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Get in My Head: Jared's Story
Everyone at some point in their lives has to ask themselves if they are crazy. We all experience the world differently -- but what if your thoughts and actions are too different? When people venture away from societal norms, those around them become afraid. They don't understand. But what if you could understand? What if you could get in someone else's head? All Jared wants to know is what he did wrong. Abandoned by his family and made to live in a mental hospital that feels more like hell, Jared is forced to face the monster within. On the outside he might seem like your average teenage boy, but on the inside, his mind is threatening to tear him apart.
- GenresYoung AdultMental Health
219 pages, Kindle Edition
Published June 1, 2017
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S.M. Holland
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May 19, 2017
This is not your average story. A blend of phycological thriller, drama and contemporary, Jared's story gets to the point and drags you right in with it. Written in a blend of first person narrative and journal entries, the close, personal feeling of the book will rip your heart out and make you happy about it. Not only is it vastly entertaining, it has real depth and pulls the curtains back on something we as a culture rarely talk about. There is some really heavy content in the story so please do read with some discretion. I do suggest this to anyone who likes deep, YA contemporaries. This is one author you want to watch.
June 8, 2018
NEVER has my heart broken more for a character than the way it broke repeatedly for Jared as I followed along on this journey. Don't let the size of this book fool you into thinking you'll just sit down and hammer it out with minimal feels. It will put you through the wringer, right along with Jared! It's a deep and compelling read and I stopped and started because every few pages it brought up another point that caused me to be really very introspective (or cry... there was a lot of crying.)
I'm a mental health care professional (or psych nurse, if you prefer), in both an inpatient and outpatient setting, and let me tell you, this book puts me right back on the unit with a struggling patient. There have been times when a patient has finally felt comfortable or trusting enough to open up to me about what's going on in their head and Holland's portrayal of Jared is right on the money! The confusion and denial of dealing with a mental health diagnosis, the reluctant acceptance, the loss of trust in your care providers when they mistreat you, and the subsequent loss of trust in yourself when you start to wonder if you really did something, saw something, heard something because after all, the doctor and your family say something's wrong with you, right? So maybe that person wasn't really there? Maybe you did some awful thing that the CNA said you did? What's real and what's not?
It's a well written emotional and psychological roller coaster and some people who are lucky enough to have never had to step foot in the kind of facilities or deal with the situations described in this book might think that there's no way this can all happen to one person. To a child? Yes. Yes it can. The unfortunate reality is that Jared could be any number of patients I've treated and I'm so, so, so glad for the flashlight that this story is shining on a dark and gritty reality that way too many people face.
I'm a mental health care professional (or psych nurse, if you prefer), in both an inpatient and outpatient setting, and let me tell you, this book puts me right back on the unit with a struggling patient. There have been times when a patient has finally felt comfortable or trusting enough to open up to me about what's going on in their head and Holland's portrayal of Jared is right on the money! The confusion and denial of dealing with a mental health diagnosis, the reluctant acceptance, the loss of trust in your care providers when they mistreat you, and the subsequent loss of trust in yourself when you start to wonder if you really did something, saw something, heard something because after all, the doctor and your family say something's wrong with you, right? So maybe that person wasn't really there? Maybe you did some awful thing that the CNA said you did? What's real and what's not?
It's a well written emotional and psychological roller coaster and some people who are lucky enough to have never had to step foot in the kind of facilities or deal with the situations described in this book might think that there's no way this can all happen to one person. To a child? Yes. Yes it can. The unfortunate reality is that Jared could be any number of patients I've treated and I'm so, so, so glad for the flashlight that this story is shining on a dark and gritty reality that way too many people face.
July 31, 2017
Holland's book takes on the grueling challenge of discussing mental illness through the perspective of someone experiencing it first hand. Saying that she excelled is an understatement.
Holland uses a combination of journal entries and first-person POVs to get glimpses into Jared's life. We see Jared coming to terms with his mental illness, struggling with poor treatment from staff, and wanting the love and support that he truly needs but doesn't always get.
While my heart was breaking for Jared, I was also wondering if we'd ever learn what the family was going through. Because Jared's perspective is biased. I kept thinking "There's a reason why some family members are so distant." It took awhile but oh boy did we find out what they were going through. In the end I felt just as sorry for them as I did for Jared!
Holland does her best to present a fair view for all the characters involved. They are all going through their own trauma and trying to make the best of it. Sometimes they succeed, sometimes they have setbacks. But ultimately, Holland shows that being diagnosed with a mental illness does not mean life is over. Especially if you have proper support. It just takes time to learn how to live.
Fair warning: there is a fair amount of language and there are many uncomfortable scenes in this book. Normally, this would be something I would avoid. But I knew that Holland was aiming to portray what Jared was going through as realistically as possible. Everything was there for a purpose, and I have the utmost respect for her because of that. So reader discretion is advised.
But if you choose to read it, it is well worth the journey.
Holland uses a combination of journal entries and first-person POVs to get glimpses into Jared's life. We see Jared coming to terms with his mental illness, struggling with poor treatment from staff, and wanting the love and support that he truly needs but doesn't always get.
While my heart was breaking for Jared, I was also wondering if we'd ever learn what the family was going through. Because Jared's perspective is biased. I kept thinking "There's a reason why some family members are so distant." It took awhile but oh boy did we find out what they were going through. In the end I felt just as sorry for them as I did for Jared!
Holland does her best to present a fair view for all the characters involved. They are all going through their own trauma and trying to make the best of it. Sometimes they succeed, sometimes they have setbacks. But ultimately, Holland shows that being diagnosed with a mental illness does not mean life is over. Especially if you have proper support. It just takes time to learn how to live.
Fair warning: there is a fair amount of language and there are many uncomfortable scenes in this book. Normally, this would be something I would avoid. But I knew that Holland was aiming to portray what Jared was going through as realistically as possible. Everything was there for a purpose, and I have the utmost respect for her because of that. So reader discretion is advised.
But if you choose to read it, it is well worth the journey.
October 28, 2018
Update: I've decided to give this one 5 stars after thinking it over. None of the content was really unnecessary, and it fully deserves all 5!
This book was such an inspiring story of mental illness and the road to recovery! It does not sugarcoat anything as it's a very brutal story with many dark themes, yet not without hope either.
We follow the story of a boy named Jared who has been confined to a psychiatric center mainly through a bunch of journal entries. This format works very well in the stories favor, as it lets us, for lack of a better word, get into Jared's head.
The character development is so well written! His slow build up to getting better and the ups and downs that it took him to get there were all so realistically portrayed, Holland definitely did her research!
The only real problem I had with this book was the amount of profanity it contained. I understand that the author did this to put a realistic spin on him being a troubled kid, but I feel like there was more of it than was really necessary. Just my opinion
Other than that though, this book is an absolute gem among self published books and I highly recommend picking this one up!
This book was such an inspiring story of mental illness and the road to recovery! It does not sugarcoat anything as it's a very brutal story with many dark themes, yet not without hope either.
We follow the story of a boy named Jared who has been confined to a psychiatric center mainly through a bunch of journal entries. This format works very well in the stories favor, as it lets us, for lack of a better word, get into Jared's head.
The character development is so well written! His slow build up to getting better and the ups and downs that it took him to get there were all so realistically portrayed, Holland definitely did her research!
The only real problem I had with this book was the amount of profanity it contained. I understand that the author did this to put a realistic spin on him being a troubled kid, but I feel like there was more of it than was really necessary. Just my opinion
Other than that though, this book is an absolute gem among self published books and I highly recommend picking this one up!
December 15, 2017
Let me just start off by saying that I read this book in less than 24 hours. That's how captivating it was. So despite any of the other issues I had with it, it definitely grabbed and kept my attention, and I think that says a lot.
Alternating between first-person narration and journal entries written by the protagonist, this book tells the story of sixteen-year-old Jared, who finds himself in an institutional setting after an incident he can't really remember. We watch him struggle with his mental health and try to come to terms with what that means for him him while living in an environment that is often hostile and makes things worse rather than better. It's a powerful story and one that's important, and I appreciated the no-sugarcoating approach the author took to telling the story in a way that feels honest and true. As a narrator, Jared is especially interesting because you're never quite sure what is real or not real. However, it's abundantly clear that all of it feels real to him, and with a story like this, I think that's one of the most important things to come away understanding.
I went into this story with high expectations, and for the most part, it did a good job. However, there were some issues with the story that I found frustrating. I'll preface this by saying that I worked as a CNA for 6 years in a behavior health unit for adults, so obviously it's not quite the same thing, but I feel like I still have something of an insider perspective on that aspect of the book. I'll also be graduating with my bachelor's degree in social work in a few months, so I'm also somewhat familiar with the basics of mental health counseling and other similar aspects of the story. Maybe that just means I was hypersensitive to the portrayal of medical and mental health workers in the story, and maybe other readers wouldn't be as frustrated by that portrayal as I was. But I was frustrated. With a few exceptions, these people are portrayed as being completely incompetent when they aren't being deliberately abusive. And I understand that part of this may be just how Jared views them, whether because of his mental health issues or because he's upset at his situation or both of those things. But even when I filtered out all of that and tried to look at certain situations just based on the facts that were presented (or at least as much as I felt could be taken at face value), these people were just...so incompetent and awful. Part of that was deliberate, and that's fine. But there were other parts where things felt inaccurate or inconsistent with reality, and that didn't really sit right with me.
As I said before, despite these issues, the story grabbed me and didn't let go. I became emotionally invested in Jared's story, I cheered him on, I felt his pain and sadness, and throughout the story I just wanted to know what would happen next. If you're looking for a captivating YA novel and you're not afraid to take a look at some of the grim realities of living with a mental illness and mental health treatment, I would definitely recommend this book.
Alternating between first-person narration and journal entries written by the protagonist, this book tells the story of sixteen-year-old Jared, who finds himself in an institutional setting after an incident he can't really remember. We watch him struggle with his mental health and try to come to terms with what that means for him him while living in an environment that is often hostile and makes things worse rather than better. It's a powerful story and one that's important, and I appreciated the no-sugarcoating approach the author took to telling the story in a way that feels honest and true. As a narrator, Jared is especially interesting because you're never quite sure what is real or not real. However, it's abundantly clear that all of it feels real to him, and with a story like this, I think that's one of the most important things to come away understanding.
I went into this story with high expectations, and for the most part, it did a good job. However, there were some issues with the story that I found frustrating. I'll preface this by saying that I worked as a CNA for 6 years in a behavior health unit for adults, so obviously it's not quite the same thing, but I feel like I still have something of an insider perspective on that aspect of the book. I'll also be graduating with my bachelor's degree in social work in a few months, so I'm also somewhat familiar with the basics of mental health counseling and other similar aspects of the story. Maybe that just means I was hypersensitive to the portrayal of medical and mental health workers in the story, and maybe other readers wouldn't be as frustrated by that portrayal as I was. But I was frustrated. With a few exceptions, these people are portrayed as being completely incompetent when they aren't being deliberately abusive. And I understand that part of this may be just how Jared views them, whether because of his mental health issues or because he's upset at his situation or both of those things. But even when I filtered out all of that and tried to look at certain situations just based on the facts that were presented (or at least as much as I felt could be taken at face value), these people were just...so incompetent and awful. Part of that was deliberate, and that's fine. But there were other parts where things felt inaccurate or inconsistent with reality, and that didn't really sit right with me.
As I said before, despite these issues, the story grabbed me and didn't let go. I became emotionally invested in Jared's story, I cheered him on, I felt his pain and sadness, and throughout the story I just wanted to know what would happen next. If you're looking for a captivating YA novel and you're not afraid to take a look at some of the grim realities of living with a mental illness and mental health treatment, I would definitely recommend this book.
August 7, 2017
Getting inside Jared's head and staying there is fascinating, haunting and an excellent way for the reader to understand what Jared is going through living with mental illness. This is a deeply emotional book that moves quickly and keeps you wanting to turn the page. Jared is extremely likable and feels broken. The author has a way of pulling on your heart strings while being thought provoking. It's a fair depiction of what the person suffering with mental illness goes through and the family and people who love them. While the author spares no punches, you are allowed to make your own opinions (it's never preachy and always respectful). Without spoilers, as a mom of a teenage son with his own list of issues, it faced some of my deepest fears head on. It took me a week to write this review because I had to process what I read and pick my heart up off the floor.
Again, the book is entertaining and I could see a strong YA following, while also appealing to parents, teachers and therapists.
Again, the book is entertaining and I could see a strong YA following, while also appealing to parents, teachers and therapists.
November 6, 2023
Skończyłem to wieki temu, ale tak mną pomiatło i tknęło i.zmroziło trzaskając mną, że na ten.koment nic nie napiszę
February 10, 2023
Get in my Head: Jared’s Story shines as a phenomenal character study about a sixteen-year-old boy named Jared, who lives in a mental facility due to psychosis and bipolar disorder. Jared’s narrative voice stands out among the strongest voices that I have ever encountered in any novel; every word on every page seems saturated simultaneously with emotion and personality. The reader’s heart breaks as they read about everything that Jared is enduring—and about the way that Jared constantly struggles to make sense of his condition and his surroundings. But what most impresses me about the narrative voice is the manner in which Holland manages to convey a sense of childlike innocence in Jared, despite his oftentimes rough exterior. Whenever Jared ruminates that he misses his mom, my heart would start feeling like Play-dough, getting torn apart in all directions. Jarred’s dad also stands out as an expertly developed, deeply-complex character. He clearly cares so much, and he tries so hard, despite making so many mistakes and hurting Jared tremendously—but, by the end, we understand what drives his actions.
Another aspect of the novel that particularly impresses me is the manner in which a major twist gets incorporated. Holland builds toward this big reveal seamlessly; she provides hints that something is not quite as it seems without ever making it clear what exactly is wrong. Everything started making more sense for me upon this reveal, but I nonetheless never saw it coming. That is pretty much the definition of an impressive twist for me!
Jared’s Story might sound like a rather bleak novel from what I have remarked about it thus far—but I want to emphasize that the narrative ends on a hopeful outlook. Holland makes it clear that there exists hope for people with mental illness—and that they can work toward a better future, even if life may not be easy for them.
One of my few complaints about Jared’s Story would be that the sheer number of ways that Jared got mistreated struck me as unrealistic. I had a hard time imagining that so many atrocious human beings would willingly work at a mental facility. Plus, I had an even harder time believing that Dr. Wood would be allowed to say some of the things that he said to Jarred, particularly one thing that he implies about rape and consent. And I also feel that Holland does not quite sufficiently explore the effects that the major reveal of the novel has on Jarred in the long-term; perhaps this reveal might have been made earlier in order to better flesh out Jared's arc.
Sure, I had a hard time believing everything that occurs in Jared's Story, but the number of aspects of this book that are phenomenal more than make up for any shortcomings. I would thoroughly recommend it to anyone interested in mental illness—or anyone simply wanting to read a top-notch character study.
Another aspect of the novel that particularly impresses me is the manner in which a major twist gets incorporated. Holland builds toward this big reveal seamlessly; she provides hints that something is not quite as it seems without ever making it clear what exactly is wrong. Everything started making more sense for me upon this reveal, but I nonetheless never saw it coming. That is pretty much the definition of an impressive twist for me!
Jared’s Story might sound like a rather bleak novel from what I have remarked about it thus far—but I want to emphasize that the narrative ends on a hopeful outlook. Holland makes it clear that there exists hope for people with mental illness—and that they can work toward a better future, even if life may not be easy for them.
One of my few complaints about Jared’s Story would be that the sheer number of ways that Jared got mistreated struck me as unrealistic. I had a hard time imagining that so many atrocious human beings would willingly work at a mental facility. Plus, I had an even harder time believing that Dr. Wood would be allowed to say some of the things that he said to Jarred, particularly one thing that he implies about rape and consent. And I also feel that Holland does not quite sufficiently explore the effects that the major reveal of the novel has on Jarred in the long-term; perhaps this reveal might have been made earlier in order to better flesh out Jared's arc.
Sure, I had a hard time believing everything that occurs in Jared's Story, but the number of aspects of this book that are phenomenal more than make up for any shortcomings. I would thoroughly recommend it to anyone interested in mental illness—or anyone simply wanting to read a top-notch character study.
July 28, 2017
I am very familiar with mental illness on a personal and professional level. It is often portrayed poorly in fiction: glorified, marginalized, or misconstrued. So I was a little hesitant to pick up this book. But it was so worth it!
S.M. Holland takes an honest look at mental illness through the eyes of Jared, a teenage boy, and his family. This book could have gone wrong in so many ways but it went incredibly right. Holland does not glorify Jared's struggle, his family's struggle, or the treatment he receives from healthcare professionals. There are so many situations in this book that are awkward, uncomfortable, and even painful but they are TRUE TO LIFE. Over and over again I recognized situations almost identical to things I have witnessed, or my family has passed through. Some of the responses of the mental health professionals/staff were responses I have had myself, witnessed from coworkers, or heard about second hand. But Holland is not out to demonize anybody in this book and there is good mixed in with the bad. She presents the characters fairly, even if Jared's perspective is skewed.
Although Holland's story is realistic, it is not without hope and that is what I love most! By the end of the book, you will feel confident that mental illness is not a death sentence, and that there is a way forward with proper support.
I hope (as I'm sure the author does) that this book will be an encouragement to those who have been diagnosed with mental illness or have loved ones who have.
NOTE: There is strong language in this book (along with some other difficult material). Even if you are sensitive, I encourage you to give this book a try. It's honest and tastefully handled, and the story is WORTH IT!!!
S.M. Holland takes an honest look at mental illness through the eyes of Jared, a teenage boy, and his family. This book could have gone wrong in so many ways but it went incredibly right. Holland does not glorify Jared's struggle, his family's struggle, or the treatment he receives from healthcare professionals. There are so many situations in this book that are awkward, uncomfortable, and even painful but they are TRUE TO LIFE. Over and over again I recognized situations almost identical to things I have witnessed, or my family has passed through. Some of the responses of the mental health professionals/staff were responses I have had myself, witnessed from coworkers, or heard about second hand. But Holland is not out to demonize anybody in this book and there is good mixed in with the bad. She presents the characters fairly, even if Jared's perspective is skewed.
Although Holland's story is realistic, it is not without hope and that is what I love most! By the end of the book, you will feel confident that mental illness is not a death sentence, and that there is a way forward with proper support.
I hope (as I'm sure the author does) that this book will be an encouragement to those who have been diagnosed with mental illness or have loved ones who have.
NOTE: There is strong language in this book (along with some other difficult material). Even if you are sensitive, I encourage you to give this book a try. It's honest and tastefully handled, and the story is WORTH IT!!!
October 31, 2017
Moving and eye-opening
I was moved to read of such pain but also of such hope. It opened my eyes to the incredible suffering mental illness can bring.
I was moved to read of such pain but also of such hope. It opened my eyes to the incredible suffering mental illness can bring.
May 28, 2017
Quick, yet gripping read. I sat down to start this book yesterday after I was given the ARC by the author, and ended up not being able to put it down until I finished it. I love the book cover, the characters, and the tangible frustration and fear the main character feels throughout the entire story.
I was hesitant when the narrative turned into a journal entry. I've read too many stories written in diary or letter form, where the story drags on through telling instead of showing, but this story is well written and switches between the narrative and the Jared's journal pov. There's not one lag in the pace at all. The tension keeps you locked into the story, even when there are reflective, down moments.
I wasn't surprised at the twist in this story. But, even being able to predict what would happen didn't ruin the emotional reaction I had when the main character came to the same realization of events. Some of these events were a surprise, however, making the situation dark and uncomfortable, which I felt kept true to the realistic aspect of treatment many patients unfortunately face.
This book will make you cringe, maybe cry, and make you angry. It's emotionally gripping until the end. I love how S.M. Holland includes the suicide helpline and other resources for those who may need them. She's an understanding and loving author, who clearly cares for many who struggling through similar situations, and wouldn't hesitate to extend a helping hand to those in need.
Thanks for the opportunity to read your new release. I thoroughly enjoyed it and recommended this eye opening story to everyone.
I was hesitant when the narrative turned into a journal entry. I've read too many stories written in diary or letter form, where the story drags on through telling instead of showing, but this story is well written and switches between the narrative and the Jared's journal pov. There's not one lag in the pace at all. The tension keeps you locked into the story, even when there are reflective, down moments.
I wasn't surprised at the twist in this story. But, even being able to predict what would happen didn't ruin the emotional reaction I had when the main character came to the same realization of events. Some of these events were a surprise, however, making the situation dark and uncomfortable, which I felt kept true to the realistic aspect of treatment many patients unfortunately face.
This book will make you cringe, maybe cry, and make you angry. It's emotionally gripping until the end. I love how S.M. Holland includes the suicide helpline and other resources for those who may need them. She's an understanding and loving author, who clearly cares for many who struggling through similar situations, and wouldn't hesitate to extend a helping hand to those in need.
Thanks for the opportunity to read your new release. I thoroughly enjoyed it and recommended this eye opening story to everyone.
May 28, 2017
This book is an intense and raw view of mental illness, told through the eyes of a young man named Jared. The trauma, the emotions, the events that occur are all told in diary format which really works for the story. I was sucked in, craving more as I flipped through the pages. Once you start reading you can't turn your eyes away from Jared, you will find yourself longing to hug him, to be there for him ..... he seems that real. (A sign of a great writer, no doubt) as someone who had a father with paranoid schizophrenia, a stepmother with multiple personality disorders, and my own set of anxieties, depression, etc... I think a series that explores mental illness in a fictional way, if even to help bring awareness is a very needed thing. SM Holland has written this first installment with skill, and I look forward to the rest of the series.
July 10, 2017
4.5 Stars! Possible trigger for some
I couldn't put this book down. It was heart wrenching and I rooted for Jared the entire time. This book has a very introspective style of narration that is lead mostly by journal entries which really enhances the readers connection to Jared. Get in my Head is a well written crash course journey that we set on alongside Jared. Compelling and heavy, it does not shy away from the horror and confusion of experiencing a mental illness you have no control over.
I feel obligated to point out right away that this book covers the topic of sexual assault, abuse and has quite a bit of language. None of this is gratuitous, and is needed for the story however.
I couldn't put this book down. It was heart wrenching and I rooted for Jared the entire time. This book has a very introspective style of narration that is lead mostly by journal entries which really enhances the readers connection to Jared. Get in my Head is a well written crash course journey that we set on alongside Jared. Compelling and heavy, it does not shy away from the horror and confusion of experiencing a mental illness you have no control over.
I feel obligated to point out right away that this book covers the topic of sexual assault, abuse and has quite a bit of language. None of this is gratuitous, and is needed for the story however.
July 10, 2017
I don't think, in all the thousands of books I have read, I have felt more for a character than I did for Jared. After taking several weeks to finish various books, I tore through this one in about 3 hours. I needed find out the ending.
March 5, 2020
Gripping Reality Check
Having struggled with my own mental illnesses, I found this book to be a reminder to me of where I came from and where I am now. I love the style of writing the author uses and the emotions that are relayed.
Having struggled with my own mental illnesses, I found this book to be a reminder to me of where I came from and where I am now. I love the style of writing the author uses and the emotions that are relayed.
January 31, 2025
Firstly, I have never become so immediately attached to a character as I have to Jared. I felt his emotions like I was living inside of him, and every moment of pain had my stomach convulsing. I felt his frustrations, abandonment, and desperations so viscerally. It was a tough, but rewarding read.
The reason, however, it cannot be a five-star-read, is because of a base philosophy this book holds that I am fundamentally against, which is the 'you choose to get better' narrative. I do not think it was as exhausting as most teen mental health books with this takeaway. In fact, I found the insights into the abusive nature of inpatient treatment facilities a very refreshing take - rightfully putting some accountability on the shoulders of the people who are supposed to help you 'get better'. But I could not stand when his final therapist - Sheri - lectured him about 'choice', incidentally, framing Meg's suicide as someone who comparatively 'chose wrong'. I especially did not enjoy the lecture about the tragedy of how Meg's choice was 'the ripple effect' onto the lives of people around her. It echoed that very familiar 'suicide is selfish' mindset.
Let's get this straight - patients do not choose to get sick. They do not simply 'choose' to do better. How can we pretend that the reason Jared had these problems in the first place isn't his dad's physical and emotional abuse? How is that forgiven as part of Jared's 'choice' narrative? The physically, emotionally, and sexually abusive orderlies; the excessive medication; therapists who only tolerate mental illness to an extent they find pleasing; the entire institution itself - that was why Jared was failing to 'get better'. That was why he was so sick in the first place.
I know the book did actively highlight the institutional issues of inpatient care, and the genetics of mental disorders, and childhood trauma, however it did not effectively, in its resolution, understand that Jared's issues are from much wider socio-cultural issues, even if it was touched on or explained. A book can say a lot, but it still needs to follow through. The reason the rating is so high, still, is because of its brilliant writing, but truly its acknowledgment of institutional abuse and facts of disorders being out of a persons' control. I appreciate that more than anything, and I'm glad there are people with Holland's insight and mindset in this world. I am simply nitpicking what I believe weakened the overall message, which is just Sheri's medical and psychological advice.
The reason, however, it cannot be a five-star-read, is because of a base philosophy this book holds that I am fundamentally against, which is the 'you choose to get better' narrative. I do not think it was as exhausting as most teen mental health books with this takeaway. In fact, I found the insights into the abusive nature of inpatient treatment facilities a very refreshing take - rightfully putting some accountability on the shoulders of the people who are supposed to help you 'get better'. But I could not stand when his final therapist - Sheri - lectured him about 'choice', incidentally, framing Meg's suicide as someone who comparatively 'chose wrong'. I especially did not enjoy the lecture about the tragedy of how Meg's choice was 'the ripple effect' onto the lives of people around her. It echoed that very familiar 'suicide is selfish' mindset.
Let's get this straight - patients do not choose to get sick. They do not simply 'choose' to do better. How can we pretend that the reason Jared had these problems in the first place isn't his dad's physical and emotional abuse? How is that forgiven as part of Jared's 'choice' narrative? The physically, emotionally, and sexually abusive orderlies; the excessive medication; therapists who only tolerate mental illness to an extent they find pleasing; the entire institution itself - that was why Jared was failing to 'get better'. That was why he was so sick in the first place.
I know the book did actively highlight the institutional issues of inpatient care, and the genetics of mental disorders, and childhood trauma, however it did not effectively, in its resolution, understand that Jared's issues are from much wider socio-cultural issues, even if it was touched on or explained. A book can say a lot, but it still needs to follow through. The reason the rating is so high, still, is because of its brilliant writing, but truly its acknowledgment of institutional abuse and facts of disorders being out of a persons' control. I appreciate that more than anything, and I'm glad there are people with Holland's insight and mindset in this world. I am simply nitpicking what I believe weakened the overall message, which is just Sheri's medical and psychological advice.
January 18, 2018
Important, Heartbreaking, and Hopeful
‘Jared’s Story,’ the first volume in SM Holland’s ‘Get in my Head’ series, is an impressive, powerful, and important book. Through a combination of journal entries and scenes told in the first person, this amazing novel does just what the title suggests:
It puts you in Jared’s head.
The unique power of the book comes from the fact that Jared is immediately likable. From the very beginning, readers will relate to him as an ordinary kid with ordinary desires: to be accepted, to be loved, to be praised, to have the freedom to express himself and have fun. This foundation keeps us connected as the details and manifestations of Jared’s mental illness are slowly brought to light, whether we as readers experience mental illness or not.
When Jared wakes up in an institution, what follows is—initially—horrific. Holland paints his fear and treatment with unflinching realism. It is impossible not to feel the frustration and anxiety, and to lament the too-real situations that confront so many young adults struggling with mental illness.
But as the novel progresses, there are tiny bits of light and hope that begin to shine through. A compassionate nurse nicknamed ‘Mama’ and the warm and patient Dr. Sherri help to guide Jared toward understanding his condition.
And like all good characters—fictional and otherwise—he begins to grow. The perspective changes, and by the end of this enlightening book, we are reminded that there are often many sides to a story.
The truth is, we live in a world where mental illness is a stigma. Too often, people fear what they don’t understand. As someone who hasn’t personally experienced mental illness, ‘Jared’s Story’ provided an important look into a different reality. I believe this book (and the rest of Holland’s forthcoming series) has the power to break down that stigma by providing a deeper understanding of mental illness, while providing hope and reminding those who do struggle: you are not alone.
An absolute jewel. ‘Jared’s Story’ should be felt, treasured, and shared.
‘Jared’s Story,’ the first volume in SM Holland’s ‘Get in my Head’ series, is an impressive, powerful, and important book. Through a combination of journal entries and scenes told in the first person, this amazing novel does just what the title suggests:
It puts you in Jared’s head.
The unique power of the book comes from the fact that Jared is immediately likable. From the very beginning, readers will relate to him as an ordinary kid with ordinary desires: to be accepted, to be loved, to be praised, to have the freedom to express himself and have fun. This foundation keeps us connected as the details and manifestations of Jared’s mental illness are slowly brought to light, whether we as readers experience mental illness or not.
When Jared wakes up in an institution, what follows is—initially—horrific. Holland paints his fear and treatment with unflinching realism. It is impossible not to feel the frustration and anxiety, and to lament the too-real situations that confront so many young adults struggling with mental illness.
But as the novel progresses, there are tiny bits of light and hope that begin to shine through. A compassionate nurse nicknamed ‘Mama’ and the warm and patient Dr. Sherri help to guide Jared toward understanding his condition.
And like all good characters—fictional and otherwise—he begins to grow. The perspective changes, and by the end of this enlightening book, we are reminded that there are often many sides to a story.
The truth is, we live in a world where mental illness is a stigma. Too often, people fear what they don’t understand. As someone who hasn’t personally experienced mental illness, ‘Jared’s Story’ provided an important look into a different reality. I believe this book (and the rest of Holland’s forthcoming series) has the power to break down that stigma by providing a deeper understanding of mental illness, while providing hope and reminding those who do struggle: you are not alone.
An absolute jewel. ‘Jared’s Story’ should be felt, treasured, and shared.
June 13, 2018
I read this a few weeks ago, and have been formulating my thoughts before I wrote this review. But really, it comes down to this: Jared's Story is an important addition to the mental illness story that many struggle through. For those who do have a mental illness, this is raw, real, and oh so freeing. For those who don't, it's a snapshot into the world of those of us who do.
Holland's writing is fantastic, and at times uncannily brilliant in how she can put you directly into the mind of Jared. What impressed me the most was how she could "show" you his thoughts as opposed to telling you. It's easy to pick up on his AHDH, for example, through his actions instead of the writer just saying, "He did this/thought this because of his AHDHD."
The story grabs you and won't let you go. I'll be ruminating on this for a long time. It's haunting in its telling and yet subtly releasing, allowing the struggles of those who have mental illness to have a voice through Jared when perhaps they can't say it or tell it themselves.
Just get the book. You won't be disappointed. The only minor issue I had was marketing it towards YA. Because of graphic content and language, I wouldn't let any of my kids under 16 read it or even recommend it to anyone younger than that.
Holland's writing is fantastic, and at times uncannily brilliant in how she can put you directly into the mind of Jared. What impressed me the most was how she could "show" you his thoughts as opposed to telling you. It's easy to pick up on his AHDH, for example, through his actions instead of the writer just saying, "He did this/thought this because of his AHDHD."
The story grabs you and won't let you go. I'll be ruminating on this for a long time. It's haunting in its telling and yet subtly releasing, allowing the struggles of those who have mental illness to have a voice through Jared when perhaps they can't say it or tell it themselves.
Just get the book. You won't be disappointed. The only minor issue I had was marketing it towards YA. Because of graphic content and language, I wouldn't let any of my kids under 16 read it or even recommend it to anyone younger than that.
March 10, 2019
We are not just the pebble thrown into the pond
After reading other reviews, there isn't much I can add that hasn't already been very eloquently said (JSM). I was touched, drawn in, and thoroughly immersed in Jared's story. Anyone struggling with mental illness, or helping another cope, should read this. There is hope, and S.M.Holland brings it to light.
After reading other reviews, there isn't much I can add that hasn't already been very eloquently said (JSM). I was touched, drawn in, and thoroughly immersed in Jared's story. Anyone struggling with mental illness, or helping another cope, should read this. There is hope, and S.M.Holland brings it to light.
April 3, 2024
This hit close to home for me. S. M. Holland drew a picture with her words. I could "see" and feel Jared's emotions. Looking forward to the future offerings from this author.
March 21, 2021
After re-reading it I still feel the same as when I first read it:
Part of a series of books by S.M. Holland that all deal with an aspect of mental illness, this is a must read. There is no denying when a story comes along that body slams you with its impact. This, Jared’s Story, is one of those.
I love getting lost in the worlds created by writers, but rarely would you be able to see physical emotion on display while I’m reading; there may have been tears. S.M. Holland manages (brilliantly) to bring us through a cascade of emotions and still provide some hope. If you haven’t stopped reading this review and ordered your copy, then this is a good time to do so.
Part of a series of books by S.M. Holland that all deal with an aspect of mental illness, this is a must read. There is no denying when a story comes along that body slams you with its impact. This, Jared’s Story, is one of those.
I love getting lost in the worlds created by writers, but rarely would you be able to see physical emotion on display while I’m reading; there may have been tears. S.M. Holland manages (brilliantly) to bring us through a cascade of emotions and still provide some hope. If you haven’t stopped reading this review and ordered your copy, then this is a good time to do so.
January 16, 2023
Great read
Read this in one sitting. It grabbed my attention and held it all the way through. I even cried. It is a different look into mental health and I'm grateful to have read a book like this one.
Read this in one sitting. It grabbed my attention and held it all the way through. I even cried. It is a different look into mental health and I'm grateful to have read a book like this one.
October 22, 2018
This was a great read. I stayed up till two in the morning and was brought to tears. It's nice to have an emotional, (non-physical...lol) reaction to a book these days. Makes me want to read less smut. Well maybe not, but yeah this book rocked.
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