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Sweet Saydee: To Love and To Lose
“Ever has it been that love knows not even its own depth until the hour of separation.”
Saydee Rhodes, once a sweet and vibrant soul, fell victim to the vicious hands of her longtime lover, Leon. Aside from the physical scarring, he completely diluted her mentally– leaving both her mind and body battered and bruised. After having her third child beaten from her womb, Saydee makes the greatest escape, landing in the arms of Coop.
With winsomeness that couldn’t be avoided, Coop lured Saydee with his attentiveness. Being that his mother was once in her shoes, he felt obligated to her. A knight in shining armor was her reference of the selfless gentleman. In a short period, Saydee was effortlessly placed on a pedestal, only to be knocked down with two simple words from her savior.
Destined to find peace within her inner self, Saydee flees once more, making careless decisions, fueled by temporary emotions. Even with being told that love was a losing game, Saydee couldn’t agree until she was laid on the cold bathroom floor, crimson blood surrounding her being as she begged her dear God to spare her life just one more time.
Saydee Rhodes, once a sweet and vibrant soul, fell victim to the vicious hands of her longtime lover, Leon. Aside from the physical scarring, he completely diluted her mentally– leaving both her mind and body battered and bruised. After having her third child beaten from her womb, Saydee makes the greatest escape, landing in the arms of Coop.
With winsomeness that couldn’t be avoided, Coop lured Saydee with his attentiveness. Being that his mother was once in her shoes, he felt obligated to her. A knight in shining armor was her reference of the selfless gentleman. In a short period, Saydee was effortlessly placed on a pedestal, only to be knocked down with two simple words from her savior.
Destined to find peace within her inner self, Saydee flees once more, making careless decisions, fueled by temporary emotions. Even with being told that love was a losing game, Saydee couldn’t agree until she was laid on the cold bathroom floor, crimson blood surrounding her being as she begged her dear God to spare her life just one more time.
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Published June 29, 2017
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July 6, 2017
AWSOME
From the beginning to the end this was an incredible story. This can be a life lesson for someone who's going through domestic violence. It just shows you never know what a person is going through and how their childhood can affect their adulthood. Leon was absolutely wrong for doing what he was doing to Saydee but his childhood wasn't one that a child should go through. Overall I feel like this is a life lesson and Mercy B did a terrific job. This deserve more than a five star I give it 20 ⭐
From the beginning to the end this was an incredible story. This can be a life lesson for someone who's going through domestic violence. It just shows you never know what a person is going through and how their childhood can affect their adulthood. Leon was absolutely wrong for doing what he was doing to Saydee but his childhood wasn't one that a child should go through. Overall I feel like this is a life lesson and Mercy B did a terrific job. This deserve more than a five star I give it 20 ⭐
July 14, 2017
Whew
Mercy B. I am so upset with you. Why you make me cry!!! I was not expecting this. How could you have me to like a character so much and then it's gone. I just can't. The book was awesome, tho.
Mercy B. I am so upset with you. Why you make me cry!!! I was not expecting this. How could you have me to like a character so much and then it's gone. I just can't. The book was awesome, tho.
July 5, 2017
I wish it would have said that this was a rerelease.
March 1, 2016
There isn't much I can say without giving away details. So... I will just say, this one was different. I can honestly say I wasn't prepared for the ending.. not even a little bit and Coop really just brought out the water works in the last 4% of the book. I just wasn't expecting the outcome.
It was beautiful to watch Saydee grow.. I was like whoot whoot but when the dreams started I sorta had a feeling and I was correct in said feeling. Sigh. So know that there will be growth in her character and it will be beautiful...but with good always comes... well read the book!
Welp.. off to find some straight laced romance or some deep urban ish.. need to shake this feeling after reading this one.
Nice Job Author!
Lata folks!
It was beautiful to watch Saydee grow.. I was like whoot whoot but when the dreams started I sorta had a feeling and I was correct in said feeling. Sigh. So know that there will be growth in her character and it will be beautiful...but with good always comes... well read the book!
Welp.. off to find some straight laced romance or some deep urban ish.. need to shake this feeling after reading this one.
Nice Job Author!
Lata folks!
March 5, 2016
Satisfied Reader
This book was OMG good. I felt so sorry for Saydee. No woman should endure that much pain from a man who claims to love you. I was happy at one point because she was free. Ava was such a great friend. She and Compton were good together. Coop was an angel and was such a a great guy to her but he was married. I cried so hard for her at the end that i couldn't finish reading it. But I did. Great Job
This book was OMG good. I felt so sorry for Saydee. No woman should endure that much pain from a man who claims to love you. I was happy at one point because she was free. Ava was such a great friend. She and Compton were good together. Coop was an angel and was such a a great guy to her but he was married. I cried so hard for her at the end that i couldn't finish reading it. But I did. Great Job
March 10, 2016
This book was very touching. Had my emotions all over the place. The ending actually had me in tears. I wanted so much more for Saydee. It was so heartbreaking. I was very proud of Coop for stepping up.
March 9, 2016
Cant stop the tear!!!
I have never cried so hard after reading a book!! This book broke my heart with all that Saydee went thru! And when she thought she found happiness it was snatched away so fast!! You will understand the saying " life is too short" after reading this book!!!!
I have never cried so hard after reading a book!! This book broke my heart with all that Saydee went thru! And when she thought she found happiness it was snatched away so fast!! You will understand the saying " life is too short" after reading this book!!!!
June 1, 2018
4.5 stars!!
What I liked:
This was my first time reading a Mercy B novel and I must say, I’m about to go see what else she has because this book was really good. It held my attention and the plot twists had me on edge with my mouth all the way open, needing some popcorn. Overall, I thought it was written pretty well. Saydee and Ava had such a great friendship and I’m glad Say had someone like her in her corner especially when she needed someone most. Both Ava and Saydee’s love interests – Compton and Coop – melted my heart in different ways. But these brothers are a handful. I thought the author did a good job at pacing the book and positioning the WTF and Oh snap moments at the perfect times. After the 75-80% part of the book, I knew I wouldn’t be putting it down until I was done!! Though it took me a few days to read, I was reading it during my free time while traveling. Had I been where I had a couple days where I had a few hours or so of nothingness to do I’m sure I would have read it in a day or two because there wasn’t ever a lackluster moment.
What I did not like:
I don’t have anything negative to truly say about the book. As I said above, it held my attention and had some great ‘what the hell did you just say’ moments. However, a pet peeve of mind when it comes to writers who write in 3rd person is head hopping. I felt the writer should have title the chapters with numbers (or something) instead of names because the point of views wouldn’t just be in that character’s head. For instance it’s a Saydee’s POV but then we’ll get into the head of Ava and Compton or something like that. So that bothered me. Another thing I think the author should redo is the book’s synopsis. The current synopsis reads – as you can see above – as if the book is just about Saydee and Coop but we also venture into the lives of Ava and Compton. So when I started the book, I was throwed a bit to find POV’s from characters that hadn’t even been mentioned in the synopsis when their story was told just as much. The last thing that ruffled my feathers was repetitiveness of this one part. Saydee has a repetitive nightmare and the author wrote out the same nightmare 3x. After the 1st time, I skipped over the remaining two because I already knew it. It could be a reader’s preference, but I thought it could have just been mentioned that it was the same nightmare she’d been having without actually writing it back out.
Would I recommend this? Read it again? Read the next book in the series?
Definitely would recommend it and though I might not read it again, I wouldn’t mind doing so. It was good and I like the author’s style of writing. I might not read this again but I certainly am looking forward to reading more by Mercy B.
xoxo, The Lit Queen Bella
To Love and to Lose | Bella's Review
What I liked:
This was my first time reading a Mercy B novel and I must say, I’m about to go see what else she has because this book was really good. It held my attention and the plot twists had me on edge with my mouth all the way open, needing some popcorn. Overall, I thought it was written pretty well. Saydee and Ava had such a great friendship and I’m glad Say had someone like her in her corner especially when she needed someone most. Both Ava and Saydee’s love interests – Compton and Coop – melted my heart in different ways. But these brothers are a handful. I thought the author did a good job at pacing the book and positioning the WTF and Oh snap moments at the perfect times. After the 75-80% part of the book, I knew I wouldn’t be putting it down until I was done!! Though it took me a few days to read, I was reading it during my free time while traveling. Had I been where I had a couple days where I had a few hours or so of nothingness to do I’m sure I would have read it in a day or two because there wasn’t ever a lackluster moment.
What I did not like:
I don’t have anything negative to truly say about the book. As I said above, it held my attention and had some great ‘what the hell did you just say’ moments. However, a pet peeve of mind when it comes to writers who write in 3rd person is head hopping. I felt the writer should have title the chapters with numbers (or something) instead of names because the point of views wouldn’t just be in that character’s head. For instance it’s a Saydee’s POV but then we’ll get into the head of Ava and Compton or something like that. So that bothered me. Another thing I think the author should redo is the book’s synopsis. The current synopsis reads – as you can see above – as if the book is just about Saydee and Coop but we also venture into the lives of Ava and Compton. So when I started the book, I was throwed a bit to find POV’s from characters that hadn’t even been mentioned in the synopsis when their story was told just as much. The last thing that ruffled my feathers was repetitiveness of this one part. Saydee has a repetitive nightmare and the author wrote out the same nightmare 3x. After the 1st time, I skipped over the remaining two because I already knew it. It could be a reader’s preference, but I thought it could have just been mentioned that it was the same nightmare she’d been having without actually writing it back out.
Would I recommend this? Read it again? Read the next book in the series?
Definitely would recommend it and though I might not read it again, I wouldn’t mind doing so. It was good and I like the author’s style of writing. I might not read this again but I certainly am looking forward to reading more by Mercy B.
xoxo, The Lit Queen Bella
To Love and to Lose | Bella's Review
July 15, 2017
I'm in tears!!! OMG!!!
I was feeling her Saydee's pain. Though I wasn't a victim of domestic violence, I allowed myself to get lost in a relationship. I'm left to now pick up the pieces. I couldn't consider Saydee stupid at all; we all make decisions in life that may not be right. But at the time it's right for us because of the fear of losing, or even starting over. So many of us do lose our life in the end. It's not always death, but the loss of our mental health as well. I pray we can teach others to be strong, and with that first incident they are strong enough to leave. I'm praying for all the women and men who do encounter these issues on a daily. Thank you Mercy B, you have succeeded yet again!!!
I was feeling her Saydee's pain. Though I wasn't a victim of domestic violence, I allowed myself to get lost in a relationship. I'm left to now pick up the pieces. I couldn't consider Saydee stupid at all; we all make decisions in life that may not be right. But at the time it's right for us because of the fear of losing, or even starting over. So many of us do lose our life in the end. It's not always death, but the loss of our mental health as well. I pray we can teach others to be strong, and with that first incident they are strong enough to leave. I'm praying for all the women and men who do encounter these issues on a daily. Thank you Mercy B, you have succeeded yet again!!!
July 6, 2017
Mercy, Mercy Me!
A love story does not always end with a happily ever after. Mercy B is the mistress of alternative story endings... Coop and Saydee's story was not the typical romance. She had just escaped an abusive relationship, so finding love so quickly was not high priority. Her friend Ava and her man Compton had tried many times to save her. Saydee's man Leon was a monster.... This story had some moments that were painful and some thoughtful ones... Abuse is real you guys. This story did not glorify abuse, the story drew our attention to the toll it can have on ones life... I just wish, Coop had reacted sooner... Overall, this was a riveting story...
A love story does not always end with a happily ever after. Mercy B is the mistress of alternative story endings... Coop and Saydee's story was not the typical romance. She had just escaped an abusive relationship, so finding love so quickly was not high priority. Her friend Ava and her man Compton had tried many times to save her. Saydee's man Leon was a monster.... This story had some moments that were painful and some thoughtful ones... Abuse is real you guys. This story did not glorify abuse, the story drew our attention to the toll it can have on ones life... I just wish, Coop had reacted sooner... Overall, this was a riveting story...
July 31, 2017
Second time reading, still so good
As I started reading, I realized I've read this one before, but I didn't stop reading because the story was so good. Saydee was a broken woman who realized her worth in the end. She was so strong to endure all that she did. Cooper has to be one of my favorite male characters because he was so sweet. Despite his personal circumstances, he was drawn to Saydee. They were destined to meet, he was destined to help her in more ways than one, and he did. All love stories can't have happy endings, in a strange way this one did, but not a conventional one.
As I started reading, I realized I've read this one before, but I didn't stop reading because the story was so good. Saydee was a broken woman who realized her worth in the end. She was so strong to endure all that she did. Cooper has to be one of my favorite male characters because he was so sweet. Despite his personal circumstances, he was drawn to Saydee. They were destined to meet, he was destined to help her in more ways than one, and he did. All love stories can't have happy endings, in a strange way this one did, but not a conventional one.
August 15, 2017
I felt like Saydee got what she deserved in the end with how she was letting Leon run her life. I thought Coop was the one to really get played out in the end even with his situation with Lace. Saydee didn’t bother to ask any questions and for her to play him for months on end behind it was wack.
She knew she was hiding out so ditching her security was only her fault if anything she should’ve been in protection mode even more and at the very least took Arnold with her. This one needs editing and a good review like the others which is annoying with this many books in and the authors still having these issues.
She knew she was hiding out so ditching her security was only her fault if anything she should’ve been in protection mode even more and at the very least took Arnold with her. This one needs editing and a good review like the others which is annoying with this many books in and the authors still having these issues.
May 26, 2017
To Love and To Lose
Saydee endured unhappiness at the hands of Leon. Leon endured unhappiness at the hands of his father until ...... Saydee decided that she had enough and enlisted the help of Ava for immediate evacuation. Saydee met Coop and found fulfillment but Coop had a secret. Coop gave Saydee his house and heart but unaware of the lurking .......Will Saydee be able to evade her past to a happily ever after? Will Coop be able to reveal secret and keep Saydee?
Saydee endured unhappiness at the hands of Leon. Leon endured unhappiness at the hands of his father until ...... Saydee decided that she had enough and enlisted the help of Ava for immediate evacuation. Saydee met Coop and found fulfillment but Coop had a secret. Coop gave Saydee his house and heart but unaware of the lurking .......Will Saydee be able to evade her past to a happily ever after? Will Coop be able to reveal secret and keep Saydee?
July 19, 2017
💔
Wow mercy really had me in my feelings with this one. Domestic violence is a touchy subject for me simply because I watched someone near and dear go through it for years. We always question "why do they stay?" "Why are they so weak" I still will never understand but this story kind of gave me a understanding from the inside. I wish Say could've gotten her happy ever after, but in reality most victims don't. I appreciate this story 😢💗
Wow mercy really had me in my feelings with this one. Domestic violence is a touchy subject for me simply because I watched someone near and dear go through it for years. We always question "why do they stay?" "Why are they so weak" I still will never understand but this story kind of gave me a understanding from the inside. I wish Say could've gotten her happy ever after, but in reality most victims don't. I appreciate this story 😢💗
July 2, 2017
Mercy B has done it again!
I love Mercy B writing style! I Saydee and Coop where a beautiful couple. Love can be a beautiful and ugly thing. Saydee was a strong women and Coop was a strong man. I love the fact that this was not a urban fiction book with killing and drug dealers. Lastly, Everyone needs a friend like Ava.
I love Mercy B writing style! I Saydee and Coop where a beautiful couple. Love can be a beautiful and ugly thing. Saydee was a strong women and Coop was a strong man. I love the fact that this was not a urban fiction book with killing and drug dealers. Lastly, Everyone needs a friend like Ava.
July 5, 2017
Love at Last
A beautiful story. Not the ending I imagined or hoped for, but a story that needed to be told. We are worthy of love. Love does not physically hurt. Ava was Saydee's best friend and was there when she needed her the most. Although she was at a good place in her life, she was there for Saydee. 1-click and have your tissue in hand!
A beautiful story. Not the ending I imagined or hoped for, but a story that needed to be told. We are worthy of love. Love does not physically hurt. Ava was Saydee's best friend and was there when she needed her the most. Although she was at a good place in her life, she was there for Saydee. 1-click and have your tissue in hand!
July 13, 2017
Wowwww
I had so many different emotions reading this book. Man how I hoped it would've turned out differently but sometimes that's life you know. It's not our place to understand it or question it but know hat it happens for a reason that's bigger than us. This story touched on some many things. Everyone of us knows a Saydee. Amazon story.
I had so many different emotions reading this book. Man how I hoped it would've turned out differently but sometimes that's life you know. It's not our place to understand it or question it but know hat it happens for a reason that's bigger than us. This story touched on some many things. Everyone of us knows a Saydee. Amazon story.
October 14, 2017
Wow
I normally shy away from stories of domestic violence being a survivor myself and coming from a dv survivor. This beautifully written story described the pain both physically and emotionally alot of us have gone through. It was so detailed and sad but still very very good. Thank you
I normally shy away from stories of domestic violence being a survivor myself and coming from a dv survivor. This beautifully written story described the pain both physically and emotionally alot of us have gone through. It was so detailed and sad but still very very good. Thank you
July 1, 2017
Mercy!!!
Omg omg omg I just dreamed for the happy ending but I knew Leon was gonna come in and mess it up with his sadistic self. Coop through me for a loop with his whole situation I hate that it took all of that and then some to realize he loved her....
Omg omg omg I just dreamed for the happy ending but I knew Leon was gonna come in and mess it up with his sadistic self. Coop through me for a loop with his whole situation I hate that it took all of that and then some to realize he loved her....
July 10, 2017
This was a story on domestic violence. Unfortunately the main character Saydee lost her life while nine months pregnant with her first child. The father of the baby, Coop, found her dead along with her former boyfriend, stalker, and abuser, Leon. The ending was shocking to me.
July 11, 2017
Too short.
The story was okay. In my opinion it was too short to try and throw someone else story in there. The ending was very heartbreaking and sad. I just didn't want to read it. If I would have known I would have left it alone.
NHE
The story was okay. In my opinion it was too short to try and throw someone else story in there. The ending was very heartbreaking and sad. I just didn't want to read it. If I would have known I would have left it alone.
NHE
September 3, 2017
Loved
Mercy whybahe have to die I mean I knew that sucker was coming back but he have to take coop shawty with him like coop said she wanted her baby so bad it sucked that didn't get to experience it however I loved this book and coop is my hero
Mercy whybahe have to die I mean I knew that sucker was coming back but he have to take coop shawty with him like coop said she wanted her baby so bad it sucked that didn't get to experience it however I loved this book and coop is my hero
March 6, 2019
😰😰😰
This was well written story but it was sad. Saylee was good person who ended up with the devil. It is so sad when people abuse the ones that love them the most. I felt so bad for Coop. Good but sad.
This was well written story but it was sad. Saylee was good person who ended up with the devil. It is so sad when people abuse the ones that love them the most. I felt so bad for Coop. Good but sad.
December 13, 2019
Damn evil!
I’m so emotional 😭 My heart goes out to Coop ,Ava and baby Saelee, no parents should ever receive news like that! They daughter or son was kill in a domestic violence . Leon was so evil, he just couldn’t let her go, so 😞
I’m so emotional 😭 My heart goes out to Coop ,Ava and baby Saelee, no parents should ever receive news like that! They daughter or son was kill in a domestic violence . Leon was so evil, he just couldn’t let her go, so 😞
January 22, 2017
IFive stars
OMG I love this book I couldn't put it down. You have a new fan Mercy B it a must read
OMG I love this book I couldn't put it down. You have a new fan Mercy B it a must read
January 2, 2018
Welllll, I did not expect this book to end the way it ended. Saydee really lost 🙄, I want a different ending lol.
March 24, 2018
Amazing story
This is the 1st book by Mercy B that I read but this was an amazing story. I read it in 1 sitting.
This is the 1st book by Mercy B that I read but this was an amazing story. I read it in 1 sitting.
July 4, 2018
Wow!
This was my first read by this author, and I wasn’t disappointed. I hated how things ended for Saydee, but it showed what can happen in relationships like hers.
This was my first read by this author, and I wasn’t disappointed. I hated how things ended for Saydee, but it showed what can happen in relationships like hers.
December 9, 2018
Excellent
WOW! This story was everything from the beginning to the end! I went through every emotion. God bless you and your work!
WOW! This story was everything from the beginning to the end! I went through every emotion. God bless you and your work!
March 20, 2019
Final Rating 4.25 Stars
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