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I'm a Believer: My Life of Monkees, Music, and Madness

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In fascinating, star-studded anecdotes, original Monkee Micky Dolenz takes readers from his starring role at age 12 as TV's "Circus Boy," to the open casting call that brought the Monkees together, through the creative conflicts that finally drove them apart. Along the way you'll find hilarious anecdotes about his adventures as a Monkee: the girls, the parties, the celebrities as well as the harder-edged realities of a life lived in front of a camera.

256 pages, Paperback

First published January 1, 1993

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533 reviews
November 6, 2018
Me: Wow! I can't wait to read about my favorite band! Surely no childhood memories can be ruined here.

Micky: *not so subtly implies when he lost his virginity, mentions that he slept around a lot, discusses doing drugs with the Beatles, swears (a lot), and passive-aggressively talks about Davy Jones*

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1,171 reviews40 followers
January 14, 2021
I'm a huge Monkees fan. I admit it. I enjoyed reading this 'behind the scenes' look at the group and Mickey's personal life. While most girls had a crush on Davey, my crush was Mickey. It's amazing that they are still popular more than 50 years later.
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284 reviews7 followers
June 22, 2014
The subtitle of this book is ‘my life of monkees, music and madness’, and mostly I’d have to characterize this book is mundane mediocrity. I was ga-ga for the Monkees at eight years old and my sister did treat me to one of their reunion shows several years ago. The TV show had some funny quirky humor and some of the music was quite good, but this book doesn’t reflect that. Dolenz & his ghost writer give such a high gloss job to his own image that the entire book comes off as a promo piece. The one person that comes off in a decent light other than Dolenz & his own family is Peter Tork whom Dolenz refers to as a bohemian with a heart of gold, tortured, compassionate, sometimes annoying, intellectual, altruistic, and a very kind man. His sincerity struck me at their reunion show. D. Jones & M. Neismith don’t come off as well.
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536 reviews47 followers
April 17, 2018
The back cover says that Micky's "a true survivor" of the sixties. I think there ought to be a distinction here between survivors and perpetrators.
He does seem sorry about the stupid things he's done, but mostly just for himself. He got too much too fast when he was way too young. Sigh...men.
Profile Image for Neal.
71 reviews
December 9, 2016
As others have written, a fun/fast read. The book ends in '93, I would enjoy a followup.
18 reviews1 follower
June 23, 2019
First question, why did they use a pic for the cover that is so unflattering of Peter??

Otherwise, the book is interesting and a quick read. But, I have to agree with reviewer Raechel. I hated all the swearing. And I guess I am conflicted. I want to know the juicy stuff, but think less of them when I do. Peter had “naked nubile nymphs” walking around his house? I had heard that before reading this book, and I suppose that is not terribly unusual for young guys with more money than they know what to do with. But...made me sad to hear. Peter unfortunately does seem to be a rather troubled person.

Great insight also by the goodreads reviewer who makes a distinction between “survivors and perpetrators” of the 1960s. I wonder if the people who lived through that time and promoted the counterculture ever have similar insights. Like, with all the young kids overdosing now on drugs - do the anti-establishment types (like the Monkees) ever feel a bit culpable? Ditto for so many kids being born out of wedlock or dealing with divorced parents. Would be great if some of these aging rebels grew up and acknowledged the damage their generation has done to our culture. Interesting that Micky has said that some people in the studio cafeteria used to get up and leave when the Monkees came in. These people’s apparent rejection of the counterculture actually seems prescient in retrospect.

I guess I will do as Davy suggested at the end of his biography, which is to remember the Monkees running, singing, laughing, on the beach, etc. And pretend I don’t know much about them as real people. :(
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January 30, 2017
I'm not going to give this a star rating for a couple of reasons.
I didn't finish this book to completion. While the information was interesting, the amount of swearing (bad swearing), glorified immorality, and more swearing, I didn't finish it. I can't recommend it either, for even a fellow huge fan of The Monkees.
Like I said, some of the information was very interesting. I liked Micky's writing style, and reading about his life, but the swearing and immorality were just too much.
Makes me sad.
There's a meme that says "When everyone around you is talking about drugs, sex, and swearing, you're all "Let me tell you about Jesus"" - That's definitely what I felt like reading what I did of this book.
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3,138 reviews13 followers
July 23, 2024
Micky voice comes through loud and clear in this autobiography. He really digs into the Monkee years, discussing albums and group dynamics. Plus it was interesting to hear about his early adventures as Circus Boy. Fair warning, this book ends when the Monkees were at a low point so it's a bit of a bummer at the conclusion. With hindsight we know that good times were still ahead.

I discuss this further in this episode of the All the Books Show: https://soundcloud.com/allthebooks/ep...
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Author 18 books153 followers
October 23, 2008
Pretty cool bio by Mickey Dolenz that covers his child star beginnings to the formation of the Monkees and everything that followed. I like the fact that he covered a lot of ground about the groovy Hollywood scene in the psych days. Even if you're not a Monkees fan you'll still find a lot of great gossip about the old rock days.
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49 reviews
December 22, 2025
easily one of the funniest, most enjoyable memoirs i’ve ever had the pleasure of reading. micky dolenz’s narration is fresh, spirited, and quick-witted— all of which are qualities he clearly possesses. i’m a believer was a joy to read. i found myself constantly laughing, micky’s comedic abilities are impressive. he’d always been funny in the monkees television program, but here, in his own element, his humor is amplified. his jokes, references, and theatrical “flashbacks” kept me on my toes. there was never a dull moment, i was constantly entertained. micky’s personality shines through, making this memoir different from other, more “professional” biographies i’ve read. i thoroughly enjoyed my reading experience. humor and monkee history were balanced quite well. having an insider’s perspective on the “monster monkee machine” was fascinating, especially when it came to their eventual disbandment. this was perfect fuel for my “monkee fire” (also known as the fixation i’ve harbored since early november). i’m very fond of micky dolenz. he remains a permanent resident in papa’s orchard.
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18 reviews
June 15, 2025
Out of the three monkee books this might be my fav!! Each book matches the author tho! Very funny and a lot of monkee lore despite micky saying it wasn’t a monkee lore type book 😭 it was so fun to learn more about him and his perspective, I love the usage of the script type style to depict some moments 😭 and the ongoing jokes throughout the book so good!!! Micky goes all in detail about Peter/mike beef and Davy/Micky beef and overall reflections. Mike and Davy didn’t get into the monkee lore almost at all so it was definitely interesting to read Mickey’s side 😭 his stories are insaneeee such a good read thanks Micky
Profile Image for Eric Parsons.
189 reviews
April 4, 2019
Disappointing, to be honest. I had read this book several years ago (probably not terribly long after it had been published), but had forgotten much of it. Dolenz, of course, spends much of the book on his time with the Monkees, leading with his birth and his time on Circus Boy. Dolenz spends ample time on the audition, mentioning that he really wanted the gig after the first time meeting Rafelson and Schneider. While he spends time describing the TV show and the recording process--really detailing the famous "fist-through-the-wall" confrontation--but Dolenz's self-interest and arrogance shine through. While he calls, for example, Peter "one of the kindest people I've ever met," he proceeds to make fun of his bohemian lifestyle and so on. After a while, the bragging about the sexual escapades and other worthless details got boring.

Since the book was published in 1993, the story ends with a massive fight with Davy and Peter, where Micky essentially lays the blame for the Monkees' cycle of breakups on Davy (mostly) and Peter, hardly mentioning the time he decided to blow off a meeting about the future. It would be interesting to see an update, though, after the 1997 Justus album--though I'm aware of the continued bitter splits later (another book reports that Micky, Peter, and Mike were specifically disinvited from Davy's funeral).

To be short, there is quite a bit of braggadocio on wealth, drug use, and so on, with an arrogant attitude shining through, but the story is interesting enough to finish the read.
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1,579 reviews4 followers
April 6, 2022
Micky writes a breezy, chatty memoir about his growing up in show business, plenty of details about his time with the Monkees, and a decent amount about his solo career after the group broke up. He's very candid about his feelings about the other guys, and clearly some of what happened wasn't pretty. But, let's face it, the Monkees were very young when they became famous, and not all of them handled the fame well for quite a while. In many ways, Micky was luckier than the other guys because his family was nearby and kept him grounded.

His telling ends in 1993. His co-writer added an update that goes up to 2004, so it does include bits about the "Justus" reunion and some of the tours that the guys did together in their fifties. Clearly they had all mellowed quite a bit by then.

It only seems fitting that Micky is the last surviving Monkee because he's always kept the torch burning, even if it's been hidden out of sight.
Profile Image for Andrea.
861 reviews9 followers
September 23, 2016
Being a childhood fan of the Monkees, I hoped this book would provide insight into Micky Dolenz's experience with the band. Instead, mock scenarios using scripts between band members and descriptions of Davy Jones constantly doing his nails filled the pages. The only interesting part was the photographs of Micky's life in the public eye.
Profile Image for Lisa.
687 reviews
July 23, 2024
I don't remember the circumstances under which I picked up this book in the first place, but my expectations were not high. Turns out it was actually moderately informative and entertaining. Micky came across as smarter, funnier, and more humble than I'd have guessed.
It was written in 1993; I'd like a follow-up.
Profile Image for Lori Schiele.
Author 3 books24 followers
September 24, 2019
After reading Davy Jones' "They Made a Monkee Out of Me", I purchased this as well, since I have loved the Monkees since I was 5 years old (when they returned in syndication in the early 70s). Unlike Davy's book, which was a "ghost-written" biography (he told it to someone who then wrote it for him), and spent most of the book talking about his life pre- and post-Monkees, with only a short bit about his time on the Monkees almost as an afterthought--or a bad mistake.
Micky, on the other hand, wrote the book himself, and spent a good deal of time talking about the Monkees--the good, the bad, and the ugly--things that were never shown on air and hidden from the press. Because they were actors (Davy and Micky were, while Peter and Mike were actually musicians pretending to be actors pretending to be musicians living together--did you follow that?--and having mad-caper romps and zany fun, and it wasn't until the show became a hit that they actually began to tour as an actual singing group. But the truth was, there was more bad and ugly between the four that was as carefully hidden from the world as possible--including Davy's marriage because he was the "heartthrob of the show" and needed to appear "available". But also the drugs, the adultery, and the other things that people like me--who grew up having a mad crush on these adorable guys (and still do)--didn't necessarily want to know. But I'm obviously much older now and none of it really surprised me, after all, they were actors/musicians and it was the '60s.
I feel truly blessed that I was actually able to see them (several times) during their 20th Anniversary tour. They hadn't really spoken to each other in years, yet Peter was quoted as saying: "...It was right there. There were no problems. It was as good as it ever was." And I attended a concert shortly after Davy's death which was a mixture of mad-cap fun but also a memorial. I even got to see Peter's band, Shoe Suede Blues which was an intimate but amazing concert.
Unfortunately, since the writing of Davy's book (1986) and Micky's book (1994), both Davy (2012) and Peter (2019) have both passed away, but they have left a legacy for generations that will never die. Rest in peace, Davy and Peter. You will be missed, but never forgotten.
Profile Image for Steve.
37 reviews
May 20, 2018
Sadly, a mediocre autobiography. I was hoping for more from my favourite Monkee, but despite starting the book promising yarns of wild Hollywood parties and behind the scenes Monkee skullduggery Dolenz fails to deliver on his promise and instead offers up a matter-of-fact account of his life that reads like a shopping list. "In 1966 I did this. In 1981 I did that". The only insight he offers concerning his wild "lost weekend" phase is a couple of mild yarns about Harry Nilsson. He hardly mentions John Lennon, Alice Cooper or Keith Moon except to say they were there. He does reveal that Ringo Starr enjoyed eating chip butties at his house whenever he visited. Mind blowing.

Annoyingly, he also skimps on any details of the various fights he had with his bandmates through the years. For instance he tells us how he started working on a theatre production with Davy Jones in the late 1970's that lead to an enormous fight that stopped them speaking to each other for 9 years, but offers no idea as to what this fight involved. He offers no real insights into any of his relationships, and comes across like an empty vessel. Which is hugely annoying because in documentaries and on screen he's bursting with personality. There's no personality to be found here. The only truly interesting part was his recollections of visiting London in 1967, meeting Paul McCartney and watching The Beatles record at Abbey Road, but even this is rushed and has about as much passion as someone showing you holiday snaps of their trip to the Canary Islands.

Bizarrely, he also chooses to ruin the flow of the book by presenting certain moments of his life in the form of a script, which starts to get hugely annoying the longer it goes on.

I came away from this book none the wiser as to who Dolenz really is, what motivated him or what moved him, or what his songs meant to him or why he chose to write them in the first place. I'm still a believer but this book should have been named Shades Of Gray.
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Author 1 book3 followers
December 4, 2025
Earlier this year I decided to take a trip down "memory lane" and revisit one of my favorite childhood bands... The Monkees. Having been born in 1967 I missed the real heights of their popularity but their music became impressed on me largely through the TV series. In fact, I still remember racing home from elementary school each day to watch it in syndication. The music stayed with me over the years but I was largely uninformed about the band, their history, and the individual members who made it up. To that end I started reading every book I could find on them this past year. Dolenz's book is actually the third book about them that I have read so far this year (I started with "The Monkees, Head, and the 60s" by Peter Mills and followed that with Michael Nesmith's "Infinite Tuesday").

Dolenz's book is a heartwarming and funny look back at his years as a Monkee. Filled with lots of tales from their time on top of the world in the mid-60s it is exactly what the "fan" in me was looking for when I picked it up. It is a candid story of his journey from a childhood TV actor to the heights of TV/music fame, one filled with some thought-provoking and encouraging personal moments. I highly recommend it to anyone who is a fan of The Monkees or is just looking for a solid, quick read on this amazing thing called life. Great book!
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277 reviews34 followers
August 27, 2021
One of my favorite quotes from this book - p.42:

"I've thought about this a lot over the years, and I'm sure that it's the decline and fall of child stars that causes the greatest damage, not the success. Success is fairly easy to handle, for anybody. You may get an inflated ego and turn into an asshole, but that's not nearly as bad as the rejection you experience once you've been on top and suddenly find yourself on the bottom. Let's face it, that's not easy for an adult, much less a child. At least an adult has had some years of experience, in school and in life, to learn to cope with losing, with rejection. A child has little to draw from. One day you're the flavor of the month and the next day you can't get a bit part on Gunsmoke. And you don't know why ... 'Don't they like me any more?'"
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896 reviews22 followers
March 11, 2022
I've now read the memoirs of all three of the Monkees who released them. I'm ridiculously sad that my fave, Peter Tork, never wrote one. And since he passed away in 2019, we will never get one. I enjoyed them all but I read them in what ended up being my least fave to most fave order. Mickey is my third favorite Monkee. But this book was so much fun to read. His book reads like you are listening to him tell his story. Which is funny because this is the only one of the three that wasn't in audiobook format and I actually read a physical copy. His sometimes eye rolling humor is present. This book also was 90% about the Monkees whereas Davy and Mike definitely skimmed over that period of time in their books. Still this was a fun and quick book. I read it in three days even as I was also reading a couple other books at the same time.
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55 reviews
March 14, 2022
I came in not knowing what to expect, but I was pleasantly surprised.

I did not grow up with the Monkees. I wouldn't expect it was just because I grew up in the 2010s, as I grew up watching reruns and DVDs of Gilligan's Island, Svenghoolie, Batman, Leave It To Beaver, Full House, the list goes on. I was just never introduced to these guys, even if both my parents liked them.

I went into a world totally unfamiliar to me, but it was just like home. Micky Dolenz writes this in such a witty and casual way that it doesn't feel, to me, like any regular biography, but rather a guy telling you the stories of his real, unfiltered life, and that's just what it is.

With this, I've found an interest in the show and songs and watch them frequently. It just makes me smile and I find it very charming.
Profile Image for Dan Stern.
952 reviews11 followers
September 6, 2018
An interesting insight into perhaps the most talented of the Monkees, though for me there was not enough behind the scenes revelations about those Monkee years. Dolenz is a competent writer with a story to tell, but he does include his whole life, as one would expect in an autobiography, and the more salacious details of that 60s phenomenon, the Monkees, will not be found here. The memories of the Monkees meeting the Beatles is worthwhile in itself, but much of the details are already available publicly. Perhaps this is better classified as a book for the fan and those that tuned in to the series.
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597 reviews
July 12, 2020
An interesting autobiography from Micky Dolenz, this primarily looks at his years in The Monkees but also looks at his early years in Circus Boy.

Maybe it’s my laid back Britishness but I didn’t see a lot of swearing that has upset some other reviewers.

Not the best autobiography I’ve read - I suspect that time and drug use has robbed Micky his recollection of some events but nonetheless an interesting and easy read, written with humour and affection.

I would be interested in reading a follow up to this book as this was released in 2003 and we have sadly lost Davy Jones and Peter Tork since then.

3.5
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238 reviews
October 12, 2023
ok I'm writing this review like. almost a month after finishing this book BUT it was a great great great time. the tone is funny as hell and tbh. the stuff micky says is funny as hell in the sense that. get this man therapy lol. the whole thing of learning as a child that if you have a bad day someone could get fired etc. of courseeeee that messes you up. anyways. fun read uh. i enjoyed it and i'm overjoyed that i got this only bc one day theo just started buying two copies of all the monkees books. peace and love on planet monkee babey that's what it's about.
Profile Image for April.
11 reviews
October 21, 2019
As Far As A Autobiography Goes This One Was Good The Book Tells Interesting Facts And Behind The Scenes Look At Fame And Fortune With lots of pictures the only thing I did Not like was the book was like a movie script but other than that it was a good Hollywood Tell All With Famous Names You Won’t go wrong reading this
Profile Image for Rob Paczkowski.
298 reviews3 followers
February 23, 2021
Old material but quick fun read. For not being known as spontaneous, this book shows the silly nature he is known for. Yes he does breeze over the indulgences and details of the angst between members but not in a bad way unless you are really looking for dirt. This isn’t it. I have been a Monkees fan for 53 years. I wasn’t disappointed.
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147 reviews1 follower
January 20, 2022
The Monkees are my favorite music group, and words can't express how much I love Micky Dolenz. This book was one of the best autobiographies I've ever read. Not only is it a great telling of his life and his career with The Monkees, but it has so much of his trademark humor that makes him one of my favorite people on this earth.
Profile Image for Dennis Kenter.
64 reviews1 follower
June 3, 2022
the opening scene of this book is Micky throwing so much shade at Davy and it really sets the tone. Did I need to hear how much him and Jack Nicholson got laid? Not at all. But I’m here for all the drama behind the 80s reunion tour. A perfectly harmless collection of ink covered pages that kept me engaged for three consecutive train rides.
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89 reviews1 follower
October 9, 2022
Thoroughly enjoyed this breezy, funny and irreverent autobiog. I appreciated gaining an awareness of all the behind-the-scenes trails and tribulations The Monkees went through with the PTB (as MD refers to them, the powers that be) and also among themselves. There's a good deal about the individual relationship dynamics of band members that was interesting.
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