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Returning to his hometown, Kieran finds himself reunited with the one man he could never have.

It all started with a single birthday kiss, given on a dare, but for Kieran, it ignited a deep and unrequited love for Jordan, his brother’s boyfriend. Aware that their relationship can never be, Kieran makes the painful decision to leave Coopers Bay behind in order to protect his heart. Even the passing of his brother couldn't bring him back permanently; he only returns for the funeral before returning to his new life an ocean away in London.

However, when Kieran's sister pleads with him to come home for good, he reluctantly agrees, only to discover that the family business is on the brink of bankruptcy. To make matters worse, Jordan, the man he had fled from, is now burdened with despair and guilt. As they reconnect, old memories resurface, secrets are revealed, and emotions run high. Kieran and Jordan must confront their shared history and in doing so their friendship turns to love.

Now, the challenge lies in convincing Jordan that their love is worth fighting for.

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First published April 1, 2011

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R.J. Scott

306 books2,710 followers
RJ Scott writes heartwarming, passionate MM/gay romance stories where every man finds his happily ever after. When not writing, she enjoys reading books, watching movies, spending time with her family, following Formula 1 (Forza Ferrari!), and cheering on the Pittsburgh Penguins. Email her here: rj@rjscott.co.uk

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Profile Image for Bubbles  Hunty Honest & Direct Opinions .
1,314 reviews279 followers
September 12, 2011
I just love RJ’s books.

This one was an excellent read with lots of emotions. I loved how the relationship between J and Kieran developed. I easily connected to the story and characters and the whole time I was reading I felt like I was in the story. It made me laugh and cry at parts, it was wonderful reading a story that had me feel so connected to it.

Profile Image for Nikyta.
1,460 reviews263 followers
April 4, 2011
4.5 stars

This one was definitely sweet and sad but at the same time it made me giddy and happy.

I loved Jordan and I loved seeing him work through his feelings for Kieran but at the same time struggle with his dead lover, Brad, and the accusations Brad made before he died. Jordan had a lot of guilt over Brad's death and what he's felt for Kieran for so long. I really liked Kieran, too. I admit, at first, I wasn't sure if I would because of how he left Jordan and his family but overall I really did like him. While he seems like a coward in the beginning, he's actually stubborn and determined and really does love his family and Jordan and will do anything for them. Kieran and Jordan balance each other out. Kieran helps Jordan get over his guilt with Brad's death and Jordan, even though unwittingly, helps Kieran get over his cowardness with running all those years ago and finally wakes Kieran up enough for Kieran to let Jordan know of his feelings. Which, thus, allows the two to pursue the relationship that, I thought, should have happened a long, long, long time ago. Lol

While I loved the plot and seeing the struggles with Addison Construction and their money issues I just felt the ending was a bit rushed.

Other than that, I absolutely loved the story. RJ definitely writes books that I love and I'm hoping maybe one day we get to see more of Jordan and Kieran and I'm definitely looking forward to what she writes next. Definitely recommended.
Profile Image for Shelba.
2,693 reviews99 followers
March 4, 2020
DNF @ 55%.

It's weird enough to be in love with your brother's boyfriend. What makes this super odd is that the only person who didn't know that Kieran was in love with Jordan, was Jordan. Kieran's brother knew, his parents knew, his sister knew. And they don't seem to think it's weird, which is very weird. And even though Jordan was with Brad, he was more attracted, and may more in love, with Kieran... his boyfriend's younger brother. Not. Weird. At. All.

The dialogue in this book ended up being a huge distraction for me. It isn't just that it doesn't flow and is very stiff, it's that it isn't formatted properly.

"You okay?"
Kieran blinked at Jordan's careful question. Okay? He was far from okay. "I just wanted to say something, quite apart from all the shit."
"Like?"
"Your family means everything to me. [...]"


That exchange is Jordan speaking, then Jordan speaking, then Kieran speaking, then Jordan speaking... even though it's not formatted that way.

"Jordan, that is stupid.
"Look, wait-"
"I'm deadly serious about this, Kieran. [...]"


And while that passage is Kieran, Kieran, Jordan, and is techinically formatted correctly, it does make it confusing to follow who is speaking.

"I'm staying," Kieran blurted out. [...]
"I already served notice on the apartment," his best friend said patiently. "Youdid?"
"I booked a flight. [...]"


The first paragraph is Kieran, the second paragraph is Evan and then Kieran... the lack of spacing between "you" and "did" is as it appears in the book. Third paragraph is Evan.

"It was a fucking dare." Jordan wanted to hurt, his words staccato hard. "Under the tree, after the funeral, you kissed me then."
"What?" He was incredulous. "So that kiss was somehow all my fault?"
"I didn't say that. I-"
"Don't put this on me. We were both there, both in the kiss, only you ran away from it all." [...]
"I went back to London, to my work, to what was real for me. [...]"


Honestly, I'm not sure who is speaking, when in this exchange. For the dialogue to make any sense, you have to assume that within a paragraph, the speaker changes. Jordan is the speaker at the beginning, which makes sense, as Kieran initiated the funeral kiss. So, the next line being Kieran's makes sense. The "I didn't say that" line is Jordan. But the next line, the "Don't put this on me" has to be Kieran speaking, but then Jordan has to be the one saying the second part, "We were both there [...]", because a) Jordan didn't run and Kieran did and b) Keiran responds in the next paragraph.

When you have to read dialogue exchanges multiple times to figure out who is saying what, it kind of kills any enjoyment. And to be honest, I think the dialogue was too stiff, the romance too weird and the plot too flat to say that I was enjoying it otherwise.
Profile Image for Heather C.
1,480 reviews222 followers
September 12, 2011
This was such a beautiful story! Okay…it was a little predictable, but it was also so emotional. I felt so much for Jordan and Kieran, and poor Jordan was breaking my heart. I didn’t cry while reading this but it did make my chest hurt. There isn’t a lot of smexy time in this one, but it is filled with a lot of steamy sexual tension!
Profile Image for ⚣Michaelle⚣.
3,662 reviews233 followers
March 30, 2017
3.8 Stars

Wow, this one dragged me through every emotion possible didn't it? At one point I was feeling guilty even though I've never had a hard-on for a sibling's significant other...it was that visceral. Still, I very much enjoyed it. I usually do when it comes RJS's books.
937 reviews13 followers
April 6, 2011
RJ Scott should write for the screen. Back Home is rich in color and texture that would be amazing in live action.

An emotional drama, Jordan and Kieran have quite a bit to work through if they have any hope of being together. This takes up a major part of the book. I'm glad that it isn't easy. Both men are stubborn and have their own version of past events. Unraveling the truth, understanding their guilt and grief, and still having to deal with the weight of a family crisis is so very real. Most readers will have a hard time keeping their distance from this one.

If you are prone to crying, make sure to have your comfort supplies handy.

Of course, Jordan and Kieran are able to find common ground and their first make-out session is one of the cutest scenes I've come across is a while. Kiss, talk, kiss, talk, kiss, talk. Taking their time, no rush, showing a deep, easy connection that goes beyond the physical. The eventual sex scenes are done just as well done. I love that RJ Scott continually chooses to accent her relationships instead of allowing the sex to become the relationship.

Overall, even if you have to save this one for a time when you need a good quality drama, make sure to add it to your collection now.
Profile Image for Ami.
6,241 reviews489 followers
April 3, 2011
Written in 3rd person POV from both Kieran and Jordan's perspective, Back Home is an emotionally satisfying read, without being overwhelming or overly dramatic. The revelation of what has happened between Kieran and Jordan, on the six years they were apart (including the last two years after Kieran's brother/Jordan's lover, Brad, died), are flowing in perfect pace ... not too fast but not too slow. In each chapter there are trails for readers to be invested with their story, their internal emotion and keep reading to find out what will happen in the future. It's so good to see how the two men finally make it.
Profile Image for Chris.
2,882 reviews209 followers
May 17, 2011
Very good m/m romance about an architect from Vermont who's been living in London to avoid his brother's boyfriend, even though his brother died two years ago. Then his dad gets sick and his sister begs him to come home to help salvage the family construction company...
Profile Image for Diverse.
1,179 reviews53 followers
June 7, 2017
Back Home by RJ Scott is a re-release. I actually never read any of the other editions so I can't compare this to the others.

Going into this story I was nervous. The subject matter was one that sort of irked me a bit. Keiran has loved his older brother's partner pretty much his whole life. To escape the strong feelings he moves away. He returns again after the death of his brother only to run away again. But returns one last time when his father falls ill and his brother's partner injures himself. That in a nutshell is what brings us to the meat of the story. I won't tell you what happens or what the author does to make it okay that Keiran and Jordan (his brother's partner) actully succumb to their feeling but I will say she made it work for the most part.

Whenever I deal with books that has a a death shrouding over it, I feel haunted throughout. I desperately try to grasp at any light or happiness the words bring. In this book, I did the same thing. I had the uncertainty that I'd be okay with these two getting together and the "How would this make me feel?" moments. I felt that when the author showed us memories of the past with Brad (the older brother) and his spiralling down, and the sweet moments Keiran had with Jordan years ago, helped. It made things sort of fall into place. I still felt weird at times and the uncertainty never really and truly went away but I was able to move past it.

RJ's writing is as beautiful as always. She manages to squeeze out every emotion and explain perfectly how each character feels. Because of the subject matter it felt like she really wanted the reader to understand these guy's reasoning in everything they did.

I enjoyed this moving story and was gald to be smiling at the end of it. I do recommend this book!
Profile Image for Suze.
3,889 reviews
May 12, 2017
Probably about 3.75 on the sliding scale.
A quite emotionally intense read, certainly for the first about 2/3 as both Jordan and Kieran take on the self sacrificing mantle - though Jordan wins in this regard.
Jordan is carrying the full weight of his guilt in the death of his partner and in keeping the family business going.
Kieran is carrying guilt over loving his brothers boyfriend, leaving home, hiding his injuries.
The story is really about these two learning to forgive and forget and take a chance again. There is external conflict as well in the shape of a skeevy bank manager but he is dealt with.
Pacy read, kept my interest.
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624 reviews11 followers
June 19, 2017
3.5 stars

I was pleasantly surprised by how fast I was drawn into this story and its characters. It's been a while since I've read a book by R.J. Scott, but after reading this, I'll definitely add more books to my TBR list. The book is filled with hope, romance and longing, but it also contains a lot of heartrending moments that will tug at the heartstrings. All of the characters are very likeable people that made me root for their happiness and success. I felt like there were a few filler scenes that didn't really add much, and made me long for more interaction between Jordan and Kieran, but they weren't prevalent.

All in all, this is an enjoyable read that will make you fall in love with the main characters.

I received a copy of this book from the author and voluntarily provided my honest review.

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2,504 reviews88 followers
March 19, 2012
I held off on this one for a while, even though I've loved most of the other R.J. Scott books I've read. The whole getting together with your dead brother's lover bit kindof put me off. I was leery of angsty guilt-filled confusion-riddled back and forth. But she handled it so well! Both men were grown-up and honest about their feelings, both for each other and for Brad, the dead brother. They didn't jump into something and then regret it and get all confused and push each other away, which I loved, because that's exactly what I had been expecting.

I loved that they were so honest, and that they took things slowly enough that they both got to deal with the past together as they went along. They're possibly the most equal partnership in any M/M book I've read--at least recently. They take turns being strong and helping each other out, they talk things through, they compromise, they solve problems together. It was just very nice and very refreshing.
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2,427 reviews105 followers
April 8, 2011
Jordan Salter has been running Addison Construction for two years now since the death of his partner, Brad Addison. The Addison's embraced Jordan as family and moved him into an apartment above the garage. Trouble is stirred up when Jordan is accidentally injured and Kieran Addison returns from England where he'd been living. Kieran has been in love with Jordan since he was sixteen. Can Kieran and Jordan find love with the angst and guilt each man feels? You can count on it with Ms Scott's unique writing style and her terrific character building. I enjoyed the intensity of the men's love of family and their willingness to go up against all odds to keep their company.
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2,340 reviews39 followers
December 16, 2011
I really enjoyed this book, it was a very emotional love story that had great characters. I have to laugh though at how many books have the younger of the two be the more mature, but strangely most of the time it seems to work. This was one of those books I found I had a hard time putting down, its the kind of book that I wish there was more of, making the reader attached to the story and then attached to the reader, since the first time I read one of RJ Scott's books I was hooked and knew I would purposely look for other books written by her.
Profile Image for Karen K.
426 reviews13 followers
May 14, 2011
**4.5 stars**
Beautiful love story - I thought the pacing, the angsty feelings of guilt (on both parties)and the gradual acceptance were all perfect and believable. As usual RJ's writing was concise,flowing and just kept me wanting more. It was Kiernan that Jordan deserved all along and together they're a couple I won't soon forget.
Profile Image for Paisley.
467 reviews2 followers
September 7, 2014
R.J. Scott writes a great drama-filled tale for sure. Sometimes I feel like I am watching a soap opera as the angst-filled plot takes me along for a major emotional roller-coaster ride. Back Home was no exception. There is drama and angst and all sorts of emotional blackmail. I was very entertained.
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259 reviews31 followers
April 4, 2011
While reading this book, I had to tell myself several times that it's crazy to become all teary-eyed over some fictional characters. Back Home is a very intense book, filled with lots of angst, sweetness and undying love.
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1,615 reviews25 followers
July 31, 2011
A wonderfully romantic love story with a message of honesty is always the best policy and love will find a way.The characters are outstanding and the story well told. I absolutely love this book.


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619 reviews213 followers
April 11, 2011
Another great book by RJ Scott.
Profile Image for Erica Chilson.
Author 42 books438 followers
May 24, 2017
DNF @29%

Writing style not for me.

The blurb immediately grabbed my attention and the premise itself was a good one, so why the DNF? I struggled from the very first page to fall into the story (narration).

This is probably one of the first times I will say this, but the third-person perspective was throwing me off, when I usually fall right into it and not notice the perspective at all. Perhaps it was because the monologue and dialogue wasn't fluid (sounding as a person speaks and thinks- wooden)

Unnecessarily wordy. The main issue was the inner-monologue-ing. From word one, Jordan was lost in his head (yet it was 3rd person) rambling about things I didn't understand yet, as I had no idea who he was, who Ben was, or what he was thinking about, as it was the first page. This set the pacing and flow of information for the next 29% I read, no matter if it was Jordan or Kieran's POV. I didn't know if I should digest this extraneous information, even right down to descriptions about airports. I waded through this, skimming and skipping entire paragraphs, trying to find the story beneath. In the first scene alone, only about a fourth of it was important.

I get the importance of setting a scene, but this was the start of a new book, where the narrators are strangers to the reader. There was no getting to know the characters, as it felt as if the reader was dumped into the middle of a second book in a series. Rambling info-dump.

I'd made it a third into the novel to discover who was who and why, but I had a hard time connecting with the characters because of the writing style. No matter the potential with the premise, I had to bail because it began to feel tedious as I struggled to connect to the characters and fall into the story.

Writing style not for me.
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3,771 reviews41 followers
June 15, 2017
Simply wonderful!

I am a huge RJ Scott fan and I loved this book; it really packed and emotional punch.Kieran was young when he knew that he was in love with his brother’s boyfriend. He left home for college and then moved to another country to avoid the pain of being near someone he couldn’t have. When he moves back home to help with the family’s failing business he’s not sure how he’s going to handle being near Jordan all of the time. Kieran doesn’t know that Jordan is also attracted to him but has pushed those feeling down deep. They’ve agreed to just be friends and working on saving the family business.

I felt the emotional connection between Kieran and Jordan very deeply. RJ Scott has a way with words that always makes me feel like I am a part of the story. These two men have obstacles to overcome, and their path is not easy, but RJ always finds a way to give her guys and HEA.

There’s a fair of amount of drama in this story and a really bad guy totally gets what’s coming to him. Back Home isn’t part of a series but I sure wouldn’t mind reading another book about these two guys to see how they are doing a few years down the road.

***Reviewed for Xtreme-Delusions dot com.***
Profile Image for Ian.
385 reviews32 followers
May 25, 2017
Running away from the man you are falling in love with is easy. Coming back home is harder.

Falling for his brother's boyfriend broke his heart. Now he's back home and falling in love all over again.

One birthday kiss, given on a dare, and Kieran realizes he is in danger of falling for his brother’s boyfriend, Jordan. Leaving for college, then moving to another country is the only way to ease the ache in his heart.

But, when his father becomes ill, and his sister begs him to come home, Kieran returns for good. He finds the family business nearly bankrupt and Jordan, the man he ran from, beaten down by despair and guilt.

Friendship is what they promise each other as they work to repair the business, but it could never be enough for Kieran. When secrets spill, and there are vital decisions to be made, Kieran realizes two things; he’s back home, and he wants to stay with Jordan for good.

Now he just needs to convince Jordan.

I loved this romance, with a great set of characters, in a well written story, about family, responsibilities and falling in love...again.

I voluntarily reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book. Supplied by the author.
Profile Image for Ruthie Taylor.
3,723 reviews40 followers
June 2, 2017
~~I received a free copy of this book to read and review for Wicked Reads ~~

This is a book which deals with a number of interesting issues as well as the uneasy romance between Kieran and Jordan. Although written from the third person, we get to see both men and their introspection on the situation at hand. The family aspects, the money aspects and the bank aspects (which would seem to have caused much of the money issues) did give rise to some interesting scenes. But they didn't always hang with the story for me - I found myself questioning whether things would really transpire that way.

But as to the relationship between Kieran and Jordan, and possibly even more the relationship between Jordan and Brad, they were both compelling and heart warming and heart breaking. As we learn just what Jordan has been facing and dealing with, he definitely comes over as the better of the two men. That he gets his second chance at success in a relationship and the business made it a worthwhile read for me.

Wicked Reads Review Team
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364 reviews5 followers
May 28, 2017
Such a gentle and sweet love story.

Kieran has been in love with his brother's boyfriend Jordan forever. Now, two years after his brother's death Kieran is returning home and to Jordan. The ghost of Brad lies between them and makes it hard for both men to admit and give in to their feelings, it takes a while and a lot of soul searching on both sides to achieve the happy ending they both so much deserve.

I fell in love with this story from the first pages. Jordan's devotion to the family he'd called his own forever was wonderful and once he realised that Kieran's return didn't mean he'd be pushed aside Jordan practically blossomed. Kieran's strength of character, returning home after running away from Jordan and his feelings - being honest with his family after so long and having his feelings for Jordan returned, beautiful arc.

The growing relationship between the men was so gentle and sweet, it grew out of genuine friendship and care for one another and once they were brave enough to tell their family (I totally expected drama at this point, so happy it never came!) it only grew stronger.

A wonderfully angst-free story, there's a little bit drama but nothing to break up our lovers apart - quite the opposite. The whole story left me smiling and with a warm, fuzzy, happy feel.
Profile Image for Nerdy Dirty & Flirty.
3,985 reviews363 followers
June 10, 2017
☆☆☆☆☆
~Lindsey
Who said you couldn’t go home again. Well this story is about second chances and going back home and finally finding happiness. Jordan and Kieran are both running from something, both running from a past that will not let them go but will eventually bring them together. Life and love play a big part in this emotionally pact story. This was an intriguing story to read I love the back history of the characters and how even after years and distracts they are so entwined with each other. This story is basically a second chance romance that takes two characters on a rollercoaster ride to their Happily Ever After. The writing was good , the characters likeable and the plot consistent .
Profile Image for Rhiannon Grant.
Author 11 books48 followers
October 16, 2019
This book was an interesting read but not really to my taste. The central couple spend most of the book overcoming their weird circumstances, and frankly... I still thought the situation was a bit weird and awkward. If I was an advice columnist, and one of them had written in, I'd have recommended breaking up and making a new start - which one of them had tried to do! So while it was well written and fulfilled the expectations of the genre, it was, as we used to say in fandom, not my beautiful cake.
Profile Image for LeeAnn.
814 reviews
May 22, 2017
All that Jordan and Kieran went through separately and then together, the attraction they both felt yet never acted on while Brad was still alive, the guilt they both felt, all of this was so tangible when I was reading this story.
I enjoyed the way they handled things, took their time. The warmth, love and understanding from Jordan's parents and sister made this book even more perfect.
Hope I haven't given too much away, but enough for people to buy this story and discover for yourselves just how great it is.


I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
758 reviews4 followers
May 25, 2017
I loved Back Home, I’ve read it 3 times. Kieran and Jordan were both interesting with a past together separated by Kieran’s brother. I love rebuilding houses and solving family problems. It was fast-paced and easy to read. I would definitely recommend this story.
Profile Image for Angie.
1,301 reviews23 followers
May 30, 2017
I received a copy to read and review for Wicked Reads

I really wanted to love this book but honestly, I just couldn't connect with any of the characters. There was so much inner monologue that I found myself skimming at times. There was so much potential but it fell flat for me. I didn't connect with the characters, I couldn't get into the story, it moved so incredibly slow and just found that I didn't really care how it ended. I had hoped there would be great scenes in the bedroom and there wasn't even that really. The drama with the guy at the bank was the only action and that was pretty much solved in a heartbeat. Evan seemed like he would have given a little life to the book but he wasn't in there enough either. Jordan and Kieran just weren't working for me.
Profile Image for Tracy Perry.
1,533 reviews46 followers
August 7, 2021
Great read but very emotional, I cried way too much and my heart ached. At least there was a happy ending.
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