. --The novel has 1 introduction + 22 chapters + 1 epilogue-- ... Introduction The prince made a fierce entrance, beating the grave, looking pained and angry over Meilin's death. He did not allow her to die, whipped the corpse, and carried the corpse on a horse.
... Chapter 1-21 Go back to the beginning of the story. Meilin was a spy for a secret organization. Her martial arts were destroyed. She was assigned to do a mission in exchange for an antidote to the poison in her body, which she had to exchange for news to get medicine every month.... And then her bruised and severe life began. I'm rooting for E. If life is like this, when having to be a spy who accidentally ended up being with the hero, on the first night, having to reluctantly accept being dry fucked, the hero felt like putting it in, shoving it in without a care. ~ While his body was still hurting from being fucked, he was abandoned and forgotten in the middle of the forest. When he survived, the woman the hero had loved for 10 years became suspicious, so he was taken as prey along with the prisoners in a hunting game. When he saw a chance to escape, the hero, whose tendons were torn (had to lie there as a vegetable), came to be a burden, having to take care of him, find food and water, and have a scene of wiping the hero's piss💩, carrying the crippled hero up mountains, down valleys, diving into caves, braving water and fire. When he was about to help the hero walk, he had to have his blood and flesh sucked for real, because the hero used her blood to help himself walk - that's not all, the heroine escaped, the hero still followed her, fucked her, and took her back. In order to get the heroine's blood to save the life of another woman that the male protagonist has loved for 10 years and waited to marry, the male protagonist forced, raped, did not care (he asked what the female protagonist's name was in chapter 10), slapped her in the face, used her, gave her hope, and was greedy and loving towards other women in front of her. But when the female protagonist was about to leave because the male protagonist was going to get married, he meddlesomely made the female protagonist marry his own close friend so that the female protagonist would still be close to him. And then he couldn't accept it and came to be jealous, possessive, cursed, hurt her feelings, belittled her, and all sorts of evil were on every page. The evil spirits are present throughout almost the entire story. ---But, but, but , but ... Chapter 22 and the epilogue are like completely different stories. So confusing!!! The male protagonist's 10-year love that he said he loved so much all along, but in chapter 22 he suddenly doesn't love her anymore. He easily broke up and went their separate ways. From a bitter drama because of stinky poop, it turned into a sweet and romantic love story full of sunshine. The male protagonist who has been an asshole all along, once he steps into chapter 22, he becomes a green flag male protagonist, warm, kind, a spender, who loves only his wife. From a dog with peach eyes and a golden nature, he became a man with a weak heart, depressed like a dog if his wife ignored him. "
"21.4 so he’s been going around with ~her corpse and lost his goddamn mind. Good. Fucker deserves worse. And she saved that cunt too
22.1 so she wakes up after a year, totally saved. 🫤 and MRJH has trapped her
Epilogue yeah no I’m still mad" Hilarious review, this book must be insane rofl.
9/9 it literally stresses me out to just give a book 1 star but man this book was FUUUCKED up. And like ... I kinda hated it? 😬😅 I read it entirely cuz I was super looking forward to the drama. Was even thinking I'd chase it. Now I am ... not excited about the drama. I'll still watch it but I won't chase it. I also fail to see how this is a romance in any way. The prologue is already super intense ... and/but unfortunately that's kinda the best part. FL falls in love with ML for - look - I know there shouldn't be a "reason" for love, but ... *takes a moment* - there had better be a good goddamn fucking reason to write a FL falling in love WITH HER ABUSER AND RAPIST. She suspects he's the guy who tortured her from childhood till now - making her a soulless assassin ... and oh she was right. And then the first time they actually meet/she sees his face ... as I said - he rapes her all night. He always treats her awfully. FINALLY the day they're going to get married his bitch ass white moonlight is like "nah" so he's like oh ok cool AND PASSES FL OFF TO HIS GAY EUNUCH. There is NO PART where he's good to her or sweet. And then he regrets it after he thinks she's dead AND KIDNAPS HER (once he knows she's alive) ... and we're just ... supposed to think it's all sweet and yay they're together now?
HAVE YOU LOST YOUR GODDAMN MIND?!
... so aside from the awfulness - and fucking hell there is A LOT OF AWFULNESS - it's an interesting story. ... but I hated dude - hah literally my eye started twitching. And I kept thinking "well at least the drama will be better if for no other reason than censorship probably won't allow for this scene." So... here we are. Ugh.
F+? I guess? Considering it was readable/I read it in one night ... but also clearly I hate myself, so.
~*~*~*~*~ Kill Me Love Me
Prologue 🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊 Holy hell … is … is the actual body of the story what happens all before the prologue?! … BUT THE BLURB PROMISES SWEETNESS?! OMG dude destroys her grave and steals her decaying corpse 😱😱😱
😬 c1.1 so FL (I’m assuming) is/was “43.” ☹️😐☹️ why did whoever destroy all her martial arts skills?!? And … ok so now she’s Mei Lin? … and she was “43” for 15 years 😱 (and … based on the prologue ALREADY DEAD so … how is this a romance unless she faked her own death?!) 😅 ok I cheated & read/skimmed last chapter & epilogue and it seems she’s alive so … I’ll give this fuckery a try? C1.4 so ML is Murong JingHe a prince & his dad hates him. & is he really lascivious or faking? Obvs his dad being shitty to him affected him but he hides it well… 1.6 😐 I don’t know why - I mean I read that comment where they say he leaves her to die in the desert (?) to rush off for his white moonlight. But I was not prepared for him to rape her. Goddammit author. 🫤 1.7 😬😖 and him “awarding” the other girl to the soldiers
C2.1 oh so Adai instead got to stay & looks down on FL and tbh I hate her already 😒😡 ugh I hate a gentle tone has her dazed. Am STRESSED. Stupid author. Manipulative dog blood splashing bitch 😐 2.2 welp he just abandoned her on the hunting grounds. I hope this is the only time but I have a sinking feeling it’s only the first 😒 2.4-2.5 I hope that asshole eunuch Qing Yan dies a miserable death. And Adai. And whoever that bitch is that she looks like. And tbh JingHe too. 😒 ok him getting her a bath - with flower petals was nice. And a big plate of meat. Qing Yan can live for now.
O.o c3.1 a peach tree can bring nightmares? And hopefully Jiang Tu actually is nice… C3.2 fuuuuck Muyi Luo Mei is the cunt Adai looks like right? Ugh. UGH. I just know she’s going to be A Problem Shhhhhit. Jing He gifts FL to her. UGH. The pit in my stomach. 😭😭😭😭😭 her reluctance to miss the possible peach blossoms 3.3 ok so now he ISN’T “gifting” FL?! and … that red mole “at the corner of her brow” is going to become a thing isn’t it 😒 3.4 I feel bad for him for having to be constantly vigilant but it doesn’t excuse his asshole shit C3.5 omfg they’re going to “hunt” prisoners they’re fucking monsters this (crown prince? ) Xuan Lie and Luo Mei.
C4.2 yeah I fucking hate Luo Mei so goddamn much. *breathes* poor FL is just trying to survive here… 😿 poor FL shot through the shoulder & leg. Luo Mei is the biggest fucking cunt & I hope she dies the most miserable death ever Omg 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️ 4.5 the kid bringing MRJH. And I was so glad she was like “f this man.”
<.< ok low key 5.1 it’s breaking my brain Bi WenJun is playing Yue Qin the 15 yo but 🤷🏻♀️ 😹☠️ at least we know he should be able to carry LXY. Who I’m already mad at 😅 (and yes I want BWJ’s character to fall for WJY’s & for LXY’s to be DEEPLY jealous & unable to do anything about it) 5.2 goddammit OF COURSE MRJH wakes up just as she’s about to leave him 😒😡 C5.3 ok now I’m heated EVEN KNOWING he only ever saw her as an object. Fucker. 5.4 so I hate everyone except for FL. Don’t even care MRJH’s brother('s subordinates) are trying to kill him. They all deserve each other 😡
C6.1 I very much support her “fuck this guy” attitude & ignoring him 💯 C6.2 JFC he still thinks well of his “little sweetheart” I literally said “Jesus Christ.”
C7.1 man I REALLY hate how fucking ungrateful he is. Oh god 7.2 🙊 he shit himself. Diarrhea’d on his pants :x
C8.2 my eye literally twitched. Fucking fuckhead STILL has warm thoughts for that bitch and I literally have no words. SHE CRIPPLED YOU YOU STUPID FUCKING FUCKHEAD.
C10.1 so Chun Hua is her real name? And damn after getting through the rock formation, the cannibal, her carrying him crawling through the tunnel… 😭😭😭 and he’s still an asshole to her despite her taking care of him as he’s paralyzed from the neck down
(I went back and read the prologue like … WHEN DOES HE FALL FOR HER?! I’m WAITING!!!)
10.2 Ugh bitch no! Don’t be fooled by his first real smile at you!
11.3 idek about the coffin & the water stuff. Yay for her martial arts returning but uh… hasn’t it been a long time since she got the antidote? Like, isn’t she going to die soon?
Damn 12.1 all that and it’s only been less than a month but now the poison is acting up - and what was the “darkness” in his gaze after she ~asked him for the antidote
Ugh 13.1 his “you’re my woman you can’t marry anyone but me” - I don’t trust it! And her just … Basically acquiescing 😒
Damn 14.1 she was trying to find him a healer, he (asshole) thought she left him… AND the “cure” he offered her for her pain made her mute 🫤
Gooooood damn c14.2 he IS the workshop guy 😿 poor FL 😐 he did this all for revenge but poor FL 😿
14.3 his very minor twinges (of emotion) aren’t enough he LITERALLY has FL imprisoned 😡😡😡 I’m mad based on the prologue he finds her after her “death.” Fucker.
C14.4 this fucking fucking fuck. Still expecting to marry that cunt and I hate him so much.
15.1 Gah knife to the heart “As for her feelings, she believed they were her own business and had nothing to do with anyone else.” I’m glad her indifference bothers him. Asshole.
😒 15.2 I’m entirely unappeased he let her beat him up. HE MADE HER MUTE. On top of EVERYTHING ELSE.
15.3 Jesus fucking Christ and even the “maid” abuses her. I have SO MUCH RAGE.
15.4 I swear MRJH has some submissive kink. I’m still annoyed she’s being nice to him. I’m so mad she’s in love with this piece of shit. I get she’s like “my feelings are my own.” Not even MAD mad she’s willing to help cure him. But I am mad she’s being nice to him. He doesn’t deserve it.
16.3 that cunt stole FL’s sachet, fuckhead threw it in the brazier … FL *maybe* slapped the cunt & ML knocked FL down?! 16.4… and then he coos over the cunt & yells at FL & says he never wants to see her again? I’m FURIOUS she goes back to him later. I don’t even care if he was doing it to “save her.” Do. Not. Care.
17.2 goddammit the joy of finding Yue Qin ruined by MRJH kicking in the door
Omfg 17.3 AND HE STILL PROPOSES TO THAT CUNT
😒 17.4 MRJH calling FL his fiancée - dude no.
Welp 18.1 he continues to be The WORST. Abusive mean asshole.
*blows out a breath* endless betrayals. Brings her back for a wedding, the cunt steps in, and he passes her off to Qing Yan 18.2 you suck as much as MRJH does
18.4 😐 tbh Qing Yan just might deserve her… other than his shit boss
19.4 damn Qing Yan choosing corpse ghost really just did it for FL - her poor broken heart. Too bad we know she doesn’t escape. Glad QY at least stopped MRJH from going after her. He realizes he’d never put her first. These assholes.
20.1 wait so he did have an antidote done? (I mean clearly but) - and I’m so annoyed she went back to that old village
20.2 I’m so pissed she just welcomes him & they have sex as soon as he appears - at least twice! And then she treats him well AYFKM. Bitch LEAVE. Uh … wait only NOW antidote?! SO HOW IS SHE ALIVE. 😐 and they go to the capital 20.3 Oh. It’s only been a month.
21.4 so he’s been going around with ~her corpse and lost his goddamn mind. Good. Fucker deserves worse. And she saved that cunt too
22.1 so she wakes up after a year, totally saved. 🫤 and MRJH has trapped her
Epilogue yeah no I’m still mad
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Story was a wild ride from start to finish. I quite like how the author kept to the POV of the MC most of the time as she’s an unreliable narrator.
It was an earned happy ending for side couples but I do believe for the main cp, a few more chapters to explain and extrapolate would be better for them.
I read this story after watching the drama (Kill Me Love Me), since I was curious about the differences between the two, and the novel was only 20 something chapters.
I have to say... Murong Jinghe is really a scum male lead in the novel. They made his character much much better in the drama. He's a complete playboy and sleeps around with various women. In fact, once he's presented with Mei Lin as one of the peace making beauties, he immediately forces himself on her (and whether she consents or not is dubious).
I thought about dropping the story but kept reading out of a morbid sense of curiosity about other differences. Other than the ML's extremely questionable character, another big difference is that he's in love with the general (Luo Mei) in the novel and actually uses the FL to make her jealous. That's all of Mei Lin's value to him initially. He doesn't care about her at all, and it's not until the novel is almost half over when he even thinks to ask for her name.
Given how the ML treats her simply as a disposable chess piece for most of the story, I'm really surprised that Mei Lin eventually falls for him. There is some sweetness when they're hiding in the remote village and it's the two of them (this the part of the novel that most resembles the drama), but once they emerge from the village their relationship is all messed up again. Jinghe even marries her off to his loyal follower Qingyan, who is a eunuch in the novel, because he wants her nearby but he can't marry her himself due to strong objections from Luo Mei. What a selfish man. It's a happy ending, but I think Mei Lin would've been better off roaming the world and enjoying her freedom rather than marrying Jinghe, who's already emperor by then.
The novel focuses mostly on their relationship with some bits of story thrown in here and there. There's no intricate political intrigue between the Crown Prince and the ML, though so much of the drama revolves around that. It's mentioned in passing that the ML was able to pin the assassin organization on the Crown Prince and that's it. There are no side couples like the crown prince + Luo Mei, or the emperor + the Xiyan princess. In fact, Yue Qin isn't even a prince here but a young Xiyan boy who happens to be rescued by Mei Lin. I'm surprised by how much the drama embellished the story.
I read this novel after seeing the trailer of drama adaptation. I can understand why some people don’t like this story. Because of forced s** and abuse. But being historical drama after those times female are given freedom in this regard. Second reason to hate is FL falling in love with ML after abuse. But I can understand why FL fell in love to an extend. ML and FL characters are flawed. But I travel through the story and characters develop even though they are flawed they have their reasons. I cried a lot almost near the end. But to the end eve though it’s uncalled climax suddenly all the sadness I felt when I read last but 4/3 chapter disappeared. This is not love story of perfect couple. But of flawed and problematic couple.
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I honestly don't know how to feel about this. I braced my self for the worst, people say this is an ugly novel but this is a tad better than Prisoner of a Beauty.
I just hope the ML suffered longer with the corpse. The FL deserved ALL the happiness in the world.
My heart ached while reading this.
The plot of the drama significally deviated from this novel BUT I expect a happy ending.
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Not one of my favorite, obviously.... Not a fan of the ML, Murong Jinghe, a real red flag with five stars. He continuously abuse the female lead, Mei Lin, and strangely Mei Lin fell in love with him eventually. The story sometimes kind of rushed and there's a few part that don't seem connect to the previous part. Well, I don't know it is because of the translation or maybe that's how the story goes. The good point is, the happy ending, which is sadly not for the drama.
In about 10 years, I’ve read this again and again, can’t even remember how many times I’ve read this. I just finished rereading it yesterday . Still love it
While the hero’s actions can be frustrating at times, he does gets better, the heroine truly shines in this story. Her strength, resilience, and unwavering determination carry the entire journey. She’s the heart of the book and made the story a memorable read.
Kill me Love me. I enjoyed the rebirth part of the storyline, but you never really like male lead. He is pretty frustrating the whole time. But the ending of the novel is soooo much better than the tv show.