Lilian is looking forward to the birth of her first child when she is diagnosed with tuberculosis. It is the early 1950s and her physician decides that she cannot be allowed to keep her baby after birth, that the child will be put up for adoption by healthy parents. In this daring novella, poet Kay Syrad explores the reverberations of that momentous decision in the lives of all participants in the events; Lily, the bereaved mother, Prof Morley, her doctor, burdened with guilt over what he has done to her, and Lucie, the woman who is that abandoned baby. Syrad daringly combines fiction, notes, analysis and poetry, tracing the obsessional and circuitous process involved in exploring truths that cannot be consciously known. With her we are drawn towards conflicting ideas about the nature of early awareness and sense perception, and their consequences. The floating presence of these ideas and quotations, layered with competing fictional voices and the author s interjections, create a highly textured and mesmerising novella from this accomplished writer.