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352 pages, Paperback
First published April 18, 2017
”Betty sighs audibly. The humble understanding, the faux posture of ‘I support whatever you decide’ underneath which lies ‘I will be bitterly disappointed if you do not do this for me- I ask so little of you.’”Because hell, it ain’t like she’s gonna win, right?
”’After all,’ Betty thinks, ‘it isn’t like I can actually win.’”It isn’t going to change now, right?
And she does the unthinkable.”Nine days ago she was the toast of the nation, the girl every girl wanted to be. And then she threw it away like a day-old newspaper. Sometimes she expects regret to rush in, but it never does; she knows now that she was not meant to be Miss America. In her quest to be the good daughter, she had ignored the woman she was meant to become. And now she had found her.”But as Betty comes to realize from pretty much the moment she runs away with him, Griff isn’t all he turned out to be, with a dangerous dark secret he’s been keeping from her.
”She can’t figure him out. One minute, disinterested and bored; the next, charming and attentive. One minute, funny and clever; the next bitter and miserable. It’s like he’s some sort of Atlantic City Jekyll and Hyde.”Charged with tracking the couple down for the latest scoop is Eddie Tate. A young reporter who takes an instant shine to her when he’s covering the Miss America pageant, he’s all the more happy to track her down. But it’s not for all the reasons you would suspect. Not only does he want the scoop, he’s secretly in love with the shy beauty.
”This is the hidden cost of being the good daughter, the good student, the good girl. People take advantage with flattery, with emotional manipulation, one slice of lemon cake at a time. Sometimes she feels like more of a receptacle than a living person. Someone other people project their aspirations, goals, ideas, and tasks onto. And she simply accepts them.”And Betty’s no exception. Socially isolated by her parents and beat into her brain that this is what is expected of her, she really had no other blueprint to follow. Much like Betty Cooper from Riverdale (see? This is totally Riverdale).
And yet underneath those All-American looks is a much darker side. He has schizophrenia. It becomes plain pretty quickly, even before the diagnosis is confirmed by the author. Back then, there were little to no treatment options for the seriously mentally ill. I was actually kind of surprised how well the author dealt with the topic, as I was just expecting another cardboard cutout of the typical fictional mentally ill character. But he tackled the subject with supreme sensitivity and accuracy. ”Betty has spirit, verve. She won the title every girl in America dreams of, then discarded it for him. For him! Their love is stronger than anything he could have imagined. She can silence the voices. The two of them just need to find a place to let their love grow in peace.”Griffin could get a bit over the top sometimes, but those instances were few and far inbetween.
”What is it like to spend your life denying the one thing that defined it?”