In this short true story, Carrie eventually overcomes Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, grief, depression and feelings of abandonment whilst unknowingly battling with the onset of the menopause-without the help of friends, family, pills, alcohol or counseling. Still unable to talk freely, Amanda entered the 2008 UK Songwriting Competition and was awarded 'Semi Finalist' competing with over 10,000 entries throughout the world. Putting her emotions to music, and now sharing her experience with you, Amanda tries to find humour in the most dire of circumstances and hopes to give the reader awareness of 'their' feelings and mindset; and positive faith if they find themselves in circumstances they find mindbending.