which result in the need for her to gain some type of control over her life - this is where "her" bully enters the story. The relationship she has with her brother Lucky is so crucial for her - he really is such a huge support, and you can see the love they have for each other.
Alina's love of music is not only a way to escape her demons, it also surrounds her with a support system which she can access when she is brave enough to. Her band Happenstance allows her a little freedom from her daily fight, she can lose herself within the music. It also gives her the opportunity to be introduced to the other main lead in the story, Slater - from the band Sicken Union.
I adored Slater's character - his infatuation with Alina is immediate, I enjoyed reading how he sees her so clearly, and in a way which she struggled to see herself. He's not perfect either, but he was such an amazing support. There are lots of other characters in this book that make up the great story - the other members of both bands that play pivotal roles in Alina's life and her journey with bulimia.
Reading the epilogue made all the tears throughout the story worth it. It really was wonderful being able to read about Alina's journey through to her HEA.
March 9, 2018
How do you put into words how profoundly moving this story is... 5 stars just isn't enough! This book is truly not for the faint of heart... Gillian doesn't hold back in this gritty, real, emotion filled story of Alina and her daily struggle to overcome the beast that is bulimia! The prologue gives us the first insight into how devastating peoples words can be to a person's self esteem... that and the heartbreaking tragic loss of your only real support system and you have the recipe for disaster. The book is told in dual POV which I love as you get two very different sides to the story. Slater who is Alina's love interest in the book and was instantly attracted to her from the moment he laid eyes on her. He saw the real her hiding in the shadows and made it his mission to bring her into the light where he knew she belonged. He was a very swoon worthy character, who had his flaws as everyone does but the love, compassion and strength he gave to Alina was what made his character so great! Alina and her brother Lucky had a truly horrible upbringing, and they both had their demons to battle. Lucky turned to alcohol... whereas due to her constant barrage of being told she was never good enough, that she was fat, ugly and a waste of space Alina turned to food and purging to take back control. The story follows Alina as she tries to navigates life, love and keeping her "bully" in check! I can't recommend this book highly enough, I have learnt so much and now have a much greater respect and love for anyone that is fighting the constant ever present battle with bulimia.
March 13, 2018
I Voluntarily reviewed a copy of this book
So I was lucky to receive a early copy of this book. And like with her previous book Tainted love Gillian Jones has blew me away. She is one of those authors who can take a sensitive subject and can make you live through every single emotion every single feeling, everything that the heroine has gone through and turn it into a beautiful story.
What Alina went through was so heartbreaking and so sad, I was crying my eyes out. It was heartbreaking for me to read this story to know that someone felt this way about themselves and did this all just to feel good.
Slater, oh my word. He stole my heart. From the moment he saw Alina up on the stage he was attracted to her. And even when he found out what she is dealing with he never gave up on her. He took his time, and gave her the time she needed to tell him what she was going through. I mean how can you not love him.
"I still can't believe I'm here. Can't fathom that self-destruction like this exists in our world, that people do shit like this to themselves on purpose. I'll never, ever forget this scene for as long as i live, and I vow here and now to help her by any means necessary"
I was truly awed by this story and I can't emphasize enough that you will not regret reading this book. But do have the tissues handy, because you will definitely need it.
So I was lucky to receive a early copy of this book. And like with her previous book Tainted love Gillian Jones has blew me away. She is one of those authors who can take a sensitive subject and can make you live through every single emotion every single feeling, everything that the heroine has gone through and turn it into a beautiful story.
What Alina went through was so heartbreaking and so sad, I was crying my eyes out. It was heartbreaking for me to read this story to know that someone felt this way about themselves and did this all just to feel good.
Slater, oh my word. He stole my heart. From the moment he saw Alina up on the stage he was attracted to her. And even when he found out what she is dealing with he never gave up on her. He took his time, and gave her the time she needed to tell him what she was going through. I mean how can you not love him.
"I still can't believe I'm here. Can't fathom that self-destruction like this exists in our world, that people do shit like this to themselves on purpose. I'll never, ever forget this scene for as long as i live, and I vow here and now to help her by any means necessary"
I was truly awed by this story and I can't emphasize enough that you will not regret reading this book. But do have the tissues handy, because you will definitely need it.
March 10, 2018
What a emotional deep book that truly pulls at your heart. This book is truly one I’ll never forget. The author brings you fully into a world that deals with bulimia and abuse and makes you feel the characters into your bones. I cried and yelled and even had to calm myself while reading this book because it truly makes you feel hopeless at times so much you wanna reach into the book and help. Everyone has a past and demons but we all need to realize we’re strong and we can fight and not give up and finally be loved. 5/5 stars you are enough! ****Reviewed by Sweet & Spicy Reads a voluntarily Advanced Reader Copy of this book ****
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March 19, 2018A full-on angst fest and just not my cup of tea - had to surrender.
April 12, 2018
4.5 stars!!!
Damn, this book near killed me. Being someone that has struggled with their weight my entire life this book really hit home and I could see a lot of myself in our heroine. While I never took my weight loss tactics to the extreme that she did, I could empathise with her every choice.
This is no easy read and incredibly honest and real but despite her issues, love has the power to change everything. Alina is alone apart from her brother, but he is not always around and the voices in her head more often that not take over. Her fight with bulimia is ever present as bullies leave their lasting effects in the worst way possible. Alina is in a band, and being on stage and in front of an audience only exacerbates her issues until they audition to be an opening act for Slater and his band.
Slater could have had any woman he wanted, groupies were a dime a dozen but from the minute his eyes set on Alina he was captivated and only had eyes for her. Slater can tell that she is battling her own demons and even though she is incredibly shy, he takes baby steps and slowly starts to peel back Alina's layers.
Gillian Jones delivers a raw, emotional and honest story while embracing a stunning love story that had me engrossed from first to last page. Totally loved this book.
Damn, this book near killed me. Being someone that has struggled with their weight my entire life this book really hit home and I could see a lot of myself in our heroine. While I never took my weight loss tactics to the extreme that she did, I could empathise with her every choice.
This is no easy read and incredibly honest and real but despite her issues, love has the power to change everything. Alina is alone apart from her brother, but he is not always around and the voices in her head more often that not take over. Her fight with bulimia is ever present as bullies leave their lasting effects in the worst way possible. Alina is in a band, and being on stage and in front of an audience only exacerbates her issues until they audition to be an opening act for Slater and his band.
Slater could have had any woman he wanted, groupies were a dime a dozen but from the minute his eyes set on Alina he was captivated and only had eyes for her. Slater can tell that she is battling her own demons and even though she is incredibly shy, he takes baby steps and slowly starts to peel back Alina's layers.
Gillian Jones delivers a raw, emotional and honest story while embracing a stunning love story that had me engrossed from first to last page. Totally loved this book.
"Words have the power to impact and puncture our souls, leaving our psyches poisoned and vulnerable, long after those words are said. When we sling words like weapons, using them to hurt, deceive, or to make gains, we often don’t stop to consider the lasting effects those words might have on someone else."
March 14, 2018
I have really sat and thought about how I could write this review without it sounding like everybody else’s. But, do you know what! I can’t. I have read other reviews and everyone agrees that in some way shape or form we can all relate to this story.
A Bully doesn’t have to be in human form. A lot of us have had or still have a Bully! Or, somebody close to us, we have watched and still watch them fall into this black hole, some a lot more than others and I thank them for letting Gilly use their experiences, feelings and raw emotions.
As you read all these reviews your realise, it is their feelings that dominate the reviews. That’s not a bad thing. This proves how powerful Gillian’s writing has had an effect.
Gilly chooses these subjects and straight away she sucks you in, because as you read you want to fight this fight with them.
You go deep into Ali’s feelings and agree with and relate. I hope this can help people, it will trigger that issue and think well I could do it that way or even well that way didn’t work for me. We are all different.
Ali is bullied and there’s no getting away from that but with this story we watch her conquer. We watch her depend on the love of her brother, her friends, music and most of all Slater.
All three Characters in this book have their own battles to win and with all the love Slater has and Lucky they help this lost but courageous protagonist conquer and control her fight with BULLY
Gillian chooses these hard subjects to write about. Please continue because you have this gorgeous loving and empathetic way of putting the words down to create the wonderful stories and I am thankful I am able to read these chapters one by one. Xxx Love to Gillian and Donna for this book.
A Bully doesn’t have to be in human form. A lot of us have had or still have a Bully! Or, somebody close to us, we have watched and still watch them fall into this black hole, some a lot more than others and I thank them for letting Gilly use their experiences, feelings and raw emotions.
As you read all these reviews your realise, it is their feelings that dominate the reviews. That’s not a bad thing. This proves how powerful Gillian’s writing has had an effect.
Gilly chooses these subjects and straight away she sucks you in, because as you read you want to fight this fight with them.
You go deep into Ali’s feelings and agree with and relate. I hope this can help people, it will trigger that issue and think well I could do it that way or even well that way didn’t work for me. We are all different.
Ali is bullied and there’s no getting away from that but with this story we watch her conquer. We watch her depend on the love of her brother, her friends, music and most of all Slater.
All three Characters in this book have their own battles to win and with all the love Slater has and Lucky they help this lost but courageous protagonist conquer and control her fight with BULLY
Gillian chooses these hard subjects to write about. Please continue because you have this gorgeous loving and empathetic way of putting the words down to create the wonderful stories and I am thankful I am able to read these chapters one by one. Xxx Love to Gillian and Donna for this book.
March 17, 2018
Gillian Jones, you deserve a standing ovation on this tale of a very real and sensitive subject that people in today’s society suffer from every day. This book had me on a roller coaster ride of lows and highs; its perspective on the subject of bulimia is raw and emotional.
This story plays on the heartstrings. I cannot fathom what it took for Gillian to write such an emotional read but it was brilliantly brought to life and you feel every damn battle this girl goes through. I’m in love with this character. She is real, thoughtful and damn spectacular. The hero that catches her eye is cocky and exactly what she needs to overcome her vulnerabilities and her own bully, herself
I highly recommend this spectacular emotional story not only to the people who are suffering or suffer from bulimia but to everyone who feels insecure and inadequate. We are all beautiful in our own way, so wear it loud and proud.
This story plays on the heartstrings. I cannot fathom what it took for Gillian to write such an emotional read but it was brilliantly brought to life and you feel every damn battle this girl goes through. I’m in love with this character. She is real, thoughtful and damn spectacular. The hero that catches her eye is cocky and exactly what she needs to overcome her vulnerabilities and her own bully, herself
I highly recommend this spectacular emotional story not only to the people who are suffering or suffer from bulimia but to everyone who feels insecure and inadequate. We are all beautiful in our own way, so wear it loud and proud.
March 5, 2018
Sadly, I know that I wouldn't be able to find right words for this book, but I will try my best. This story... It broke me and at the same time revived. I felt like on rollercoaster with my emotion being all over the place. Even while I wrote this, I was misty-eyed.
This story made me bleed tears. It made me laugh. It was heartbreaking and agonizing. It was beautiful and captivating.
Since I never was in Alinas place, I couldn't understand her bully. But I understood her fighting. Alina was strong, even though sometimes it may seem otherwise. Because despite falling, she always rose up. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes.
And Slater... Damn, this guy was... let's just say every girl needs to find her own Slater.
This story made me bleed tears. It made me laugh. It was heartbreaking and agonizing. It was beautiful and captivating.
Since I never was in Alinas place, I couldn't understand her bully. But I understood her fighting. Alina was strong, even though sometimes it may seem otherwise. Because despite falling, she always rose up. Like a phoenix rising from the ashes.
And Slater... Damn, this guy was... let's just say every girl needs to find her own Slater.
January 16, 2018
I’m sitting here, trying to process everything that went on in Fighting Weight by Gillian Jones. I’m on the verge of tears thinking of everything Ali went through in her young life. How the woman who is supposed to love her most in the world looked at her as if she was nothing. My heart races with emotion when I think about how destroyed Ali must have felt listening to her mother berate her day in and day out. How that cruelty didn’t end there, but how she continued to suffer at the hands of her aunt. There’s no surprise why Alina (Ali) turned to bulimia to gain some sort of control of her life. She’s not the only one. I’ve heard stories, I know people who say that the only thing they can control in their life is their weight. That they’ll do whatever it takes to keep that control.
Ali was a classic product of her environment. Although flawed and suffering in her own pain, she showed tremendous strength. Here was a girl, in her early twenties, living and doing what she loved most in the world while battling a disease that told her she wasn’t good enough for any of it. She didn’t deserve it. She wasn’t worthy of it. But she never let her get the best of her. The fact that she performed in front of thousands of people showed that she did possess the strength she needed to help her to defeat her demons. I really liked that aspect. It showed that although battling the disease for years, it didn’t have total control of her.
Alina had a tremendous support system throughout the book. I loved the relationship she had with her brother, Lucky. He wasn’t just her older brother, but he was her protector and hero. Her bandmates! Loved those girls. I would really love to read about them, maybe a few novellas, just to get their backgrounds and what brought them into the music scene. (Just a thought). And finally, Slater. He was something special. He was a self-proclaimed ‘never going to settle down’ type of guy, but when he saw Alina, he knew that all bets were off. They had a connection that went past the physical aspect. She was it for him. He knew she was worth whatever hurdles he was going to have to jump to get her to see the same thing, she was worth it. He never questioned anything when it came to his feelings for her, and I loved that about him. I adore when love wins out and it certainly did in this book.
Gillian is one of those authors who aren’t afraid to tackle topics that many of us are afraid to write about. We either don’t want to upset readers, or we don’t want to put forth the effort it takes to make sure we do the topic justice. Gillian has done this topic justice, that’s for sure. Her endless amount of research is evident throughout the book. She doesn’t sugar coat it and from what I’ve read about bulimia, she’s hit the nail on the head. Her writing pulls you in from the start and keeps you hooked until you turn the final page. I’ve been a fan of her work for a couple of years now, and I’ll continue to be one. Congrats, Gillian on a job well done. The long hours scouring the internet have paid off, in spades. Be proud, lady, you’ve done great.
Ali was a classic product of her environment. Although flawed and suffering in her own pain, she showed tremendous strength. Here was a girl, in her early twenties, living and doing what she loved most in the world while battling a disease that told her she wasn’t good enough for any of it. She didn’t deserve it. She wasn’t worthy of it. But she never let her get the best of her. The fact that she performed in front of thousands of people showed that she did possess the strength she needed to help her to defeat her demons. I really liked that aspect. It showed that although battling the disease for years, it didn’t have total control of her.
Alina had a tremendous support system throughout the book. I loved the relationship she had with her brother, Lucky. He wasn’t just her older brother, but he was her protector and hero. Her bandmates! Loved those girls. I would really love to read about them, maybe a few novellas, just to get their backgrounds and what brought them into the music scene. (Just a thought). And finally, Slater. He was something special. He was a self-proclaimed ‘never going to settle down’ type of guy, but when he saw Alina, he knew that all bets were off. They had a connection that went past the physical aspect. She was it for him. He knew she was worth whatever hurdles he was going to have to jump to get her to see the same thing, she was worth it. He never questioned anything when it came to his feelings for her, and I loved that about him. I adore when love wins out and it certainly did in this book.
Gillian is one of those authors who aren’t afraid to tackle topics that many of us are afraid to write about. We either don’t want to upset readers, or we don’t want to put forth the effort it takes to make sure we do the topic justice. Gillian has done this topic justice, that’s for sure. Her endless amount of research is evident throughout the book. She doesn’t sugar coat it and from what I’ve read about bulimia, she’s hit the nail on the head. Her writing pulls you in from the start and keeps you hooked until you turn the final page. I’ve been a fan of her work for a couple of years now, and I’ll continue to be one. Congrats, Gillian on a job well done. The long hours scouring the internet have paid off, in spades. Be proud, lady, you’ve done great.
March 26, 2018
Fighting Weight has taken the top slot for my favorite book of 2018 as well as being an all-time favorite read for me. How could it not? This book is written with so much emotion, and it is an issue that affects so many women and men, and Gillian Jones handled it with so much sensitivity and love. I knew that the first moment I read her note to readers and her dedication.
Alina was just a child when her world was turned upside down. Her mother, who had once been so loving turned to alcohol, and that loving mother became a monster. This poor child had to endure such emotional abuse at the hands of the person who was supposed to love her no matter what. Her bright spot was her brother, Lucky, who would take her outside and teach her about the stars and constellations in the sky so they wouldn’t have to hear the abuse that was also heaped on their father. When he made an attempt to leave and protect his children, her mother committed the ultimate betrayal. So, she and Lucky were sent to live with their aunt and uncle. What should have been a respite from all the hurt became even worse than living with her mother. The insults about who she was as a person…worthless and her weight, she was always accused of being fat and ugly even though others thought she was beautiful. Alina tried so hard to please her aunt, but nothing was ever good enough. Then, she gave in and believed her. Therefore, she turned on herself. Now, her bully wasn’t just her aunt but herself. To finally have some control, she became bulimic, and she would struggle and fight so hard to bring herself back up from that depth of darkness.
Alina has to be one of the strongest heroines I’ve met in my many years of reading books. Her strength is inspiring to me. As a child, she never should have endured what she had to. It was just as damaging to her as having bruises if she had been physically abused. The bruises she sustained were inside, and thus harder for others to see her pain. Thankfully, she had an amazing group of friends, a loving brother, and a loving boyfriend, Slater. With their support, she was able to do amazing things.
Slater gives new meaning to the words “unconditional love.” He has seen her at her lowest, and instead of running away, he ran toward her. He was the angel to the demon that was Alina’s own voice trying to drag her back down to the darkness she was trying to escape.
I know I haven’t given much of a synopsis of the book, but I felt it was more important to give my feelings after reading it. This was a review that was quite difficult for me to write. I think so many people struggle with eating disorders, and the origin comes from various sources….mean people, society, and even like Alina, from those who are supposed to love us. It can come from hurtful words and for myself, rejection and the need to be in control. As a child when the world you know is turned upside down, you have no control over it. Some of us grasp on to what little control we are able to have. For me, it was my intake of food. My issue was from the rejection and abandonment of the father I adored. I was his princess, and I didn’t understand that when he left my mother, he was essentially leaving me too. I tried very hard to be perfect thinking that would work, yet it never did. It is an ongoing struggle, especially when life throws curveballs. As with Alina, I am lucky to have a loving mother, stepdad, sister, two wonderful sons, a supportive best friend, and the man who for the past 27 years has showed me I am worthy. Yes, I have my very own Slater. Thank you, Gillian Jones, for writing this heartbreaking yet beautiful book. You have given us so much hope and proved there are good people out there who care!
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Alina was just a child when her world was turned upside down. Her mother, who had once been so loving turned to alcohol, and that loving mother became a monster. This poor child had to endure such emotional abuse at the hands of the person who was supposed to love her no matter what. Her bright spot was her brother, Lucky, who would take her outside and teach her about the stars and constellations in the sky so they wouldn’t have to hear the abuse that was also heaped on their father. When he made an attempt to leave and protect his children, her mother committed the ultimate betrayal. So, she and Lucky were sent to live with their aunt and uncle. What should have been a respite from all the hurt became even worse than living with her mother. The insults about who she was as a person…worthless and her weight, she was always accused of being fat and ugly even though others thought she was beautiful. Alina tried so hard to please her aunt, but nothing was ever good enough. Then, she gave in and believed her. Therefore, she turned on herself. Now, her bully wasn’t just her aunt but herself. To finally have some control, she became bulimic, and she would struggle and fight so hard to bring herself back up from that depth of darkness.
Alina has to be one of the strongest heroines I’ve met in my many years of reading books. Her strength is inspiring to me. As a child, she never should have endured what she had to. It was just as damaging to her as having bruises if she had been physically abused. The bruises she sustained were inside, and thus harder for others to see her pain. Thankfully, she had an amazing group of friends, a loving brother, and a loving boyfriend, Slater. With their support, she was able to do amazing things.
Slater gives new meaning to the words “unconditional love.” He has seen her at her lowest, and instead of running away, he ran toward her. He was the angel to the demon that was Alina’s own voice trying to drag her back down to the darkness she was trying to escape.
I know I haven’t given much of a synopsis of the book, but I felt it was more important to give my feelings after reading it. This was a review that was quite difficult for me to write. I think so many people struggle with eating disorders, and the origin comes from various sources….mean people, society, and even like Alina, from those who are supposed to love us. It can come from hurtful words and for myself, rejection and the need to be in control. As a child when the world you know is turned upside down, you have no control over it. Some of us grasp on to what little control we are able to have. For me, it was my intake of food. My issue was from the rejection and abandonment of the father I adored. I was his princess, and I didn’t understand that when he left my mother, he was essentially leaving me too. I tried very hard to be perfect thinking that would work, yet it never did. It is an ongoing struggle, especially when life throws curveballs. As with Alina, I am lucky to have a loving mother, stepdad, sister, two wonderful sons, a supportive best friend, and the man who for the past 27 years has showed me I am worthy. Yes, I have my very own Slater. Thank you, Gillian Jones, for writing this heartbreaking yet beautiful book. You have given us so much hope and proved there are good people out there who care!
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March 19, 2018
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4.5 Stars
With all the talk about this book before I received it, I knew that I was setting myself up for an emotional read. By the time I was reading chapter 2, I had that funny feeling in my stomach full of understanding, compassion and fear of where Ms Jones was taking us. An now I sit trying to figure out how to give the impact of this book the proper words to help it shine.
Alina is truly fighting the biggest fight of her life. Remembering the times in her early childhood when she felt like she would never be enough. Watching as she struggles daily with what she knows as right and what her eyes and mind tell her is right. The constant struggle and the little triggers that can bring on the panic in only seconds. That horrifying fear that someone will figure it out and call her on it, is just so draining. With the addition of "Her" always putting in her two cents, I am certain I would crumble.
But with the support of her one constant rock her big brother Lucky and the tribe of friends she has found in Happenstance she is fighting back. When the band is given the chance of a lifetime to travel and open for Sicken Union on tour, Alina decided to give it her all. Sure she is worried about being away from Lucky and her therapy, but she is also confident that she can do it, well mostly. She knew the girls would have her back, even if they truly didn't know the extent of things. What she hadn't expected along the way was Slater and the magnetic draw between them. Is she ready for that kind of friendship and maybe more? Only time will tell.
Slater was quite happy with life, killing it as the lead for Sicken Union. Sharing their fame with these new and upcoming bands, means something to him and his brothers. Loving the life and nowhere near ready to slow down or hand in his man card. When the raven haired beauty steps on the stage in front of him, she silently captivated him, holding all of his attention, even while trying so hard not to be noticed. Knowing he needed to get to know her but never ever expecting to find himself wanting to put himself out there. Being willing to wait for every little bit she willingly gave him. To standing beside her while helping fight the demons within.
Ms. Jones has completely outdone herself again. Even though this book is focused around Ali and her fight with this horrible decease, it is soo much more. Any person who has some sort of misguided conception of themselves can relate to Ali's inner thoughts and fears. The secondary characters in this book truly help bring it all together. Reminding us that we have support, we just need to open up and ask for it. And will might be honestly surprised how others feel. Thank you Gillian for bring us another heartbreaking novel.
*** Advanced copy provided in exchange for an honest review. ***
4.5 Stars
With all the talk about this book before I received it, I knew that I was setting myself up for an emotional read. By the time I was reading chapter 2, I had that funny feeling in my stomach full of understanding, compassion and fear of where Ms Jones was taking us. An now I sit trying to figure out how to give the impact of this book the proper words to help it shine.
Alina is truly fighting the biggest fight of her life. Remembering the times in her early childhood when she felt like she would never be enough. Watching as she struggles daily with what she knows as right and what her eyes and mind tell her is right. The constant struggle and the little triggers that can bring on the panic in only seconds. That horrifying fear that someone will figure it out and call her on it, is just so draining. With the addition of "Her" always putting in her two cents, I am certain I would crumble.
But with the support of her one constant rock her big brother Lucky and the tribe of friends she has found in Happenstance she is fighting back. When the band is given the chance of a lifetime to travel and open for Sicken Union on tour, Alina decided to give it her all. Sure she is worried about being away from Lucky and her therapy, but she is also confident that she can do it, well mostly. She knew the girls would have her back, even if they truly didn't know the extent of things. What she hadn't expected along the way was Slater and the magnetic draw between them. Is she ready for that kind of friendship and maybe more? Only time will tell.
Slater was quite happy with life, killing it as the lead for Sicken Union. Sharing their fame with these new and upcoming bands, means something to him and his brothers. Loving the life and nowhere near ready to slow down or hand in his man card. When the raven haired beauty steps on the stage in front of him, she silently captivated him, holding all of his attention, even while trying so hard not to be noticed. Knowing he needed to get to know her but never ever expecting to find himself wanting to put himself out there. Being willing to wait for every little bit she willingly gave him. To standing beside her while helping fight the demons within.
Ms. Jones has completely outdone herself again. Even though this book is focused around Ali and her fight with this horrible decease, it is soo much more. Any person who has some sort of misguided conception of themselves can relate to Ali's inner thoughts and fears. The secondary characters in this book truly help bring it all together. Reminding us that we have support, we just need to open up and ask for it. And will might be honestly surprised how others feel. Thank you Gillian for bring us another heartbreaking novel.
*** Advanced copy provided in exchange for an honest review. ***
March 19, 2018
*ARC was provided to me in exchange for an honest review*
I've read a couple of books by Gillian Jones now and she never fails to make me cry. Gillian writes these amazing books with such a deeper meaning to them. They're thought-provoking, moving and highly emotional. Fighting Weight is a book that's relatable and real. A lot of research, time and effort goes into her books, and this one is no different. Everything from the plot, characters, title, and meaning behind it all is so well thought out and so well written, it's a book that will stay with you forever.
I have to admit that this was a tough one to read and not because I didn't enjoy it. It's just a tough subject to read about. Something that may hit home to a lot of people, myself included. There may be parts of this book that you may not like to read because it may relate to yourself in a way you didn't think it would. And, that's okay, because this is a book about surviving. A book about believing in yourself and not letting yourself or anyone else tear you down.
I felt a lot of emotions while reading Fighting Weight. I laughed, I cried. There were times I was extremely angry, not only at the main character, Alina, but at myself. I've been in Alina's shoes my entire life and reading her story, made me extremely mad at myself for thinking the things I do. How I look at myself and think about myself. As I came to the end of this book, I felt other feelings. Happiness and relief. Feelings of good things to come, not only for the characters in this book, but for myself again. As I said, I felt a real connection and could relate to this book in a big way.
Something that I love about reading is when authors write not just to write a fictional story but to give us readers something to think about. Something that we can talk about with other people, for us to remember for years to come. Gillian Jones does a wonderful job at that, and I can't wait for more of her books. I highly recommend Fighting Weight to anyone who might need a book about fighting and survival. A book about self-love and self-worth and how to fight it and accept it.
I've read a couple of books by Gillian Jones now and she never fails to make me cry. Gillian writes these amazing books with such a deeper meaning to them. They're thought-provoking, moving and highly emotional. Fighting Weight is a book that's relatable and real. A lot of research, time and effort goes into her books, and this one is no different. Everything from the plot, characters, title, and meaning behind it all is so well thought out and so well written, it's a book that will stay with you forever.
I have to admit that this was a tough one to read and not because I didn't enjoy it. It's just a tough subject to read about. Something that may hit home to a lot of people, myself included. There may be parts of this book that you may not like to read because it may relate to yourself in a way you didn't think it would. And, that's okay, because this is a book about surviving. A book about believing in yourself and not letting yourself or anyone else tear you down.
I felt a lot of emotions while reading Fighting Weight. I laughed, I cried. There were times I was extremely angry, not only at the main character, Alina, but at myself. I've been in Alina's shoes my entire life and reading her story, made me extremely mad at myself for thinking the things I do. How I look at myself and think about myself. As I came to the end of this book, I felt other feelings. Happiness and relief. Feelings of good things to come, not only for the characters in this book, but for myself again. As I said, I felt a real connection and could relate to this book in a big way.
Something that I love about reading is when authors write not just to write a fictional story but to give us readers something to think about. Something that we can talk about with other people, for us to remember for years to come. Gillian Jones does a wonderful job at that, and I can't wait for more of her books. I highly recommend Fighting Weight to anyone who might need a book about fighting and survival. A book about self-love and self-worth and how to fight it and accept it.
September 15, 2018
Let me start by saying this books needs and deserves more than 5 stars!
Fighting Weight is not your average love story but ultimately it is a love story, it’s raw, it’s deep and it’s emotional. It has the right amount of light hearted humour to break up the heavy subject matter. Gillian has weaved it when and only when it’s needed and she’s done it flawlessly.
The subject matter and the plot at times is confronting and hard to read but it’s honest and needs to be talked about more freely and this book can and will makes this happen I have no doubt about that. Gillian has a way of evoking emotions through her words and I consider myself lucky to be able to read them.
Alina is a gorgeous woman, she’s a fighter and an inspiration, who had a terrible childhood. During that time she sort comfort with her ‘bully’ for years it was the two of them on a mission to break Ali’s spirit and body and for some time the ‘bully’ won. But do not underestimate Ali she’s got some backbone and isn’t going down easily.
She has the most amazing brother and some truly lovely friends that support her through the good and bad.
Slater is your typical play hard and screw hard rock star! He’s not looking for anything or anyone serious. But he can’t stop the instant and intense connection he and Ali have. He literally can’t stay away, he can’t function without her in his space. He is determined to be the light in her shadow. He makes it his mission to be her ‘one’ and be in her corner forever. I couldn’t have loved him anymore and him and Ali together = perfection.
Like I said this isn’t a typical love story, there are some truly harrowing scenes but there are some truly beautiful scenes.
I cannot tell you all enough to read this book, share this book and perhaps by some small miracle together we can help another person to fight their own ‘bully’.
Fighting Weight is not your average love story but ultimately it is a love story, it’s raw, it’s deep and it’s emotional. It has the right amount of light hearted humour to break up the heavy subject matter. Gillian has weaved it when and only when it’s needed and she’s done it flawlessly.
The subject matter and the plot at times is confronting and hard to read but it’s honest and needs to be talked about more freely and this book can and will makes this happen I have no doubt about that. Gillian has a way of evoking emotions through her words and I consider myself lucky to be able to read them.
Alina is a gorgeous woman, she’s a fighter and an inspiration, who had a terrible childhood. During that time she sort comfort with her ‘bully’ for years it was the two of them on a mission to break Ali’s spirit and body and for some time the ‘bully’ won. But do not underestimate Ali she’s got some backbone and isn’t going down easily.
She has the most amazing brother and some truly lovely friends that support her through the good and bad.
Slater is your typical play hard and screw hard rock star! He’s not looking for anything or anyone serious. But he can’t stop the instant and intense connection he and Ali have. He literally can’t stay away, he can’t function without her in his space. He is determined to be the light in her shadow. He makes it his mission to be her ‘one’ and be in her corner forever. I couldn’t have loved him anymore and him and Ali together = perfection.
Like I said this isn’t a typical love story, there are some truly harrowing scenes but there are some truly beautiful scenes.
I cannot tell you all enough to read this book, share this book and perhaps by some small miracle together we can help another person to fight their own ‘bully’.
March 17, 2018
First off this book is way beyond 5 Stars, I can’t even express how beyond it is. Second off this review will not do this book justice but I will try. When Gillian writes a book I can guarantee that you will feel so much emotion that whichever book that you’ve read it will stick with you for days if not months. And this is one of those books, one of those books that will reach deep down into you soul and just grab you and hold on with all it’s might while at the same time digging it’s claws into your heart and ripping it to shreds. Before slowly putting your heart back together again. One thing Gillian knows how to do is write those ugly cry books. But what I love about those books is that they bring awareness to something that’s not always comfortable to talk about. And she does her research about whatever topic that she’s writing about at that particular moment while mixing in the fiction to make for one of a kind book. That will definitely be at the top of my year end reads! That is what Fighting Weight is to me this year and I would highly recommend this book!!!
March 19, 2018
Fighting Weight by Gillian Jones is a deeply emotional encompassing a truly difficult subject ~ bulimia and fighting an eating disorder. Alina Cassidy and her brother Lucky only have each other, both fighting addictions and battling their demons. No one would wish their childhood on their worst enemy. Alina is trying to follow her dreams but "she" keeps holding her back and trying to trip her up. Reading and following her journey was heartbreaking, eye opening and hopeful all at the same time.
The author gives her all in each and every book she writes. I doubt there is a topic she'll shy away from. I was excited to dive into another one of Gillian's books and again I wasn't disappointed. At times I found Fighting Weight hard to read because it felt so real but that is only a testament to the authors ability to suck us into her story. 5 "Tree House" stars for Fighting Weight by Gillian Jones
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The author gives her all in each and every book she writes. I doubt there is a topic she'll shy away from. I was excited to dive into another one of Gillian's books and again I wasn't disappointed. At times I found Fighting Weight hard to read because it felt so real but that is only a testament to the authors ability to suck us into her story. 5 "Tree House" stars for Fighting Weight by Gillian Jones
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March 8, 2018
I knew going in this was going to be a hard read that was expect but the feeling Alina had of being unworthy hit me hard. Her addiction is not pretty, there’s shame, regret and tears.
My fave part is her great support system her brother what a great bond they have, he was always there for her even when he was fighting his own demons. The girl in the band, wow sisters for life. Slater Jenkins what can I say about this guy. The amazing support he willingly gave Alina. He didn’t understand the addiction but gave her support and understanding, the light to her dark.
As I’m reading Ali and Slater together I couldn’t help but think fuck these two belong to together, what great chemistry. Gillian is great at putting couples together like they have always been together. This is a beautiful story of resilience, love, support, and courage. I loved Alina’s triumph moment when she finally feels she is worthy and she is enough.
My fave part is her great support system her brother what a great bond they have, he was always there for her even when he was fighting his own demons. The girl in the band, wow sisters for life. Slater Jenkins what can I say about this guy. The amazing support he willingly gave Alina. He didn’t understand the addiction but gave her support and understanding, the light to her dark.
As I’m reading Ali and Slater together I couldn’t help but think fuck these two belong to together, what great chemistry. Gillian is great at putting couples together like they have always been together. This is a beautiful story of resilience, love, support, and courage. I loved Alina’s triumph moment when she finally feels she is worthy and she is enough.
March 19, 2018
wow what can I say about this book? I'm still fighting my emotions at how beautifully written it was.
This story is abiut Alina (ali) and Slater.
This is another emotionally charged, meaningful book by Ms Jones, she really knows how to write a book that plays with your heart strings and mind.
"You. Are. Exquisite."
This book is abiut a women who is struggling with an eating disorder and wow did Ms Jones portray it amazingly well and tastefully.
"How can someone so beautiful on the outside be so catastrophic within."
I felt like I was right there with Ali and helping her in some one the powerful scenes.
Ali and Slater are so cute, hot, heavy and amazing togther. Slater is totally my dream man!
I volunteered to read a copy of this book
This story is abiut Alina (ali) and Slater.
This is another emotionally charged, meaningful book by Ms Jones, she really knows how to write a book that plays with your heart strings and mind.
"You. Are. Exquisite."
This book is abiut a women who is struggling with an eating disorder and wow did Ms Jones portray it amazingly well and tastefully.
"How can someone so beautiful on the outside be so catastrophic within."
I felt like I was right there with Ali and helping her in some one the powerful scenes.
Ali and Slater are so cute, hot, heavy and amazing togther. Slater is totally my dream man!
I volunteered to read a copy of this book
March 19, 2018
Fighting Weight
By: Gillian Jones
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Let me start by saying the books I have read by Gillian she writes about very hard subjects. I am sure you can see where Fighting Weight is going.
Alina has had too many people in her life telling her that she wasn't good enough. That she needs to do this or that so that she doesn't get too fat. At 13 her Bully makes her first appearance. For years she falls into the trap her Bully has set and develops Bulimia and Body Dysmorphia. After all the hell she starts to fight back. Through therapy and with the help of her brother and band she fights hard.
Slater connects with Alina as soon as he sees her on stage. When his band invites hers to tour with them for 8 weeks he wants to get to know Alina better.
Through the tour Slater sees the good and bad. How does he respond?
My take on this book:
This is a very emotional book. Even if you have never dealt with eating disorders or issues with body image issues you will feel the emotion that Alina and Slater go through. From sadness to despair to elation. And in the process of reading I learned to see a little more inside someone rather than outside. Everyone deals with something. But a smile can always make a difference to one person. Do Not miss this book.
By: Gillian Jones
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Let me start by saying the books I have read by Gillian she writes about very hard subjects. I am sure you can see where Fighting Weight is going.
Alina has had too many people in her life telling her that she wasn't good enough. That she needs to do this or that so that she doesn't get too fat. At 13 her Bully makes her first appearance. For years she falls into the trap her Bully has set and develops Bulimia and Body Dysmorphia. After all the hell she starts to fight back. Through therapy and with the help of her brother and band she fights hard.
Slater connects with Alina as soon as he sees her on stage. When his band invites hers to tour with them for 8 weeks he wants to get to know Alina better.
Through the tour Slater sees the good and bad. How does he respond?
My take on this book:
This is a very emotional book. Even if you have never dealt with eating disorders or issues with body image issues you will feel the emotion that Alina and Slater go through. From sadness to despair to elation. And in the process of reading I learned to see a little more inside someone rather than outside. Everyone deals with something. But a smile can always make a difference to one person. Do Not miss this book.
March 19, 2018
This book was a game changer. Good lord Alina Cassidy, our heroine, her story had me crying and my heart broke for her. Let that not discourage you cause this book was an amazing read. I kinda need more tho. LOL
August 27, 2018
OMG! There should be more stars to rate this amazing book. Gillian Jones is a brilliant author who writes quality stories featuring 'real' people in which you can easily relate. Let me just put it out there...THIS IS A MUST READ BOOK FOR EVERYONE!
The struggle Alina has with her inner demon is so hard and damaging. It tears you apart with the raw emotions she goes through. The female role models from her childhood years make you wonder how she survived at all. Her inner strength and determination, supported by the people who love her, help her immensely.
Really, words don't adequately describe how wonderful this very emotional story is and how it stays with you long after finishing the book.
I applaud you Gillian Jones.
The struggle Alina has with her inner demon is so hard and damaging. It tears you apart with the raw emotions she goes through. The female role models from her childhood years make you wonder how she survived at all. Her inner strength and determination, supported by the people who love her, help her immensely.
Really, words don't adequately describe how wonderful this very emotional story is and how it stays with you long after finishing the book.
I applaud you Gillian Jones.
March 8, 2018
Gillian Jones can take real life, and all of it's realist, cruelest, heartbreaking parts and weave it into something so absolutely beautiful... all while staying true to what the story's about.
This book made me sob - ugly cry, constant tears, snot down my face sob. It wasn't a pretty sight, but I loved every bit of it!
It shone such a light on something that so many people are in the dark about. And there was a love story wrapped into all of it that was so pure, and hopeful.
There just aren't enough stars for this one... not nearly enough.
This book made me sob - ugly cry, constant tears, snot down my face sob. It wasn't a pretty sight, but I loved every bit of it!
It shone such a light on something that so many people are in the dark about. And there was a love story wrapped into all of it that was so pure, and hopeful.
There just aren't enough stars for this one... not nearly enough.
March 17, 2018
Where to begin with this review. I'm not even sure I can fully put into words the impact this story has for me. You see, through many points in my life, even now, I know the inner demon Alinia tries so hard to fight. Some days it's an uphill battle and other days it's an easy defeat. What Gillian wrote about and captured in this story, I cannot put into words adequately. Many small nuances that were discussed and checks, I did and STILL do. This is extremely hard for me, as I'm not one to open up on this level, anywhere, to anyone. I think one time in counseling I let it slip. I'm just not comfortable talking about it, see I won't even say eating disorder or body dysmorphia when typing. We don't own a scale in our house, there are many reasons for that. I can't own one. Looking at the number triggers my brain to be the demon. Seeing if my rings fit on opposite fingers, checking my wrists, all things I do to see where I'm at. So, below is my review of Alina's journey, a little of my own meshed in, and the recommendation to read a story that will touch your soul.
I had to sit on this one for a while and ponder what to write. This emotional journey covers Alina and her inner demons. Particularly one demon that talks the loudest and hits the hardest. Her battle began at a young age and will last a lifetime. Gillian did so much justice to body dysmorphia and eating disorders. It is a heavy topic that she covers beautifully.
What do you do when your worst nightmare is inside of your mind? How do you fight the battle that threatens to pull you under? Alina wasn't sure what to do. I could relate. The battle in front of her wasn't over in a day. Gillian made the timeline seem realistic. It felt real. She gave her all in the research and information for this story. It is all-consuming. Like a well-choreographed dance, it moved me beyond words. It was also therapeutic.
Alina doesn't even realize her own strength. She still, even in the end, is unsure of it. If she could see herself the way those that truly LOVE her saw her, she would notice how beautiful she is. Inside and out. Her fellow bandmates know more than she wants to believe. How Gillian wove in their thoughts, concerns, and care was beyond words. They fight for Alina, and with her.
Lucky, her brother, has his own demons to overcome. While he tries to be strong for his sister, he can only give so much. I liked that from this journey we saw how he too was broken in a different way and began to heal. There was nothing quite like their bond and it was a beautiful sibling strength that bloomed from tragedy.
Slater finds this light in Alina that brightens his world. It is blinding and consuming. He's scared, but the man this character is is phenomenal. He doesn't shirk or run away. He faces the challenges head-on and with soul, passion, and heart. Never once giving up on Alina. NEVER. The battle he has internally when he finds out Alina's secret was powerful. Gillian made you feel like you were in his head, feeling what he felt and the war he was fighting to win.
This story does have a HEA, and it is well deserved and fought for. Alina chose to not give up or give in to the demons. You can feel her passion to not let it defeat her. On her journey to be the best version of herself, friends and love find a way to strengthen and support.
This heavy topic was balanced by a rockstar story. Two bands, and their journey through stardom, fame, performing and being normal. It all fit together in this intricate puzzle that created a rocking masterpiece. I could not put this story down once I got past my own fears.
ED and body dysmorphia is not something easily admitted to, at least for me. Like Alina, it started at a young age for me, even continuing into college when being told you can't turn because of your belly, by a teacher who had a larger stomach than your 19-year-old self. I will confess I wasn't sure I could read this story. I'm glad I did though. It was flawless in my mind. I actually want to read it again. I also hope we get more stories from this world Gillian created. There were so many relatable moments for me. I found myself messaging her saying 'OMG that thing they do, I do it STILL!' It was a wake-up call, to say the least.
Now that this review is all over the place. I am happy to say I give this 5 pointe shoes! Standing ovation, and curtain call as well. If you are looking for an inspirational, real, and great story, then please check it out.
I had to sit on this one for a while and ponder what to write. This emotional journey covers Alina and her inner demons. Particularly one demon that talks the loudest and hits the hardest. Her battle began at a young age and will last a lifetime. Gillian did so much justice to body dysmorphia and eating disorders. It is a heavy topic that she covers beautifully.
What do you do when your worst nightmare is inside of your mind? How do you fight the battle that threatens to pull you under? Alina wasn't sure what to do. I could relate. The battle in front of her wasn't over in a day. Gillian made the timeline seem realistic. It felt real. She gave her all in the research and information for this story. It is all-consuming. Like a well-choreographed dance, it moved me beyond words. It was also therapeutic.
Alina doesn't even realize her own strength. She still, even in the end, is unsure of it. If she could see herself the way those that truly LOVE her saw her, she would notice how beautiful she is. Inside and out. Her fellow bandmates know more than she wants to believe. How Gillian wove in their thoughts, concerns, and care was beyond words. They fight for Alina, and with her.
Lucky, her brother, has his own demons to overcome. While he tries to be strong for his sister, he can only give so much. I liked that from this journey we saw how he too was broken in a different way and began to heal. There was nothing quite like their bond and it was a beautiful sibling strength that bloomed from tragedy.
Slater finds this light in Alina that brightens his world. It is blinding and consuming. He's scared, but the man this character is is phenomenal. He doesn't shirk or run away. He faces the challenges head-on and with soul, passion, and heart. Never once giving up on Alina. NEVER. The battle he has internally when he finds out Alina's secret was powerful. Gillian made you feel like you were in his head, feeling what he felt and the war he was fighting to win.
This story does have a HEA, and it is well deserved and fought for. Alina chose to not give up or give in to the demons. You can feel her passion to not let it defeat her. On her journey to be the best version of herself, friends and love find a way to strengthen and support.
This heavy topic was balanced by a rockstar story. Two bands, and their journey through stardom, fame, performing and being normal. It all fit together in this intricate puzzle that created a rocking masterpiece. I could not put this story down once I got past my own fears.
ED and body dysmorphia is not something easily admitted to, at least for me. Like Alina, it started at a young age for me, even continuing into college when being told you can't turn because of your belly, by a teacher who had a larger stomach than your 19-year-old self. I will confess I wasn't sure I could read this story. I'm glad I did though. It was flawless in my mind. I actually want to read it again. I also hope we get more stories from this world Gillian created. There were so many relatable moments for me. I found myself messaging her saying 'OMG that thing they do, I do it STILL!' It was a wake-up call, to say the least.
Now that this review is all over the place. I am happy to say I give this 5 pointe shoes! Standing ovation, and curtain call as well. If you are looking for an inspirational, real, and great story, then please check it out.
March 16, 2018
For me, what started it all was simply the cover!
The beauty of the design, the way the colors went from light to dark and the haunting silhouette of the tree, as it held up the figure of the girl above its branches...
Everything about this cover called to me when I first saw it!!!
Holy hell...once I was lucky enough to start reading this book, I knew, in some shape or form, I was going to be changed by the words or touched by something greater by the end of this tale.
It's a tough world we, as women, live in these days - there's like this invisible pressure that weighs heavily on each of our shoulders in some shape or form.
Whether we are strong enough to shoulder the weight or it slowly seeps underneath the surface is something that only we can answer.
This book left me with a kaleidoscope of emotions.
There were moments I was, unfortunately, able to relate to Allina and what she was going through and then there were others where I knew I was lucky enough to come out the other side..maybe less scarred than others...
But the beauty of this book, by an off the charts amazingly talented author like Gillian Jones, is that anyone can read it, personal experiences or not, and be able to relate to the pressures and harsh reality that this book touches on.
This was a gritty and thought provoking tale of the struggles faced by a young woman as she walks the treacherous path of an eating disorder and tragic fall out from a body dismorphic disorder.
This book was absolutely heart breaking...it will truly steal a piece of you as you experience the highs and lows right along side Allina.
Thank god for Slater!
This book was brilliant before him but the introduction of the sexy lead singer added something so special to this story!
He was like the missing ingredient to not only the book but the health and well being of Allina as well!
I fell in love with him alongside our heroine and it was a joy, and absolute heartfelt experience, reading and unraveling the pages of their love story as it unfolded.
They say love finds us when we need it the most and that couldn't be more true than in this tale!
I loved this book and everything it was able to represent.
To be able to bring attention to a very serious and sad reality for so many women and men through her writing and storytelling Gillian Jones was able to open another door of communication for an issue that often doesn't get enough, an issue that has quickly become almost a normalcy for todays society!
I couldn't recommend this book more!
What an beautiful tale of the pain and destruction that eating disorders can wreak in our lives whilst bringing a balance to the dark though the strength and lightness that can come from friendship, love and support that the people closest to us can bring.
There are not enough stars that could do this book the justice it truly deserves!
The beauty of the design, the way the colors went from light to dark and the haunting silhouette of the tree, as it held up the figure of the girl above its branches...
Everything about this cover called to me when I first saw it!!!
Holy hell...once I was lucky enough to start reading this book, I knew, in some shape or form, I was going to be changed by the words or touched by something greater by the end of this tale.
It's a tough world we, as women, live in these days - there's like this invisible pressure that weighs heavily on each of our shoulders in some shape or form.
Whether we are strong enough to shoulder the weight or it slowly seeps underneath the surface is something that only we can answer.
This book left me with a kaleidoscope of emotions.
There were moments I was, unfortunately, able to relate to Allina and what she was going through and then there were others where I knew I was lucky enough to come out the other side..maybe less scarred than others...
But the beauty of this book, by an off the charts amazingly talented author like Gillian Jones, is that anyone can read it, personal experiences or not, and be able to relate to the pressures and harsh reality that this book touches on.
This was a gritty and thought provoking tale of the struggles faced by a young woman as she walks the treacherous path of an eating disorder and tragic fall out from a body dismorphic disorder.
This book was absolutely heart breaking...it will truly steal a piece of you as you experience the highs and lows right along side Allina.
Thank god for Slater!
This book was brilliant before him but the introduction of the sexy lead singer added something so special to this story!
He was like the missing ingredient to not only the book but the health and well being of Allina as well!
I fell in love with him alongside our heroine and it was a joy, and absolute heartfelt experience, reading and unraveling the pages of their love story as it unfolded.
They say love finds us when we need it the most and that couldn't be more true than in this tale!
I loved this book and everything it was able to represent.
To be able to bring attention to a very serious and sad reality for so many women and men through her writing and storytelling Gillian Jones was able to open another door of communication for an issue that often doesn't get enough, an issue that has quickly become almost a normalcy for todays society!
I couldn't recommend this book more!
What an beautiful tale of the pain and destruction that eating disorders can wreak in our lives whilst bringing a balance to the dark though the strength and lightness that can come from friendship, love and support that the people closest to us can bring.
There are not enough stars that could do this book the justice it truly deserves!
April 4, 2018
What happens when you've only had negative words from the women who should take care of you all your life? When those voices continue in your head, they try to destroy you. They make you believe you're fat, ugly, useless, and nothing. That voice eventually convinces you to take control by binging and purging. This is a story of a woman taking back control, fighting her bully, and winning.
I was torn apart right from the prologue. Oh my god what Alina Cassidy went through at the hands of her mom, then her aunt was absolutely heartbreaking. The thought that she only had her brother in the beginning to distract her, and tell her she was beautiful and something hurt. Of course it wasn't enough for Alina. When she and her band, Happenstance, ended up on tour with the hottest band in Canada, Sicken Union, she instantly got along with the whole band. The lead singer, Slater Jenkins, makes her very nervous. He brings out feelings in her she's never felt, but can she trust him?
Slater has been burned before so he's definitely not looking for anything long term. When he got his first look at the lead guitarist in a band they're auditioning for their tour, he's transfixed by her beauty. He can see the trepidation in her, and knows he needs to be gentle and take things slow.
Oh my...this book took me by complete surprise. I found myself trying to overcome the voice telling Alina to basically destroy herself. I wanted to scream and yell at the voice, beat it up and save her from the torture she endured. Her brother was her safety net, and her girls were a close second. When Slater came into her life, he became another safety net. Another person to help defeat the voice. It was a long hard road to recovery and the fear was always there.
I think the storytelling here was amazingly real and beautiful. I know it was based on a real-life story but Gillian did a wonderful job putting it all into words and putting her own twist on it. This was such a hard review to write and I don't feel like I'm doing it justice at all. What I can say is get this book...you won't regret it. Just make sure you have tissues at the ready!
March 27, 2018
I heard about this book from Brynne Asher—she made a post about this book, and I checked it out on Amazon. After reading the blurb and some of the reviews, I struggled with whether or not to read this story because the subject matter is very real to me. I was terrified of the emotions, the memories it would bring forth.
But, I decided to take a chance on this story, and once I made my decision, I got the book on my Kindle and read, regardless of where I was.
The first part was very heavy, I cried. I was at the airport waiting for my flight and later on the flight when I read this part, tears streamed down my cheeks and my nose was runny. Everything Ali did brought forth memories. Her struggle and her addiction to do what she did, goodness, how I understood.
There were times I had to set the book aside and breathe. I had to regroup before diving back in.
I pushed forth to the end living Ali's fight with her. When she hit her lowest, it tore me up. When Slater stayed, supported, and fought this fight with her, I fell in love.
I am so glad I took a chance on Fighting Weight because I ABSOLUTELY LOVED it.
It was heart-wrenching, heavy, inspiring, beautiful, and loving. I was on a roller coaster of emotions from the first page to the very last word.
I cried so much.
I smiled.
I got so angry, I wanted to hit something.
I cheered Ali on.
I cried some more.
And I fell in love.
This is one of those books that shows you the power of love. It doesn't heal or make things better overnight, but it gives you strength and support. It gives you a reason to fight the addiction, a reason to live and get better. That's what Ali needed in this fight for her life because this is a fight one does not fight alone.
**Please note that this book is not for everyone. Carefully read the blurb, even read some of the reviews if you're on the fence.**
But, I decided to take a chance on this story, and once I made my decision, I got the book on my Kindle and read, regardless of where I was.
The first part was very heavy, I cried. I was at the airport waiting for my flight and later on the flight when I read this part, tears streamed down my cheeks and my nose was runny. Everything Ali did brought forth memories. Her struggle and her addiction to do what she did, goodness, how I understood.
There were times I had to set the book aside and breathe. I had to regroup before diving back in.
I pushed forth to the end living Ali's fight with her. When she hit her lowest, it tore me up. When Slater stayed, supported, and fought this fight with her, I fell in love.
I am so glad I took a chance on Fighting Weight because I ABSOLUTELY LOVED it.
It was heart-wrenching, heavy, inspiring, beautiful, and loving. I was on a roller coaster of emotions from the first page to the very last word.
I cried so much.
I smiled.
I got so angry, I wanted to hit something.
I cheered Ali on.
I cried some more.
And I fell in love.
This is one of those books that shows you the power of love. It doesn't heal or make things better overnight, but it gives you strength and support. It gives you a reason to fight the addiction, a reason to live and get better. That's what Ali needed in this fight for her life because this is a fight one does not fight alone.
**Please note that this book is not for everyone. Carefully read the blurb, even read some of the reviews if you're on the fence.**
March 11, 2018
I actually finished Fighting Weight three days ago and hopefully I can find the words to adequately explain why this book will impact you immensely.
For me Gillian Jones is an automatic read. I've read all her books and can honestly say I loved them all. Yes there are some that are my favorites and Fighting Weight is now on that list. My top read last year was Tainted by Love (my review) https://www.goodreads.com/review/show...
I really didn't think any book could come close to TBL and I never thought I could share my love for another couple like I have for Trinity and Hendrix but let me tell you Alina Cassidy and Slater Jenkins are right up there with them.
Once again in true Gillian Jones fashion she has taken a subject that needs to be heard and gives it a voice. She does this with such compassion and heart. Bulimia is a very prevalent disease in our society and Ms. Jones has weaved a story that will hurt your heart and then will help to heal it.
Alina has fought with her "bully" since she was thirteen, never thinking that it would lead to a life of hiding. Hiding her true self, hiding the voice inside, hiding the self harm. No one knows the real Alina, no one, until Slater.
"It's as if he can see right through me, and I instantly wonder if maybe I've been slacking in my ability to keep my secrets mine."
Slater is quite simply a Rock God. He has never felt the need to settle down with one woman and the whole white picket fence deal. Then he sees her, "The girl with the dark hair, blue eyes, and flawless skin, who takes my breath away like a sucker punch to the gut." and everything changes. He needs to know her, see her, own her.
"I've never wanted a girl to call mine. Yet, that's what she is: mine."
Besides her brother Lucky, Alina doesn't let anyone get too close. She hasn't even opened up to her bandmates so it's very hard for her when Slater worms his way closer to her and is determined to discover all there is to know about the sexy guitarist.
"I'll make it through whatever's thrown my way while on this tour and fight for the light, even when negativity pushes me towards that familiar darkness. I vow to enjoy this journey with my head held high."
This book easily made it into my top read for this year so far because it is so very deserving to be there!!
** Received an ARC from author. Voluntarily provided review**
For me Gillian Jones is an automatic read. I've read all her books and can honestly say I loved them all. Yes there are some that are my favorites and Fighting Weight is now on that list. My top read last year was Tainted by Love (my review) https://www.goodreads.com/review/show...
I really didn't think any book could come close to TBL and I never thought I could share my love for another couple like I have for Trinity and Hendrix but let me tell you Alina Cassidy and Slater Jenkins are right up there with them.
Once again in true Gillian Jones fashion she has taken a subject that needs to be heard and gives it a voice. She does this with such compassion and heart. Bulimia is a very prevalent disease in our society and Ms. Jones has weaved a story that will hurt your heart and then will help to heal it.
Alina has fought with her "bully" since she was thirteen, never thinking that it would lead to a life of hiding. Hiding her true self, hiding the voice inside, hiding the self harm. No one knows the real Alina, no one, until Slater.
"It's as if he can see right through me, and I instantly wonder if maybe I've been slacking in my ability to keep my secrets mine."
Slater is quite simply a Rock God. He has never felt the need to settle down with one woman and the whole white picket fence deal. Then he sees her, "The girl with the dark hair, blue eyes, and flawless skin, who takes my breath away like a sucker punch to the gut." and everything changes. He needs to know her, see her, own her.
"I've never wanted a girl to call mine. Yet, that's what she is: mine."
Besides her brother Lucky, Alina doesn't let anyone get too close. She hasn't even opened up to her bandmates so it's very hard for her when Slater worms his way closer to her and is determined to discover all there is to know about the sexy guitarist.
"I'll make it through whatever's thrown my way while on this tour and fight for the light, even when negativity pushes me towards that familiar darkness. I vow to enjoy this journey with my head held high."
This book easily made it into my top read for this year so far because it is so very deserving to be there!!
** Received an ARC from author. Voluntarily provided review**
March 18, 2018
I'm pretty sure I said this about Tainted by Love, and I am going to say it about Fighting Weight also... There are some books that pull you in and punch you in the face, make you bleed, and then slowly sew you back up. Fighting Weight is one of those books. You fall in love with Alina, feel her pain, see her struggle, bare her burdens. Then comes Slater, who makes you instantly swoon, see his love, feel his hope. Next is the punch in the face, in this case it was the reporter that shall not be named. One question, one comment, one moment, that's all it took to send Ali into a downward spiral. It sent her flying into the arms of her bully, only to be caught and set back on her feet by her unicorn. Everyone has a unicorn, and Slater is Ali's. He fought for her, he fought with her. He showed her that she is beautiful. He showed her that she is enough.
This book teaches you that one thing said can cause immense pain, and detrimental destruction to someone. One thing. Let that sink in for a moment. One thing! I have never read an author that can write a book with such purpose that it can be life changing. Gillian Jones is that author to me. She is my unicorn author.
This line will be written on my daughters bedroom walls, to help remind them that they are enough, and that they are fighters.
"You’re a fighter like no one I’ve ever seen. I hope you’ll look back on what you’ve fought against one day and see the battle you’ve won, and how amazing you are.”
Thank you for writing such an amazing book Gillian. It is more inspiring than I can put into words. It is beautiful, it is heartbreaking, it is perfection. Thank you.
This book teaches you that one thing said can cause immense pain, and detrimental destruction to someone. One thing. Let that sink in for a moment. One thing! I have never read an author that can write a book with such purpose that it can be life changing. Gillian Jones is that author to me. She is my unicorn author.
This line will be written on my daughters bedroom walls, to help remind them that they are enough, and that they are fighters.
"You’re a fighter like no one I’ve ever seen. I hope you’ll look back on what you’ve fought against one day and see the battle you’ve won, and how amazing you are.”
Thank you for writing such an amazing book Gillian. It is more inspiring than I can put into words. It is beautiful, it is heartbreaking, it is perfection. Thank you.
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