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Hermit, Zen Christian, spiritual in time for his 90th birthday in July of 2016, “Brother David” tells his incomparably rich life story. Beginning with his childhood in Vienna, he describes his time in World War II and his years as a student after the war, his family’s emigration to the US and his entry into the then newly founded Benedictine monastery in the state of New York. There, he soon began looking for what were then still untrodden spiritual paths with undiscovered entryways to non-Christian religions. He became particularly involved in the dialogue between Christianity and Buddhism, founding the “Center for Spiritual Studies” in 1968, together with Rabbis, Buddhists, Hindus and Muslims. His work encouraging dialogue between religions earned him the 1975 Martin Buber Award. Still traveling on occasion to teach or write, Brother David is now living in a Benedictine monastery in Europe. Mysticism is his mission―but not a mysticism devoid of connection to the world. His is a mysticism of the everyday, of life immediate in the now, of experiencing fully. He is convinced that God’s spirit speaks in and to us all. unique biography of one of the most significant spiritual teachers and global guest speakers, †

232 pages, Paperback

Published September 5, 2017

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David Steindl-Rast

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Brother David Steindl-Rast is a Benedictine monk, author, and lecturer widely recognized for his commitment to interfaith dialogue and his emphasis on gratitude as a transformative spiritual practice. Born in Vienna in 1926, he survived the challenges of World War II before emigrating to the United States in 1952. He entered monastic life at Mount Saviour Monastery and went on to engage deeply with both Christian and Buddhist traditions, studying with notable Zen masters. His work bridges spirituality and science and has led him to collaborate with religious and cultural figures across traditions. He co-founded the Center for Spiritual Studies and A Network for Grateful Living, advocating for gratefulness as essential to human flourishing. His writings include Gratefulness, the Heart of Prayer and Belonging to the Universe (with Fritjof Capra). Known for his mystical approach, he describes religion as a living flame that must be rediscovered beneath layers of doctrine, ritual, and dogma.

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489 reviews
December 7, 2018
This book goes through nine decades of Brother David’s life. In the beginning of each chapter Brother David summarizes that decade for us and then Johannes Kaup interviews him. This is an incredibly beautiful book full of wisdom that I will return to again and again.

I encourage everyone to check out his website, gratefulness.org

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129 reviews5 followers
April 12, 2021
Excellent read! He quotes several poets which I like. Chaplaincy is a poetry of sorts in making meaning of the mysteries of life. The biographical narrative followed by the clarifying interviews made this very enjoyable to read. I really connected to his views of love, power, oppression, and living in the present moment. Shout out to my son Mitchell who bought me the book as a gift. Good call, Son!
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June 10, 2017
STEINDL-RAST, David: „Ich bin durch Dich so ich. Lebenswege“, Herausgeber und Interviewer Johannes KAUP, Münsterschwarzach 2016
Zu seinem 90. Geburtstag schreibt der Mönch David seine Lebensgeschichte nieder. Jedem Jahrzehnt widmet er ein Kapitel. An jedes Kapitel führte der ORF Journalist Johannes Kaup ein Interview, das den Texten des Mönchs noch tieferen Einblick gibt. Es ist aber nicht ein Interview mit Fragen und Antworten, sondern ein Dialog und so nennt Kaup auch diese Kapitel. Der um 40 Jahre jüngere Kaup steht an Wissen und Weisheit dem alten Mönch nicht nach.
David Steindl-Rast blickt auf ein reichhaltiges Leben zurück und kann auch vieles der Menschheit zurückgeben. Einerseits ist er – so scheint es – immer (oft?) auf die Butterseite des Lebens gefallen. Schon durch seine Geburt und die Besserstellung und später mit vielen Entscheidungen, die ihm das Leben leichter machten. Auch den Krieg überstand er, obwohl er feststellen musste, dass mehr seiner Freunde im Krieg gefallen sind als überlebt haben. Als Optimist sah er auch die harten Kriegsjahre als schön. „Ich glaube, viele Menschen erleben das auch heute noch, wenn sie in Lebensgefahr geraten, dass die Lebendigkeit umso mehr aufflammt. Der Grund scheint mir zu sein, dass man dann ganz in der Gegenwart leben muss.“ (Seite 44)
Sein Weg Mönch zu werden war eine Entscheidung zwischen „Entweder Oder“. Lange konnte er sich nicht für eines entscheiden, aber letztlich erkannte er, dass man nur einen Weg gehen kann. In dem Fall: Familie gründen oder Einsiedler werden.
Seine Empfehlung ist es im JETZT zu leben, „ganz da zu sein im gegebenen Augenblick.“ (Seite 88) Das Leben im Jetzt hat auch mit dem „Anfängergeist“ zu tun, dass man „jeden Tag so, als ob es der erste Tag wäre“ (Seite 103) erlebt.
Er hat andere Religionen studiert, mit Buddhisten und Hindus gelebt und so zu der Erkenntnis gekommen, dass man Verbindendes zwischen Religionen nicht über die Institutionen erreichen kann (sie müssen ihr Bestehen verteidigen und behaupten), sondern durch einzelne Menschen.
In der katholischen Religionslehre stünde uns vieles im Weg. Aus Überlieferung werden Dinge gemacht, die nicht mehr in die heutige Zeit passen, ja ihnen sogar ein Hindernis werden zu glauben. „… Formeln, die nicht mehr passen. Nicht dass es falsch wäre, aber es stammt aus einer Deutungsweise, die uns heute nicht mehr hilft, mit der wir aber viele Assoziationen verbinden, die Furcht erzeugen.“ (Seite 107)
Zum Leben nach dem Tod meint er: „Was du jetzt findest wirst du dann gefunden haben, was du jetzt versäumst wirst du dann versäumt haben. … ewige Seligkeit, nur weil die Würmer dich fressen, sei ein Wunschtraum.“ (Seite 191) Vor dem Tod selbst hat er Angst, aber er fürchtet sich nicht. Es sei „eine Tatsache, dass wir nicht wissen, was im Tod auf uns zukommt. Wir wissen es einfach nicht. Wir gehen auf etwas zu, das uns nicht nur unbekannt ist, sondern ganz und gar unvorstellbar.“ Angst hätten wir vor allem, weil „es um den Tod herum sehr häufig Krankheiten, Leiden und Schmerzen gibt.“ (Seite 188) Letztlich kommt er zu dem Schluss, dass der Mensch „nicht am Tode, sondern an ausgereifter Liebe“ (Seite 186) stirbt. Man solle daher im JETZT leben. „Alles ist immer JETZT“. Er war bereits in ein Altersheim eingezogen, als er eine neue Aufgabe fand, eine Website aufbaute und aus dem Seniorenheim auszog. Seine Netzwerkaktivität verbindet „Menschen auf der ganzen Welt, die einander darin unterstützen, dankbar und darum freudig zu leben.“ Seite 161)
Steindl-Rast mit seinen 91 Jahren „ist ein Beispiel dafür, dass man zwar an Jahren alt werden kann, aber dabei nicht unbedingt seine geistige Frische verlieren muss.“ (Seite 197)
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February 18, 2018
"Even as small children, my brothers and I were allowed to go into the woods alone for hours, walk up the creek, and explore. I think that my mother knew where we were and that we were in no danger. We felt protected because we somehow knew that she was not far away. But she gave us that trust; so we were free."

Brother David speaks those thoughts in the first chapter. Remarkable how I can say the same was true 30 years later where I was raised. Brother David grew up in the years prior to the Nazi Anschluss of Austria in 1938 and endured the terrors of World War II. I grew up in postwar prosperity and participated in the Vietnam War. So similar, so different. I think whatever else may be similar or different, we shared across the generations that sense of being surrounded with trust and protection, and sadly, it no longer obtains for American children today.

"i am through you so i" has an interesting format. Each chapter is a decade of Br. David's life described through memoire followed by interview/discussion with an old friend. It moves toward a hopeful vision, and I can recommend it.

BTW, the title is a reference to e e cummings.
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January 8, 2019
Though short, this book took me a long time to read. It's not something you can go racing through for pleasure, though the autobiographical sections, especially, are often both humorous and vivid. Who would believe, for example, that a mother would let her three young sons--the oldest only 16--travel by themselves for weeks? Brother David used to take off to the Bohemian forest with his younger brothers. The boys had nothing but what they could carry, and also hiking had been made illegal for all but the Hitler youth. But these young adventurers couldn't be stopped--and their mother let them go. Brother David still remembers this with awe and gratitude. He also tells us of his family members' fate (he had Jewish cousins), what it was like to spiritually resist the Nazis, how and why he found his vocation, his life as a hermit and his work for ecuminism and social justice, and much more.

Then, in both the autobiographical chapters and the interviews, there are small gems that are foci for meditation/contemplation. For example:

..."faith is radical trust: trust in life and trust in God. ...The life of faith is a continual test of trust." (p 77)

"Prayer in all its forms does not primarily mean asking God for something... Instead, praying means opening our heart to the Great Mystery--" (p 80)

"Distraction is an armor we can put on to avoid feeling..vulnerability." (p128)

"The highest goal of a hermit is to live in the present moment." (p 129)

"Anger in and of itself is simply a strong burst of energy that can be necessary and helpful..." (p 130)

But I can't quote the whole book! It's a rather unconventional biography/autobiography; it left me wanting to know much more about certain aspects of Brother David's life. What was it like, for example, to accompany the Vienna choir boys on tour? What sort of conversation might he have had with Thomas Merton or the Dalai Lama? (he does quote, briefly, one conversation with Merton, and it's fascinating.) This is a spiritual autobiography arranged both by theme and by decade. It doesn't, really, give you the full picture of its subjects long and rich life. What it does to is to give you a clear picture of Brother David himself. And he is worth spending some time with.



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177 reviews2 followers
June 30, 2018
So much reverence for this lovely man, and such a genuine heart connection I feel whenever I hear him speak. This book I believe, extraordinarily expanded my understanding, and touched me deeply to know of the beautiful being that is Brother David Steindl-Rast.
Who continues to teach me everyday about the joy of grateful living.
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June 12, 2020
It doesn't contain theories, doesn't have a literature review, no research questions, or implications for further research. Yet, this book will likely impact my higher education work from this point ONWARD. You can learn so much about grateful living and the joy of learning from a 90-year old monk. A terrific book!
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