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Trust #3
Forever Bound
The Osiris Circle case is ongoing and the bodies continue stacking up. Detective Sam Baker, with help from some very skilled police academy cadets, Agent Aaron Boudreaux’s profiling skills, and FBI tech genius Andrea West, they are closing in on suspected serial killer Lady Olivia Payne. Sam is struggling with his personal life and tired of living a lie, of hiding who he really is. Tired of having to be in control all the time. He’s ready to give up that control, to embrace the submissive sexual side he’s kept hidden all his life, and he knows just who he wants to help him fulfill those desires. Not one, but two powerful Doms have caught his eye. Sam wants Aaron and Simon to guide him through his journey of self discovery. Aaron and Simon have been together a long time, and Aaron wants a more committed relationship. Simon has his own issues that only Aaron can help him cope with and he doesn’t want anyone to know about them. He’s afraid adding a third to their relationship would be a mistake. With a killer on the loose, past pains that still cause fresh wounds, and more guilt than anyone should have to carry alone... will the pain be too much for them? Can these three men find the strength, love and courage they need in each other for the chance to share in something that comes once in a lifetime and leaves them Forever Bound?
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353 pages, Kindle Edition
First published August 14, 2017
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Amanda Marie Raulerson
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I’ll try to keep this short, but I probably won’t be able to. Sitting here thinking about what it is I want to tell you about me, I realize I’m overthinking again. I do that a lot because I’m a worrier, a nitpicker, an obsessive-compulsive weirdo with a tendency to overshare… Bigtime. I have been many people in my life, both good and bad, like most humans on earth. I have a “family” I will probably never see again, unless someone remembers me when planning a funeral… maybe. I was adopted before my parents knew how strange I was, and was never really accepted me into their family. They kept me (too afraid of their friend’s judgment if they’d tried to return me because I was defective) but never understood or accepted me. I was “different,” odd and not normal, but what the hell is normal? I spent a lot of time alone, became my own person because that is all I could do, and even though I wanted their acceptance… I knew I would never get it.
I was extremely confused my whole life, about who and what I was, what was “wrong” with me. Finally, in my late thirties, I came to accept something I’d known for a long time but was afraid of. Accepting the fact that I am a transgender gay man made me feel more alone than ever, but I knew the truth deep down in my soul. Living as a woman felt so wrong, but no matter how I felt I was too afraid to be anything else. Scared and lonely, I hide behind the mask I’d worn my whole life. (Better the devil you know, right?) I knew I would lose everything, that I would have to start a completely new life if I ever wanted to be me, and the thought terrified me. So deep into my depression, I thought I would have to hide who I was for the rest of my life, that no one would ever accept or love me for who I really am. I knew my “family” never would, I’d heard them make comments about people like me without ever knowing they were degrading me with every word. Every slur, innuendo or derogatory tirade a painful blow to my already broken soul.
When I was at my lowest, voices reached out and told me that I deserved to be happy, and I felt truly loved and valued for the first time in my life. They accepted the real me; quirks, annoying habits, idiosyncrasies, my tendency spout random gibberish and all. I thought friendship was an emotional circus full of mind games and double talk, passive-aggressive “jokes” that I would have to wade through to find out what they actually meant. I’d had “friends” before, and I didn’t want to go through that again. It just wasn’t worth it… or so I
thought. These voices turned out to be brilliant, exceptional, generous and devoted women who turned my entire life around with their love and support. These women, their belief in me, pulled me out of hell and helped me to grow stronger every day. They didn’t make me feel bad for being different, they celebrated my uniqueness and gently pushed me to reach for my dreams. My overactive imagination was always coming up with stories and ideas, characters and scenes that needed to be written, but I never thought I would be able to publish a book people would want to read. I’d only ever heard I was too stupid to write anything other than grocery lists, that my notebooks full of stories were just rediculous scribbling that no one would want to read. They helped me silence the degrading voices in my head, and they helped me prove those voices wrong.
I have lived and I have wanted to die. I have fought with everything in me, and both won and lost. I have picked myself up after an atom bomb has destroyed my life, and I have soldiered on. I am not better and I am not worse than the next person. I’m human just like you!
I’ll try to keep this short, but I probably won’t be able to. Sitting here thinking about what it is I want to tell you about me, I realize I’m overthinking again. I do that a lot because I’m a worrier, a nitpicker, an obsessive-compulsive weirdo with a tendency to overshare… Bigtime. I have been many people in my life, both good and bad, like most humans on earth. I have a “family” I will probably never see again, unless someone remembers me when planning a funeral… maybe. I was adopted before my parents knew how strange I was, and was never really accepted me into their family. They kept me (too afraid of their friend’s judgment if they’d tried to return me because I was defective) but never understood or accepted me. I was “different,” odd and not normal, but what the hell is normal? I spent a lot of time alone, became my own person because that is all I could do, and even though I wanted their acceptance… I knew I would never get it.
I was extremely confused my whole life, about who and what I was, what was “wrong” with me. Finally, in my late thirties, I came to accept something I’d known for a long time but was afraid of. Accepting the fact that I am a transgender gay man made me feel more alone than ever, but I knew the truth deep down in my soul. Living as a woman felt so wrong, but no matter how I felt I was too afraid to be anything else. Scared and lonely, I hide behind the mask I’d worn my whole life. (Better the devil you know, right?) I knew I would lose everything, that I would have to start a completely new life if I ever wanted to be me, and the thought terrified me. So deep into my depression, I thought I would have to hide who I was for the rest of my life, that no one would ever accept or love me for who I really am. I knew my “family” never would, I’d heard them make comments about people like me without ever knowing they were degrading me with every word. Every slur, innuendo or derogatory tirade a painful blow to my already broken soul.
When I was at my lowest, voices reached out and told me that I deserved to be happy, and I felt truly loved and valued for the first time in my life. They accepted the real me; quirks, annoying habits, idiosyncrasies, my tendency spout random gibberish and all. I thought friendship was an emotional circus full of mind games and double talk, passive-aggressive “jokes” that I would have to wade through to find out what they actually meant. I’d had “friends” before, and I didn’t want to go through that again. It just wasn’t worth it… or so I
thought. These voices turned out to be brilliant, exceptional, generous and devoted women who turned my entire life around with their love and support. These women, their belief in me, pulled me out of hell and helped me to grow stronger every day. They didn’t make me feel bad for being different, they celebrated my uniqueness and gently pushed me to reach for my dreams. My overactive imagination was always coming up with stories and ideas, characters and scenes that needed to be written, but I never thought I would be able to publish a book people would want to read. I’d only ever heard I was too stupid to write anything other than grocery lists, that my notebooks full of stories were just rediculous scribbling that no one would want to read. They helped me silence the degrading voices in my head, and they helped me prove those voices wrong.
I have lived and I have wanted to die. I have fought with everything in me, and both won and lost. I have picked myself up after an atom bomb has destroyed my life, and I have soldiered on. I am not better and I am not worse than the next person. I’m human just like you!
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August 21, 2017
5 BIG stars Sam - Simon - Aaron
Powerful read. Humor, pain, lust, great D/s relationships another amazing read from the Trust series.
"I don’t know your background, and I don’t have to know, but I do understand how it feels to finally know you’re home."
Sam has his eyes on....two Doms.....
This threesome is wonderful put down. Just like in #1 it worked so good.
The chemistry and dynamic was strong. All the men with their own personalities.
Sometimes it was devastating....and at fifty percent my heart stopped....
Amazingly written, it goes deep. At some moments I felt goosebumps all over my body.
"and the healing spread"
The story around these three beautiful heart melting men, the club and the police case is really well done... all their own stories and all the thrilling also very well put down. All the persons from #1 and #2 are there...but I guess after some logical thinking to put it together you can read this one by itself.
It's captivating and also hot as hell. The environments were just....<3 I adore them hard. They were flawed beautifully it touched my heart.
I was gritting my teeth, rubbing my hands, pulling my hair and crying my eyes out.
So yes!! I'm highly recommending this story !
Kindly received an ARC from the author. Thank you so much !
Powerful read. Humor, pain, lust, great D/s relationships another amazing read from the Trust series.
"I don’t know your background, and I don’t have to know, but I do understand how it feels to finally know you’re home."
Sam has his eyes on....two Doms.....
This threesome is wonderful put down. Just like in #1 it worked so good.
The chemistry and dynamic was strong. All the men with their own personalities.
Sometimes it was devastating....and at fifty percent my heart stopped....
Amazingly written, it goes deep. At some moments I felt goosebumps all over my body.
"and the healing spread"
The story around these three beautiful heart melting men, the club and the police case is really well done... all their own stories and all the thrilling also very well put down. All the persons from #1 and #2 are there...but I guess after some logical thinking to put it together you can read this one by itself.
It's captivating and also hot as hell. The environments were just....<3 I adore them hard. They were flawed beautifully it touched my heart.
I was gritting my teeth, rubbing my hands, pulling my hair and crying my eyes out.
So yes!! I'm highly recommending this story !
Kindly received an ARC from the author. Thank you so much !
August 18, 2017
I'd read a teaser of this book on FB & knew straight away I had to read it. I haven't read books 1 or 2, which wasn't much of a problem but I think it would have made this book easier to follow if I had. I liked the dynamic between Aaron, Simon & Sam, watching their relationship evolve under some trying circumstances. I loved emotions these men bought out in each other.
There was a bit of everything. Plenty of action & adventure to keep you engaged in the story. I liked the Lady Payne twist.
*I was given an ARC from the author for an honest review
There was a bit of everything. Plenty of action & adventure to keep you engaged in the story. I liked the Lady Payne twist.
*I was given an ARC from the author for an honest review
August 23, 2017
This was my first book by A. M. Raulerson and the third book in the Trust series. This installation features the continued investigation into the Osiris Circle case which has an ever-rising body count. The search for the serial killer Lady Payne continues spearheaded by two of the main characters Detective Sam Baker and FBI Agent Aaron Boudreaux. It is also a story of revelations and discovery in more ways than one.
Sam has been keeping a secret. He desires the release of control he can only find by embracing the submission he has been craving but not yet explored. He believes he has found the place at Club Darkside and hopes to find what he seeks in the care and guidance of two very powerful doms: Sam and Aaron. Yes, that Aaron, none other than his co-lead in the Osiris Circle case, Agent Aaron Boudreaux. He has other secrets from his past which threaten to derail his attempts to find the release only the pain, pleasure and punishments associated with ceding control to another will give him. The good news, Sam has also caught the eye of Aaron and Simon. They have been together for a very long time and, in fact, Aaron desires to take their relationship to a greater level of commitment. They are both Doms, and Aaron wonders if adding a permanent submissive would complete the circle of their lives. Simon is very attracted to Sam, but, he too has his own hidden issue that only Aaron knows about and has helped him with. His fear is the addition of their own third could adversely impact what he has with Aaron and/or impede what he could have with Sam, as his secrets would have to be revealed. In the midst of establishing this new relationship, Sam and Aaron are on the active hunt for Lady Payne, a serial killer who continues to allude them. She holds a very significant secret which will rock Aaron for a loop. Other characters come to the surface from Sam, Aaron and Simon’s past which further impact the ability of these three men to create and solidify the bond they are working so hard for.
I liked the way the past was woven into the present setting up the events to follow. I did feel in some cases the weave left some threads too loose and made the introduction of some of the characters feel forced to bring out resolution of past issues; while other issues which seemed to be germane to the series were left unaddressed. As I said prior this is the third book in the series. The main and most of the supporting characters were so well developed that you could enjoy the book without feeling lost as to the preceding events. Therefore, what I consider, the loose story threads stuck out for me. I don’t include spoilers in my reviews so, you’ll have to read Forever Bound to see if you agree with me. You won’t be disappointed. It is a good book. I just felt that the talents of this author were not displayed at their fullest.
A free copy of this book was provided to me by the author in exchange for a fair and honest review.
Sam has been keeping a secret. He desires the release of control he can only find by embracing the submission he has been craving but not yet explored. He believes he has found the place at Club Darkside and hopes to find what he seeks in the care and guidance of two very powerful doms: Sam and Aaron. Yes, that Aaron, none other than his co-lead in the Osiris Circle case, Agent Aaron Boudreaux. He has other secrets from his past which threaten to derail his attempts to find the release only the pain, pleasure and punishments associated with ceding control to another will give him. The good news, Sam has also caught the eye of Aaron and Simon. They have been together for a very long time and, in fact, Aaron desires to take their relationship to a greater level of commitment. They are both Doms, and Aaron wonders if adding a permanent submissive would complete the circle of their lives. Simon is very attracted to Sam, but, he too has his own hidden issue that only Aaron knows about and has helped him with. His fear is the addition of their own third could adversely impact what he has with Aaron and/or impede what he could have with Sam, as his secrets would have to be revealed. In the midst of establishing this new relationship, Sam and Aaron are on the active hunt for Lady Payne, a serial killer who continues to allude them. She holds a very significant secret which will rock Aaron for a loop. Other characters come to the surface from Sam, Aaron and Simon’s past which further impact the ability of these three men to create and solidify the bond they are working so hard for.
I liked the way the past was woven into the present setting up the events to follow. I did feel in some cases the weave left some threads too loose and made the introduction of some of the characters feel forced to bring out resolution of past issues; while other issues which seemed to be germane to the series were left unaddressed. As I said prior this is the third book in the series. The main and most of the supporting characters were so well developed that you could enjoy the book without feeling lost as to the preceding events. Therefore, what I consider, the loose story threads stuck out for me. I don’t include spoilers in my reviews so, you’ll have to read Forever Bound to see if you agree with me. You won’t be disappointed. It is a good book. I just felt that the talents of this author were not displayed at their fullest.
A free copy of this book was provided to me by the author in exchange for a fair and honest review.
September 1, 2017
Wow. Fantastic. Like the other books previously this author has you right there with the characters weaving them together.
This is a story of overcoming horrible pasts and healing. Two wounded souls in Sam and Samuel relying on Aaron to help them. This has some hot scenes in this story but also contains some horrible description of their pasts. A fast paced book what switches between the 3 characters. This includes huge twists that tottally blew me out of the water I didn't see coming regarding the killer.
Detective Sam Baker was craving to explore his personal side more of who he was, and who he wanted as he'd dreamed two Dom's. I loved Sam having an extra kinky side sooo HOT. Being a member of Chase's Club Darkfall would be step one.
Aaron- is a therapist and also an FBI profiler part-time. Seeing horrifying things in his time he's also a strong Dom.
Simon- was a Dom also a master of shibari bondage. Simon was broken from his horrible past and needed his Master Aaron to help him when it got too bad emotionally from hurting himself. They are a couple but bringing in a third to the relationship needs to be sorted.
The Lady Payne killer is still on the loose and more victims are being found until they can stop her.
This is a story of overcoming horrible pasts and healing. Two wounded souls in Sam and Samuel relying on Aaron to help them. This has some hot scenes in this story but also contains some horrible description of their pasts. A fast paced book what switches between the 3 characters. This includes huge twists that tottally blew me out of the water I didn't see coming regarding the killer.
Detective Sam Baker was craving to explore his personal side more of who he was, and who he wanted as he'd dreamed two Dom's. I loved Sam having an extra kinky side sooo HOT. Being a member of Chase's Club Darkfall would be step one.
Aaron- is a therapist and also an FBI profiler part-time. Seeing horrifying things in his time he's also a strong Dom.
Simon- was a Dom also a master of shibari bondage. Simon was broken from his horrible past and needed his Master Aaron to help him when it got too bad emotionally from hurting himself. They are a couple but bringing in a third to the relationship needs to be sorted.
The Lady Payne killer is still on the loose and more victims are being found until they can stop her.
August 15, 2017
WOW. I came into this series without reading book 1 & 2 but soon got into the story and the ongoing investigation. The three main characters all have strong backgrounds
Sam a detective - sent away by his parents to a correctional center to cure him of being gay - who craves to be dominated
Simon - who has PTSD and needs Aaron to be his Dom when he feels the need to hurt himself- is also an equal Dom with Aaron when they have a sub
Aaron - a semi retired FBI Profiler and therapist.
In between the investigation Aaron & Simon have been waiting for Sam to come to Club Darkfall. When they find him at one if the doorways they ask him "are you here to watch or play". He walks through the door giving them his answer!
They start showing Sam things they can do to him separately and together. How they work together is fun and sexy!!!! There is heartbreaking revelations into Sam and Simons background but with Aaron they can get through this. Aaron maybe the most dominate out if the two Doms but he is always thinking of his 2 lovers needs.
The sex is super super hot 🔥🔥 can't wait for the next book
Sam a detective - sent away by his parents to a correctional center to cure him of being gay - who craves to be dominated
Simon - who has PTSD and needs Aaron to be his Dom when he feels the need to hurt himself- is also an equal Dom with Aaron when they have a sub
Aaron - a semi retired FBI Profiler and therapist.
In between the investigation Aaron & Simon have been waiting for Sam to come to Club Darkfall. When they find him at one if the doorways they ask him "are you here to watch or play". He walks through the door giving them his answer!
They start showing Sam things they can do to him separately and together. How they work together is fun and sexy!!!! There is heartbreaking revelations into Sam and Simons background but with Aaron they can get through this. Aaron maybe the most dominate out if the two Doms but he is always thinking of his 2 lovers needs.
The sex is super super hot 🔥🔥 can't wait for the next book
August 16, 2017
This is the first of this authors work I have ever read.I am so happy I did!
The full story that revolves around Simon, Aaron and Sam is intriguing, frightening and has so many elements to it. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to meet these three men, their friends and watch as they made their relationship a strong and amazing thing.
The other characters, most I adored, some I hated, due to their cruelty.
This story was so well written with just the right amount of love, caring and kick -assedness. No lifestyle is wrong as long as those involved consent and hopefully love each other or at least have deep respect for each other like Simon, Aaron and Sam do.
It was hard to put this book down. It flowed so beautifully.
I have read many books that included BDSM but never to this extent but I enjoyed it immensely.
I highly recommend this book.
I was given an Advanced Readers Copy for my honest review.
The full story that revolves around Simon, Aaron and Sam is intriguing, frightening and has so many elements to it. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to meet these three men, their friends and watch as they made their relationship a strong and amazing thing.
The other characters, most I adored, some I hated, due to their cruelty.
This story was so well written with just the right amount of love, caring and kick -assedness. No lifestyle is wrong as long as those involved consent and hopefully love each other or at least have deep respect for each other like Simon, Aaron and Sam do.
It was hard to put this book down. It flowed so beautifully.
I have read many books that included BDSM but never to this extent but I enjoyed it immensely.
I highly recommend this book.
I was given an Advanced Readers Copy for my honest review.
August 15, 2017
Enjoyed learning about the background stories for all three of the guys - Sam, the big tough detective who yearns to be someone's cherished submissive; Aaron, the FBI profiler who prefers to Boston even though he is most definitely a Dominant; Simon, the big tough ex-military guy with PTSD episodes that turn this Dom into Aaron's sub (even though he is definitely not a switch). Their group dynamic is interesting, fun, at times devastating but always extremely hot. This book also has a very interesting secondary story about an ongoing investigation that Aaron and Sam are involved with. It gives us the opportunity to see how these men interact when not in scene. It shines a light on the fact that being submissive does not make you a doormat any more than being dominant makes you controlling.
August 16, 2017
Book three in the Trust series is amazing
Some authors have trouble keeping the interest going in a series but not A M Raulerson the Trust series is amazing. Forever Bound is a fantastic book and Sam, Aaron and Simon are characters that you already know from book one and two. I love the fact that you get to know the secondary characters like David, Charlie and Justin it's great to revisit them and see what they are doing. This book is written with the same raw emotion that the other two book have. The plot of Lady Payne keeps you guessing and also makes it impossible to put down. I can't wait for the next book because I know this is an author that is here to stay and an author I will keep following. I can't recommend this book strongly enough, it's a book infact a series that will keep you reading and loving it. Waiting for the next book from this author patiently!!
Some authors have trouble keeping the interest going in a series but not A M Raulerson the Trust series is amazing. Forever Bound is a fantastic book and Sam, Aaron and Simon are characters that you already know from book one and two. I love the fact that you get to know the secondary characters like David, Charlie and Justin it's great to revisit them and see what they are doing. This book is written with the same raw emotion that the other two book have. The plot of Lady Payne keeps you guessing and also makes it impossible to put down. I can't wait for the next book because I know this is an author that is here to stay and an author I will keep following. I can't recommend this book strongly enough, it's a book infact a series that will keep you reading and loving it. Waiting for the next book from this author patiently!!
August 22, 2017
Forever Bound is the third book in the Trust series by A M Raulerson. I loved this addition to the series. I love the author's story building ability and the way she captures and engages my emotions. I was hooked, and I couldn't stop reading until I had finished the book. I loved Sam's lingerie fetish and how he is a badass detective by day and a natural submissive by night. But he doesn't want just any Dom. He has his eyes set on Simon and Aaron. But Simon has some issues, and he's afraid that if Sam finds out about them that he will think that he is weak. Can Aaron convince him to try anyway or will they continue their relationship without the third piece of their soul? I can't wait to see who the fourth book is going to be about. I voluntarily reviewed an advanced reader copy of this book.
September 14, 2017
This was a Hot and sexy read. We learned more about each character and the MCs were lovable. I was a little confused with the depiction of Simon's character. Book 1 discussed how Simon was an employee of David's parents and subsequently raised David until he became a man and joined the Army. Book 1 also never mentioned that Aaron and Simon were an intimate couple...only friends. However, in Book 3 we find out that Simon and Aaron have been together for years in the BDSM lifestyle...and even more so. I wondered why the author didn't share that fact in book 1. Unless I missed it of course. I loved Sam's character and Simon of course. Both emotionally injured souls seeking love, self-acceptance and healing. Aaron's character was hot, dominant, sexy, intense, loving and compassionate.
August 16, 2017
This was my first book by this author and I loved it. Great storyline that pulled me in right from the beginning and kept me hooked all the way through to the end. It had drama, suspense, mystery, humor, and hot and steamy sex scenes. Aaron, Simon, and Sam are wonderful characters with off the charts, sizzling chemistry. I truly fell in love with all of the characters and now can't wait for more from this series. I need to go back and read the first two books in this series!
I voluntarily reviewed an advanced reader copy of this book.
I voluntarily reviewed an advanced reader copy of this book.
August 15, 2017
This is by far the best in the series. Deeper with more drama. You will cry, laugh, yell, and awww throughout the whole book. When i finished I was ready for the next. Yeah it's that kind of read. Addictive and emotionally stimulating. Oh and the sex scenes will have your device smoking. Have your emergency reading kit handy.
September 22, 2017
This might be my favorite so far in this series... there are a couple things I wasn't the biggest fan of but it was just little things that are my own quirks. lol.. i loved the characters.. i loved the storyline and the writing as always is superb.. I love this author's work so much and I will be buying this in paperback to go with my other 2 as well.. I loved it
August 18, 2017
Best in series!
This is one more story in a fantastic bondage and cop series that is so filled with sexual tension, stress and the beginnings of self knowledge that it is almost impossible to put down until finished. Absolutely loved it!
This is one more story in a fantastic bondage and cop series that is so filled with sexual tension, stress and the beginnings of self knowledge that it is almost impossible to put down until finished. Absolutely loved it!
April 5, 2018
My favorite!
This was by far my favorite out of the series. I was able to relate to Simon and Sam and was glad to get to know all three better. I'm hoping Conner and Nayen get a story next - maybe two subs and a Dom??
This was by far my favorite out of the series. I was able to relate to Simon and Sam and was glad to get to know all three better. I'm hoping Conner and Nayen get a story next - maybe two subs and a Dom??
August 20, 2017
Oh god, Amanda just gets better. I love the sex and suspense she puts into her books. Its rare to get good sex and suspense
December 26, 2017
Another amazing read in the series
I loved the story of Aaron, Simon and Sam! Each of them unique in their own way, but together? Oh wow!
I loved the story of Aaron, Simon and Sam! Each of them unique in their own way, but together? Oh wow!
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