Mel was eleven, just starting at secondary school, when she first saw Adam. From his dark eyes and how his face scrunched up when he smiled, she knew she loved him and that they would belong to each other forever. It took Adam two years longer to recognise this but since then their relationship has been rock-solid. They got married ten years after Adam first asked her out and, as the story starts they are about to celebrate their tenth wedding anniversary. They are still in love, have a delightful four-year-old daughter, Maya, interesting and satisfying careers, good friends and lots of family support but, although Adam is content to accept their ongoing good fortune, possibly even take it for granted, Mel can never quite shake off a visceral fear that, at some point, there will be a price to pay for it. This fear has its roots in the guilt she feels about a secret she has been keeping from him for many years and so, when Adam is seriously injured and left in a coma following an accident at work, she feels that this is the retribution she has been expecting for so long.
Mel must now call on all her strengths if she is to pick up the pieces of their fractured lives. She needs to try to create some semblance of stability for Maya and to find ways to explain to her daughter why the daddy she adored, and was adored by, is no longer able to respond to her. Also, in the face of all the pessimism expressed by doctors, family and friends, all of whom believe that Adam is likely to remain in a persistent vegetative state, she must find the strength to hold onto her unshakeable belief that the Adam she loves, and who loves her, is still inside the inert body on the bed. She knows, without a shadow of a doubt that he is there, that he must desperately be trying to find a way to let her know and that she must never give up on her efforts to try to help him find a way of doing so.
Told in alternating chapters this thought-provoking story explores the far-reaching repercussions of the accident on the lives of Mel, Adam and Maya. This narrative format enables the reader to switch between reflecting on the daily stresses faced by Mel as she tries to cope, and the frustrations felt by Adam who feels trapped inside his unresponsive body. It also provides the opportunity to explore their past experiences and how these have made the characters who they are, as well as to place family and friends within the context of these experiences, and to make sense of their behaviour as the story unfolds. I thought that these switches were well managed, enhancing rather than disrupting the flow of the story. They also added depth and credibility to all the characters, none of whom was portrayed as perfect or saint-like as they struggled on the painful journey to accept a new reality. The ongoing help offered to Mel, by family, friends and, sometimes, strangers, as she struggled to cope, highlighted how important this support is for families facing long-term disability. However, it also demonstrated that this support is not always altruistic but can sometimes be motivated by a selfish self-interest; this credible psychological underpinning was an important element in my enjoyment of the story.
Although there are some very serious themes explored in this story, it is certainly not without moments of humour, sometimes of the laugh-out-loud variety. Much of this comes from the portrayal of the delightful behaviour of Maya and some of her wonderful observations, but an unforgettable reference to trifle (on page sixteen of the Headline edition!) still has the power to bring a smile to my face!
From the detailed exploration of the many hurdles which face people who have suffered a catastrophic brain injury, and their families, as they attempt to recover, it was clear just how much research into this subject Linda Green had done. However, although she used this to great effect, I never felt that it overwhelmed the story-telling but, rather, that it was appropriately woven into the narrative to enhance an understanding of the medical interventions and the various reactions and behaviour of the characters. I admired how she explored the various challenges all her characters faced, the ways in which their self-awareness developed, and how they discovered inner-strengths in the process.
I have struggled with my rating because, although the story often engaged me on an emotional level (I did shed a few tears!) there were some things I did find rather irritating. Although I was relieved that Mel and Adam weren’t portrayed as people without flaws, being told time after time about the unshakeable nature of the love they felt for each other did become tediously repetitive! I also felt that there was something of an imbalance between the part of the story focusing on the relatively immediate aftermath of Adam’s accident and the subsequent journey towards a “new normal”, with the latter feeling a bit too short and rushed. However, I did find the ending both credible and satisfying and so, although I have decided to give it 3*, a 3.5* rating would be a more accurate reflection of my overall experience of reading this memorable book.
There are so many themes which make this a moving and thought-provoking story, particularly those centred around the power of love, friendship, loss, grief and, when confronted by such a devastating trauma, the need to face reality whilst still holding onto hope, all of which were dealt with well by the author. However, and maybe especially for reading group discussion and debate, the most thought-provoking element emerges from the fact that this is a story which you cannot read without asking yourself “what would I do in that situation”? Therefore, my 4* rating for this category is unequivocal!
If I had read the cover of this book in a bookshop, I probably wouldn’t have chosen to buy it because I would have feared that it would turn out to be mawkishly sentimental; it didn’t feel like that so I appreciate the fact that I won a copy of it in a Nudge competition!