Words That Kill by Vivid Vega
Synopsis:
Words That Kill is a collection of poetry about one’s breaking point. Themes included are depression, anxiety, abuse, body dysmorphic disorder, hope and love. The collection is split into three chapters, Sticks and Stones, which deals with the rise of Words that Kill, follows with Last Breath, the climax and breaking point, and lastly I See the Light, which deals with hope and love surrounding the darkness of the pain caused by Words that Kill.
‘I am lonely and I wish to be revived. But I am the darkness because my light has died. I am not what people want to see. I am not good enough so people try and change me.’
‘People try and create this distorted image of me. Coldness in my eyes is all they see. They don’t understand that my coldness is actually me being shy. People don’t understand me so instead they say goodbye. People I have used. My heart is now bruised. All I ever wanted was to be good enough, but I cannot be. People think of me as less so I try and be tough, but that is not me.’
‘People try and tear me apart. They don’t know the pain masked in my heart. I wish my name they did not mention. But I’m brought up like a connection. I never ask people hot they are in fear of getting asked in return. They cause my heart to burn. So I mask my name. So they don’t have anyone to blame.’
‘I am not bulletproof and your words shot me to the deepest depths of my core.’
‘I will always remember what you did and says. It’s stuck in my head. They are the reason I wish I was dead. But I am suffering in my mind instead. All I feel is dread. Thus misery won’t end. Since the day you forced me into your bed.’
‘I am falling into despair. I wish I could be invisible like the air. But I am like a firework ready to ignite. How I wish I too could disappear into the darkness of the night.’
‘A pen and a paper is all I need. My pen goes through the paper the way my wrists bleed.’
‘Like a flower, I will bloom again.’
‘He locks his car door and won’t let me out until he gives me a “ride.”’
‘They sat communication is key. So why is it that you hear Yes when I say, don’t touch me.’
‘I grab her hips and kiss her lips and hold her hand as she says she’s never had a love like this with any other man.’
‘Despite the hits and the many time you have been forced to please while on your knees just know you are not a tease when you could not say no since the pain made you freeze.’
This book was full of raw emotion. It dug it’s claws right into my soul and buried itself far inside.
This book does deal with certain topics such as abuse, rape and mental illnesses and isn’t meant for everyone. It does include triggers so please be careful.
4/5 stars!