A. Wilding Wells is my hero! Her writing is so magical and poetic and it makes me feel so many things, every single damn time. Sunshine Bleeds a Black Edge is filled with her usual stuff: quirky characters, beautiful emotion, heartbreaking events and love, so much love. But, this time it's tinged with something a little more. It's got a mystery at its core, it's in the background, but it informs every single action this cast takes. Especially Ruby and Rebel. And most especially Ruby.
Ruby is finally coming home, home to her mom and her brother, and home to the love of her life, Rebel. But, Rebel is angry at her, so very angry that he hates her, the woman he's loved most of his life.
"Ruby Mae is home, and she's a hurricane. I need to love her. But first, I have to get over hating her."
Rebel doesn't know the truth, and he wants to, so that he can forgive her for leaving him. What he doesn't know is that if anyone did something wrong, it's Rebel, not Ruby. No, Ruby endured something no one should ever have to endure, and it broke her, so she ran, and Rebel couldn't possibly understand that. So, instead, he stews in his own anger and hatred. But, when Ruby comes home in the flesh, he remembers how much he loves her, and he wants her back and he tries to get her back. If only he can forgive her as she asks, but how can he if she won't tell him the truth of why she left?
Ruby is lovely. She's so damaged, but she's so strong, such a survivor.
"I know what I am. Dented and scratched, cracks filled with enough glue that I can mostly hold myself together."
I was bleeding for her throughout the entire story. I knew something bad had happened, and yet she couldn't just put everyone out of their misery and say what had happened to her, well not until the end. She did confide in one person, but wouldn't let her tell the person it mattered to most: Rebel. I wish she had just told Rebel, but like she said, she was a martyr and martyrs martyr themselves, so she couldn't just tell him like she deserved to. No, she had to take on the pain, and the guilt, and the everything because she loved Rebel (and Opal) that much, that she took everything upon herself. Damn, girl! I give her major props for taking that on herself, but at the same time I wanted to smack her then shake her until she just blurted it out. Then she wouldn't have had to deal with Rebel's vile words when she came home. And she could have been with him this entire time if she had just blurted it out. Sigh...
And that brings me to Rebel. For the first time, ever, while reading one of Wells' stories, I am conflicted about one of her heroes. I wanted to like Rebel, and I did eventually. But at the same time, I kinda hated him, too. Because he was so cruel to Ruby throughout almost the entirety of their story. He was so judgmental and mean, and he let malicious, disgusting words come out of his mouth when he was talking to her. And he never really groveled or apologized enough. I guess it was enough for Ruby, of course, because she loved him so much, but it wasn't enough for me. I wanted him to get on his knees and beg her for her forgiveness. I wanted him to GROVEL, and he never really did. Yes, he was hurt that Ruby left him, but the things he said to her were really unforgivable. If he had said those words to me, he'd have seen my hand on his face and his head snapping back as I broke his nose. But, Ruby is much more forgiving than I. She's a martyr, something I have never been. Something she shouldn't have ever had to be.
Sunshine Bleeds a Black Edge is a beautiful story even with all its ugly secrets. It's about truth and forgiveness and pain and love and two people who fell in love with each other when they were kids, and never, ever fell out of love with each other. Even through a marriage and a child (Rebel's), traveling the world and coming back home again 17 years later. The truth is at the core of this story, and it was so, so important, and it never came out until the end. Until that time, Ruby and Rebel, Etta and Monday, Echo and Opal, Dick and Lenny, all suffered for that truth. Such an ugly, ugly thing the truth can be. But, thank God that love overcame that ugly truth and forgiveness fixed the scars.
I received an ARC for an honest review.