dnf after about 40%
this book is incredible because it managed to host so many characters with 4 different povs and every single one of them is just massively unlikable.
and the idea was so cute!!! idk how you can fumble a good set-up this aggressively but it's possible, apparently.
conflicts and issues that would've actually been interesting to explore, like Evan feeling like a stranger in their new home and being scared of never being able to measure up to Scott's late husband; or Scott not having processed the death of his husband fully and kind of treating Evan like a stand-in were just glossed over and dealt with in a single paragraph at most. (nevermind the fact that Scott's first husband was his boss and had him move in after two weeks and also started the relationship when Scott was in his internship and literally still in law school like,,, there is a lot to unpack there).
instead, we get two awful POVs from the only two women in their lives, Evan's sister (who's a Tory and having relationship problems. not because her bf is a massive homophobic twat to her brother and an upcoming politician gunning against gay marriage. but because he doesn't want to marry her after being engaged for 5 years. naturally, she's insanely jealous of her brother's wedding and says a few things "she doesn't mean" at a dinner party) and Mel, Scott's colleague and Evan's bff (the sassy, sexy black woman, who starts cheating on her lazy gross husband with Scott's man-whore brother).
also, it's fucking incredible how both of the main characters managed to be "not like other gays". Scott gets uncomfortable when Evan gets a bit too "camp" (he literally only mentioned that he likes Christina Aguilera in a straight bar, but sure,, the height of camp), Evan doesn't want children because "if gay men were meant to have children, then god would have given us the necessary plumbing." (which causes Tom, the tory husband to like him a bit more ofc; anyways we'll just ignore gay trans men then)
it's stunning how much this gay romance written by a man centres on straight people and their relationships as well as heterosexual people's perception of gay (or generally mlm) relationships. it truly is fascinating.
Honestly, after reading this i'm not surprised anymore that the UK is a fucking terf island like,,, white middle- and upper-class brits seem like awful people and i hope i never have to meet any of them.
my favourite part of the book was when scott dropped even off at his place and locked the car doors when a "tough-looking black kid" walked by.